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Fucking with an Audience

Published on March 11, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, cunnilingus, cunt, emotions, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masochism, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, spanking and squirting. 2 Comments

I recently spent a few days at MasterDoc’s and I took a day off from work to spend more time with him. We took advantage of my being off work and went out to the swing club the evening before. It was the kind of evening where I thrill to even the touch of his hand as we walked to the club. I was happy that we settled in a bed pretty quickly once we got to the club and started fooling around, with quite an audience forming.

I can’t recall the precise order of things. I know he had me put my collar on. I know he took the time to ask me if I was happy that I was going to get sex. (I felt insecure the other day when he wasn’t interested and needed reassurance that it wasn’t that he didn’t want sex with me (since, as I insecurely thought at the time, DeeDee must have met his needs the weekend before). I admitted openly at that time that I was aware it was my insecurity speaking.) He admonished me to focus more on the good things and less on the bad. He pointed out that being needy and clingy wouldn’t get me more time with him, it’s actually more likely to do the opposite.

At some point in the evening he slapped my face a bit as the crowd formed. I felt a little like he was upset with me and there seemed to be more public humiliation than usual that night. This could just be my perception, I don’t know. He also spanked me for a while, but the sensation felt good.

I was pleased to suck his cock as a bunch of guys watched. I thought about how hot it is that I’m his slut and that he can get me to do what he wants in front of all those guys. I thought about how it must be hot for him to be able to exhibit this control. As I sucked his cock he loosened the halter top I had on and he groped my ass. It had to have been clear to the audience that he could do pretty much anything he wanted to do with me.

I sucked and deep throated as much as possible, and I think I managed to control my gag reflex pretty well. Now if only I could control it when I have a gag in my mouth. (Gags often literally make me gag.) He had me take a break and we cuddled. I was happy to cuddle, I needed that as much as I needed the sex. But I was also hot for him as I stroked his chest.

He had me spread my legs and he slapped my pussy pretty hard. The guys around us made appreciative comments. Like my usual shy exhibitionist self I didn’t really look at them. He had me turn around so my head was near the end of the bed, and he fucked me from behind. He let a couple of guys touch me while he did this – groping my tits and such. He spanked my ass. He made me come hard and I squirted all over the sheets. The guys around us loved that. Some talked about wanting me to squirt on their faces.

We rested for a while but somehow ended up fooling around again in short order. He had me get between his legs as he sat higher than me on the pillows, facing the crowd. I had to get my body low on the bed to suck his cock and lick the flesh next to his balls. He told me a few times to get in there with my tongue, and again there was hotness over the fact that I was his submissive slut, burying her face in his crotch. I’m sure the guys around us, dominant types or no, were truly envious of him.

He fucked me a second time and I came screaming and squirting all over again. He tried to have me give a hand job to one of the guys nearby while he did this but I couldn’t hold myself up on one arm. (I suppose that’s one bonus when you have a young, fit sub – she or he can get into and hold positions I can’t. Oh well, this is real life and not porn.)

I was happily cuddling him when he had me lay on my back so one of the guys could touch me. The guy played with my pussy – not bad, not spectacular. Then he asked (somewhat pleadingly) if he could lick my pussy. MasterDoc let him and he did a good job. I came some more and hopefully the guy was all sorts of happy that I did manage to squirt a little bit with him. He fingered me at the same time, and I found myself wondering what he thought the menstrual cup I had inside me was. I ultimately realized he probably thought it was some form of birth control and I stopped worrying.

We had to ask him to stop as I was exhausted. I think MasterDoc felt somewhat victorious to exhaust me. We lay on the bed for a while resting before we got up and headed home. It was a fairly early night for us, but I had been quite well fucked in that time frame.

Wishes Fulfilled

Published on February 10, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, caning, edge play, fantasy, kink, masochism, nipple clamps, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, stress, trust and wishing box. 0 Comments

I haven’t blogged in over a week, not content that I’ve generated at least. I’ve been dealing with a particularly rough bout of premenstrual symptoms and haven’t felt like writing. MasterDoc gave me a therapeutic beating last Wednesday that helped in the short term, but ultimately I was having enough internal issues that it didn’t last. Funnily enough, yesterday he and I both – separately – hypothesized that I may have PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder). Definitely something I will ask my gynecologist about next time. I have about a dozen of the symptoms.

Today the symptoms are starting to break, but even yesterday I was feeling anxious and irritable enough to be struggling with it. I didn’t sleep over MasterDoc’s due to the impending snow (and I am glad I went home last night!) but I did visit him for a few hours. We reconnected. He reassured me that yes, if I’m in emotional crisis like I had been last Friday night I did the right thing by getting in touch with him.

Since my mood was still unstable last night, MasterDoc declared I needed a beating and orgasms. And indeed they helped like they usually do. After he shook off the silly mood he was in, he had me lay down on the bed, face down and took the cane to my ass. The strikes focused my thoughts. I took the cane fairly well, but then he dribbled some melted wax on me. Yikes! It pooled slightly on my lower back and I kicked one leg up while trying to deal with the pain. The wax was particularly difficult to take last night. I seem to be out of practice. The caning continued and took me into subspace. I didn’t get wet like I often do but considering how not myself I felt that’s not entirely surprising. He used the little rubber flogger on me, the little ends gathering together to sting my ass.
He had me on hands and knees for some beating, and propped the magic wand against me but it kept slipping away from the perfect spot, so even though I had permission to come I couldn’t quite get there. I let MasterDoc know that it was sliding out of place, and he took over, pressing it against my clit, making me come. He took out a toy that we haven’t really used yet: snake bite suckers. The set comes with two larger ones and one thinner sucker that’s just right for the clitoris. Thankfully he only put the larger two on my nipples. As my tits hung down he commented on how they resembled udders. He flicked them with his fingers which hurt. He has decided he really likes them, and as I can wear them longer than nipple clamps he plans to have me walking around the swing club with them on. He had me kneel up, and he tormented my nipples some more.

He had me lay on my back to be fucked so he could continue to play with the nipple suckers. He tweaked them, fucked me, slapped my face. I went from zero to sixty in about two seconds. He told me I could come at will and I came, but then I came even harder as he gently but firmly applied pressure to my throat for the first time. Previously I had been afraid of even the hint of breathplay as I’m asthmatic (and have experienced not being able to breathe. Not really fun.) but I had put in my wishing box that I was curious to try a little bit with him, since I trust MasterDoc to know what he’s doing (and to know what to do in case of an emergency). He pressed a bit harder than I had expected, grabbing my collar close against my throat. For a second, I wasn’t sure if I was scared of this…. but then I came, harder than I had to this point. I was amazed by how hard I came.

I was very, very happy and calm after that.

He next had me suck his cock, and he worked in yet another wish from my wishing box: grabbing my head and choking me on his cock a few times. I find that I don’t gag as badly as I initially thought and I really like that he’s got his cock shoved down my throat and his hand firmly on my head as the thrusts his hips upward. His cock gets extra slick with my saliva which makes it even easier than usual to suck. He had me rub his wet cock over my face and I did as I was told. (Of course.)

His cock hard again, he debated fucking my ass or fucking my cunt again. He eventually opted for my cunt and got me on hands and knees. He said I had been a good girl and gave me the magic wand to use on myself. He started off slowly, teasing. He’d then fuck me harder for a moment. I kept the wand pressed against my clit but he told me not to come until I asked permission. He wanted me to take my time so he could fuck me as long as he liked. I was moaning like crazy, feeling amazing even though I was holding back from orgasm. I almost didn’t want it to end. I wish I had a recording of my moaning and babbling at that point. Out of nowhere, he told me to come. And I came as he fucked me some more. When his cock was pushed out he slapped my cunt to keep me coming and I sprayed come all over my hand, the throe, and the magic wand.

I was in a wondrous daze after that orgasm. It was hard to find somewhere to lay down since there was a big puddle, but I sat against the wall, legs splayed. Despite using the menstrual cup, there was a smudge of blood on my leg (and the come that came out of me was tinted pink due to some menstrual content.) My hands felt like they were buzzing, and it took me a moment to realize this was from holding the magic wand to my clit for a while. I felt positively amazing. If they could make that feeling into a pill form I think I’d become addicted. Oh yes.

After I cleaned up, we sat in the living room and he put on the basketball game. He had me grab pillows so I could sit on the floor at his feet – another thing I had requested in my wishing box. I happily played with my new smart phone while I sat on the floor between his legs. Occasionally I’d hug his thigh and kiss it. And other times he’d smack me playfully with his hard cock. It was an evening I sorely needed after the emotional upheaval of this month’s cycle.

Threesome Weekend

Published on January 31, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunt, exhibitionism, flogging, kink, masochism, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, poly, porn, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, swinging and threesome. 2 Comments

I think I’ve turned a new corner with polyamory. DeeDee is visiting MasterDoc and I spent some time with both of them this weekend, and I finally realize that being poly can include having a fabulous time with both your partner and one of their other partners. I’ve always been fond of DeeDee, but I was a bit possessive of time with MasterDoc. But this weekend, the three of us went to a club Friday night and hung out at MasterDoc’s on Saturday and I wouldn’t have changed it for the world.

We were supposed to go to a kink party that all of us were looking forward to, but the party host had to change the date in his struggle to find a good venue for the party. MasterDoc was having a bad day but I managed to convince him that we should go out anyway. He started the evening grumpy but in short order he was in a better mood. How could he not be with two lovely ladies eager to go out and fuck in public with him? He took us out to dinner at a pub near the swing club.I have a great time laughing with them both and it’s wonderful to hang out with people who you can be yourself with. I can be a kinky slut and it’s not considered a bad thing, not at all.

At the club, MasterDoc started the night with paddling me. I seem to be enjoying harder spankings these days. The only down side? A guy who was too aggressive and space invading. He’s an older man (in his 60’s or so) and he and his wife are often at the club. Now, if he were charming and kind I might just be persuaded to be interested in him despite the age difference. However, he is pushy. And when I climbed on the spanking bench he moved over to be right by where my head would be. Back the fuck off! I gave him such a nasty look. He moved after that. He kept making comments, and sitting too close, and humming incessantly to draw attention to himself. MasterDoc told him to leave at one point and the man didn’t. MasterDoc had to talk to him again when he was trying to talk to me while DeeDee got spanked. Had the guy touched me, he would have gotten a right telling off – even with my collar on. Fucker couldn’t take the hint that I was totally, and obviously, not interested.
But back to the spanking…. When I could block out the idiot, I enjoyed the hard long spanking MasterDoc gave me. He had DeeDee hold the vibe to my clit and I enjoyed the combination of spanking and vibe. (Although we need to give DeeDee a little more instruction on exactly where to put the vibe.)

After my spanking came DeeDee’s spanking. MasterDoc had her suck his cock while she lay over the spanking bench. I settled down on the bed and placed pillows between myself and the pushy guy sitting on the other end. I did my best to ignore him. I played with myself with a vibe while watching the spanking. MasterDoc told me to use a vibe on DeeDee, and I got up and placed my bullet vibe on her clit on high. When I tease women I tend to be a bit relentless rather than teasing. I place the vibe right on her clit so that the vibrations quickly take her to the edge of orgasm. She had to hold back until she got permission from MasterDoc and I was grinning ear to ear while I drove her crazy. She came and the crowd in the room got quite a show. Her cunt was quite wet and consequently so was my hand.

We packed up, and MasterDoc was delighted to find that the big bed in the next room was now available. DeeDee goes to get water for us all while I suck MasterDoc’s cock. I like having an audience while I do this, I hope that the men in the room are imagining that I’m blowing them. DeeDee takes a turn and I unbutton MasterDoc’s shirt so I can stroke his chest. I think to nibble on his neck a bit and he clearly enjoys getting his cock sucked while I do this. The men around us had to be green with envy. This guy (MasterDoc) has two attractive women tending to his every need and making him feel amazing.

Next he toys with both of us. He sucks on my nipples while DeeDee massages his ass from behind. It’s all so decadent and hot. He gets us using toys on our clits. DeeDee gets revved up quickly. I take a bit longer since the pushy guy is humming loudly and ruining my concentration. MasterDoc bends down and licks my clit for a moment, and I can focus better on my pleasure after that. From his perch kneeling at the end of the bed between us, he verbally teases us, asking if we’re ready to come. This teasing usually serves to make me hotter, faster. He looks us straight in the eye in turn. He tells us to come at the same time. I can only imagine how cool it must have been to watch us come simultaneously. I squirted quite a bit. MasterDoc reached over and fingered me to make me come more, and louder. He then did the same for DeeDee. It was pretty impressive.

We cuddled after. I lay in my little puddle of come. We thanked MasterDoc simultaneously for the orgasms.

I was hoping to get fucked, but we ended up hanging out mostly after this. We ran into some people we know, and I got to talking with the slutty bartender, the one who gave quite a show squirting last time we were there. Apparently, she was hitting on me. MasterDoc pointed out after that she was actually playing with her pussy while talking to me and clearly wanted me to touch her. Doh. I was, as usual, completely oblivious. It’s really a low-self-esteem problem: I don’t think someone who has what is a culturally accepted body (i.e., slim and toned) would be attracted to me. Yes, I realize I need to work on that. No wonder I end up fucking so few women.

We called it a night early, but the next day there was much fooling around at MasterDoc’s. He put porn on his new large screen tv and we marveled at how up close and personal it seemed when played on that tv. The porn was exceptionally hot for vanilla porn – the women seemed to really be enjoying themselves. Watching people fucking who are into it is way hotter than watching someone who’s just doing it for the money and waiting for it all to be over.

The porn got us all worked up and MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a while. It felt amazing but my damn knees gave out. Eventually the pain in my knees blocked out my ability to enjoy the fuck and I had to ask to stop. I didn’t come then. We all lay on the mat on the floor and DeeDee and I massaged MasterDoc. Usually, he makes the point that we’re lucky to have him, but yesterday he actually came out with, “I am a very lucky man.” It felt wonderful to hear him acknowledge that. I think we’re all lucky.

Hunger won out over horniness and so we ordered lunch. Things shifted away from sex and we ended up watching Fiddler on the Roof on tv. After the movie, I started to pack up my things to go home since Saturday night was a night for DeeDee and MasterDoc to be alone. As I started to get dressed, MasterDoc said he had planned to give me a sybian ride before I went home. Well now, that was certainly enough to get me to take my clothes off again.

I rode the sybian while MasterDoc worked the controls and I leaned forward onto him. DeeDee got some practice in with the little flogger while I rode. At first, she missed me and hit the machine but after some coaching from MasterDoc she gave me a nice flogging. When I came, she pressed up against me and my clit came in even better contact with the vibrating sybian. I had such an amazing, extended orgasm from the two of them working me over. I had to collapse on the floor after.

When I had recovered, I got dressed and headed out. As I walked into the cold evening, I playfully exaggerated in my head the notion that I’ve been turned out into the cold, cold night, all alone. Oh poor me! And I laughed to myself, because even though we’re conditioned to think that’s the way it is, I really didn’t feel like that. Sure I had wanted to stay where it was friendly and warm, but I also want to make MasterDoc happy, and giving him space to hang out with other women makes him happy. Also, I was looking forward to an evening alone. The only negative to the evening was the possible domestic violence scene I could hear playing out from the floor below me now and then. I felt really unsafe while that was going on, and bewildered, and not sure what to do. (Do you call the police on your landlord, the man who could then throw you out? Particularly when you’re alone for the night and he’s a gruff bully?)

But when it was quiet, I had a lovely time by myself. I watched Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, a long time favorite movie, and was just tickled at how cool Jane Russell is.

Überdom

Published on January 21, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, dom, kink, masochism, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

Lately, with DeeDee being MasterDoc’s submissive and Stacina being a playmate, I get to enjoy seeing him Dom other women. It’s a lot of fun even to watch. Last night, while I was in bed submitting to him (collar on) he was also he was teasingly trying to mindfuck Stacina a little via text message on his phone. He had come up with an activity for next week when we see her, and he was teasing her about it by not telling her what it is. Her curiosity was met with more teasing. It was hot to witness. (And hey, she was complicit in teasing me weeks back when she and MasterDoc talked online while I waited for his attention.)

He put his phone down for a while, and had me turn onto my stomach. He used the riding crop and the wooden paddle on my ass and thighs. I had cringed when he told me to get out the wooden paddle, as it’s harsher than the leather one. I was in a good mindset though, and I found the spanking to be highly erotic, as it gradually got more intense. The sensation wasn’t painful for much of it, but when it did get painful I was totally turned on by the idea that wow, this man has such power over me that I will let him hurt me. Sometimes impact play is about the sensation and endorphin rush that ensues, but other times it’s about the submission. It’s about doing something to give him pleasure. Only recently have I started to be able to believe that his yin to my yang is really possible, i.e., he derives pleasure from the pain he gives me just as I derive pleasure from receiving it. I’ve always understood masochism, but not being especially sadistic I had a harder time truly believing that nice people could gain pleasure from my (or others’) suffering. But somehow lately it’s clicked for me that it’s hot on both ends (and not just something nice the Dom does for the sub), and I find myself turned on even more knowing that I’m giving him pleasure by my submission and letting him do with me as he wishes.

I was smart and had plugged in the Hitachi magic wand beforehand, and he said, “You’re learning!” as he grabbed it to use on me. He teased my clit, moved the wand around my nether lips and had me writhing. I kept trying to get my clit against the vibrations and press it harder when it was there. He used the paddle on me some more, and then resumed teasing my clit. I thought to myself that it must be such a turn on to see a woman writhing and moaning desperately under your hands. At that moment I was so wanton and slutty that I wouldn’t hold back my cunt’s yearning one bit. He gave me more crop on my ass and the back of my thighs.

I kept moaning and writhing, straining to rub my clit against the vibrating wand. He held me on verge of coming. My mouth was slack and open and I just kept moaning and moaning.

He stopped short of letting me come. He had me turn over. He takes the wooden paddle to my tits and inner thighs. He slaps my pussy and then grabs the crop to use on me as well. He takes up the vibrator again and teases me some more. Then he lubes up the Ella dildo (review coming soon) and slides it into my pussy. He takes it out, puts more lube on, and asks if it’s well lubed. He fucks me with it slowly, then quickly. He moved the head of the dildo around my cunt. He pressed it into my g-spot – which was ultimately what pushed me over the edge. He told me to come, and I came super hard as he fucked me with it. He kept me coming and coming despite the fact that after a while I was gasping for air. I didn’t think I could come any more but he kept stimulating me and I kept coming. He relaxed for a brief moment, then placed the magic wand on clit. Immediately I came again intensely. I squirted a puddle under me. The orgasms were fucking amazing.

After I’ve recovered, he has me put on porn. I found some sex swing porn online and he had me get up on hands and knees to fuck me. As I was so aroused from earlier, the fucking was made up of more wonderfulness and hanging on the edge of orgasm. He fucks me a long time and finally I break down and ask permission to come. He made me beg for it, which was even hotter. “Please Sir, may I come? Oh please, please. I want to come Sir, please!” He must have been satisfied with my begging as he let me come, and again he kept forcing the orgasms out of me until I collapsed on the bed.

I was exhausted, and very, very happy.

Amazing Night

Published on January 12, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, exhibitionism, humiliation play, humor, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

Unusually, there were lots of couples at the club last night. We didn’t get to play with any of them, but it did lead to a night with more going on than usual. I think the couples may have even outnumbered the single men for once.

We always take some time to relax, walk around a bit, see who’s there and what’s going on. I try to wait patiently until MasterDoc is ready to take me into the room of his choosing to play. This time we were in the back bedroom. It’s a little more private than others, but of course being a swing club it’s not entirely private. And hey, if we wanted privacy we would have stayed home.

We played in there, and gradually drew a crowd. He was naked when I returned from the restroom and he had me put on my collar and suck his cock. I went at it with gusto and a few people came in to peek, one man even walked around to the other end of the bed to get a good luck at my cocksucking. MasterDoc was hard in no time and I kept working his cock over, sliding it into the depths of my mouth, deep throating it as much as possible. He had me rub his cock between my breasts and I used my hands to press my large, soft breasts together around his cock. I rubbed the head on my nipples. I sucked his rigid cock some more until he told me to stop.

He played with my body – nipples, breasts, pussy. He took my bullet vibe and used it against my clit. I yearned for him to push it against the right side of my clit, for some reason that side is more sensitive. When I masturbate I almost exclusively press it against the right side. But the teasing was delicious. I took over the vibe and pressed it hard against that sweet spot. He fingered me and made me come. Between the feel of his fingers inside me, massaging my g-spot hard, and the buzzy vibe on my clit I was lost in the orgasms I had. I was loud. Very loud. People came to see what was going on. I’m not sure if I was speaking in tongues or just muttering, “Fuck, fuck, fuck yes!” over and over.

He fucked me from behind after a short break and again an audience gathered. It seemed like I wasn’t quite getting into things – I was moaning and feeling good but not quite getting to the edge. (However I was really enjoying the fact that people were watching me.) But then he told me to come and I came, squirting a pond’s worth of liquid. I soaked nearly half the bed. I wish I had a camera with me because it was something to behold. He slapped my pussy and stroked it as I kept coming. I wanted his fingers inside me so badly, and he finally slid them in and toyed with my g-spot. The audience was wowed. I came loudly, hard and for a long time, with a soaking stream of come to show for it. I couldn’t help myself, I just laughed. I couldn’t stop giggling about the mess I had made. Cuddles weren’t possible since we each had to take a rest on opposite sides of the puddle. Luckily the club puts down waterproof lining under the sheets. Of course, I got a towel and cleaned up after myself, putting the wet sheets in the hamper.

While some might have been embarrassed, I was proud of my orgasm. I had such a grin on my face and I walked around standing straight and tall. I felt amazing. The orgasm was not only impressive from the outside, it was impressive for me to experience too.

We got dressed, got drinks and were waved over by a couple. Immediately after watching my orgasm, the guy had said that he wanted lessons from MasterDoc, and MasterDoc told him he gives lessons. The woman seemed keen on her man learning whatever it was that made me come so spectacularly. MasterDoc told him many of his tricks – key one being taking the time to observe and see what turns the woman you’re with on. Every woman is different but if you’re willing to sublimate your needs/desires for a couple of sessions, you will learn much and she will thank you for it!

After a rest he led me to the bdsm room in back. He had me pull my pants off and get on the spanking bench. My pain tolerance rather high and he spanked me hard. I was surprised at how much I could take, the first bit of spanking turned me on way more than it hurt. He kept at it, using his hands, using the slut paddle. It was a prolonged spanking and one I was happy to receive. MasterDoc would shine the flashlight on my red ass every now and then, and I delighted in the humiliation of it. By the time I got up (brain drenched in endorphins), there was a crowd and MasterDoc joked with them. He tried to convince people to try the paddle – male or female, he pointed out that being a top is not a gendered thing. There was some playing and I had to laugh at all the “big, strong” men who were too wussy to try what I had just had done for an extended period of time. My ass was sore, but I sat down while they joked and played around and someone pointed out that I was actually able to sit after that spanking! One woman actually got MasterDoc to let her give him a few swats (after much persuading). How odd! He didn’t react really. Meanwhile, endorphins were flowing through me and the soreness of my butt was negligible thanks to them.

I walked out of that club last night feeling like a million bucks. The sex was amazing. The spanking was amazing. I got in MasterDoc’s car grinning like an idiot. I felt like I was on some sort of drugs. I felt so happy that I’m someone who has embraced sexuality and not let society’s conventions stop me from having the time of my life.

Pegging My Dom

Published on January 11, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anal, blow jobs, kink, sex toys, spanking, submissive, sybian and threesome. 1 Comment

Over the weekend, I saw a bit of DeeDee and MasterDoc while DeeDee was visiting for a week. I arrived when they were just starting a show; MasterDoc had sent me a text telling me to be in sub mode when I walked in. Their guest was a guy writing book with chapter on BDSM, looking to research it for the book. From what I heard he had some erroneous ideas about BDSM. Hopefully he will listen to what he learned from DeeDee and MasterDoc and write something at least somewhat accurate. (I’m not holding my breath.) I hid myself in the bedroom while they did their show, and it was incredibly hot to listen to the spanking from there. The pitch rose until DeeDee was begging to come. Rowr. I got called in, and found DeeDee on the sybian. MasterDoc wanted me to help paddle her while she came. I gleefully obliged. He said I wasn’t hitting her hard enough but her butt was definitely more rosy after I paddled her. She recovered on floor after, and while he tended to her, MasterDoc had me lead the guest out. When their guest mentioned needing a place to sit to put on his shoes, I p0inted out that there’s chairs in the dining room. Dickwad looked at me, said, “Yes I saw that.” So much for trying to be gracious and helpful. I wasn’t just being a sub, I was trying to be a decent hostess. Snide comments are not appreciated. Jerk.

During the visit DeeDee did a lot of the fetching but I got asked to chip in with some cleaning. I was happy to have some help , but when DeeDee would do something like get me a drink, I felt weird being at all waited on. I’m not used to that. My mother used to tell me I’m spoiled, but it dawned on me that night that I got used to caring for myself at a fairly young age. MasterDoc pointed out that I let Davey do stuff for me, but I pointed out that initially he had to convince me he wanted to do that. I would do stuff myself and he’d get frustrated because he likes feeling needed.

The plan for the evening was for me to use a strap on on MasterDoc. Yes. You read that right. It’s rare that he lets a woman peg him, and he only ever lets submissives do it – while another lady blows or plays with him. These criteria need to be met before he will do it. He’s talked for a while now about letting me do it, since we’ve developed an adequate level of trust. (The last time was years ago with his submissive at the time.) It’s funny, because usually he’s totally comfortable with liking anal stimulation as a straight guy. He’s really sex positive and not the least bit homophobic usually. But when a strap on enters the picture, he gets a little funny. He has to have another woman sucking him off at the same time so it’s “not gay.” He admits it’s absurd, but he’s to some extent a product of his generation.

We were setting up in the living room, and chatting, trying to ease into the scene. Somehow in the course of conversation I came out with, “In my time we had to walk down to the store to buy porn! We didn’t have the internet!” as an “In my day we had to walk a mile, uphill, both ways to get to school,” sort of thing. We laughed and talked about coming up with more. I thought for a bit and came up with, “In my time we had to use Crisco because there wasn’t lube at the corner store!” Hopefully I will manage to come up with a few more. (Can you think of any?)

I got down to business working MasterDoc’s ass over – massaging, lubing – while DeeDee sucked his cock. I gradually worked a finger in at his request and after trying to loosen things up gently with my finger I gradually worked a butt plug in. After some play with the plug, MasterDoc decided he was ready and he got on hands and knees as it seemed the best position. I had my harness on with my red glitter, silicone dildo, a slim one I specifically bought a few years back to peg boys with. MasterDoc kept telling me to add more lube, and my hands were so slippery I could barely handle the lube bottle! Getting lube into his ass was tricky. We need to get one of those applicators that let you apply lube inside the anus. Lubed as much as I could get him, I tried to get the dildo in. DeeDee was playing with his cock in the meantime. I’m not sure how much of the dildo got in there, probably very little. MasterDoc had me stop for a minute because it hurt, and by then my knees had given out from kneeling on the floor. We had to stop for the night. So it wasn’t entirely successful, but we gave it a shot. I’m sure we’ll try it again sometime.

As I was quite horny at the tail end of the week, and hadn’t had sex in a few days, MasterDoc offered me a horsey (sybian) ride. I had a hard time getting into mood though. Sometimes I can pop on top of the dildo and get warmed up as we go, but I needed foreplay before sticking anything in me that night. MasterDoc worked on it, sucking my nipple and such. As DeeDee walked by to go to the kitchen, he got her to come in and suck on my other tit, and I played with my bullet vibe on my clit. Turned on enough that I might come if we went further, he put me on the sybian. MasterDoc had DeeDee paddle my ass like I had done to her. She did it too light, unfortunately. I managed to come even though it was hard to get myself in quite the right headspace that night. All in all, everyone got some attention that day. I slept in the spare bedroom since it was DeeDee’s weekend with him, and to be quite honest sometimes I’m thrilled to sleep alone. I sleep so much better without a snoring guy beside me. It can be nice to have someone next to you, but I treasure those nights alone too.

I made a concerted effort to not take too much time from DeeDee while I hung out with them. Not sure how I did, but at one point I was hit with an attention craving, and I reasoned it out rather than asking for attention. Would I fall into a depression or anything serious without the attention? No. Could I “suck it up buttercup” and take care of myself that night? Yes. And so I did since I didn’t want to infringe on DeeDee’s time too much. I think I was more comfortable than I usually am. I think I’ve grown a bit more secure lately. Of course, in a depressed mood that could disappear into the ether, but for now I’m feeling good.

Needles and Ice

Published on January 4, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, kink, masochism, needle play, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, sex toys and spanking. 0 Comments

I hadn’t expected any nooky Sunday before I had to leave MasterDoc’s place. After all, I had had an incredibly fun weekend with him. But he had something else in mind. He started talking about needles and ice cubes.

The funny thing is the ice cubes scare me more. I don’t like being cold. A needle stick is very brief but if you get the chills you can be shivering for a while. He teased me by saying he’d put an ice cube in my pussy. Yipes! But strangely enough, I was turned on by him teasing me with something awful.

When my collar was on, he had me lay down on my stomach on the mat in the living room. He had just carried in an ice cube tray, so I knew he wasn’t just teasing about the ice. I could feel the coolness of alcohol wipes as he cleaned the skin on my ass. I waited for a needle stick, but instead he dragged an ice cube over both cheeks. Eep! It wasn’t as awful as I had anticipated. Later he said that hey, wasn’t he nice to numb my butt with ice before the needles? He was being a little facetious there as my butt was not numbed from the gentle trail of ice. He grabbed one cheek in his hand and I knew that the needle was coming next. I yelped a little, and kicked up my opposite leg as I tried not to flinch as he stuck me with the needle.

This was followed by some hard spanks on my opposite cheek. He was going to do needles on both sides, he later said, but he decided to keep one cheek free for spanking. Again he grabbed my butt firmly and slid a needle in.

He next teased my clit with the bullet vibe. I was really aroused by the combination of sensations. He slid the bullet inside me and left it there. He asked if I could feel it and while I could it didn’t do much to stimulate me. It’s just not intense enough. He spanked me some more and flicked the needles in my ass with his fingers to make them smart.

He sat down on the chair near my head and told me to crawl over there and suck his cock. I did and while I sucked he told me to use my hands. I shifted my weight so I could hold myself up better and use my hands to gently manipulate the inside of this thighs and around his genitals. Meanwhile, I kept sucking, inspired by his telling me that if I got his cock hard that he’d fuck me with it. I felt so delightfully slutty kneeling there, needles in one ass cheek, sucking his cock deep into my mouth. He grabbed my head a bit, which never fails to turn me on.

He fucked me from behind and allowed me to use the bullet on my clit. Between the buzzing on my sensitive clit and his big cock plunging inside me, I was incredibly aroused. He’d flick the needles every so often, and it was so strangely hot. I’d moan more when he did this. He’s been fucking me quite hard lately and it drives me crazy. At some point he pulled the needles out of my skin but I barely noticed.

He tells me to come and I do, muscles pushing his cock out. I want nothing more than for him to continue the amazing feelings with his hands, and he fingers me, prodding my g-spot making me come over and over. I start to sag towards the floor from being on my knees as I’m overcome with the waves of coming.

I collapsed in a heap after, and was grinning like crazy. I don’t think I have adequate words to capture just how hot this fuck was. I was thankful when he admitted afterward that he was going to push an ice cube into my asshole as he was fucking me, but he couldn’t reach the ice tray. Phew.

On With the Show

Published on January 3, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, embarrassment, exhibitionism, flogging, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm on command, photos, sex, sex toys, show, slut, spanking and submissive. 1 Comment

Late Saturday afternoon we put on a show. I wasn’t initially in the mood for one, I was hoping for a quiet afternoon in and possibly some more use of my behind the back restraints. (I’m keeping my fingers crossed that they will get a fair amount of use.) MasterDoc had me dress in the maid costume from Halloween, and I felt silly. I was embarrassed and not in the hot-humiliation-play sort of way. He pointed out that had I asked nicely not to wear it, I may have been allowed to forgo it that day, but since I was a bit cranky I ended up in the costume. I started feeling a bit better after I put on fishnet stockings and the high heels. They made me feel sexier as did our guest’s reaction when he saw me. His immediate reaction was, “Wow! Very nice! Very pretty.”

I think heels look fabulous, but I can’t stand wearing the bloody things. I also thought that MasterDoc’s neighbors must be cursing me as I clumped around on the wooden floor in heels. I asked for permission to take them off and thankfully he let me. I got drinks for everyone as MasterDoc started making conversation with our guest. I sat on the couch next to MasterDoc in my silly maid outfit and blushed profusely as they talked about me, and MasterDoc talked about our relationship. It’s funny, the feminist in me realizes that I shouldn’t be all into being liked for my looks and sex appeal, but damn it does feel good to feel sexy.

My friend Coy Pink recently sent along a new toy when she was so very kind to send me some yummy tea. (Let me just say, she rocks. And she has some hooooot pictures on her site.) She had won an electrosex power box and wasn’t interested in it herself. She asked if I was interested and since MasterDoc has some TENS units we’ve used, I said yes. We had taken it out of the box and looked it over, but not played with it yet. MasterDoc applied two of the electrodes on either side of my left nipple. He played with the settings on the box and for a while I didn’t feel anything. Then he started to get it going and I jumped suddenly. Our guest said, “Oh she felt that!” and seemed amused. He asked if it could be used elsewhere, such as my pussy. MasterDoc said, ooh he’ s a meanie, and opted instead for my inner thigh since he’s not accustomed to using the unit yet. He played with shocking me a bit more before deciding to put the toy away. I’m curious to see what it would be like if we had a vaginal electrode attachment. Yikes. Could be amazingly fun or horrible torture.

He had me get on my knees and blow him. It’s a very subservient position to be in – on your knees, breasts bared, sucking the cock of your dressed Dom and being watched by another perv. In case you might misinterpret that, I mean it’s hot. Plus I’m quite happy with my “slut’s pacifier” in my mouth.

Our guest was appreciative, paying me many compliments throughout the show. This added to the ego boost MasterDoc had been giving me lately by giving me lots of compliments and reminding me how much he loves me. I have to admit that I’m not feeling so down on myself now.

I got bent over the scoop and flogged and paddled. (He used the wooden paddle, which is much harsher than the leather slut paddle.) I’ll include some pictures here for your viewing pleasure. MasterDoc also teased me with my bullet vibe and played with me until I begged to come. I came in typically spectacular fashion – you can’t mistake me for someone who’s not enjoying herself.

(New camera. Haven’t fixed the date stamp!)

After I recovered, MasterDoc had me do more dick sucking, followed by laying on my back masturbating on the mat on the floor. It’s funny how I have no trouble doing this in front of a stranger (I mean, it’s HOT) but I do keep my eyes closed as much as possible. I was already really wet from coming before. MasterDoc had me get on hands and knees and he fucked me from behind. He should be quite proud at the good fucking he gave me, there are men younger than 55 who can’t manage what he did. Rowr. Again, I came spectacularly hard to the delight of our guest. He swore that he would definitely come again for another show.

And now for something completely different…

Published on January 2, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, cunnilingus, cunt, exhibitionism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex parties, slut and spanking. 0 Comments

(compared to last post at least)

We went out to our usual swing club last night. As can be expected the eve after New Year’s Eve, it was fairly empty, and there were mostly single men. We wandered a bit and initially we were the only couple there. After we relaxed with drinks, MasterDoc had me put my collar on. We put pillows on the hard floor and I got on my knees to give him a blow job. As usual, we enjoyed having an audience – single men immediately came over and sat nearby to watch. I was wearing my leather waist cincher and between that and my collar I was very much in sub mode. (And as I was wearing a plunging black bra and black mesh shirt as well, my boobs looked spectacular.) His cock peeked out from his open fly and I sucked it, making sure to move my head around so that I didn’t rub against the same spot over and over, like he taught me. I love hearing him moan lightly and gasp from my licking and sucking. The single guys gave me compliments after, in the hopes that I might be willing to play with them. I don’t think they realized that that was entirely up to MasterDoc.

A young, fit couple came in, and they started fooling around in the “exhibitionists’ room.” Despite the name of this room, there’s mesh curtains hanging that obscured the view. When I came back from a trip to the restroom, MasterDoc had moved onto the bed across from the couple and was watching along with two of the single guys. I joined him. The woman in the couple was mostly still dressed – panties, bra, camisole – the guy still had a t-shirt and socks on. He was into it – into the exhibitionism, into fucking her. He liked to choke her lightly and sometimes she seemed to fight him off doing it. She seemed into the sex only intermittently and she didn’t come as far as I could tell. MasterDoc had me start sucking his cock while he watched the couple fuck. I enjoyed knowing that he was getting a show while I was pleasuring him. When my mouth wore out, he had me give him a hand job as we watched the couple some more. MasterDoc started playing with my breasts, reaching in and coaxing my nipples out of the bra. I was pretty damn horny and I gladly took my top off when he told me to. The couple finished fucking and got dressed.

I got naked; I was somehow proud of my ability to strip when a woman with a much nicer body than me didn’t. The two single men moved closer. I lay back and played with pussy as MasterDoc hands one guy a flashlight to shine light on it. The light hits me in the eyes a bit, so I close my eyes. MasterDoc gives me the bullet vibe I packed and I got worked up quickly as I rubbed the buzzing vibe against my clit. There was something extra hot about feeling my freshly shaved pussy while three clothed men were around me watching. MasterDoc gently touched pussy, which turned me on even more than you would think. The man with the flashlight asked to lick me, but MasterDoc declined. But when the guy wanted to see my asshole, MasterDoc had me show him. MasterDoc had me wet his fingers and he fingered me. In a very short period of time, I begged to come. After making me beg over and over, “Please Sir, may I come??” he let me come loud and hard. I assume MasterDoc let the guy sitting behind my head touch me, he gently touched my hair and face and tugged on my collar. I was surprised that I didn’t mind a stranger pulling on my collar – I found it pretty damn hot actually. The guy was smart enough to do it gently and not scare me.

Then we fucked. I was on hands and knees using the bullet vibe on my clit. He fucked me quite hard and varied the pace and thrusting. I ride it out as long as I can, my face passionately scrunched up, mouth slack, as one guy sits on the bed directly across from me and watches from only two feet away. MasterDoc slaps my ass and calls me bitch a few times along the way. When I couldn’t take it any more, I begged for orgasm. He let me and I came hard – somehow not pushing his cock out. His cock seems extra hard these days. Eventually it did get pushed out, and he decided I had had enough coming. He pulled my legs back so I ended up laying on my tummy, and he ran his hand up my spine. Then he nibbled my back in a few spots which made me moan, smile and giggle naughtily.

I’m sure hearing about this comfort level with my body in public runs so contrary to the person I described in the last post – insecure, shy, self-hating, etc. It’s odd, sometimes I’m confident, sometimes not. Whether I’m ill with a depression then or not makes a huge difference. And it probably doesn’t help that I shrug off some of the things I do as no big deal, when in fact for many people fucking in public, completely naked, while having an imperfect body, would be a very big deal indeed.

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Earlier in the week, I forgot to chronicle a sexual encounter with MasterDoc. It was very different than most of our encounters. I was still trying to regain confidence and calm, and he gently played with my body, gradually working his way down. He went down on me, for what was probably a good twenty minutes. It felt wonderful but I have a hard time coming from oral alone. (It’s strange how things change, I loved oral when I was in my early 20’s and came well from it.) I was eager to come and despite his giving me permission to, I couldn’t quite manage it. But then he added his fingers, and as they probed my g-spot I came. He is expert at making me feel good, and it certainly helped my mood.

Bondage and Being Ignored

Published on December 29, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, bondage, cunt, fantasy, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, submissive and threesome. 1 Comment

I have a new toy to review and I got to try it out last night for the first time. It’s “behind the back restraint“: basically a collar with rings attached and a leather piece leading down the back, at the base of this leather piece are two wrist cuffs. MasterDoc put me in it and I was really quite helpless. He then decided to nap on the sofa and I was to wake him in 15 minutes. I sat there, hands behind my back and became totally aroused. I had been watching kinky porn before this, so I was already in a state of arousal but the bondage and knowing that MasterDoc had essentially “left” me there in that state while he napped down the other end of the couch got me even more worked up. I contemplated why I liked the sensation and I think the vulnerability of having my breasts so exposed and not being able to use my hands at all was the key. The idea of being attacked with nipple clamps that I can’t possibly take off myself, putting me entirely at his mercy made me squirm as I sat there.

He didn’t really nap much but did have me articulate what I was thinking. Then he conjured up a hot outfit to put me in next time we’re out in a club: my leather waist cincher, the behind the back restraint, a leash attached to that collar, Njoy pure plug up my ass, a gag and a blindfold. Wow. That is just so hot. Talking to Stacina online today she added in the idea of a skirt, panties and blouse – that would then be cut off using a sharp, shiny object (blouse and panties anyway).

I was reasonably comfortable in the restraints and I really enjoyed the helplessness. Problem was, we hadn’t set up any necessary items and I couldn’t even stand up from being on the couch with my arms like that! MasterDoc undid the cuffs and sent me off to the bedroom to set up. I was sad to be let free, but certainly it was practical so MasterDoc wouldn’t have to do the setting up.

When the bedroom was set, he lay on the bed and ended up in an IM conversation with Stacina. He had me lay behind him on the bed and amuse myself. I was already wet and playing with my myself when he laughed and filled me in on what Stacina was saying. Apparently she is rather switchy and was suggesting keeping him online talking to her for an extended period of time to torture me. Yikes! Sad thing is, submissive that I am, I got so hot thinking about that – about how they were deliberately ignoring me as I got more and more worked up. I started fantasizing about the two of them controlling me and taking turns fucking me. *fans self* I was really worked up. MasterDoc handed me the magic wand for a while and I teased myself deliciously until the wand started rendering me numb.

He finished his conversation shortly thereafter and turned his attention to me. I was stroking my clit, massaging my cunt. He lay down between my legs and watched me work myself up into a frenzy. My eyes were closed mostly but I loved the idea that he was stroking himself, getting hard while he watched me masturbate. I was feeling really wanton and loose. I think I used to hold back a bit with how horny I was feeling but now I get down to touching myself freely. Before he had even come into the bedroom I ran my hands over my breasts and stomach, passionately aroused.

MasterDoc fucked me from behind, and I held out begging to come for as long as I possibly could. These days I often just wait it out and enjoy the ride until he decides it’s time for me to come. I think I should be taped sometime for the audio track of a porn flick – I moan, gasp and squeal like crazy because I’m so turned on. Lately I like pressing my arousal to the point of near orgasm, but instead of coming I ride the wave of sensation until it ebbs enough to keep me from going over the edge.

The fucking was delicious. I did break down and beg for orgasm and shortly after he let me come. He plunged his cock deep into me as I twitched and came. After a while my vaginal muscles pushed his cock out and I squirted as he slapped my pussy. I kept writhing and coming and next he ran his hand up my back. Every little touch made me keep coming. He spanked my ass, first one cheek than the other and the pain felt so wonderful I cried out, “Yes! Yes!” as I came some more from the pain.

When he told me that I had had enough, I lay there in a daze. I thanked him for the orgasm and I must have been absolutely glowing. I stroked his chest and cuddled for a while, then he decided to shoo me out of the room while he went back online. I was so utterly satisfied that I was happy to go amuse myself with my laptop.