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A Guest

Published on October 22, 2009 in bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, D/s, kink, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, submissive, sybian and Uncategorized. 4 Comments

The day before my surgery, MasterDoc had a professional fem Domme, Daina, come over to join us for some playtime (in a non-professional capacity). It seems that she’s at least somewhat switchy, and so was the perfect playmate for the two of us – Domme over me, sub for him.

As usual I loved watching MasterDoc subtly begin to undress her as the three of us talked on the couch, and soon he was stroking her pussy. He took one breast and had me take the other. He had me get the magic wand, and he got Daina off with it. My memory is a bit fuzzy since this was a few days ago and I’ve had general anesthesia in the meantime, but I will relate as much of the story as I can.

I had gotten out a bunch of toys at MasterDoc’s request by this time, and he had me place a pillow on the living room floor so I could kneel before the couch and suck his cock as he reclined comfortably. They took turns swatting my ass a little and talking about various implements while I went down on him. There was talk about tying me up (rope is something MasterDoc hasn’t mastered, but apparently Daina has some experience) I was really excited about this but in the end it didn’t happen.

We moved to the bedroom and MasterDoc had me get on my knees. I knelt over the new Liberator Axis I have (I swear, review will be coming soon!) and they took turns spanking my ass. She hit harder than he did – and he pointed out that fem Dommes are cruel. When I pretty much couldn’t take it any more, he had me flip over so I was laying on my back, the Axis holding my hips up, and Daina started playing with my pussy. She stroked my clit between her fingers, and eventually she went down on me. It felt wonderful and as I got closer to coming MasterDoc started slapping my face and tits, talking dirty to me, and he told me to come and I squirted all over my new pillow.

He fucked me next, him on top of me, my hips raised again by the Axis. Even though I had just come, I was eager to come again. (I’m really pretty insatiable most of the time.) And he fucked me until I was begging to come, and when he let me, I came hard, squirting all over my pillow again.

MasterDoc had promised Daina a horsey ride (i.e., a ride on the sybian) and before she left he fulfilled this promise – I perched on the sofa and enjoyed watching. She had said before coming over that she really needed a release of endorphins, and I think she left with the endorphins just flowing. A sybian orgasm is something else, truly.

That night, when MasterDoc and I were alone, he decided that he wanted to come. So I played with his ass as he masturbated – watching this porn, which we hadn’t finished before. When he was ready to come, he rolled towards me and told me to take his cock in my mouth. I did, and come shot up into my mouth. I closed my lips around his cock and he reminded me that the head is too sensitive, that he wanted me to put my mouth right down on his shaft and so I did, pleased to be such an active part of his orgasm.

Revelation

Published on October 14, 2009 in anxiety, bdsm, bisexuality, D/s, DeeDee, depression, non-monogamy, poly, sex, sex toys, sybian and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

For all my talk about what a sexually liberated woman I am, I have a sexual issue. I have been in denial about this issue, but now I feel like I can’t deny it any more. While I’m totally hot for women – I can’t make the first move. It’s a little like the people who have to be “forced bi” – the reality is they’re into the same sex but they have to feel like someone else has responsibility for what they do that’s homosexual. I at least get as far as knowing I want to have sex with women – that I’m not really being forced, I’m doing something I totally want to do. But I wonder if some of my hesitancy to initiate is that cannot admit to myself enough that I want to do it. This seems a little silly since I am quite happy and comfortable being bisexual. But I wonder if deep down there’s some sort of societal shame at play. Or maybe it’s just that sex is so much hotter for me when I’m Dommed. Now this hesitancy isn’t true 24/7 – sometimes I manage to get it on with women, but by and large it has to be in a party setting, a D/s setting, etc. I’m petrified at making the first move. Truly petrified in the sense of being unable to move. It’s damn frustrating.

I realized this because on Sunday evening DeeDee visited, and she had decided on her way up to New York that she was curious to really get it on with a woman, and since she likes me and we are comfortable with each other that she’d like to do it with me. (We have had some fooling around in the recent past, but I suppose not so much just girl-on-girl action but rather a threesome thing.) But when we got down to it, I froze. DeeDee, who is totally new at this, had to make the first moves and even then I kinda froze. It was weird and annoying.

MasterDoc eventually had me set things up in the living room – condoms, lube, toys, etc. when it became apparent that the “lesbian floorshow” as he was calling it wasn’t going to happen. As I was setting up the sybian for DeeDee’s promised ride after, he asked me to turn the light off so they could see the porn on the computer better. I grew annoyed, feeling like he was suddenly ignoring me because his focus was on cuddling DeeDee and watching the porn, totally not noticing that I needed the light on while I struggled with the sybian attachment. I snapped a little, and it was certainly awkward. MasterDoc reassured me that his plans were to fuck me and the two of them to work me over until I came a bunch of times, we just hadn’t gotten to that yet. Yet again he ended up talking to me (later, alone) about how I should learn to express how I feel before I get to the breaking point. I have such a hard time with it though. But I keep on working on it.

I lay on the mat on the living room floor, and MasterDoc handed me the magic wand. I used it on my clit as he and DeeDee played with my nipples and the rest of my body. As usual the wand makes me go from zero to 60 in something like six seconds. But he told me to take my time – don’t get myself too worked up right away. And so I played with the wand and ached to come. When I was clearly totally and completely hot and bothered, he fucked me from behind. DeeDee took the wand at his suggestion and used it on my clit – she had a bit of a hard time finding it so I placed the wand and eventually held it there.

Being fucked by a nice, large cock (attached to the Dom I love) and feeling the vibrations of the wand at the same time is stellar. He let me come and Jebus did I come hard. I think your average, sex-anxious, not sexually knowledgeable person would be quite shocked to learn just how hard a woman can orgasm. I orgasm harder with MasterDoc than even before – and I’ve always been able to come well, hard and often.

DeeDee got the attention next, and I sat down with a front row seat and watched MasterDoc give her a sybian ride. (By the way, I was out during the afternoon for a few hours and they had gotten freaky during that time, so DeeDee was not going home with just a sybian ride, although I suppose “just” isn’t a word people use for a sybian ride.) It is amazing to watch a woman come on the sybian. It turns her into a jellied mess, and her arms awkwardly reach out to grab onto MasterDoc as she groans and bucks her hips on the machine. Her head becomes buried in his chest one moment, and is leaning on his shoulder the next. She was pretty loud, and MasterDoc had me grab the new gag I have to use on her. She was probably only on it for about 5 minutes or so, but she said after that it felt like a half hour. Thus is the power of the almighty sybian. I said to her after, you know it’s a good orgasm when you feel satisfied just watching it.

It was a fun night, and MasterDoc certainly left us both sated. Unfortunately I dwelled on my little outburst earlier and got quite depressed. It wasn’t a rational depression but part of my dealings with clinical depression. I became suicidal and dwelled on the idea of hurting myself, or killing myself, or hoping that I die in an anaesthesia incident during my surgery next week. I ruminated on “everything” being my fault – within my family growing up, when things are less than perfect with MasterDoc. It was not pretty. I was numb, dwelling and playing a computer game when MasterDoc convinced me to go tuck him in. I opted to go to bed then, and I got some cuddles from him. I cried myself to sleep but thankfully felt a little better the next morning. The depression came back, but we talked, cuddled and he gave me a lovely beating.

To be continued…

Floating World, Day Three

Published on August 25, 2009 in bdsm, best sex bloggers, bisexuality, blog, blogs, bondage, cunnilingus, cunt, D/s, DeeDee, edge play, exhibitionism, Floating World, kink, lesbian, masochism, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, poly, sadism, sex, sex parties, sex toys, sexuality, submissive, sybian, threesome and Uncategorized. 2 Comments

After breakfast, the last day, MasterDoc and I went to the erotic hypnosis lecture. (I had developed a mini-crush on Lee Harrington the day before. I suddenly find myself attracted to butches and transmen when I wasn’t before. He is smart, funny and wonderful at leading a class… I’m smitten.) MasterDoc was hoping for a more detailed look at how to put a sub into trance, but I thought there was a good bit of info there. Next we went to the deep head space exploration lecture for a bit. I was tired and getting drowsy, plus the lecture seemed to get a little repetitive (a lot of stuff was also in the consensual non-consent class the day before). We snuck out early, got me a soda to wake me up and wandered around. MD went to check his cell phone for messages (keeping him apart from his Palm is a terrible thing). I went to vending and gave in to buying leather bondage waist cincher. I will try to get a photo of it on here in the coming days. I feel sexy in it and MasterDoc seemed to like it.

I got to meet Mollena, who I really wanted to meet. I love her blog, she’s an excellent writer and also does bdsm education (she did three classes at Floating World this past weekend). So I was all fan girl meeting her and when I told her I write Diary of a Kinky Librarian she stepped back, and bowed to me with arms outstretched above her head. I couldn’t believe it! I feel like I’m such a nobody and to have that reaction was really nice. She gave me a hug and I really hope I get the chance to hang out and talk with her at another event down the road. (I was hurrying off to a class at the time.)

I went to the managing a household lecture and picked up some tips and inspiration for being better at the service submissive side of things. After, I luckily found MasterDoc and DeeDee quickly – DeeDee had given in to buying a corset herself. MD said he wondered where I was and when I said I went to the household management class like I said I was going to – MD said he had thought it was a joke. But no, no joke. We went to vending at this time and he bought three canes as the deal was three for $50. We shall see how I like them when we try them out.

We went out for dinner, then back to DeeDee’s hotel room for a threesome. Since she hadn’t yet had an orgasm or sex that weekend, and in appreciation for giving MasterDoc and I time alone the night before, we focused on DeeDee (at least that was my inspiration). It was loads of fun. She lay on the bed naked between us. MasterDoc kissed her while I played with her nipples. I stroked her body as he went down on her for a while, and he popped his head up for a moment to tell me to be ready to take over. So when he finished I got between her legs and licked her cunt while he played with her upper half and kissed her. After a bit, I slid a finger in and stroked where I thought her g-spot was. (Yes, I’m a little clueless even after all this time – I estimate the location.) And later added a second finger. Her moans were enough to tell me I was doing a good job.

MasterDoc handed me the magic wand and I pressed it to her clit. She was in danger of coming (without having permission yet) and so I had to back off with the wand a little. MasterDoc got her on all fours and fucked her while I pressed the wand to her clit. She had to help reposition it a few times (you try keeping a wand on a clit that keeps moving as the woman gets fucked and you’re reaching around and under her!) She did get permission to come and came pretty hard. I really enjoyed watching and participating. It was all very hot. After, she said to me, “Nadia, you really know your way around a woman’s body!” So very nice to hear.

We got dressed and went to the play space (me in leather cincher and plaid schoolgirl skirt). MasterDoc’s sybian came out for the first time and we got it set up in the play area on a mat. I got to ride it first – the other two ladies lined up were nervous. I grinded my crotch into the machine as it vibrated against me. I begged for permission to come and was allowed to come right away. I came like a woman possessed. Jaw slack, moaning, screaming, crying out, “Oh fuck!” He kept me on there for a good long while and I came over and over again. He slapped my face a few times and I just loved it.

After me, another Dom’s sub had a ride. (He is the person who was at the party where I was assaulted who wrote to me via MasterDoc recently on fetlife to apologize for not speaking up. Anyway, we were friendly with him and his subs over the weekend.) She enjoyed herself, but didn’t come. She had gotten on with her panties on as it was that time of the month, and the lace fabric between her and the machine made the situation less than ideal. But she did enjoy it and wants to try again sometime. Her Dom cuddled her on the futon we had laid next to the sybian mat and I chatted with them while DeeDee got prepared for her ride. (This other sub is in library school – I ran into a fair number of librarians there!)

DeeDee received her first ride. It was fun to watch and MasterDoc motioned to me to get the paddle for him. He used the paddle a bit as she moaned and came. He handed it to me and had me paddle her butt as well. Then he had me slap her ass with my bare hand for a while. She was on the sybian a while and seemed to have a wonderful time. She also needed to lay on the futon and receive some after care. I cleaned up our stuff when it became apparent that no one else wanted to give the sybian a ride. (Their loss!) And I joined MasterDoc and DeeDee on the futon as I had very few cuddles that day. I was saying goodbye to MD and DeeDee shortly after that, and heading home. MasterDoc spent the extra night with DeeDee and took the train home in the morning.

Odds and ends: I loved how there was acceptance of so many kinks. There’s plenty of things there that I have no interest in doing (they just don’t turn me on) but people were free to do whatever they were into (within reason) fire play, pony play, age play, needles, blood, suspension, bondage, spanking, flogging, etc. etc. There was a diverse crowd there – women from Lesbian Sex Mafia, queer people of all stripes, straights, pansexuals, etc. and a great deal of acceptance for people being who they were.

We ran into some people we knew from around New York – the Dom that had come over months before with his three submissives – he was there with slave number one. I had hoped to run into someone I knew on fetlife who likes this blog, but she and I never managed to cross paths although she did run into MasterDoc in the hall at the hotel and introduced herself. It was nice to become friendly with that Dom who knew me from the bad party years ago. I saw Vera from FYN and chatted for a while. (And suggested that I can help write copy in exchange for product! I have copywriting experience.) We saw S’s daughter there (along with her friend the librarian I had a couple of dates with a while back who was with her when I saw her at In The Flesh). It was a little awkward as she’s not comfortable around MasterDoc (as he’s schtupping her mother and could conceivably tell her mother about her activities. Granted, her mother and her each know the other is kinky, but of course the details end there.) but she made a point to say hello to me when he wasn’t nearby. I saw MinaMeow and her girlfriend, and one woman Davey dates. I got to meet John Baku and remind him of the interview I did with him for Best Sex Bloggers that never got published. (He didn’t like how he sounded, and he’s not much for writing. I told him to let me know what he wants to say and I will work out how to write it. It’s not investigative journalism, more of a puff piece.) Anyway I’m not to worried about it at this point. It may never see the light of day.)

All in all, I had a good weekend, and I got home late on Sunday night. I was spent.

The Night of the Four Orgasms, Part II

Published on August 19, 2009 in bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, D/s, DeeDee, horny, non-monogamy, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sex, shio, squirting, submissive, sybian and threesome. 2 Comments

I joined them in the living room, and MasterDoc had me get on my knees again and suck his cock. He had DeeDee find some porn on the computer, and she found a really fun one featuring a fucking machine that included jets of water. The lady in the video certainly seemed to be enjoying herself! Even though DeeDee was being punished, MasterDoc was affectionate and kissed and caressed her. He just didn’t give her any genital stimulation.

My first set of orgasms (as it was more accurately a set of multiple orgasms rather than just one) was pretty amazing to watch. After I got MasterDoc’s cock hard again he had me head back into the bedroom, and he fucked me from behind. Oh god, I was so horny and so happy to be fucked. I hadn’t been fucked in over a week. The hot porn played in the background, and MasterDoc had DeeDee come close to him for a kiss while he fucked me. (Yes, MasterDoc is a very lucky man.) He fucked me hard and soon I was begging to come again. He had me beg for a little while, and then he fucked me good and hard as he told me to come. My muscles didn’t push quite as hard as usual (I was paying attention to them in an attempt to keep him in, although I wasn’t letting it hold me back from coming since MasterDoc hadn’t told me to do that) and his cock kept fucking my hole. My head was up in the clouds as I came. He had me fall forward and rest, and he suggested that I get a sybian ride next. Oh my. I know that if I was in DeeDee’s position I’d be so hot and so raring for an orgasm myself.

I rested a bit on the bed, and they went off into the living room again. I turned to look at the porn and got caught up watching it. I brought the laptop out to the living room with me and complimented DeeDee on her taste in porn. MasterDoc had me set up the sybian, and I find that lately I’m really happy with just the flat top attachment – for me it’s the clitoral stimulation that gets me off.

So I knelt over the sybian, MasterDoc in front of me with the controls in his hand. I had my gag in so I wouldn’t disturb the neighbors when I came. He teased me for a while, working me up. I’d close my eyes uncontrollably, and then I’d pry them open to look into his eyes pleadingly, begging him to let me come with just my eyes. He pointed out the look on my face to DeeDee. Suddenly, he let me come and I convulsed in orgasm. I fell forward into MasterDoc, who held me, and my face was by his right shoulder, on the side where DeeDee was sitting. My eyes rolled back into my head, my hips bucked involuntarily over and over. I screamed through the gag. Jesus, he had me come over and over again. This was the third time that night I had a set of multiple orgasms, and I felt so lucky to be the recipient of such pleasure. Early on while I was coming on the sybian, I squirted a whole bunch all over the machine. I had to mop it up after – the spray of my juices was everywhere.

We relaxed for a bit, watched the porn some more. I eventually climbed off the sybian and lay on the floor for a while. I joined them on the sofa, and MasterDoc cuddled with DeeDee while we talked. He started to ask me if I wanted to fuck again. My god, I couldn’t believe my luck. Hell yes, I could go for more fucking!
To be continued….

Sybian and Butt Fucking

Published on July 15, 2009 in anal, bdsm, bondage, D/s, masochism, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, squirting, sybian and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

The problem with blogging a few days after an event, is that it’s hard to remember detail. If I had the chance to write this up days ago, it would have been more interesting.

Last Friday, there was no nooky between me and MasterDoc, but he did let me have a sybian ride. We only had the flattop attachment, as we discovered that afternoon that we had left the others at the last party we went to. I’m fine with the flattop though, as I find the sybian ride is mostly about clitoral stimulation for me.

He let me through three intense, amazing orgasms. During one of them, my hips bucked up involuntarily in a pulsing rhythm. When I got off, it turned out I had squirted as there was a spray of liquid in front of the attachment I rode. MasterDoc was a little surprised as squirting frequently requires g-spot stimulation on me.

Clever man that he is, he got me all orgasmed out on the sybian, then put me to work cleaning the kitchen floor! The floor was filthy and I had been thinking about cleaning it for him for ages, so in a way it was a relief to clean. But he only had a decrepit old mop to use, and I spent the entire time bending over, as if I was in a field picking cotton. There was no wringer for this cloth mop, so I bent over and used my hands to wring it out into the pail. Not fun. But I have to say the kitchen floor looks so much better!

Saturday night I saw him again, and the details are fuzzy. I know we had great sex. I know the magic wand was used. I remember that I used the tingling Wet Together (for her) lube and that really intensified the feeling of his cock sliding in and out of me. Rowr.

On Sunday, he was’t yet done with me. He bound me face down on the bed, and put the magic wand right near my clit. I struggled to wriggle down enough so I could keep the vibrating head right against my clit. He’d place it right up against me every now and then, and soon I was begging for orgasm. He let me come, and my body tensed against the cuffs binding me to the bed. This would have been enough for me, but he let me loose and got me to the end of the bed. He hadn’t assfucked me in ages, and he was determined to do it. His big cock slid into my tight asshole. It took a moment to accommodate him comfortably in there. He fucked me, and told me I could hold the magic wand against my clit. The weight of the wand eventually became too much for my hand, but in the meantime it enhanced his fucking my ass. It would hurt now and then, but somehow the pain would turn to pleasure. He let me come, and the combination of my full ass and the magic wand against my clit led to an explosive orgasm. I dropped the wand mid-orgasm and kept coming from the feeling of him fucking my ass. He called me a whore, and it made me come even harder.

I was spent after, and my poor hand was stiff and sore from using the wand. But it was totally worth it.

Weekend

Published on June 29, 2009 in bdsm, blow jobs, D/s, embarrassment, exhibitionism, orgasm denial, sex, sex parties, spanking, submissive, sybian and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

I had a mostly quiet weekend, which is strange when you learn that I went to a bdsm/sex party on Saturday night with MasterDoc. Of course, this is not so strange when I mention that I had my period, and spent the night freaked out about my Instead cup leaking. Those things don’t do too well during heavy flow days (for me).

I did get to ride the sybian and ended up being the first person naked, I think. I find this thrilling, stimulating and a bit embarrassing. It’s strange to be naked in front of a room of strangers and acquaintances. It’s naughty and definitely a turn on. I find that I can’t necessarily look at the people around me, but I like knowing they’re there. I like that MasterDoc enjoys us being the center of attention. I used the flat top to the sybian since I’ve had trouble with using the dildo attachment while wearing a cup (the cup ended up pinching me – no fun). This was the first time I rode the sybian without a dildo attachment. But considering much of the sensation comes from the vibration and from my clit grinding against the nubby pad, the dildo wasn’t much of a loss.

MasterDoc teased me mercilessly. He’d ask others in the room if they thought I should be allowed to come, and apparently they said no! So he teased me some more, more than he had ever done before. I was in a frenzied state. He had me begging for orgasm, all the while making sure I begged loud enough for others to hear. I was the wanton, aroused slut begging for sexual release. Eventually he let me come, and I was loud and rocketed into another world. I found myself humping the machine desperately, moaning, clutching at MasterDoc’s legs in front of me. I get a little spastic at the time of orgasm on the sybian. I’m also completely unintelligible.

I had to actually ask him to stop, as I started developing a headache. Asking him to stop is rare, and getting a headache from orgasm is pretty rare for me as well. MasterDoc took care of me, going upstairs with me to get a drink and then he put me on the sofa while he went off in search of some acetaminophen for my headache. I appreciated the fact that he took the time to see to me when I wasn’t feeling well. He’s good to me. (When he’s not being sadistic, that is!)

Later, I got to watch the party hostess ride the sybian. She goes for the largest phallic attachment it comes with. I’m always amazed as that dildo is too large to be comfortable for me. But she loves it and it’s fascinating watching a woman ride the sybian. I saw her humping the machine as she struggled to hold back from coming just as I did. MasterDoc took the controls for a while, then her fiance came over and she sucked his cock while riding. Her fiance took the controls and had her suck his cock as he sat in the chair in front of her. A woman is just in another world when she’s on that thing. It’s beautiful to watch her face contort as she’s taken over by ecstacy.

We got home late that night, and then on Sunday ended up sleeping half the day away. (Got up, had breakfast, went to lay down for cuddles and then both felt drowsy so we fell asleep for a couple of hours.) Sunday night, I wandered into the bedroom where I knew MasterDoc was preparing for some sex. He was on the phone with a new lady he’s been speaking with. He wanted her to listen in as he did things to me. I sucked his cock and he made more happy noises than usual so his new ladyfriend could hear on the other end. A little later, he slapped my inner thighs and pussy for a while – asking his ladyfriend if she liked that. He made me come using his hands and did his best to tempt her with the prospect of coming that hard. She only listened in for a while. I hope she enjoyed it. (She’s read this blog and enjoyed it, happy to say.)

He fucked me from behind, and made me into a moaning mess, desperate for orgasm. He let me come and kept me going with his fingers even after my vaginal muscles had pushed his cock out. I was very happy and quite satisfied.

On Monday I didn’t have to be at work til later (as did he) and we spent some time together in the morning. He had me suck his cock, and I tell you, I really get into it. Sucking his cock made me so horny! We fucked some more, him hitting my ass with the riding crop all the while. It felt good, but then my hips started to get tired (I was on top). I had to ask to stop, and sadly that meant the end of sex as it was getting late. Surprisingly, I didn’t feel anxious over not having reached orgasm. My arousal subsided easily unlike some times when it lingers until I’m able to come. I was just happy to have that intimate time with MasterDoc on a Monday morning, a time I don’t usually get to spend with him.

Sybian Ride

Published on May 26, 2009 in D/s, masturbation, orgasm on command, sybian and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

Things have been quiet here at Kinky Librarian. I haven’t had sex in a week. I know! How could I go for so long? Will I have to downgrade my sex goddess status? With MasterDoc being sick and other things keeping me busy there hasn’t been a chance to get it on. We might have gotten it on yesterday, but unfortunately I’m a bit injured from a sybian ride the night before.

Since he still isn’t feeling well, MasterDoc decided to give me a sybian ride on Sunday night. Turning the nob to regulate the vibrations is certainly easier than anything else he could have done to get me off. He had me put on my collar. I set up the machine, lubed myself up, put a condom on the medium sized dildo and got on. He kept the vibrations really low for a while. Instead of turning me on it felt vaguely irritating. I had a hard time getting it into quite the right position.

Eventually he upped the vibration speed, and I got turned on. I started rocking my hips back and forth gently and grinding my clit against the nubbly pad of the dildo. He was sitting on the edge of the couch right in front of me, and he had me put my hands on his knees. As he turned up the vibration I started leaning forward so that my forearms were on his knees/thighs. My jaw dropped open and I held back from coming as best I could. Sometimes lately I manage to hold off and not beg even until he decides to give me permission to come. When he let me come, my body spasmed and I fell forward. My head leaned hard against his chest and my arms embraced his torso. I grunted, said many “Oh God”s and my thighs clenched the sides of the machine. I kept coming and kept grinding myself against the sybian. It felt like I might push the dildo out of my vagina at one point, the contractions were so strong. Just as I was feeling too wiped out to go on (I woke up with a bit of a cold that morning, I wasn’t feeling in tip-top shape) he said, “That’s enough” and turned off the vibration. I’m surprised I could stand and walk right after the ride.

Unfortunately, the next day I was really sore. Actually, I’m still really sore. I’m not entirely sure why as I’ve certainly ground my cunt into the sybian before. There’s a terribly sore spot right at the opening to my vagina. Needless to say it’s out of commission for a few days until things heal up. It feels like it did when the couple I used to play with stuck a large dildo in me without warm up or lube a couple of years ago. Maybe I didn’t use enough lube. Maybe running the machine on a low setting was more irritating than anything else. I don’t know, but it sure is annoying to be sore and sexless. I’ve thought about maybe using the smaller dildo with the sybian instead – I think the medium might be a bit much for my cunt when it’s not warmed up at all.

Three Thumbs Up!

Published on December 7, 2008 in bdsm, cunt, D/s, fisting, kink, masochism, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, slut, spanking, squirting, submissive, swinging, sybian, Uncategorized and wax play. 0 Comments

I feel very fortunate to have so many wild, fun sexual experiences. I really am very lucky. While I was a total pervert before I met MasterDoc, he has led me further down the path of debauchery and I love him for it. Last night we had some guests – a Dom, his slave #1(who lives in NY), his slave #2 (a Canadian down for a visit) and a woman who is potentially going to be his, so right now she’s a submissive under consideration I guess. (Edited 12/10 to get the hierarchy correct.) Liz was visiting and MasterDoc got her to cook dinner – a spectacular feast as always (complete with made-from-scratch apple pie!) We got settled with our guests and enjoyed some wine with dinner. Now, as a submissive I call MasterDoc “Sir” and not “Master” since our relationship is not that of Master and slave. I don’t think I have it in me to be someone’s slave. I’m too spoiled, cantankerous, and selfish to commit to being a slave. I’m really very happy with the situation I have with MasterDoc. He knows how to work with my difficult aspects, but I digress. It was different to be around submissives who refer to their Dom as Master. Not bad, just different. I can see where I’m much more autonomous than they are. I don’t have to call MasterDoc Sir when I don’t have my collar on (unless he’s just given me a direct order, then it’s appropriate) and things are on a closer-to-equal footing when I’m not in my collar. (They’re never truly equal, but then that’s part of the attraction of a Dom/sub relationship. I want him to be in charge, even when I’m feeling stubborn.) I think I’ve found a D/s relationship that works well for me, and I very much respect the other types of D/s relationships there are out there. It’s fascinating to discover that each one is so different. You’d think there’s one way to be a Dom but there really isn’t. There’s as many D/s relationship structures as there are people who practice power exchange.

The slaves and sub were all good about doing things like dishing out food at dinner and what not. As hostess I really should have been better, but I’m a crap hostess. lol I did set the table, and take their coats and stuff like that. I tried to be on my best behavior. I missed a few things like putting out napkins on the table, but I remedied it as quickly as possible when it was noticed. I was feeling really shy last night. Not shy sexually, after all, when am I shy sexually? But quiet, not talkative. Luckily the other ladies were friendly and engaged me in conversation. The Canadian one really caught my eye – curvy with a nose ring and color streaked hair – definitely my type. The other two were hot as well but some people are just more your type than others. The Dom is a handsome man, in his 40s, and his ladies seemed quite devoted to him. All in all, everyone was nice and I really enjoyed the time we spent with them.

After dinner, we hung out in the living room. Dynamics-wise it was interesting as the other ladies sat on the floor (out of choice, I believe) and I sat on the sofa with the two men. I’m not sure exactly how we got things started, but MasterDoc asked to borrow some wax to do some wax play on me. I spread out on the reclining chair and he dripped wax all over me. It hurt, but in a wonderful, sensational way. The first candle he chose was white, so the wax didn’t show up in the dim light, but he switched to a red candle at the other Dom’s urging. I braced myself since darker candles are supposed to burn hotter. I don’t know that there was a significant difference, but he sadistically dripped wax in the delicate area next to my mons.

He sent me to clean up, and I’m foggy on what exactly happened next. There was some spanking at one point. There were clothespins put on the nipples of one of the ladies. The Canadian knelt in front of her Master and he lulled her into the submissive headspace. I was told to come over to her and play with her tits. I felt shy but slowly made my way over. He directed the action every step of the way. I was to suck on one tit, then the other. He had her and me lean in close to each other, not kissing just yet but leaning in close, cheek to cheek. He told us both to smell each other and we stroked our cheeks against each other and sniffed slowly. He told us to start kissing, but not on the mouth, on the cheek, the neck, any place else. She really dove in and started to work on my neck. I’ve got a bit of a hickey today from it. I was in such a happy place. He slowly moved us towards kissing on the lips, and she dove in before he gave permission. I was so hot for her at this point, the slowness was agony (and I’m sure he knew it!) He got her to back off, but then gave us permission and our tongues met and she sucked on my lips sensually. She’s a very good kisser. Our hands reached out to each other’s bodies and we caressed and played, she sucked on my tits for a bit then dove in to my pussy. I sit back, leaning against the couch, and closed my eyes as she worked magic on my clit. She was instructed to get her ass in the air, near the couch so MasterDoc could spank her. I reached under her stomach and found her clit and massaged it with my fingers. It was so damn hot watching MasterDoc spank her while she went down on me. I hardly noticed what the rest of them were up to. *grin* I do believe the other Dom got a blow job from his other women.

I had the thought at one point in the evening, that plenty of people would consider us to be sick freaks. I mean, the evening is totally outside of what most people do with their Saturday evenings. But this is definitely a case of “if it’s wrong I don’t want to be right.” Last night was among the hottest nights of my life. It was better than porn. Seriously.

The sybian was brought out, and each of our lady guests got turns riding it. It is amazing to watch a woman on the sybian. The look on her face is just beautiful. MasterDoc ran the controls and made each lady come over and over again, after they got his permission of course. Two of the ladies fooled around while one of them rode the sybian, I got prompted to join in after I was just sitting there watching the action. I got to watch pretty much all of the sybian rides, and my mouth was hanging open at how hot it was to watch. I was so horny! I was feeling a little left out and wondering when I’d get to have an orgasm, but I kept quiet and behaved myself. Luckily, the other Dom wanted to see me on the sybian as well. MasterDoc had me get my gag since it was late at night and we didn’t want my screams to disturb the neighbors. So, bit gag in mouth, I got on the sybian. MasterDoc positioned himself right in front of me so I could fall forward into his arms. He teased me and I was begging to come in no time. (Hard to do with the gag in my mouth. lol) He asked the other Dom if he thought I should be allowed to come yet, and he said not yet. So MasterDoc teased me a bit more. When he allowed me to come, my whole body convulsed and I grabbed at him, moaning through the gag.

This might be when we took a break to have pie, I can’t quite remember. While we were in the dining room, MasterDoc played with the clover clamps on the Canadian slave’s breasts. Youch. I can’t take them, but she rode through the pain. He got her to take the chain into her mouth, holding the clamps so they were pulling on her nipples roughly. I could tell the pain was turning her on. MasterDoc started playing with her cunt, and eventually she came as he slapped her clit. She even squirted across the table. (I was seated next to them and got splashed a little.)

Back in the living room, even more happened. Oh yes, you’re probably thinking damn, this night has been really hot so far, but oh I am a lucky girl and the night continued to get hotter. The Canadian slave went over to MasterDoc and they played a bit (I think she gave him a blow job, I’m not sure my back was turned). I was called over to the other Dom and he placed clothes pins on my nipples. He followed up with clothes pins all around my breasts. He then had me turn and show MasterDoc. Some pictures were taken (MasterDoc making sure that my face wasn’t in any of them). I was left like that for a little while. The clothespins pinched my flesh. When MasterDoc nudged to have the other Dom take them off it hurt while each one came off, but he had two of his ladies kiss and caress each spot as he took them off. The two continued to suck on my nipples, my very sensitive nipples. He had the third one come around behind me and stroke my head, meanwhile he (the other Dom) slid his fingers into my cunt. Oh my god the feeling was amazing having so many hands on my body. I begged to be allowed to come, and from the sofa MasterDoc taunted me, asking me if I was sure I wanted to come. He teased me while the other Dom played with my g-spot. When I was allowed to come I came hard yet again. Afterwards, MasterDoc told me I was a very good girl and I beamed. I’m positively swooning as I write this. I have the best time being a slut. I mean, really amazing fun.

Just when you’d think the night couldn’t get any better, the Canadian slave got fisted in front of all of us. I sat there, mesmerized, with a front row seat to watching her get fisted. Her Master’s entire hand fit inside her cunt. “Jesus Christ,” I thought, “This is cool!” I mean, how many people get up to this on a Saturday night? Before I knew it, I was being talked into fisting her as well. I had never fisted anyone before, so the Dom talked me through the whole process, gradually adding more fingers and more of my hand (and lots of lube) until my entire fist was inside her. When she came I could feel her vaginal muscles squeezing my hand. My hand remained inside her as he kissed her afterwards, forgotten. It was funny. Eventually it was like, “Oh I forgot your hand was in there!” and he had me take it gently out. She gave me a great kiss and cuddle afterwards and it was great to make another woman feel that good. It was totally hot. I’m sure I sound like a fourteen-year-old boy but, dude, last night was totally hot. *grin*

If I could have a night like that every night of my life I would never feel depressed. It was amazing. I hope that they come to play with us again sometime soon.

After they left, I cleaned up a bit and hung out with MasterDoc and Liz. We all agreed that they were nice people and we hope to see them again. It was just about bedtime for me when MasterDoc’s cock got hard. He said something about fucking me in the morning, but I was keen to get fucked then. (I just knew I’d want to sleep in as late as I could in the morning.) And, yippee!, he decided to fuck me. We went into the bedroom and he went down on me for a little while. He then fucked me from behind and he had me in a state in no time. I was moaning, dying to come. He fucked me hard and I struggled to hold back from coming. Then he gave me permission and I came, my muscles clenching his cock. It was a wonderful ending to a wonderful evening. I fell forward after, dazed. I cuddled up to MasterDoc and felt so very thankful to have him in my life. Today, I was sad to leave, uncertain when I get to see MasterDoc next. I really can’t get enough of him.

Addendum: I changed the title of this after MasterDoc reminded me that we already had a title for it – last night the other Dom came up with the joke of three thumbs up, i.e. his two thumbs and the dildo sticking up from the sybian. The new mark of a successful sexual encounter – three thumbs up!

Lessons

Published on December 7, 2008 in bdsm, bisexuality, D/s, flogging, lesbian, masochism, slut, spanking, sybian and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

I’ve had a busy weekend with MasterDoc. After resolving our differences, I felt much, much better and was happy to have a few days to spend with him. I was off on Friday and he had a busy day planned – a gentleman coming over to learn about BDSM in the late morning, then lunch out, then a friend of a friend who wants to be a Domme coming over for lessons in the evening. A full day, and my ass was sure to get beaten quite a lot!

In the morning, it was definitely more a case of him teaching rather than simply using me in front of an audience. Still, I got quite a flogging/spanking and the guy got to try out hitting my ass as well. I was pretty sore afterward! A funny aside, this guy later turns out to be someone who MasterDoc’s friend Liz had once dated before she met her boyfriend and became serious about him. What a small slut world New York is! This guy was cute and I totally would have done him in a heartbeat. Hopefully he comes back for more lessons later. *naughty grin* MasterDoc gave me a ride on the sybian and I came hard. I mean HARD, like I usually do on the sybian. I was leaning forward onto him, grasping at him, me a blubbering mess.

Lunch was very yummy – there’s an Indian restaurant by MasterDoc that has a terrific lunch special and it’s such a great deal. The food is terrific and cheap! I have become a devotee of alu paratha (this bread stuffed with spiced potato). Yummylicious!

I got a nap in somewhere along the way, I hadn’t slept well the night before. We cleaned up his apartment some more for our next guest, as MasterDoc points out you need to have things nicer for a chick than a guy. She got there sometime around 5. We had met her once before, when I wanted to meet up with a hot young lady from okcupid, and MasterDoc tagged along with me, and this Domme-to-be tagged along with the hot young lady I was lusting after. (Turns out she and the other young lady are partners but very much poly.) MasterDoc is a little out of luck with this lady, as she’s definitely a lesbian (and definitely Domme) but he’s gladly taken her on as a student. She’s a devoted student of Asian studies, Japan in particular, and the most suitable pseudonym for her is Kohai.

I was soon naked and MasterDoc demonstrated various impact toys on my ass (still sore from the morning!), including the floggers Kohai brought along with her (she has some nice stuff for a newbie! The braided one hurt like a motherfucker.) She took turns, trying out using the floggers, MasterDoc spending a lot of time teaching her physiology as it relates to BDSM. I think she has a promising career as a Domme ahead of her. (She’d like to be a professional Domme. In a case like that she’d dominate men, but she wants nothing to do with them sexually.) With impact play pretty well covered, MasterDoc gave her some advice on the psychological aspects of being Dom (ah yes, I’ve now heard all his secrets, although I think ultimately I knew them already from his using them on me). He asked her if she had seen a TENS unit before and she had no idea, so he had me get it and he tried it out on her a little so she could see what it felt like. Then they hooked me up to it and had fun with me.

We debated going out to a club that night, and Kohai called her girlfriend but she didn’t pick up, so the club idea got scrapped. Instead, Kohai got a ride on the sybian (she chose the flat top with no penetrative part). MasterDoc worked the controls and I caressed her body, grabbing at her ass, pushing down on her pubic area so her clit would come in better contact with the vibrator. Like most women, she had a fantastic orgasm riding the sybian. Then we were getting ready to pack up, MasterDoc and I going out to dinner, Kohai getting back on the subway for the ride home. But Kohai was quite forward with the idea that she’d be happy to go at me with a strap on. I certainly wouldn’t say no to a hot lesbian fucking me with a strap on! We went into the bedroom and MasterDoc teased me with the magic wand. Then Kohai fucked me. Unfortunately the dildo I have at his place is the relatively thin one I got to use on guys’ asses. I would have loved a thicker dildo. Still, I managed to come and he gave me permission to. Rowr. One bad thing was that the base of the harness kept hitting against my pussy uncomfortably – do other women have trouble with strap on harnesses? I came regardless. (I’m not one to let a little thing like pain stop me from coming. Heh, sometimes the pain helps me to come.) He followed up with the magic wand on my clit and I came again. I was a very happy girl. I had tons of orgasms in one day. Then MasterDoc treated me to dinner (as he had with lunch) and we had a nice romantic dinner out. All in all, it was a spectacular day.

Saturday, I went to work with a sore ass. lol And I knew we had plans for the evening that included a Dom and his three bisexual submissive women coming over. Rowr. I got so hot at the idea of playing with the other subs and being used by another Dom at MasterDoc’s discretion. Oh yes, Saturday was a very slutty night. More on that in the next blog entry.

Quiet Week

Published on September 4, 2008 in blogs, masturbation and sybian. 4 Comments

It’s been a relatively quiet week. I was lazy on Monday, the holiday. Otherwise I’ve been busy with work, which is terribly boring and not worth writing about (and I try to keep plausible deniability by not ever talking specifically about my workplace, as fun as nutty library patron stories are, they could easily be recognized by people I work with). Tuesday night I had a hard time falling asleep so I reached into the bedside table for my beloved bullet vibe. It was a pretty utilitarian masturbatory session. I teased myself a little, but really I just wanted to get off to relax and get to sleep. I came, it felt good, but it didn’t help me sleep. *sigh*

Last night I saw MasterDoc and we had a quiet, cuddlerific evening. I was a bit of a pain, asking a few times in different ways if I could get a ride on the sybian. (He had mentioned the idea of a ride earlier in the day.) At first he said no, but then he let me, however I was to run the controls myself so it would be a solo experience. And you know, it’s not quite as fun running the machine yourself. When someone else has control you don’t know if they’re going to turn it up or down, there’s the element of the unexpected, which is exciting. In doing it myself, I tend to leave it on one level of vibration for a period of time, which is more likely to make me a bit numb. I also miss the physical contact which sometimes accompanies a ride – MasterDoc will often sit in front of me and hold me during. It’s not as fun without any audience. I managed to come, but it was always this low-level of arousal rather than an earth shattering orgasm. I had no trouble keeping fairly quiet. All in all, it wasn’t as fun as I had hoped it would be, nor as fun as the sybian usually is. Afterwards, MasterDoc asked me if knowing that I had pushed to get permission rather than him giving it freely affected how the ride was. I said that’s possibly part of the picture.

This week was evidence that despite being a sex blogger and living an exciting, kinky life, I do have mediocre orgasms and experiences sometimes. I’ve been thinking this week about how bloggers seem somehow other than human, or up on a pedestal. They’re like celebrities but on a small, small level. People feel that they know them from reading their thoughts and experiences on their blogs, but they don’t really know these bloggers. You hear about the kinky, adventurous things I do, but not about the boring day to day stuff – after all, me doing the laundry would make for less than thrilling reading. You know me as a bit of a sex kitten and horny slut, but not as a librarian, sister, daughter, girlfriend, nerdy girl. I don’t mention my anglophilia and penchant for Brit coms. I don’t talk about the books I read as I usually read at work during lunch and that could give away my identity. It can be difficult meeting people who are readers of your blog because they know so much about you, but you don’t know much about them, or at least they seem to know so much about you. I talk about some pretty personal and sometimes difficult things on this blog, but there’s plenty of difficult stuff I don’t tackle but keep private.

So yes, I’ve gotten philosophical about blogging this week. Anyway, I feel curious about YOU the reader. Who reads my ramblings about sex? I don’t have a huge readership but some people come back repeatedly – what makes you come back for more? I hope I come across as an ordinary woman who manages to get herself into outrageously fun situations. And I tell you, you could do this too if you wanted to. Really. I hope I don’t come across as self-absorbed as I probably do. I guess to be a blogger you have to have some level of self-absorbtion. I hope that people see me as human and flawed but like me despite these flaws.

Ok, enough philosophical rambling. There’s no HNT picture this week because I’m feeling lazy about digging one up.