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Fantasy Vignettes

Published on January 4, 2011 in bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, caning, consensual non-consent, D/s, edge play, exhibitionism, fantasy, gags, gang bang, horny, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, piss play, restraints, sadism, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, submissive, swinging and Uncategorized. 2 Comments

Scene 1: I’ve been kidnapped and I awaken tied up, naked, wrists and ankles bound, duct tape across my mouth. He teases and tantalizes my body despite my protests. My nipples receive the clover clamps. He grabs me by the hair and makes me suck his cock after he rips the tape off. He makes me come over and over despite my fighting it. He fucks me while I’m unable to get away because I’m bound.

Scene 2: Struggling with him, fighting him off. Him calling me a whore and other degrading things. Him slapping me around. Him spanking me even when I start getting desperate for him to stop. He could just gag me with duct tape and go to town on my ass with the cane. I could lay over the axis for the beating, and then be in just the right position for a fucking.

Scene 3: He fucks my mouth as I hang my head off the end of the bed. He gags me repeatedly on his cock. At the end, he comes all over my face.

Scene 4: He blindfolds me and lets all sorts of people at the swing club play with me and fuck me. I don’t get to know who fucked me.

Scene 5: I’m intoxicated to the edge of sleep and then fucked repeatedly by a group of men, all orchestrated by MasterDoc. This would be videotaped so I could fully enjoy after.

Scene 6: I have to do my best to move around and do things like suck his cock while my arms are restrained behind my back.

Scene 7: I become his slave for a few hours. I have to sit at his feet. I have to be always respectful or I get the cane. He would use me as he likes sexually. He can make me sit in the corner or tie me to something at a whim. I’d have to get his permission to use the toilet. He would make me wait until I was desperate and begging for it, and then he’d bring me (by leash perhaps?) into the bathroom, where he’d let me pee in the tub through my panties.

Scene 8: I ‘m bound at a party at his place (possibly just hands behind back or perhaps some ankle restraint as well so I have to shuffle along as I walk) and the guests get to play with my naked body as it pleases them. My hands are released for dinner but I have to eat mine out of a bowl on the floor, seated next to his chair, while the guests eat at the table. He later makes me masturbate to orgasm in front of the crowd. With a little luck, I squirt when I come.

School Girl Night

Published on December 22, 2010 in bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, D/s, exhibitionism, illness, kink, masochism, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, sex parties, sex toys, slut, spanking, swinging, sybian, threesome, Uncategorized and wartenburg wheel. 1 Comment

I went out to a fetish party Friday night with MasterDoc. I should probably have stayed at home since I was mildly sick, but I went just the same and have some fantastic memories. The memories will have to sustain me while I recover from getting more sick. Hopefully I haven’t gotten more people ill! It has taken me days to complete this post because I’ve just been too tired to think.

It was the usual monthly fetish party we go to, we’re gradually getting to know people and become more friendly with others which definitely improves the party. Blondie came too, and didn’t bring a play partner along like she was going to initially. I got to play with her while MasterDoc gave sybian rides and that was great. Sitting around bored sucks, having fun at a party is much better.

Also, a woman I had been talking to for about one day on a dating site mentioned going to a fetish party, and upon asking I found it was the same one I was going to. I invited her to say hello which she did. Turns out she’s quite the enthusiastic slut but I didn’t do anything with her. Unfortunately she distracted me from playing with Blondie’s tits while MasterDoc gave her a sybian ride.

I flirted some more with Sofija (as I always do at these parties) and yearned for her strap on. I grabbed at it and played around with it. I manage to flirt openly with her because the flirtation is always returned. As she hung on the shoulder of an older guy, someone different than the many other people I’ve seen her flirting with and hanging on, I told her I think she’s an even bigger slut than I am. She couldn’t deny it. Of course it’s frustrating to know this sexy woman is a slut and yet she still hasn’t done me!

Or, hadn’t done me. I’ll get to that in a bit.

I had a particularly good time since I got attention from both MasterDoc and Blondie. The two of them had me bend over a sofa in my schoolgirl outfit (there was a schoolgirl/littles kind of theme) and gave me a joint spanking. MasterDoc slipped his hand between my legs so he could hold my Lelo Siri by my clit. All the stimulation got me worked up in no time, and when MasterDoc gave me the command I came. The orgasm came to a bit of a premature end because the spanking I was getting from Blondie hurt just a little too much. While I’m a masochist, I don’t have a high pain tolerance.

I watched MasterDoc give a few sybian rides. The party host wanted one of his ladies to ride it but face the crowd. MasterDoc likes the intimacy of giving a face-to-face sybian ride, but, ever the gentleman, he did as asked. Luckily I had a stroke of inspiration and started sucking his cock while he ran the controls. Picture a hot lady riding the sybian on the floor, while MasterDoc and I sit behind her on a sofa, and I reach over to pull his cock out of his pants and start sucking it. He’s running the sybian controls over my head as I blow him.

Blondie was interested in playing and MasterDoc was happy for me to be kept busy. She took me off to a dark corner and sat me down in a wooden chair. She unbuttoned and opened my white blouse and took my tits out of my bra. (I wore white lace underwear in keeping with the schoolgirl theme.) She has a bit of a fetish for breasts hanging out of a bra that is otherwise still on. It’s certainly an easy fetish to indulge, and I find being half-dressed to be pretty sexy as well. She used our toys and ran the wartenburg wheel over my tits. Gently and then pressing hard now and then. She is definitely capable of giving more pain than I can handle. I’ll be happy for her to use that sadism on men (or women) other than me! As she touched and ran the wheel over me I twitched excitedly. She asked if I had something inside me but no, I was aroused by just the non-genital stimulation I was getting. She tucked the Siri snug into my panties so it buzzed against my clit. MasterDoc joined us and I got to come again. Lucky me!

Blondie and MasterDoc placed me over a spanking bench (unfortunately not padded!) and she started in on role playing, something MasterDoc and I don’t really do much of. She took up the naughty school girl theme, telling me she saw me on the playground lifting my skirt and showing myself to those men. She gave me a spanking for being such a naughty girl. MasterDoc, meanwhile, got the host to snag Sofija – finally she was going to use her strap on on me! I was placed kneeling on a bed, and Sofija fucked me with the dildo, first in her strap on harness, then when it came out of the harness (it’s my pussy of steel ya know) she fucked me with it using her hand. Blondie meanwhile sat in front of me with one of my dildoes and told me to suck it. MasterDoc orchestrated the whole thing and I came so hard when he told me to. I kept coming and coming and couldn’t stop. My abdominal muscles were sore after! I lay on my back to recover and I twitched for a while at even the most innocuous touch.

Blondie had to get going, so MasterDoc walked her to the subway. When he came back the party host had two, hot 18 year old women ready to ride the sybian. One went on the sybian while the other sat in front of her on a chair. The woman on the sybian ate the other girl out. Needless to say, the young hotties garnered much attention. Later, they switched roles. I marveled at how being young and in shape enables a woman to hold her legs up for a long time. I would have had to put mine down much faster. Both of these ladies were adorable and the stuff of porn movies. Seriously, it should have been filmed.

We stumbled out of there late, and I was more exhausted than I’d ever been. The next morning when I woke up to body aches in addition to the runny nose I had the day before, I knew that I had pushed myself too much by going out. But so long as I haven’t done any harm to anyone else, it was worth it.

Being the Out-of-Towners

Published on December 10, 2010 in anal, blow jobs, D/s, exhibitionism, musings, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex parties, shio, squirting, swinging, Uncategorized and vacation. 2 Comments

If you follow my twitter you know that MasterDoc and I went away on our first vacation together this week. We had a blast at Disney World and even managed to visit a local swing club while in Orlando.

I don’t think I had been to a swing club outside of New York City before, so the differences are interesting to me. In NYC, clubs are small because real estate is so costly. The club we visited last night was in an entire house. The privacy was great since it was down a lonesome road, and the driveway is gated off unless they’re open – not to mention the driveway from the road is long-ish. The first room you enter is a bar area with a pool table, stripper pole and seating. Soft drinks are provided as are cups and ice (unlike NYC you just serve yourself). There’s a sign telling you what your cup color means there – clear means you’re just mingling, red means you’re looking for a couple and orange means you’re looking for singles. It’s a nice way to communicate what you’re looking for on a given night.

The club was huge being the whole of a one floor house. The kitchen had snacks (very little since it was a weeknight – more on weekends), each room had clean sheets and towels handy (and a laundry basket for you to put used ones in). In NYC we usually have to get a staff person to change soaked sheets, but this place was more down to earth. I was concerned that no condoms were available – MasterDoc pointed out that condom use isn’t necessarily universal. I don’t like that notion. I hope it was just that they expected people to bring their own. We had brought our own condoms and lube. There were many rooms, many beds and three hot tubs (two outside on back deck and one interior tub), a sex swing, and two sybians. The guy working that night was very nice and gracious in that Southern way. I have to confess that like some Yankees, I have a stereotyped view of Southerners much of the time. I know it isn’t fair because the stereotype – ignorant, redneck, racists – is only going to be true a small portion of the time. Interestingly, there was far more interracial porn (and black porn) showing there than in the club we frequent in NYC (where there’s usually only white porn.) While the guests were predominantly white, there was an Asian guy, a south Asian couple and a black guy. Everyone seemed equally welcome.

Despite my stupid stereotyped idea of Southerners, (which IS totally stupid as I’ve known and adored various Southerners who are not anything like that stereotype) I have to admit that I do admire the southern hospitality and graciousness. Manners were far better and far more adhered to in Florida than they are in New York. I certainly had to look at my stereotypes and look at how culturally the region is different from where I’ve always lived in the northeast. Not better or worse, just different.

One nice thing was that the single guys were far more polite than in NYC. There were few couples there, and unfortunately the only couple that seemed interested was a couple MasterDoc wasn’t interested in. We ended up making our own fun, which you know we’re quite good at. Early in the evening, MasterDoc fucked me doggy style in one of the rooms. While I was busy being fucked a couple came in to watch appreciatively. MasterDoc teased me like he’s been doing lately – fucking me hard and pushing me towards orgasm. While I don’t ever want to give in and come without permission, part of me hopes that it accidentally happens since I’m so desperate for release by the time he lets me come. I came hard, and squirted all over the sheets. I could feel myself drench MasterDoc’s hand after he switched to fingering me while I came. I changed the sheets after.

A little later, when it was becoming more apparent that we weren’t likely to swap that night, MasterDoc decided to fuck me up the ass – something we haven’t done often in recent months. He lubed me up and talked dirty to me the whole time. He emphasized that he was going to fuck me up my tight asshole like the whore that I am. *swoon* He managed to push past my sphincter and gave me a good fucking. I needed extra lube (remember kids, you can never have too much lube during anal). Again he teased me, pushing me towards orgasm through fucking my ass. He let me come and it felt great to come again (and again). A little later he fucked me vaginally again and let a couple of the single guys touch my upper half while he did so. I was lost in pleasure. I love when I’m getting fucked (cock, fingers, dildo, or otherwise) and I lose track of everything around me. He fucked me into a state of frenzy again and let me come. What a fabulous night!

I sucked his cock a lot and seemed to be doing a really good job of it. I love making him twitch with pleasure. I deep throated him a lot and the blow jobs got all nice and wet. I’m getting much better at controlling my gag reflex. I can feel his cock head at the back of my throat and I focus on relaxing and leaving it there pressed against my throat. At those moments MasterDoc seems to be overcome with feeling good.

I was tired before it was all that late – having done so much walking and standing the past few days left me wiped out. (Wednesday night I was too tired for sex. Yes, you read that right. I crashed early and slept a long time. We fooled around a little on Tuesday night but I was pretty damn tired so I had to collapse and sleep before we had really done what we wanted to.) I felt satisfied and not interested in more sex, but I kept my opinion to myself and kept blowing MasterDoc on command like a good submissive. I did admit I was tired, but he wanted to come and I was happy to help him get there. I whispered in this ear about hot things we had done that night and I played with his groin and inner thighs. I licked his thighs for him and kept on going until he came. It was fantastic.

We bid the kind swingers of Orlando good night, and headed back to our hotel room. MasterDoc had hoped for more debauchery during our time away (like meeting a couple for a swap) but between fatigue and the constraints of time we didn’t get a chance. Still, it was a good vacation.

Super Slut

Published on December 6, 2010 in bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, D/s, DeeDee, exhibitionism, kink, non-monogamy, restraints, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, swinging and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

DeeDee was out for the day, helping a friend. So I got some alone time with MasterDoc. I was horny and hoping for a fucking, but I have to admit I was pretty damn happy with what I got. I just got a magic wand controller for review (a rheostat) and we tried it out for its first run. (Review to come later. ) MasterDoc delighted my bondage-loving self by securing me to the bed with the under bed restraints. He teased me for a while considering the controller gave him even more fine-tuned control over the magic wand. (But it doesn’t dial up to the highest wand setting. Totally weird.) When he first pressed the wand to my cunt, I wasn’t wet yet so it hurt sometimes. He tried to push me to coming but I wasn’t ready when he gave permission. I kinda looked at him hopelessly, as if to say I wanted to come but just couldn’t. He pressed on (literally) and before long he had me coming hard. He made me come over and over (squirting like crazy) and left me exhausted after. I was in a happy place and he let me know that it’s good I found my happy place that afternoon as DeeDee was going to be his focus at the party we were going to that night. (She had been away recently and he and I were leaving shortly for a trip together.) I negotiated with him what I could do at the party. I made the point of saying that if I had freedom to go and make my own fun, I don’t mind not being his focus. He granted me permission to fuck without immediately getting his permission before doing so. I pointed out that I would be going in a different head space than usual – instead of docile sub looking to him for all the decisions, I would be in charge of myself and my safety. I would be in charge of speaking up if I didn’t want to do something. Armed with the right mindset I didn’t mind being there semi-solo.

Sometimes I forget the early days when I went to my first sex parties. I went as a single woman and had a fabulous time just fucking as much as I wanted to. While I love being MasterDoc’s sub and slut, I do like having the autonomy from time to time to grab my sexual desires by the lapel. As I got dressed I felt like I was totally hot shit with the weight loss (and my new over-the-knee boots). I’m not usually confident like that, and it felt good.

At the party my usual social anxiety turned up as my being negative about the party. I complained that I was so much younger than most people there. I try not to be ageist (I will be in my 50s + soon enough!) but I mostly go for people my own age sexually. As you know from my relationship with MasterDoc, however, everything has an exception. It’s a matter of clicking with someone and feeling safe around them. After I had a few drinks I loosened up. I got flirty with a guy I was eying since I walked in and he had immediately introduced himself (and got me a drink). We popped down to the basement to see if the violet wand play was still going on. It wasn’t and he and I started making out. (Funny story: MasterDoc went to the basement at the same time to give a sybian ride to someone. He saw this couple making out and thought “Rowr! She’s hot. I gotta get Nadia and DeeDee so I can set up a swap and get with her.” Of course, that “her” was me. Since losing weight I suppose I looked different. It’s incredibly awesome to know that the regular man in your life still thinks you’re hot.)

The guy I was with suggested going upstairs to find somewhere to sit. I suggested we find somewhere to lay down.

Yes, I’m a huge slut. What of it?

As we started making out on the mattress laid on the floor in one of the bedrooms, I discovered his leanings are dominant. Oh boy, we know how weak dominant sex partners make me! There was hair pulling, kissing, fingering me good and hard. I came over and over and over. I’m pretty sure the whole house could hear me (if not the whole neighborhood). He encouraged me to scream. I don’t need much encouragement.

He was good at making me come just as long as he wanted. I’m sure MasterDoc’s work on sensitizing me has a lot to do with it, but I was somewhat dismayed to find there’s more than one man who can force me to orgasm. Why, you may ask? Because as much as I love coming being pushed to the ends of my endurance and be so difficult.

After a million orgasms for me, and a quick cuddle, I gave this guy the best blow job I could and he loved it. When he said he was ready to come I finished him off with my hands (I don’t let guys come in my mouth until I know them really well.) It was a successful interlude I must say.

I got a break from coming and got more food. I ended up chatting with a variety of people (particularly about sex in the library) and then again with the guy I had fooled around with. He seemed smitten. It was nice to experience. He suggested going upstairs to watch whatever might be going on. Alas, DeeDee was resting and MasterDoc was in the loo. But after a bit MasterDoc could be found spanking and fingering the hostess. I watched some and got really hot again. The guy told me to get on my knees and like the slut that I am I knelt and blew him in the hallway.

I said good night to that guy a little later, and started flirting with the hot young guy there (who has a big cock. His scene name reflects his cock size.). I was relaxing on the bed in the next bedroom and the male host of the party started my stroking thighs. He did that dom sort of feeling out a situation by starting to play with my thighs. When I didn’t object he went further. He finger fucked me and jeez my pussy was sore the next day. He fucked me, and the hot guy with the big cock came up behind my head on the bed. I got to enjoy cock choking as my head hung off the bed with him sliding his cock deep into my throat. I was doing so much choking that my nose was runny, my eyes tearing, and my hair a complete mess. I certainly looked like a used slut. Mr. Big Cock fucked me from behind, until I apparently got dry. “Dammit just use lube,” I thought.

I had a great time. MasterDoc came in and fucked me at one point, doggy style, and I loved having him join in. I sucked the host’s cock while stroking Mr. Big Cock with one hand. I was the epitome of slutiness. And I was enjoying every second. I got to come some more with MasterDoc’s permission, and the guys by my face wouldn’t let me get away with sliding off into orgasm and forgetting to suck cock. That in itself was pretty hot.

I wanted Mr. Big Cock to fuck me again, and he had me blow him. The blow job seemed to go on and on and he didn’t get around to fucking me again. He spanked me, it was lacking a little finesse but it made me come. By this time I was thoroughly exhausted. I was so glad to go home. The next morning my stomach muscles were sore from coming so much.

I had a great time.

The Next Steps?

Published on November 11, 2010 in analingus, bdsm, bondage, D/s, dom, emotions, gang bang, humiliation play, kink, masochism, musings, piss play, restraints, sex parties, submissive, swinging, trust, Uncategorized and wishing box. 1 Comment

As my D/s relationship with MasterDoc develops, the focus can change over time. When I first met him of course the focus was teaching me precisely how he likes to be pleasured, getting me to remember to say “Sir,” and training my ability to come at his command. On the service side of things he taught me what chores he wants me to do, and how to prepare things how he likes them, etc.

Recently I’ve felt like there’s a shift – the shift hasn’t happened just yet but it feels like a new phase of our relationship is ready to begin. I’ve been contemplating for at least a week now telling him that if he wants me to lick his ass, then I would respect him even more if he made me do it despite my dislike of the activity. I think I’m at the point now where him making me do a few things I dislike (but know full well won’t harm me) is the way to go. Not so much to exercise power, but I think he, as the Dom, should feel free to engage in whatever experiences he would like to – and not give as much concern over what I like to do.* Of course, I’ve hesitated to say anything because I’m worried this is a case of “be careful of what you wish for!” But I feel like I need to take another step into being his submissive on perhaps a deeper level than before. We’re at a point where if he makes me lick his ass I’m not going to consider leaving him. If he pisses in my mouth I’m not going to leave him. I don’t like these activities and hope they don’t become frequent, but I feel like if he’s the Dom then he should use me as he likes.

We’ve watched a lot of porn on theupperfloor.com lately and it’s been giving him all sorts of ideas. The forced exercise I found too painful to watch. I hate exercise but can handle it better if I’m doing it by myself and of my own volition. But the scene where the slave was hooded (and therefore couldn’t see) and forced to scrub the floor while the dominant whipped or fingered her – that was damn hot. Just scrubbing a floor isn’t hot to me. But being in some sort of bondage/blindfolding/gagging and being watched over by the man who delivers such delicious torment to me, that would be hot.

The Upper Floor has also made me crave kinky parties where I could serve and be toyed with by the guests freely. Not only toyed with but perhaps also gang-banged.

MasterDoc and I talked briefly about the idea of things like positions the sub needs to learn and use in certain situations. He was never into that, but I’ve been curious about it and now feels like a time to maybe delve into some of that, to maybe have a little more protocol than we currently have? (We’ve never been big on protocol other than calling him Sir and being respectful and obedient.) I’m also wishing for more bondage in my life.

All this is dependent on what MasterDoc wants and thinks is right. I’m merely expressing my willingness and desire to go a little further into submission and service to him. I feel like I need to be pushed a little.

* This meaning that of course I hope my needs will still be met, but I think he should feel more latitude in making me satisfy his needs even if I find an act distasteful.

Aren’t all Second Dates at Swing Clubs?

Published on September 26, 2010 in attraction, bdsm, bisexuality, bondage, D/s, dating, DeeDee, kink, masochism, musings, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, porn, restraints, sadism, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, submissive, swinging and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

Friday night I met up with Blondie, my date from a couple of weeks ago, while out at the swing club with MasterDoc and DeeDee. Yes, I know that’s an odd thing to invite someone to on a second date, but well that’s the kind of perv I am. Sometimes I think I have no sense of how the “regular,” non-kinky world operates – or that others may or may not understand my way of doing things. Ultimately I think it’s best to be me and see how the other person reacts. I want to be with someone who can handle my lifestyle.

I’ve gradually been introduced to my date’s sexy past. On our first date she mentioned shyly having been a sex surrogate. I’m sure my completely mellow and positive reaction to that has helped move along the level of things she feels comfortable telling me. I knew about the pro-Domme work by the end of the first date, but didn’t catch the porn work until the second one. I’m sure there’s plenty of people out there who would be freaked out by these things, but personally I think they’re utterly cool and sexually very hot. While I had looked at her myspace page, I didn’t notice porn info (but when she mentioned doing porn for the first time around me she thought I probably already knew from her page). I had known she did fetish modeling though. So dribs and drabs have some out in a short space of time. I can totally understand the gradual revealing of information – I want to be open about who I am and what I like to get up to, but I worry about judgment. So I have to toss a few things out there and see how they go. If they go well I can toss a few more out there.

So far anything we’ve each thrown out there has seemed to go well. After all a pervy sex blogger has much in common with a fetish porn actress. (Oh yes, she not only did “straight” porn, she’s also done fetish. HAWT!) I woke up Saturday morning to MasterDoc and DeeDee looking up her porn online, and seeing the kinky stuff she’s done makes me feel really happy and comfortable being a perv around her. This isn’t the first time I’ve fooled around with a porn actress, but it is the first time I’m dating one I suppose.

At the same time, I don’t want her to feel like sex is the only thing I’m after. She took a break from porn so her life has been different in the past few years. As much as I love hot sex and think she and I could have a ton of fun together, I am also happy to go at her pace should it happen to be slower than mine currently. I like her. I feel there’s time for things to develop. Perhaps the most amazing thing for me is the fact that I feel reasonably confident she likes me. Usually I can’t believe the other woman is into me. I suppose my self-esteem is finally at a point where, while some nerves and fear of rejection remain, I can also sit back and say, “She acts like she likes me. And why shouldn’t she?” Having an open mind that the other person could like you helps immeasurably. I’ve probably done more self-sabotage with women by refusing to believe they could possibly like me. (Sad, I know.)

Feminist perv that I am, I don’t assume that just because she’s done kinky shit she would necessarily want to do the same right away with me. I don’t take it personally that she likes to use gloves when first sleeping with someone new. I see it as a smart safer sex precaution. It’s more precaution than I feel is necessary for my own peace of mind, but the whole point of risk assessment is deciding what level of risk works for you. I can’t decide anyone else’s level of acceptable risk.

So after that long-winded intro, I suppose I should talk about Friday night.

Blondie was delayed, so she doesn’t come into the story until a little later. I hung out at the club with MasterDoc and DeeDee. He had us take turns sucking his cock right there in the open as usual. It’s cute to see how much he loves showing off the hot sex he has on tap from TWO women. He’s not someone you’d guess that about at first glance. But his confidence is alluring. And then you see his big cock. And then you discover his incredible skill in bed. And you figure out that he’s a highly intelligent man who is also a huge pervert – AND has a sense of humor. I really didn’t stand a chance when I met him, did I?

I started getting nervous that she hadn’t shown up. I’m still in that stage where my fragile ego is convinced I’ll get rejected. Thankfully, MasterDoc took me off into the back room and did some play to get my mind off things.

We actually brought my wrist and ankle cuffs for once (we have often meant to) and he attached me to the St. Andrew’s cross with DeeDee’s assistance. I had on my bra, fishnet stockings and garter belt, but had taken off my dress – and not worn panties in the first place. He spanked me, hitting me pretty hard. I found myself in a decidedly masochistic mood. He flogged me, used the riding crop on me. He flogged my butt and my upper back. I loved the pain, I loved the sense of him being in control. The crowd that night seemed less kink-savvy than it is some nights, but I blocked the crowd out and let myself get into the flogging. He started playing with my cunt, and shortly he told me to come. Fuuuuuck. It’s hard to come while holding yourself in a standing position. Oh yeah I’m technically held up by wrist cuffs, but I can’t really place my whole weight on that. So I had this struggle of “oh god that feels good, I’m coming!” mixed with “ow, my body is getting really tired from trying to hold myself up.” I think I squirted a tiny bit but it was interrupted by needing to support myself. I prefer coming when I can just lose myself to the orgasm and not have to worry about holding myself up.

I rested a bit after, thinking that I really need to get into shape. I talked to DeeDee about her latest job prospects when MasterDoc went off to use the bathroom. The three of us were back in the socializing area when Blondie showed up. I was glad to see her. I’m trying to find the right balance of excitement over meeting someone new I like, and expressing that I like her, without seeming too intense. I don’t know yet if this will be a romance, or play partners, or what have you. And being poly and already in a stable relationship I find it much easier to relax and see where life takes me. For now, I enjoy her company, I’m hot for her and want to keep getting together. The last thing I want to seem like is that old U-Haul joke (you know, the one that goes, “What does a lesbian bring to a second date?” “A U-Haul.”).

Walking around the swing club with another woman is a very different experience than being there with a man. It was the first time I had done so, and jeezus, the men flock. That evening seemed to have more than the usual amount of clueless males, but I think it would have been bad regardless. The lack of respect by your average straight guy for something that’s going on between two women is highly irritating. She was flogging me on the cross (not attached this time, but yes I was flogged twice. Yes, I’m lucky!) and some total idiot called out “What’s that feel like?!” and then came up beside me, put his hands against the wall and stuck his butt out. Blondie had no trouble firmly but politely telling him that he’s interrupting. I had no problem turning to him and letting him know he was being rude. “Seriously, you’re being a bit of a dick right now,” I said. He scurried off. The issues seem to be that in the swing atmosphere it’s much more accepted to try to get in on the action. It’s never okay to touch without permission, or to be a dick, but aggressive men asking if they could join us is to be expected. Kinksters seem to have a much better sense of letting people do their thing and not intruding. Just because you’re playing in public doesn’t mean you want people to join in. It pissed me off that the social conditioning for men is such that they can’t envision two women just playing together. We don’t need your cock to join in guys! I love cock and I’m pretty sure Blondie does too, but we’re perfectly happy being kinky by ourselves thank you.

It’s a shame because we have to be firm and bitchy. If you’re at all polite or friendly the guy will come back again, and again, and again. But it’s not easy to always be bitchy. If a guy is cute and under the right circumstances I’d be up for fucking him then I don’t want to be so stern that I make sure he never comes back. But if I’m not up for fucking him that night I’m in for lots of badgering all evening. And by the end of the night I’m far less interested.

We talked with a cute Asian guy, but his many attempts to get our numbers, invite us out to another swing club, etc. went un-encouraged for the most part. I gave him this blog address, but wouldn’t give out phone number. After all, I know my situation as MasterDoc’s submissive and the fact that me going to a swing club with some other guy is pretty counter to our dynamic. I don’t think he or I would be happy with that situation. (I don’t rule it out, but it’s not of interest just now.) Somehow it’s different with a woman. Women aren’t so fucking pushy.

But when we managed to ignore the interruptions she gave me a lovely flogging – a bit of pain mixed with lots of the lovely softness of her rabbit fur flogger. Her flogger is of a better quality than the one I acquired recently, and it’s possible to give a good hit with it. She used the riding crop on me (including my outer limbs which MasterDoc doesn’t usually do). I needed to sit down after a while, and she suggested I lay down on the bed so she could flog my front. Rowr. This she did, she also spread my legs to slap my thighs. I think she was going a bit easy on me, which would make perfect sense playing with someone new. I hope to encourage her to go harder in the future. She straddled me and played with my tits. I stroked her legs and when she took her top down to reveal her lacy camisole, I reached up to play with her tits too. I was in a happy place!

All of us left at the same time, and at the end I had expressed interest in going with her to a women-only play party the following night. (She had mentioned it before, I had been to a few of these parties years ago.) We parted ways with the agreement to make plans the next day.

Kinky Foursome

Published on September 23, 2010 in bdsm, bisexuality, bondage, D/s, foursome, gags, horny, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, submissive, swinging, Uncategorized and wax play. 2 Comments

It’s taken me a couple of days to sit down and write more than just notes about the kinky foursome we had on Tuesday. The featured guests were slave amber and her Master from this little nugget of a blog post.

Her Master arrived first, he and MasterDoc talked a bit about what they were planning to do (as they had done online earlier). With two diabolical minds at work I was nervous, but I needn’t be. MasterDoc would take care of me.

MasterDoc thought of the behind the back restraints I’m so hot for using, so I went to get them from the play room. However, this train of thought was distracted by amber calling up needing direction assistance. Later, when she had arrived, I had to remind MasterDoc that we were going to use them. Being bound and somewhat helpless turns me on tremendously. We don’t do enough bondage. My earliest bsdm fantasies consisted of being kidnapped, tied up, gagged and played with. Make me come when I’m helpless and I turn to mush.

MasterDoc made me come by touching me and commanding. Our guests were pretty impressed by how easily he could make me come. I have found, however, that if I’m not worked up mentally beforehand, while I still orgasm (uterus contracts and all) it’s not nearly as satisfying as an orgasm with more foreplay to it. Even if that foreplay is just mental.

Of course being a couple of days late writing this I’m bound to leave something out. Speaking of bound – amber’s Master likes to play with rope (one of MasterDoc’s few weaknesses). I was told to get on all fours and he bound my tits. Then he had me kneel up and he extended the tie into a crotch rope. Initially I wasn’t into it, but after I lay down on the mat in the living room and the dental gag was put in my mouth, and the Wartenburg wheel run over my body, I started to change my mind. The wheel tickles much of the time – I had to try to explain this with my mouth held wide open. With more pressure it “hurts better” as MasterDoc put it. Indeed. It felt good on my sensitive bound breasts.

After that, there was talk of hot wax. I was surprised that I was the intended victim, but of course amber was told to lay beside me (cheap shower curtains are great for easy clean up!) and both of us had hot wax poured over our fronts. I was yelping quite a bit, and wondered if I was a wimp. But thankfully MasterDoc suspected that their candle was much cooler – and so the two Doms switched candles. Totally different using their candle. No more yelps from me but plenty from amber. The two of us were waxed on front and back. We scraped off as much as possible before leaving the shower curtain, and towards the end MasterDoc realized that this textured rubber glove he has is just perfect for wiping the wax off (and providing some sensation play at the same time.)

The next scene required wrist and ankle cuffs. I was overjoyed to use mine. I bought them long before I met MasterDoc and we haven’t gotten to use them much. The other Master bound amber and I to each other. I’m taller so my arms were wrapped around her upper back. He also attached our ankles together. Next, we were wrapped in plastic cling wrap. I was concerned about this beforehand because I had a boyfriend wrap me once before and I panicked when I couldn’t breathe. This time, however, it was totally cool. They men ordered us to make out with each other while bound together. Being pressed up against a woman and kissing her with my Dom watching is pretty damn hot.

The day became physically wearing as the two Doms had loads of ideas of things to try with two subs/slaves present. amber’s Master brought a brand new double-ended dildo. I had used one before and found it lacking, but of course I could give it a try again. (I have yet to find a silicone double ended dildo – use condoms with the ones out there as they’re usually made of a porous material, not to mention they have nasty pthalates in them.) We were positioned on our hands and knees on the mat, our asses pointing at each other. I felt the dildo slide in and it wasn’t unpleasant, but it wasn’t thrilling either. MasterDoc gave me a vibe to use on my clit. amber’s Master ordered me to move on it, but it’s pretty hard to get any thrust from such a flexible dildo. MasterDoc stepped in and moved it back and forth so both of us were getting fucked alternately. This enabled me to come. And with the vibe on my clit I came pretty damn hard. I think having someone move the dildo is the secret.

I was exhausted. Holding yourself on hands and knees or kneeling for extended periods of time takes energy. I lay spent on the mat while MasterDoc started showing the Gigi to amber. I gushed about Lelo toys and explained how it’s stronger than battery-operated vibes because it’s a rechargeable. MasterDoc toyed with her clit while her Master kissed her. I joined in first by sucking on her nipple, and later by by wetting my finger and stroking her clit. I played with her clit while MasterDoc fucked her with the Gigi.

Our guests left after this, and it was a fun afternoon albeit a joking one. But hey, I like people with senses of humor. It just might have been more sexually stimulating with less joking. Oh well, there’s always next time.

MasterDoc and I had dinner and rested for a while. I still wanted his cock inside me though. (This was during the 4 days a month my birth control takes a rest, so I was feeling lots of menstrual symptoms such as rampant horniness.) My back ached and MasterDoc was kind enough to massage it for a bit. (Not only do I massage him, he will do the same for me. And as a doctor he puts his knowledge of anatomy to good use there as well.) For fucking, he put me over the Liberator axis which was just perfect because I could rest my full weight. It had the effect of making me feel a bit like an object, and lately I’ve been into that

My incredible horniness still wasn’t sated after our fuck. I figured MasterDoc would have no problem with me using one of my weekly masturbation sessions, and so I grabbed the Hitachi and went to town. MasterDoc came in to join me just in time to see me to come and lend a hand a little. I was happy after, and boy did I sleep well that night.

Nice Guys Get Laid

Published on August 30, 2010 in bbc, bdsm, blow jobs, caning, D/s, DeeDee, exhibitionism, kink, orgasm on command, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting, submissive, swinging, threesome and Uncategorized. 3 Comments

I hadn’t been out to the club in a while. I was excited to be going out with MasterDoc and DeeDee even though I was feeling tired from the stressful and busy week as well as needy emotionally. (So what else is new with the last bit?)

Shortly after we arrived I became absorbed in a porn that was running – not so much because of what was happening, but because I think I had met the guy in it the week before. Tess met up with a pornographer before we went to In the Flesh, and I could have sworn the guy in the film was that guy. But of course they barely showed the guy’s face, so I didn’t get to convince myself entirely. I lead such an interesting life.

The club was having one of its usual “porn star” nights and Totally Tabitha was there – I think we had met her once before there. We got to talking with her and MasterDoc was very charming, while I got into teaching her about safer sex toy materials (what happens when a sex blogger meets a porn star, I suppose). I got to crush on this Latina I’ve met there many times and MasterDoc enlisted DeeDee and her exceptional social skills to help flirt with the woman at the bar for him. (DeeDee is gracious, friendly and can converse and get to know people easily. MasterDoc and I were the awkward nerds when younger – so while we’ve improved our social skills considerably we still don’t have the ease that DeeDee does.)

The mood at the club was pretty light. There were some socially inept, pushy guys there, but also polite, friendly ones as well. There was a good amount of women who are regulars (I so want to ask which ones are paid to be there – but I don’t want to make anyone feel uncomfortable.) I like how this steadfastly middle class, suburban woman (i.e., me) is comfortable with making friendships and acquaintance with whores, porn actors and the like. We all have a positive view of sexuality and don’t feel ashamed about it. I imagine so many people I work with or encounter day-to-day being judgmental about these women – I am glad that I have realized that they are human beings just like any other women. Working the sex industry does not make someone ‘bad,’ ‘dirty’ or ‘wrong.’ (Or stupid!) This country is so fucked up in regard to sex. Sex is necessary for the continuation of the human race! It feels good for a reason! Fucking someone is a way of being intimate with another human being – even if you’re not in an intimate relationship with them. Humans need physical contact with other humans. It doesn’t always have to be sexual, but sexual is one way it can be.

We settled in the back room after a bit – I hadn’t been there since they took down one wall to make the two rear rooms into one big one. The air conditioning for the entire place is in that room though, and it was fucking freezing in there. MasterDoc got the ac turned down and we were able to camp out in there for a bit. The early part of the evening is a bit fuzzy for me. The whole evening was rich with flirting, joking and general fun that I’m sure I will, sadly, miss some details here.

So we settled on the big bed and cuddled. I was feeling starved for cuddles. We all three agreed that we felt a bit emotionally off kilter and MasterDoc decided that it would be just us playing – no bringing in strangers. I felt much better after he declared that. A few single guys stood around the perimeter of the bed and I’m sure they were thinking, “When are they going to DO something?!”

Eventually we got started. MasterDoc had me move to his right, because for some reason he’s more comfortable having me there. And while it seems a little silly on the surface, I do appreciate the fact that he does it because he can keep me in his sight better. He really takes the aspect of Domming that includes taking care of me seriously. It’s not a control freak thing at all – and it doesn’t feel that way – it is simply something that makes him feel more comfortable.

He had DeeDee suck his cock and he reached down and played with her tits. I stroked his chest and things were finally moving along. MasterDoc made DeeDee come just by touching her and talking to her. It was spectacular to watch. Poor woman was embarrassed after, as well as spent, so she lay down next to MasterDoc for a while. Isn’t it awful that we live in a world where a woman who can come very easily and hard is made to feel ashamed of it? I’m sure the men loved it, but women are taught subtly from birth that “good girls don’t do that.” (Hell, I’m a good girl and I deserve to feel good! Fuck that shit.)

MasterDoc had me suck his cock for a bit, then he had me position myself so he could use the crop and cane on my ass. I was so in need of a beating I was thrilled for him to do it. I became really aroused from the pain that felt mostly manageable last night. He had me lay down so he could play with my pussy. He got some toys from DeeDee (both of us take turns being the assistant) and made me come – but it was somehow hard to get there. I don’t know what’s with me lately, I seem to have difficulty coming sometimes. I squirted a little bit. After the orgasms I needed to rest.

We got up and socialized some more, and MasterDoc was busy charming Tabitha. I could tell he was determined to fuck her, and I did whatever I could to help. They were going to go off to one of the rooms when we got distracted by talking to the cute Latina. MasterDoc begged off the conversation after a while, and I got the feeling that she was insulted. He made up for this shortly after by having her stroke his cock while Tabitha was busy with another guy. I joined them on the bed as DeeDee was talking to a polite, intelligent black guy – I felt safe leaving her there as he didn’t seem the non-consensual groping type at all (and I was right) but still he enjoyed talking openly about sex. I was hoping to get in on the Latina action although that didn’t quite happen. I did suck MasterDoc’s cock to get him ready for Tabitha, and the Latina talked about wanting to see me choke on his cock. We were working up to that when she got distracted. Boo.

Tabitha is clearly a woman who is comfortable with recreational sex (which I think is a great thing). She commented on the size of MasterDoc’s cock before fucking him and once he got his cock in her. He fucked her good and hard, I got horny watching and started to play with myself. MasterDoc encouraged me to help in some way, and I played with her clit through her panties a bit (the panties were just pushed aside for the fucking). She enjoyed a good, hard fuck and MasterDoc clearly enjoyed himself too. After, he joked that “fuck porn star” is off his list – I pointed out that we had fooled around with SlutMomo, so fucking a porn star was already checked off his list! He amended it to “fuck blonde porn star.” Check.

DeeDee and I ended up standing in the hallway a moment and she expressed frustration at not having more orgasms yet, and she wondered if MasterDoc would let her fuck the nice black guy she had been talking to. I told her she should definitely ask, and when she wandered off and MasterDoc came up to me, I took a moment to fill him in on her unmet needs and wants. See, I’m not always worried only about my sexual needs. I told him too that since I’ve been craving cock for days and missed out the two last times we fooled around, that I really longed for some penis-in-vagina sex. MasterDoc took control of the situation, checked in with DeeDee to see if she would be okay with someone else giving her those orgasms she needed (she was) and confirmed that she was interested in the guy (she was) and so the four of us ended up back in the bedroom again.

MasterDoc made DeeDee come by playing with her pussy, then he put the nice guy in charge of taking care of her. She came so much! The guy fucked her and the two of them seemed to thoroughly enjoy themselves. MasterDoc then turned his attention to me and gave me quite a fucking! I planted my head against the bed as he doggy-styled me. All sorts of moaning came out of my mouth as he took me towards orgasm. I was aware of the crowd around us, but kept myself separate and in my own head. He made me come so hard – and since starting testosterone his cock is a match for my vagina of steel – I don’t push his cock out nearly as often during orgasm. He kept pounding me and I kept coming.

After he said, “Babe, you’re a wild ride.”

I replied, “You are too, Sir.”

MasterDoc helped out Tabitha while the nice guy who had just fucked DeeDee fucked her – he gave her our orchid g vibe, with a condom on it, to use on her clit. After a while, the idea of putting it up her ass came about and the Latina helped lube up her ass well. They slid it in and he fucked her, feeling the vibe through the walls of her vagina. MasterDoc explained to him how he should massage his cock with the vibrating toy through the thin wall of flesh that lies between pussy and ass. He picked that up fast and seemed to love it.

I needed to get home to sleep so I could get up early, and the three of us were getting tired. It took a little while to pack up as we had to wait for our toy (would be pretty rude to just demand it back mid-fuck, no?) and then one of the regular ladies begged MasterDoc for a beating. DeeDee and I waited patiently while he helped her out.

It was an extremely fun evening! I don’t know why being a slut is so looked down upon – we have so much fun and pleasure! What is wrong with that?

Lucky Slut

Published on August 23, 2010 in bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, D/s, gags, kink, non-monogamy, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting, submissive, swinging, threesome and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

My apologies for taking so long to write about this. I’ve had so much to do lately that I’ve just been too busy or exhausted to write. I did take some notes the day after this night of debauchery last week, so let me tell the story as if I actually wrote this the following day.

My muscles are sore today. Masterdoc and Lana, the lady who joined us all recently for “Using the Slave,” took turns using me last night. Of course I am a very happy girl today!

I was instructed that I had to crawl on the large mat in the living room – no walking except when I’m off the mat. He had me crawl over to him on the sofa and he put my ball gag in my mouth. (MasterDoc has been making a concerted effort to branch out and use some of the toys I keep hoping he’ll use.) The mat was set up with condoms, lube, a few toys and my strap-on.

I lay on the mat gagged as both touched me. With the gentle strokes over my body I would twitch. MasterDoc has trained my reactions so that I’m hyper sensitive – every nerve ending has become an erogenous zone. Lana is adept at touching gently but not too gently. I got the sense that my body was getting a workout simply from the muscle twitches that came from arousal. MasterDoc told me I could come at will for the duration of Lana’s visit. They took turns sucking on my nipples. Shortly after, Lana made me come by playing with my clit while he grabbed my hair. It’s so very easy to make me come sometimes.

MasterDoc removed the ball gag and let me have a drink of water. He had me get on hands and knees so he could fuck me. He fucked me silly while she grabbed my hair firmly and pulled my head back a little. The hair pulling intensified the fuck, although he was also pounding me exceptionally hard. I squirted as I came, and came, and fell to the mat after, short of breath.

MasterDoc sat in a chair and had me suck his cock while she fucked me with my strap-on. Unfortunately the angle was all wrong for the silicone cock to enter me. They put me on floor and he watched while she fucked me. The dildo kept sliding out of my clenching pussy, so she gave up after a while and used her fingers. MasterDoc took over fucking me and talked dirty about me being used by a bunch of guys, one after the other, some day. I was totally out of control with coming by that point. I went feral: grunting, screaming and panting. Orgasming becomes a control thing with MasterDoc and he can wring the orgasms out of my body like crazy. If he wants to make me come it’s pretty definite that I will come. Lana did a pretty damn good job making me come as well – she held my Gigi to my clit while he fucked me.

We relaxed, enjoyed some dessert and MasterDoc had to get ready for bed because he had work early the next morning. I joined Lana on the mat and she started stroking my body again and watching me twitch. She seemed to take great pleasure out of the way I’d convulse from her touch. She made me come more with her hands and then she went down on me. She was very, very skilled at it. (I thought to myself that this is why I prefer bi women over bicurious – they know what to do! I realize this isn’t a hard and fast rule, but having experience counts for a lot.) Lana made me come like crazy licking my clit, sucking it and using her arms to rock my hips a little while she did so. I had to ask her to stop finally because I was so tired. I have no idea how many times I came that night. I stroked her back and shoulders for a bit, making her feel good for a change. I really was spoiled that night, however, although MasterDoc had given Lana a sybian ride before I got home from work.

When we stopped, I needed to help MasterDoc with some things. I felt totally worn out and went to bed after getting him settled. Of course, I thanked our guest heartily before going to bed.

No One’s Perfect

Published on August 7, 2010 in bdsm, caning, D/s, DeeDee, depression, flogging, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, piss play, sex toys, spanking, swinging, threesome and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

Sometimes when I sit down to write about my experiences, I find myself at a loss where to start. The writing doesn’t always flow easily from my fingers through the keyboard, and with an ADD Dom by my side to distract me, it can even be harder.

We had sex yesterday afternoon, but it didn’t go well. Suffice it to say I felt like I needed intimacy and closeness, and MasterDoc thought a beating and objectification were in order. It wasn’t. It wasn’t anything traumatic, even with my collar on I’d have spoken up if trauma was going to happen. I know he would want to know such things. But I started off cranky and just became more annoyed as he beat me, and then fucked me. I didn’t get turned on. I didn’t come. Now in his defense, treating me rough and as a fucktoy can get me really worked up oftentimes. It just so happens that this particular afternoon it did the opposite. I went off to take a nap after, and griped about the experience to him before I went to sleep (after my collar was off). Once we both got up from our naps we talked, and thankfully I realize that he’s a human being, and therefore not perfect. I don’t expect him to be. So often he does exactly the right thing for me, but it’s to be expected in the real world that now and then he’ll misjudge what’s needed. I’m proud of myself that acted appropriately as a sub and didn’t mouth off during it, but I waited til after when my collar was off and we could talk about it.

I feel like our relationship is getting better all the time. I’m learning not to overreact to things. We discuss things much more calmly than before. (He’s always been a proponent of calm.) I’m learning not to expect perfection from him. I’m sure I’ve said before that I don’t expect him to be perfect, but I think on some level a submissive wants his/her Dom to be like a god – perfect, always worthy of awe. But while we have those moments and they’re beautiful, in real life people are not perfect. I know that a worthwhile Dom is one who takes the time to learn from their mistakes. A worthwhile Dom is one that can admit that he/she fucked up. And a worthwhile submissive works with his/her Dom to make things better, and still respects the Dom even when they’ve made a mistake and admit it.

Later, we were supposed to go out to the swing club (me, MasterDoc and DeeDee), but when MasterDoc called the owner up it turns out it’s closed currently for construction. Phooey. We had all been looking forward to going out.

We decided to make our own fun at home, even though it meant we didn’t have the audience we’d have at a club. DeeDee, ever creative, started role playing being a stranger who has come to play with a new couple (MasterDoc and I). We didn’t keep up with it for long, but it was fun and inventive to role play.

MasterDoc had DeeDee keep the camera handy. Lately he’s into getting photos of my face during orgasm. I really wish I could share them here. It’s so interesting for me to see as I don’t normally see myself during orgasm. We joked around a bit, as we were all in a pretty silly mood. Then we started to focus and get down to business. MasterDoc quickly put me in my happy place (aka subspace) by stroking my face and my body. It’s wonderful how with just a little focus he can put me there so easily now.

He had to interrupt the proceedings to use the bathroom, and alas he decided to piss on DeeDee. I could hear them in the bathroom next door as he made her come while he pissed on her. I played with some of my Lelo toys (the Gigi til the power ran out and the Nea after). MasterDoc came back in to me after, and he realized that he couldn’t just start up with me again. After such an intense scene, DeeDee needed aftercare. He thought it would be cute if we each cuddled her from either side and he got her to come in and lay on the bed between us. It was definitely a good thing and I joked that she was getting the “deluxe aftercare” last night. As horny as I was, I could put that aside for a moment to enjoy cuddling. DeeDee and I don’t really cuddle, but it wouldn’t be a bad thing to do at all.

She was going to rest on the floor after she felt better – she didn’t want to keep us from fooling around, but she didn’t want to be alone either. I could totally understand that and was fine with her staying there. She didn’t get to rest much, however, before MasterDoc got her taking photos.

To be continued….