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Mutual Masturbation

Published on December 1, 2009 in Uncategorized, anal, consensual non-consent, cunt, fantasy, horny, kink, masturbation, needle play, porn, sex toys, shio and squirting. 1 Comment

This morning I accidentally posted my brief notes for this blog entry. Hitting “publish” instead of “save draft” resulted in a peek into my creative process. I take notes after events so I have something to remind me of just what went on, so that when I have time, I can flesh things out. Oh well, slip of the mouse.

After yesterday morning’s stressful show, MasterDoc also had possibly lined up a woman who’s local to him who plays with needles. I’ve been keen to try out needle play, you may recall my experience at Floating World. Thankfully, from what I’ve heard this woman is into the design side of piercing and not the “be mean and hurt the fuck out of the sub” side.

Unfortunately, that fell through. We’re supposed to meet her for coffee tomorrow night.

Since I had had countless orgasms earlier in the day, MasterDoc decided that he was going to come. (In the great variations of human sexual response, MasterDoc is one of those men who has trouble coming with a condom on. He’s only come during sex with me maybe once. We get him off via hands.) He put on some hot Japanese porn featuring the ever-popular (in Japanese porn) theme of non-consent. I have to say, while I sometimes worry about non-consent themed porn (Was it really non-consensual? I want it to just be pretend non-consensual.) I do find the idea hot. I liked thinking about putting up a struggle, and then being bound tightly and made to come over and over. I loved the porn and it helped me get into making him feel good. I focused on his reactions as I massaged his thighs and butt. I slowly worked my finger up his asshole. I ran my finger around his anal opening, putting light pressure along all sides of it. I tried to reach for his prostate in the front. I felt very turned on from doing this. When he came he instructed me to remove my finger ever-so-slowly and to press towards the front as I did. He is good at getting really specific about what he likes, and I am well-trained at this point in making him feel good. (But feedback is always useful.)

I was feeling horny after all this. I mentioned this and he gave me permission to masturbate. Hooray! I played with my bullet vibe on my clit and fantasized about physically struggling and being overcome sexually. MasterDoc came over after a very short while and helped by talking dirty to me, holding my legs apart (his forearm acted like a spreader bar between my thighs) and fingering me. I love being fingered, and lately he teases me so much. He ever so slowly touches around my hole. By the time he inserts a finger I’m desperate for it. I was allowed to come at will, and I had a gushing orgasm. I frantically humped his hand as I pressed the vibe to my clit and came.

Lips Parted

Published on November 12, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, gags, humiliation play, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, piss play, porn, sex, sex toys, shio and squirting. 2 Comments

We started the evening with some hugs and cuddles in bed. They’re naked cuddles of course, the best kind.

He asked if I’ve had enough cuddles and when I say yes he told me to suck his cock. I shifted so that I’m leaning on my side by his cock. I take it in my mouth and work it until it’s hard. He acts again on a request I put in the wishing box – he takes firm hold of my head and pushes me down onto his cock. I feel the tip of it hit the back of my throat and I’m surprised at how comfortable I’ve gotten with deep throating. My gag reflex doesn’t always cooperate, but it was doing a fine job relaxing last night. He gags me on his cock a few times and the saliva flows, making for a better, wetter blow job. I enjoyed feeling his cock at the back of my throat and plunged it that deep myself many times.

After a while, he has me stop, and we chat a bit. He takes a look at the wishing box and I’m hopeful that perhaps more of my wishes will become reality. He has me get the ring gag, which I’ve never really used. I’ve just tried it on myself for the review I wrote. He also has me get lube, condoms, a hard dildo (I select the archer wand) and all the nipple clamps. Between the two of us, we have two pair of crocodile clamps and one pair of clover clamps. I’m eager, yet anxious about the clamps. They were another item I named in the wishing box.

He had me put the ring gag in my mouth. My mouth grew a bit dry, but as I got aroused I forgot all about the dryness. He had me laying on my back. If I was on hands and knees some drooling probably would have come of the gag. I could communicate a little, but since I couldn’t move my jaw it was very limited. It was hot having my mouth held open. It’s a bit humiliating to be awkwardly open-mouthed in a gag.

He gets between my thighs and takes one pair of the crocodile clamps. Instead of using them on my nipples he puts one clamp on my left labia. He takes the other crocodile clamp and does the same on my right labia. He pulls the labia open with the other end of the clamps and drapes the chains by my thighs. I’m turned on by this, and he flicks my clit hard. Ow! He gets up and gets the flashlight and examines my pussy closely. It’s arousing and embarrassing to have someone look so closely. And since he’s a doctor I worry he’ll find something wrong.

Apparently everything looks okay, and he lubes up the archer wand. He slides the cold glass dildo along my open cunt. He gently presses the ball end of the dildo against my vagina. It slides in slowly and he takes his time fucking me with it. While he does this slow fucking I’m aching to be fucked hard. He teases me. I ache more. He gradually starts to fuck me harder but I’m not sure I’m at the point where I can come – but then he tells me to and I do right away despite doubt just seconds earlier. (It’s so cool to be so well-trained!)

As I come I squirt even more than usual. It’s like a flood onto the pillow and throe under my ass. I feel the liquid shoot out of my pussy. I’m coming so hard I hold my breath. I groan through the gag holding my mouth open.

He tells me I’ve had enough and removes the dildo. Next he takes the clamps off, and goes into the bathroom to wash up. I lay there in my puddle of come with gag in until he returns and tells me to remove it. I clean up a bit, and a trip to the bathroom reveals a swollen cunt from all the arousal and orgasm.

Round 2

We relax in the living room, and after a while MasterDoc heads back into the bedroom. He reads for a bit and I wait hopefully to see if he’ll call me in for more sex.

He does have me come in along with his laptop. I finish reading the chapter in the kinky novel I’m reading while he selects some porn. We chat a bit, and I admit – reluctantly – that I’m starting to find the idea of him pissing on me to be erotic. He teases me – “You sick freak! It’s one thing to want to piss on someone, but to want to be pissed on is sick!” I sigh.

We try fucking with me in front of him, both of us laying on our sides. It immediately becomes apparent this isn’t going to work. He has me get up on hands and knees and fucks me for a long time. My eager pussy envelops his hard cock. He pushes me to the edge where I’m desperate to come. He keeps me there. I’m moaning and while I enjoy the sensations immensely I want to come.

When he gives me permission to come, my vagina clamps down but doesn’t immediately push his cock out. It takes a few spasms for his cock to slowly be pushed out. I squirt some more, wetting the throe and axis, which I’m leaning on. I swear, I had the hardest orgasm I have ever had. I know that “I came hard” is easily the most overused phrase on this blog, but I was totally in outer space during this orgasm. I felt like I had absolutely no control over my body as it just kept coming and coming. I couldn’t breathe and I wondered if I could keep coming. I would think, “I need to stop. I need to breathe,” but he’d slap my pussy or stroke my clit and I would come all over again. When he’s finished with me, I lay face down on the bed and slowly catch my breath. I am in a total daze.

After I’ve recovered a little, MasterDoc has me play with his ass to help him come. I was supposed to work in a dildo we had around but I misunderstood somehow. I did slowly massage his ass, his thighs and then with well-lubed fingers I started gently probing at his asshole. When his sphincter relaxes I slowly slide one finger in. I move the finger around inside him caressing the insides of his anus. I work another finger in when I can, and with the two fingers I try to turn my hand so that my fingers press into his prostate by the front wall. I don’t think I quite had it right, but it worked nonetheless and he stroked his cock to orgasm. I could feel the strong muscles of his anus clench around my fingers. In retrospect, the dildo would have been an advantage then over my fingers.

I go wash up, then come back to relax with MasterDoc on the bed. His come looks sort of like mucus on the towel, but I resist saying this because he would have most assuredly made me lick it up.

I slept wonderfully last night. I’m sure the blissful afterglow from the orgasms, coupled with the exercise I did earlier in the afternoon (not to mention the top to bottom cleaning of his bathroom after the ceiling was fixed) made my body relax even more than usual.

Nadia’s Wishing Box

Published on November 4, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, dom, dp, horny, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex toys, slut and submissive. 2 Comments

Last night was a lovely evening with MasterDoc. I had been grumpy up until that point – the overstimulation and crowds of Costco put me in a bad mood during the afternoon. But as usual, once I was in my collar, submitting and getting some cock I became much calmer and happier.

We cuddled for a bit while MasterDoc talked on the phone to another Dom who is bringing his sub over for a sybian ride this weekend. It sounds like the two of them are cooking up lots of interesting things – I will sadly be at work when they come over this time, but perhaps next time or if they stay long enough I will be a part of it. I’m a little hesitant that I’m being told that the other woman has never been with a woman and her Dom thinks it’s about time – it’s really not fun being someone’s first woman if they’re not into it. She may very well be into it, or it could be totally painful. I will have to wait and see. Of course, this is painful simply because I will have to be the aggressor and we all know I suck at that. I’d much rather be with an experienced woman who takes control.

After he got off the phone, MasterDoc had me suck his cock for a while. I loved having it in my mouth and pushing as far to the back of my throat as I was able. He was rigid by the time he let me take a break. MasterDoc did something unusual then – as we cuddled he asked me what I wanted to do that night. ! I was speechless. You know you’re a well-trained submissive when you don’t even think about what you’d like to do. It’s always a given that we do what he wants, and I happily go along with it. It’s not that I don’t get input, I do, but the decision is his so I don’t think, “Well I really want a butt plug tonight.” Once we get started with sexytime, and my collar is on, I don’t think much, I just do. Sometimes there’s leeway when I set out toys – he’ll tell me to get out things I might like to play with. There’s never a guarantee that I’ll get what I want, of course, but he does take my requests under consideration.

As I lay there with my mouth open, unable to think up what I might want that evening, MasterDoc came up with an idea: we will set up a “wishing box” where I can put ideas whenever they come to me, and he can check it every so often and consider the suggestions. This way I get input, but it’s not expected on the spot and he still ultimately has control over what we do in an evening. (We agreed during this conversation that it really is less hot if I direct the action. On the other hand, I’m sure even wonderful Doms like MasterDoc could use some help with ideas now and then.) I’ve started writing out wishes on post it notes today. I have four sitting next to me on the sofa right now. I need to find a box to use. I love this idea!

MasterDoc took control back again since it was clear I was unable to think. We watched some porn (I just remembered I’m supposed watch this whole video – with sound – today. DeeDee recommended it to MasterDoc. She’s a very dirty girl!) and I got myself wet using my bullet vibe. It’s funny the things that don’t strike you as hot the first time you see it, but that gradually becomes hotter – gagging on cock seems really hot to me right now. As I watched that video, I thought about why slutty, kinky women are so hot – they enjoy sex and get into it with abandon. They allow themselves to be animalistic. They really let go and enjoy what they’re doing. I’ve only recently started realizing that about myself – I should allow myself to behave like a horny slut because it’s hot. Being shy doesn’t serve much of a purpose.

MasterDoc fucked me from behind as he continued to watch the porn. I used the bullet vibe on my clit, but not directly. I held it a little off to the side so I wouldn’t get worked up too fast. I moaned and my thumb found its way into my mouth. I bit and sucked on it to help control the rising tide of orgasm that wanted to sweep over me. He told me not to let myself get worked up too fast, and I obeyed as best I could. Oh it felt amazing. I entered subspace in a big way. He fucked me for what seemed like a very long time. I was so horny that I started crying out, “Oh that feels so good!” around the point when I’d usually start begging for orgasm. But subspace held me tight and I had a few, pinpointed thoughts, “I would do anything he wanted me to at this point.” And, “I’m so glad to be here, to be a hole for him to fuck when he wants to fuck. I am so glad he can use my body.” I was so happy, so turned on, so at peace. He started working his finger into my asshole and god I wanted to explode! When he told me to come, I came so very hard. And I kept coming over and over again, begging him to finger my ass more. The waves kept washing over me as he kept fucking or fingering or slapping my pussy and ass. I sometimes wonder if I should come as long as I do lately – do I come too much? Does he want me to come hard as long as he’s stimulating me? I want that. I’m amazed with how long he keeps me orgasming lately. I am ready to collapse by the time he decides I’ve had enough. My legs were exhausted from holding me up but my clenching cunt demanded attention, so I held the position until he was done with me.

I am so fortunate, and when my chemically imbalanced brain isn’t making me cranky, I’m incredibly happy with MasterDoc. I’m happy just to be hanging out at his place even when he’s not here. I have a huge smile on my face today. I have always needed a Dom and I’m feeling so complete now that I have one.

Maid to Order

Published on November 1, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, exhibitionism, flogging, humiliation play, kink, masochism, orgasm on command, porn, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 3 Comments

It had been a while since MasterDoc and I did a show at his place. He liked my maid costume from Friday night enough that he had me wear it for the show. I greeted our guest at the door in black patent platform heels (I am probably 6’2″ in them), black fishnet stockings, little French maid dress w/ separate sleeves, the little headband that goes with the “uniform” and my collar. Thankfully, MasterDoc let me take the heels off shortly after our guest arrived. I am so not a high heels girl.

But I teetered on the heels as I answered the door as the “maid” and invited our guest in. I got him a glass of water and then went to get the toys that MasterDoc had requested for the show. I was a VERY good girl – he had said he wanted the strap so I got it. (Turns out he said strap but meant slut paddle. lol I got the strap (literally) because of him misspeaking.) I also got the two floggers, the two paddles (including the slut paddle), condoms, lube.

He had me kneel on the Liberator wedge in front of the recliner, I leaned forward on the chair and lifted my dress up in back. I had deliberately left off panties. MasterDoc commented on this and gave my ass a few swats. He discovered that I actually have bruises from Friday night – proof that he was really hitting me harder than usual. He took to spanking me – I think with the flogger. I got into a good headspace easily. He would alternate feeling my cunt to see if I was getting wet. Some strikes hurt more than others, but I was handling it fairly well, and getting wet.

Next, he had me lift my head up and suck his cock. It’s funny how I can be a total slut in front of strangers, but it’s easiest if I don’t have to look at them. Sucking cock is often, but not always, a good way to avoid eye contact. (But it’s especially difficult when he makes me suck AND look the audience in the eye.) He had me move the wedge over, so that I was kneeling in front of our guest, facing him. He had told me before that he wanted me to tease the man – rub my face against his cock through his pants. I struggled with this a bit, mainly rubbing my head against the guys’ inner thighs. MasterDoc reminded me that I had something to do and started in with hard whacks on my ass with the wooden paddle until I moved into action sufficiently. I felt really slutty. As we know, I don’t see this as a bad thing. I rubbed my face against the guys’ pants and MasterDoc beat me some more but lightened up on the hits. It felt like this went on for a long time, although it was likely just a couple of minutes.

He had me sit in the recliner, and by now I know to spread my legs and lift my dress as soon as I do so. He had me use the acuvibe mini on myself and he tried to fuck me in that position. Unfortunately the height is not quite right. He told me to get myself worked up so that I’m able to come as soon as he stuck his dick into me. It was a bit of a let down that the chair was not the right height.

I was on my knees in front of him again as he sat on the couch. I sucked his cock and played with his inner thighs as he told the guest about the perks of having a submissive. He’s trained me to touch him in exactly the ways he likes. In a vanilla relationship, it can be kind of insulting to pick apart your partner’s technique, but in a D/s situation, it’s part of the deal. He stroked his cock for a while as he spoke and I played with his ass and inner thighs making him feel good.

He had me get on the floor and play with my bullet vibe as my spread legs faced him and the guest. I got really worked up as ordered and he had me get on hands and knees for a fucking. I was on the verge of coming as he slid his cock into me, and like the well-trained submissive I’ve become, I came. And came. And he slapped my ass, grabbed my hips and buried his cock deep inside as I kept coming. My body went somewhat limp and I ended up resting my head and shoulders on the mat by the end.

He tried to decide what to do next and I sucked his cock some more. Luckily I got him hard and he decided to fuck me again. This time, on my back with the axis under my ass. The pillow put me right up against his cock as he slid it in. Our guest had been given a flashlight to use as a spotlight. Once MasterDoc’s cock was in, there wasn’t so much to watch, so he had our guest hold my legs up and back. The angle was such that he couldn’t thrust much, but I focused on the feeling of his cock. The brain is the largest sex organ, and in the right situation I can psych myself up into an orgasm. (Has to already be a hot situation, just one where there’s perhaps not as much physical stimulation as I usually need.) I was soon ready to come. I got to come again, this time squirting a little. He called me a whore in the middle of it and this really flips my switch. Afterward, I was well-fucked and happy for a little break.

I got to sit on the sofa with MasterDoc and take my collar off, so I could relax a bit and be more casual. The guy who came to the show was nice. I’m always glad when they turn out to be non-creepy. I guess it’s kinda hot in the humiliation sort of way to be fucked and slutty in front of someone you dislike, but I prefer an appreciative audience that doesn’t try too hard to call me a slut and whore. I love MasterDoc doing it – not so crazy about some guy I don’t know. I think it’s because I know that MasterDoc doesn’t think badly of sluts or whores. Sometimes you wonder about the guys who watch the shows.

We watched the filthy porn MasterDoc had chosen before the show, which ran in the background all the while. It’s an intense German porn with lots of force, cum, piss, women swapping the cum and piss between their mouths – that sort of thing. I mentioned how I liked the bondage with the woman struggling. Our guest asked if that was my “thing.” Upon reflection, MasterDoc and I agreed that perhaps it would be easier for me to list what I’m NOT into. Yup, I’m a sick freak and he knows it (and loves it).

The costume came in handy since I’m feeling a bit self-conscious about my scars from my recent surgery. No one’s had to see my tummy yet in a party or show situation thanks to that maid costume. I don’t feel self-conscious around MasterDoc, so I’ve happily been naked around him nearly all weekend. I’ll adjust and of course the scarring will fade with some time.

Hot Submission

Published on October 28, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, dom, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, porn, sex, shio, squirting, submissive, trust and wax play. 4 Comments

I’ve been feeling the need lately, more than ever, to feel submissive. It’s funny, because if you’re not submissive you may wonder why anyone would want to feel controlled, beneath another, objectified. But for me, it’s not only incredibly hot, it also soothes me. In the midst of all that’s been going on in my life, submitting to MasterDoc allows me to relax and not stress.

It’s not always easy to submit. Last night MasterDoc talked to me about how I can be possessive of my time with him. If faced with giving up or sharing some of my time with him, I should view it in terms of submission and pleasing him. This is incredibly hard because I want to be with him as much as possible. I crave being with him, I crave his attention. While there are moments when I’m very much in the headspace of submission where I enjoy just being there while he attends to someone or something else, (tonight was one of those nights) most of the time I find that really difficult to do. Even moreso when I can’t at least be with him in the same place.

It’s interesting, because although putting my wants aside so that his happiness is fulfilled is a challenge, (especially being genuinely happy about doing it myself) I crave that challenge. I’m happy when I’m struggling with myself to make him happy. It’s kinda convoluted I will admit. What can I say? I’m a submissive. Some days it’s more fulfilling than others. Other days I just want to be the center of attention.

Last night, we watched part of a very hot porn video – in it a submissive woman had to serve at a party. The guests could comment on her naked body and they were free to grope her as they wished. She was the only person in the room without clothes on. Her wrists were secured behind her back and she wore high heels. In the beginning she has a tray slung on a belt around her waist with two chains leading to her collar. She had to navigate the living room full of guests balancing full champagne flutes on the tray. Let me remind you, her hands are secured behind her back throughout this.

She did spill a couple of glasses and was scolded for it. One spilled on an ottoman in the middle of the room and she was ordered to clean it up with her tongue. After she did that, she was brought around the circle of people again to be groped, probed, examined and handled. God, the humiliation was hot.

I was so fucking hot and wet watching this. MasterDoc needed to divert his attention to helping one of the other ladies in his life through a crisis, and being horny yet feeling very, very submissive, I enjoyed playing with myself until he was ready to touch me, and I could go back to that if he needed to pull his attention away again. He had me stop touching myself at one point, and I really was content to lay on the bed next to him patiently. I was genuinely happy to be doing that.

I suppose short-term patience like that is easy. But feeling like I’m giving up time, giving up getting my needs met when I feel like I want them to be met is hard. The idea of taking something like a weekend away at Floating World with MasterDoc, and then deriving pleasure from him having a good time, even if I don’t get to enjoy the things I’d like to because I’m sharing him, is hard. I should trust more, I suppose, that he will make sure I’m taken care of at some point. But that’s hard when it looks like things aren’t going how you hoped. (Especially when you’ve paid your way for the weekend.)

Tonight, I was really turned on by the submission. Actually turned on by being his servant, waiting for him patiently. It made me fucking horny. He drizzled some hot wax on me and I was really turned on by the fact that he could inflict pain on me – the control of it. He fucked me after, and I was so aroused the entire time. I suppose I should add that he placed the laptop on my back and continued his online conversation while he fucked me – and this drove me crazy. He made me come and squirt like Old Faithful.

That was the only round planned, but as I started this post I looked up the porn and started watching it again. MasterDoc decided that we could go another round, and he fucked me from behind again. This time, somehow, my vaginal muscles didn’t push him out. I worked hard at keeping things that way while also coming insanely hard. My hand dropped beside the bed, flailing limply as I came, head pressed into the bed and my knees kept spreading wider as I’m pounded down into the bed. I went completely incoherent – moans, whines, grunts, gasps were the only noises I could make. I was catapulted into another world. The only thing I was only able to do was come for as long as he wanted me to. He kept fucking me and I kept coming. I started to wonder if I could handle any more. My muscles pushed him out, and he kept touching my pussy, slapping it, stroking my legs, grabbing my hair. And I responded by continuing to come and squirt. When I later picked up the towel beneath me (placed there for the wax play) it was heavy from all the wetness I had squirted. The throe underneath was very wet too. MasterDoc said that he impresses even himself. I’m impressed too. I was utterly under his control being made to come like that.

A Guest

Published on October 22, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, kink, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, submissive and sybian. 4 Comments

The day before my surgery, MasterDoc had a professional fem Domme, Daina, come over to join us for some playtime (in a non-professional capacity). It seems that she’s at least somewhat switchy, and so was the perfect playmate for the two of us – Domme over me, sub for him.

As usual I loved watching MasterDoc subtly begin to undress her as the three of us talked on the couch, and soon he was stroking her pussy. He took one breast and had me take the other. He had me get the magic wand, and he got Daina off with it. My memory is a bit fuzzy since this was a few days ago and I’ve had general anesthesia in the meantime, but I will relate as much of the story as I can.

I had gotten out a bunch of toys at MasterDoc’s request by this time, and he had me place a pillow on the living room floor so I could kneel before the couch and suck his cock as he reclined comfortably. They took turns swatting my ass a little and talking about various implements while I went down on him. There was talk about tying me up (rope is something MasterDoc hasn’t mastered, but apparently Daina has some experience) I was really excited about this but in the end it didn’t happen.

We moved to the bedroom and MasterDoc had me get on my knees. I knelt over the new Liberator Axis I have (I swear, review will be coming soon!) and they took turns spanking my ass. She hit harder than he did – and he pointed out that fem Dommes are cruel. When I pretty much couldn’t take it any more, he had me flip over so I was laying on my back, the Axis holding my hips up, and Daina started playing with my pussy. She stroked my clit between her fingers, and eventually she went down on me. It felt wonderful and as I got closer to coming MasterDoc started slapping my face and tits, talking dirty to me, and he told me to come and I squirted all over my new pillow.

He fucked me next, him on top of me, my hips raised again by the Axis. Even though I had just come, I was eager to come again. (I’m really pretty insatiable most of the time.) And he fucked me until I was begging to come, and when he let me, I came hard, squirting all over my pillow again.

MasterDoc had promised Daina a horsey ride (i.e., a ride on the sybian) and before she left he fulfilled this promise – I perched on the sofa and enjoyed watching. She had said before coming over that she really needed a release of endorphins, and I think she left with the endorphins just flowing. A sybian orgasm is something else, truly.

That night, when MasterDoc and I were alone, he decided that he wanted to come. So I played with his ass as he masturbated – watching this porn, which we hadn’t finished before. When he was ready to come, he rolled towards me and told me to take his cock in my mouth. I did, and come shot up into my mouth. I closed my lips around his cock and he reminded me that the head is too sensitive, that he wanted me to put my mouth right down on his shaft and so I did, pleased to be such an active part of his orgasm.

“Did I hurt you?”

Published on October 8, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, caning, cunt, happy, horny, kink, masochism, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sadism, sex, shio, spanking and squirting. 2 Comments

While MasterDoc has been back from his month of travels since Tuesday evening, we didn’t get up to our usual play until Wednesday night. He was understandably tired from traveling on Tuesday! I was just happy to hug him and be with him.

He was distracted by the Yankee game for parts of the night, but he told me to pick some porn for us to watch. I remembered that I had a couple of free bdsm porn sites saved in my bookmarks that I had yet to try out. Unfortunately both sites have really short clips (with a few exceptions they seem to only tout on their front pages). It was a bummer despite there being such a wonderful list of kinky categories on each. (Site One) (Site Two) So I turned to my usual site of TNAFlix and scoured the pages for something kinky. At first I put on porn that was pretty much exclusively women being tied up and gagged and then struggling in their bonds. Yes, that was hot. (I can’t find the link to it and I’m getting distracted by porn. Back to writing! There will be time for self-abuse after.)

MasterDoc had me get on my knees and suck his cock while he watched the porn. Hearing, “You suck a mean cock,” was but one highlight out of many last night. I sucked and licked. I spit a little on his cock when he told me to wet it more. He had me stick my tongue out and he’d rub his cock head all over my tongue. I licked it whenever it came close to my mouth. I like when he rubs it on my face and I get wet with saliva. I feel like such a dirty girl then.

When he had had enough cock sucking for the moment, he had me lay over the curved side of the Liberator Scoop on the living room floor. He had previously had me get the three canes and the riding crop, and of course I had my collar on by this time. He warmed me up with the crop and his hands, and moved on to the gentlest (relatively speaking) cane. My pain tolerance was pretty good last night, and I could feel the sharp lines of the cane as it reddened my ass. I wished I had a mirror to see the stripes forming. I could tell by the intensity that he had switched canes at some point. I surprised myself in being able to mostly handle the next thickest one. It hurt, make no mistake, but he would give me ample time to breathe and relax in between rounds of pain. He ran his hands along my tensed calves and thighs until I relaxed, and then he’d start again. I could tell I was getting very wet through all this.

He took a break, and I was allowed to go sit on the sofa. The sofa cover felt rough on my tender ass. I watched the bondage/struggling porn and marveled at how turned on I get over things that are not directly, explicitly sexual. I loved imagining that I was that woman, bound, helpless, gagged, struggling. Phew! Gets me hot. I slid my hand between my legs and found that I was extremely wet from the caning. I started stroking myself, wet noises emanating. MasterDoc had gone back to watching the baseball game and I wondered when he’d hear the wet noises and discover what I was doing. It took a few minutes but he did, and he grabbed the cane to give my inner thighs a good smack.
The bondage porn started to get a little dull, so he had me find another clip to watch. And lo and behold, I discovered THE clip. What I mean by THE clip is that there was a photo set on Sex and Submission way back shortly after we met that we both found independently and had thought it was really hot. (I can’t seem to find the post using the search function on my blog. Phooey.) There’s been a running joke ever since as in the final shot the naughty school girl has a paper with an A+ stuck to her. MasterDoc has always said that he would have only given her an A- at most. lol So “A-” has become one of his usual lines. And finally, two years later we stumbled upon the clip the photo set was taken from. Rowr.

We didn’t make it through the whole clip last night, we will have to get back to it later. It was pretty damn hot though. He sent me into the bedroom and told me to play with myself, but not to watch the porn. I did so but it became hard to keep up the sexy thoughts after a few minutes. He came in, bringing a cane and the crop. He started to cane the insides of my thighs while I masturbated and the porn started. The pain was distracting but he ordered me to push through it, to be ready to come. I struggled as angry red stripes started to line my thighs.

Somehow pleasure and pain mingled and I did manage to focus well and get myself worked up. He told me to come, and I did. I came surprisingly hard as he continued to cane my thighs and then he crawled his way up my body while I continued to rub my clit and come. Having him pressed close to me made me come again. I typically keep coming until he tells me to stop – on rare occasions I have cried uncle from not being able to breathe.

While I recovered he lay nestled between my thighs, stroking and touching me from time to time. We looked at the crop stripes and he said, in the most innocent voice, “Did I hurt you?” as if he was amazed that lil’ ol’ him had done that. We laughed pretty hard.

We watched the porn some more and MasterDoc decided to fuck me. He had me get on all fours and he slid his big cock in. When he fucks me I luxuriate in the sensations since I’m not allowed to just come. I moan and try to hold back on coming while not holding back on feeling. I do hope my moans of frustration at wanting to come are a real turn on for him. He makes me positively ache to come.

I eventually broke down and asked, “Please Sir, may I come?” He had me hold off a little but when he did let me come my pussy muscles clamped right down and pushed his cock out. Damn. But he touched and slapped my cunt and the orgasm continued – I squirted a huge puddle, unfortunately missing the Liberator Throe. I came and came until I was totally breathless. I lay there after, trying to regain my wits. I love how he pushes me to the point where I can only gasp and come. I was so very satisfied after that. Wow. How I feel after a fucking like that gives new meaning to the word “afterglow.” I must be gleaming at that point!

We watched more porn and he wanted my help making him come. So I got a little lube and massaged and kneaded his ass while he jerked off. Between the kinky porn and watching him get close to orgasm, I was really aroused. I pressed and rubbed his ass and perineum. When he came, he instructed me to press harder on his asshole and so I did as he convulsed more and shot more come out of his cock. Then I started milking it out like he had taught me – rub along the mid-line from behind his balls, up through the length of his cock until the last drops of come are forced out.

I was a very happy camper after all this. I had so needed a beating and some good, hard fucking. I had reached a point where I felt sated (albeit with the capacity to continue on had it been asked of me!). I had missed MasterDoc so much. It was good to have him home.

Review: Crash Pad Series Volume 4: Rope Burn

Published on September 26, 2009 in lesbian, porn and reviews. 0 Comments

Babeland has sent me more dyke porn – whoo hoo! This time it’s CrashPadSeries.com: Volume 4: Rope Burn. The basic premise of Crash Pad Series is that there’s an apartment, equipped with hidden cameras, where women go to fuck each other. From time to time the scene cuts to this one woman watching the action secretly on a laptop in some other room/apartment. We get to be voyeurs along with her.

This dvd contains five scenes. I love how each scene shows real women having sex in the way that women actually have sex together. If your only “lesbian” porn has been the kind made by hetero men, for hetero men, then you will be surprised by the passion and rawness of actual woman-on-woman sex. The women have a variety of body types, none of them really look like your typical porn star. Many are slender but there are a couple of women who are chubby. Their breasts are real, and it’s refreshing to see real tits! As much as I love big tits, I prefer them to be real and not look like inflated beach balls. The women’s personal grooming varies – some have hairy legs, hairy pits, pubic hair, some shave part or all of the above. There should be something here for any woman, no matter what “type” you’re into. There’s tats, piercings, etc.

The first scene was kinda slow and I didn’t really get into it. The second scene (Jiz Lee and Dallas) is rougher and features some rope bondage and punching. They display safer sex practices by using a condom on the feeldoe and gloves for fingering. The second scene was hot AND playful.

Scene three features some knifeplay and more femmy women. One of the women dominates the other, and it’s HOT! Not only does this dvd show real sex between women, it also shows real bdsm. Scene four features a butch/femme couple and like the other scenes, their sex is believable. Their genitalia actually look AROUSED, which you don’t always see in hetero porn. The final orgasm in this scene is incredibly sexy.

Throughout, there’s no cheesy-ass porn music. You can hear actual wet noises as pussies are fingered and assholes licked.

The last scene was perhaps the roughest. There was loads of face slapping, chest slapping, bondage. It included some boot licking, clothes being cut off. The toppy femme threatens to burn her bottom’s breasts/nipples with her cigarette. She uses the bottom’s tongue as an ashtray. It’s not all my thing, but overall Pink and White Productions have put together an extremely hot, real set of porn scenes here. Highly recommended.

“I think the sun shines out of your ass…”

Published on September 24, 2009 in Feminism, Uncategorized, analingus, cunt, depression, dom, kink, masturbation, porn, shio and squirting. 1 Comment

“but I still don’t want to lick it.”

This was the prize-winning line from Tuesday night. As I looked adoringly at MasterDoc, I realized that in some respects I really do think the sun shines out of his ass. But then that got me thinking – I’m still not keen on analingus – so despite the blinding light coming out of his ass (figuratively) it still doesn’t entice me to stick my tongue up it.

Tuesday was a very silly evening. It was lighthearted and very much what I needed as I slowly began to come out of my depression. He never put my collar on and that was good so I could feel free to laugh and joke and just plain relax. We laughed really hard – something we do often and I don’t know if I capture it here. MasterDoc has noticed that orgasms tend to improve my mood (hell, whose mood don’t they improve?) and he used the acuvibe on my clit and cunt. He made me come so hard, and for so long, that I could barely breathe and I wondered if he’d make me come until I passed out. The idea of it was a teeny bit scary but also exciting as hell. When he was done with me, I hadn’t passed out, but I was gasping for breath and very, very happy. A huge puddle was under my ass on the throe.

After his very busy weekend of sex he wasn’t really looking for it himself, but he decided he did want to come. We didn’t fuck this week, but he did make sure that I was well taken care of. We had porn on at either corner of the mat, and he watched some porn while he stroked his cock. For once, (finally!) I took initiative and started to lick his inner thighs. This clearly felt good, so I kept going. I licked right behind his balls and pressed my tongue against his perineum. I pressed my face deep against his crotch, practically licking his ass, but stopping short of it. I massaged his ass cheeks and was clearly adding to his masturbation. I felt really proud that finally I wasn’t so damn passive, and I made him very happy. He told me I did a good job a few times afterwards. I kept playing with him until he came, and then did the slow pressing from perineum, up between the balls and up the midline of the cock – and a final spurt of come came out.

I was feeling so much better after that evening. Plus I knew I had another evening coming the next night.

The porn I watched during the evening ran towards kinky porn (what else?) where the sub acted like they didn’t want to do whatever was being done to them. I like this fantasy sometimes – the idea of being “made” to do something. It would certainly be role play as I’m always keen to suck MasterDoc’s cock, but it’s something I’d like to do sometime – resist a little. Have him get a little rough with me. Rowr. Pretend that I don’t want all that he’s giving me; all that, deep down, I crave.

Funnelicious

Published on September 10, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, Vienna sausages, anal, bdsm, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, piss play, porn, sex and sex toys. 1 Comment

The title of this post came from MasterDoc. It came out of a bit of a mind fuck he enjoyed last night. We were getting ready to get down and dirty in the bedroom, and he wandered off into the kitchen. I met him in the hallway, and he held up a small plastic funnel, with a naughty gleam in his eyes. I laughed, knowing he was referring to the porn I had shown him the other day. And then my usual reaction to things like this set in – I wondered if he was serious. Was he really going to use this funnel to piss in my ass? He says the look on my face was priceless. And I enjoyed the thrill of him teasing me and making me a little scared. For me fear is hot when it’s in his hands, I think because I trust him so much. We had a good laugh even as I pulled my hands to my face and looked scared. He said that he wishes he had thought to have a can of chicken Vienna sausages in his other hand to show me right after the funnel. Hee hee.

So funnelicious sounds like funalicious. And as the funnel theme didn’t end there it seems a suitable title for this entry.

We got set up in the bedroom and he told me to put on the enema porn on that I had liked. He stroked his cock as he decided what exactly to do to me. He had me play with myself a bit – I used the Nea on my clit. He asked if I had ever given myself an enema, and I replied that I had not. I think I had an enema for health reasons as a kid once, but that’s my only experience. He said he thought he had an enema in the house and was pondering having me use it. He asked how I felt about that, and I had to say I had mixed feelings – nervousness and arousal. The nerves come mainly from my own idea that a enema will definitely cause stomach cramps – maybe I’m wrong? The woman in the porn didn’t seem to be suffering. The arousal because it’s naughty and the feeling of being filled up anally is arousing.

He told me to get a toy to put in my ass, and I selected my Tantus ripple, it’s a fairly small butt plug I purchased a few years back as a relative newbie to anal play. I think he was a little surprised that I chose something so small, but as I don’t get in a lot of anal play small is usually just fine. I can take his big cock in my ass, but that’s the exception to the rule. He had me work the plug in as we watched the porn. I lubed my ass up well, lubed the plug up, and worked it in. I got it in pretty quickly and he commented on this. He had me play with it, stroking it in and out. I think the filled up feeling was more arousing than the thrusting. He wanted to know if I wanted to be fucked in the ass. Oh yes.

I added more lube and then kneeled at the edge of the bed. He worked his hard cock in. It felt good to be so filled up. He fucked me, saying, “Nice asshole.” I used the Nea on my clit, but really the main focus was on my ass. I grew ever more excited and soon begged for permission to come. “You want to come already?” He fucked me more and I kept moaning and squealing with delight and desperation to come. He let me come and even my rectum bears down during orgasm – not as bad as my vaginal muscles though. I’d come hard, then after a while get a little sore in the ass. I’d think that maybe I needed to ask him to stop but then he’d pound me harder and I’d immediately come again. Over and over, I would think that the pain was reason to stop and then I’d come again. Hard. I really am a masochist. It amazes even me.

We determined that the small funnel he had on hand wouldn’t be practical for the piss-in-ass play. We’d definitely need something with a tube like in the porn. I don’t doubt that one day I’ll visit his place and he’ll have one handy.