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Rough Porn

Published on February 14, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, edge play, gags, horny, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sadism, sex, sex toys, slut and submissive. 2 Comments

He asked if I wanted it long and slow, or short and fast. I said slow, hoping for a long evening of kink. He had that serious domly look in his eyes, the one that makes me oh so hot. He had me sit up so he could play with my tits. He’d look me right in the eye and then twist a nipple to watch the look on my face as it hurt. In the background we had rough sex porn running, and I was insanely wet already. I know it’s so wrong, and I know that extreme stuff can make people uncomfortable (because of its resemblance to some very bad things) but Jesus, watching a woman get her face fucked makes me so hot and so want to be in her place. I want to be roughly handled, gagged on his cock. I want to be a drooling mess.

He tried out the new dental gag I bought, it was really hot for the humiliation aspect of it, as i sat there with my mouth wide open. (It’s a Jennings dental gag, but without the strap like the one on this page.) It’s a shame I didn’t drool but I found my mouth growing dry instead. My tongue was exposed for him to see and it felt naked without teeth and lips to hide behind.

MasterDoc grabbed the magic wand, and he pressed it to my clit. My eyes would flicker, then close and I’d be lost in my ever increasing arousal. It flooded me, flooded my senses. I would come so close to coming and he would stop. And the fact that he was controlling my arousal and eventual orgasm made it even hotter. He teased me for a bit and I was lost in his intense eyes. Him being in control makes me so hot.

He had me remove the gag. Not only was my mouth dry but he was concerned that I’d break a tooth if I came with it in. We watched more porn, and I loved how the porn actress played the part of someone who’s surprised at the rough treatment she’s getting and oh dear how scared she is! I can get hot off of it if I can tell it’s play. I so desperately want to act out a scene like that with MasterDoc. I want to play scared, and let myself get into the role and feel scared. I want him to take me roughly, slap me about, push me down. I want him to piss on me. I want him to use my body in delicious and horrible ways. I was actually disappointed when he got up to go pee last night and didn’t decide to piss on me. I want to be passed around to various people for them to use my body.

He worked my Njoy plug into my ass and I stroked my wet clit and breathed heavy. I was so aroused. There was no hiding it. No hiding my sexuality. No hiding how much I wanted it.

He fucked me from behind with the stainless steel plug in my ass. I felt so full and having both holes filled like that was amazing. Oh god I wanted to come! Being fucked like that was so hot, I could feel him play with the plug in my ass. The only thing that could have improved that wonderful scenario is if another cock was available to go into my mouth at the same time.

In the porn, the actress is fucked up the ass by one man, while she’s being gagged on the cock of the other. Fuck. I want to experience that.

My knees gave out, so I had to crawl down onto the mat. After a breather and returning to my wits, I turned towards MasterDoc and played with his chest. I lusted after him so completely.

But alas, he wanted a snack. (And you can tell that this is a true story and not erotica, because the Dom doesn’t stop for a snack in the middle of an erotica piece.) I lay on the living room floor (we had been on the mat, you see) and watched the porn continue playing on the television. Seeing that woman being used and fucked and slapped around made me so hot. I’m sure MasterDoc could hear my moaning from the kitchen as I furiously stroked my clit. He came back in with some food and told me that I could make myself come if I wanted to.

So I focused on the porn and rubbed my slick clit until I came. To help me come, he held down my shoulder with his foot as best he could. The combination of hot porn, rapidly rubbed clit, being held down a little, and being under his foot led me to an explosive orgasm.

After all that expended energy, I needed a break, myself. A little later he decided that he wanted to come. I was slightly disappointed as I craved more fucking. But I played with his ass like he told me to and I grew more aroused knowing that he wanted to come in my mouth. When he was close to coming , I moved around to the front of him and placed my mouth right by the tip of his cock. I put his cock in my mouth as he came and then slid it further into my mouth to suck on the shaft. This kept him twitching with pleasure and it was so hot. I held his come in my mouth like he likes, and he told me to dribble it out onto the towel under me. I let it drool out and he was happy. I felt like a dirty slut and it felt so good.

I could have gone on all night fucking. I feel like something’s awakened in me that hasn’t been awake in years. I can’t remember going all night fucking for a very long time.

Threesome Weekend

Published on January 31, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunt, exhibitionism, flogging, kink, masochism, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, poly, porn, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, swinging and threesome. 2 Comments

I think I’ve turned a new corner with polyamory. DeeDee is visiting MasterDoc and I spent some time with both of them this weekend, and I finally realize that being poly can include having a fabulous time with both your partner and one of their other partners. I’ve always been fond of DeeDee, but I was a bit possessive of time with MasterDoc. But this weekend, the three of us went to a club Friday night and hung out at MasterDoc’s on Saturday and I wouldn’t have changed it for the world.

We were supposed to go to a kink party that all of us were looking forward to, but the party host had to change the date in his struggle to find a good venue for the party. MasterDoc was having a bad day but I managed to convince him that we should go out anyway. He started the evening grumpy but in short order he was in a better mood. How could he not be with two lovely ladies eager to go out and fuck in public with him? He took us out to dinner at a pub near the swing club.I have a great time laughing with them both and it’s wonderful to hang out with people who you can be yourself with. I can be a kinky slut and it’s not considered a bad thing, not at all.

At the club, MasterDoc started the night with paddling me. I seem to be enjoying harder spankings these days. The only down side? A guy who was too aggressive and space invading. He’s an older man (in his 60’s or so) and he and his wife are often at the club. Now, if he were charming and kind I might just be persuaded to be interested in him despite the age difference. However, he is pushy. And when I climbed on the spanking bench he moved over to be right by where my head would be. Back the fuck off! I gave him such a nasty look. He moved after that. He kept making comments, and sitting too close, and humming incessantly to draw attention to himself. MasterDoc told him to leave at one point and the man didn’t. MasterDoc had to talk to him again when he was trying to talk to me while DeeDee got spanked. Had the guy touched me, he would have gotten a right telling off – even with my collar on. Fucker couldn’t take the hint that I was totally, and obviously, not interested.
But back to the spanking…. When I could block out the idiot, I enjoyed the hard long spanking MasterDoc gave me. He had DeeDee hold the vibe to my clit and I enjoyed the combination of spanking and vibe. (Although we need to give DeeDee a little more instruction on exactly where to put the vibe.)

After my spanking came DeeDee’s spanking. MasterDoc had her suck his cock while she lay over the spanking bench. I settled down on the bed and placed pillows between myself and the pushy guy sitting on the other end. I did my best to ignore him. I played with myself with a vibe while watching the spanking. MasterDoc told me to use a vibe on DeeDee, and I got up and placed my bullet vibe on her clit on high. When I tease women I tend to be a bit relentless rather than teasing. I place the vibe right on her clit so that the vibrations quickly take her to the edge of orgasm. She had to hold back until she got permission from MasterDoc and I was grinning ear to ear while I drove her crazy. She came and the crowd in the room got quite a show. Her cunt was quite wet and consequently so was my hand.

We packed up, and MasterDoc was delighted to find that the big bed in the next room was now available. DeeDee goes to get water for us all while I suck MasterDoc’s cock. I like having an audience while I do this, I hope that the men in the room are imagining that I’m blowing them. DeeDee takes a turn and I unbutton MasterDoc’s shirt so I can stroke his chest. I think to nibble on his neck a bit and he clearly enjoys getting his cock sucked while I do this. The men around us had to be green with envy. This guy (MasterDoc) has two attractive women tending to his every need and making him feel amazing.

Next he toys with both of us. He sucks on my nipples while DeeDee massages his ass from behind. It’s all so decadent and hot. He gets us using toys on our clits. DeeDee gets revved up quickly. I take a bit longer since the pushy guy is humming loudly and ruining my concentration. MasterDoc bends down and licks my clit for a moment, and I can focus better on my pleasure after that. From his perch kneeling at the end of the bed between us, he verbally teases us, asking if we’re ready to come. This teasing usually serves to make me hotter, faster. He looks us straight in the eye in turn. He tells us to come at the same time. I can only imagine how cool it must have been to watch us come simultaneously. I squirted quite a bit. MasterDoc reached over and fingered me to make me come more, and louder. He then did the same for DeeDee. It was pretty impressive.

We cuddled after. I lay in my little puddle of come. We thanked MasterDoc simultaneously for the orgasms.

I was hoping to get fucked, but we ended up hanging out mostly after this. We ran into some people we know, and I got to talking with the slutty bartender, the one who gave quite a show squirting last time we were there. Apparently, she was hitting on me. MasterDoc pointed out after that she was actually playing with her pussy while talking to me and clearly wanted me to touch her. Doh. I was, as usual, completely oblivious. It’s really a low-self-esteem problem: I don’t think someone who has what is a culturally accepted body (i.e., slim and toned) would be attracted to me. Yes, I realize I need to work on that. No wonder I end up fucking so few women.

We called it a night early, but the next day there was much fooling around at MasterDoc’s. He put porn on his new large screen tv and we marveled at how up close and personal it seemed when played on that tv. The porn was exceptionally hot for vanilla porn – the women seemed to really be enjoying themselves. Watching people fucking who are into it is way hotter than watching someone who’s just doing it for the money and waiting for it all to be over.

The porn got us all worked up and MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a while. It felt amazing but my damn knees gave out. Eventually the pain in my knees blocked out my ability to enjoy the fuck and I had to ask to stop. I didn’t come then. We all lay on the mat on the floor and DeeDee and I massaged MasterDoc. Usually, he makes the point that we’re lucky to have him, but yesterday he actually came out with, “I am a very lucky man.” It felt wonderful to hear him acknowledge that. I think we’re all lucky.

Hunger won out over horniness and so we ordered lunch. Things shifted away from sex and we ended up watching Fiddler on the Roof on tv. After the movie, I started to pack up my things to go home since Saturday night was a night for DeeDee and MasterDoc to be alone. As I started to get dressed, MasterDoc said he had planned to give me a sybian ride before I went home. Well now, that was certainly enough to get me to take my clothes off again.

I rode the sybian while MasterDoc worked the controls and I leaned forward onto him. DeeDee got some practice in with the little flogger while I rode. At first, she missed me and hit the machine but after some coaching from MasterDoc she gave me a nice flogging. When I came, she pressed up against me and my clit came in even better contact with the vibrating sybian. I had such an amazing, extended orgasm from the two of them working me over. I had to collapse on the floor after.

When I had recovered, I got dressed and headed out. As I walked into the cold evening, I playfully exaggerated in my head the notion that I’ve been turned out into the cold, cold night, all alone. Oh poor me! And I laughed to myself, because even though we’re conditioned to think that’s the way it is, I really didn’t feel like that. Sure I had wanted to stay where it was friendly and warm, but I also want to make MasterDoc happy, and giving him space to hang out with other women makes him happy. Also, I was looking forward to an evening alone. The only negative to the evening was the possible domestic violence scene I could hear playing out from the floor below me now and then. I felt really unsafe while that was going on, and bewildered, and not sure what to do. (Do you call the police on your landlord, the man who could then throw you out? Particularly when you’re alone for the night and he’s a gruff bully?)

But when it was quiet, I had a lovely time by myself. I watched Gentlemen Prefer Blondes, a long time favorite movie, and was just tickled at how cool Jane Russell is.

Squirty Night

Published on January 23, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, blow jobs, exhibitionism, masturbation, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, squirting and swinging. 0 Comments

There was an unusually large crowd at the swing club last night. This was undoubtedly down to the fact that a porn star, Tabitha, was visiting the club. (I hadn’t looked at her site before going there, but looking through it now I find a picture of her with Slut Momo, who I have had the pleasure of knowing for about a year now.) Of course she was swamped with men almost the entire time she was there. Later in the evening some of our swing/kink friends showed up and it turns out they already know Tabitha. I run in some very interesting circles. Mild mannered librarian by day, acquaintance and friend of porn stars and swingers by night. It’s like I’ve finally realized the slut that I’ve always wanted to be over the past five years or so. It’s a wonderful thing.

We peruse the place, and there’s actually some couples there for a change. While there were many single men, it didn’t feel as out of balance as it does most nights. Not that MasterDoc and I mind single men, they provide a wonderful audience for when we want to show off. I did notice that it seemed a bit more “meat market” than usual. I mean, yes it’s a swing club, people are there to find partners to fuck. But I noticed things like guys making appreciative noises as they walked past me, and another guy stroked my ass (unasked, I must add – guys, be polite and ask before you touch) as I walked by. I was talked to more often by interested guys. One guy came over to MasterDoc and I as we lounged on a bed, pointed to me and said, “That’s a wonderful thing.” MasterDoc didn’t immediately realize the man was talking about me. This atmosphere was both conducive to being slutty and a little uncomfortable as a woman. Somehow being objectified is hot if MasterDoc does it, but a bit uncomfortable-making if it’s some stranger. But on the other hand knowing that you’re one sexy bitch and many of the men there want you is a fantastic feeling. Day to day I feel really average, but in swing situations I realize that my horniness and sluttiness are extremely desirable traits, and I feel like I’m super sexy and hot despite having a chubby body.

I think I behave more shyly if I’m with MasterDoc than if I was at a party alone. When alone, I can pick up men at the drop of a hat and get fucked as often as I want. I was hoping to get fucked a lot last night – there were reasonably good looking men there, guys that didn’t creep me out. MasterDoc, of course, liked to tease me with the idea of fucking the guys who I wasn’t attracted to – the older guy with the petite Japanese wife (because MasterDoc wanted to do her, thankfully he noticed them as they were heading to the door to leave); the short, hairy deaf guy who is always there (he’s very nice, very friendly and I have no issue with his disability, but I don’t like men who are significantly shorter than me and hairy – on the back no less – yet bald), the short, enthusiastic Asian guy who works at the club who tells every woman he knows that she looks like she’s lost weight since the last time he’s seen her, myself included. (He reminds me a little of comedian Bobby Lee, that would be the thing I’d focus on if I was fucking him. Not that I want to fuck Bobby Lee, but at least then it’s someone who looks like a celebrity. In all fairness, even though I’m not into the guy there’s nothing inherently wrong with him.)

Alone, I would have had men swarming me which can be overwhelming and hot at the same time. But with MasterDoc I don’t do much flirting unless it’s a couple and MasterDoc wants to fuck the woman. It can be tricky being there in a D/s situation, as in vanilla swinging the guy has to talk to the woman and convince her to get it on with him, but in a D/s situation, he really should be addressing MasterDoc and asking him for permission. I demur when approached and don’t flirt with guys a lot. I’m not sure if this is ideal, but if I were to get someone interested and then MasterDoc wanted me elsewhere and not fucking that guy, that would be awkward.

He settled us on the large bed in one of the side rooms. He got himself comfortable in the middle of the bed and I sucked his cock while a crowd gathered. He’s particularly vocal about things feeling good when we have an audience; he certainly knows how to play to the audience to add to the scene. He called me whore and treated me like a dirty slut. I deep-throated him as much as I could to show how much I wanted to fuck him while his fingers were tangled in my hair. While my jaw grew tired I kept pushing myself to suck him well and put on a good show.

He had me put a condom on his cock and get on top. I pulled off my panties and left on my skirt, blouse and fishnet stockings. I slid his cock into me and he pulled my skirt entirely up so the crowd could see well. I rode him, rocking my hips front and back. He talked dirty to me and I loved it. He slaps my ass now and then and I reach the edge of climax. I rode and moaned and waited for permission to come. “Come whore!” he said and I came, quivering and shaking on top of him. I squirted a bit, but thankfully missed his shirt and pants somehow.

At one point, some guy slaps my ass too and MasterDoc was not having any of that. He told him off quickly and in no uncertain terms, “Keep your fucking hands to yourself!” That’s one of the many reasons it’s preferable to go out with MasterDoc than go out alone – he watches out for me and won’t put up with bullshit.

As we recover, me still straddling him and his cock still inside of me, I playfully squeeze my vaginal muscles. He likes how that feels and I try to milk his cock a bit with my pussy. He asks if I want to fuck again and oh yes I’m keen to do that! We fuck some more, and I come again. I am very happy and very satisfied afterward.

We get dressed again (shoes mostly as we kept much of our clothing on) and wander the club. Not much else happened for a while. Later in the evening some friends showed up and we chatted and laughed with them.

We rested on a bed in the exhibitionists’ room and I stroked MasterDoc’s chest while playing with my clit. I was hoping for more fucking but MasterDoc had very little sleep the night before (three hours!) so it wasn’t going to happen. Suddenly, the slutty bartender of the club comes over with an entourage of horny guys pulling their peckers. She sits on the bed opposite us and plays with her clit. She says, “You know what I’m going to do now, right?” to me and I instantly know she plans to squirt. I exclaim that I need to move our shoes out of the way. We watch her as the guys surround her stroking themselves. In no time flat she stands up, and starts squirting a heavy stream of come. One guy puts his hands underneath her and gathers a load of her juices into his hand and then drinks them up in one gulp. (Which I must admit shocked me a little from a safer sex point of view.) A couple of other guys just put their hands in the stream of her come. It was hot to watch and afterward she got the clean-up guy to come by with a mop so no one could slip on her puddle on the floor. (Can you imagine the insurance report for that? “How did you slip and fall, Sir?” “Oh, on a puddle of girl come on the floor.”)

We wrapped up the night early so MasterDoc could get some much needed sleep. Tonight there’s a couple coming over, so hopefully I will get some more fucking.

The Doctor Comes In

Published on January 19, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, happy, masturbation, orgasm on command, porn, sex, shio and squirting. 0 Comments

On the laptop was German porn. A pasty, middle aged “doctor” was preparing to give a hot young thang an examination. Apparently they didn’t have much of a budget for costumes – the “doctor” was merely wearing white pants and a white undershirt. I giggled a bit further into the film as the doctor kept saying, “Ja, oh ja, oh ja,” over and over again.

MasterDoc pulled my thighs apart and played with my pussy a bit as the video buffered. It felt good but I wasn’t wet yet. When the video was ready, he had me turn to watch it while he lubed up my asshole. Of course this led me to wonder if he was going to fuck my ass. You can never be sure with him. He applied a good amount of lube and fingered my asshole a bit.

Suddenly, he had me get on hands and knees for fucking. I put myself in position and he used some lube on my pussy. He sloshed his cock around and around the outside of my lubed cunt. He pushed in, and it was a bit dry further inside, a bit uncomfortable. But thanks to our D/s dynamic I kept focusing on how hot it was that he could just take me even with only minimal foreplay, that I was his to use as he saw fit. And soon I was wet and aroused.
Slowly, I slid into a reverie and moaned here and there when he’d thrust deep. Then I’d go quiet until the next time the stimulation was kicked up a notch. I moaned louder suddenly. He moved his cock around inside me, using his hips. I could feel it touch each wall and then he’d slam it into me again. This went on for a while, I just kept moaning out my pleasure and holding myself on the edge of orgasm. I was ready to come any time he told me to, but then, an unfamiliar sound comes out of him while we’re fucking. He grunted a bit, like he does when he comes. Usually a condom is such an impediment to him coming that he doesn’t come when we have sex. Could it be? Did he come? He fucks me a little more, stops and tells me to come. I come as he keeps his cock inside me. He pulls it out as I come to an end.

We lay down, and from his position beside me he says, “Guess what?” And I knew then that the unlikely had happened. I looked down and there was come in the condom. I gleefully kicked my legs as I can’t remember another time he came while we had sex. (He says that it happened early on, before I knew it was something unusual.) This wonderful event was probably brought on by a couple of things – going days without an orgasm was one, another was some medication he’s now on.

He teased me with the full condom, “Now it’s time to get your reward!” He opened up the condom and placed the end on my tongue. I stuck it out willingly when he told me to, but then he decided not to empty the contents onto my tongue.

He went to clean up. I still wanted more orgasms so I was stroking clit when he came in. He teased me about whether he would let me come again that night or not. He bit the back of my arm, stroked my body, and kept asking me if I wanted to come. I said yes! He teased me some more as I stroked my slick clit rapidly. I start to worry that he’s not going to let me come again until the next day, but then he tells me to come, and before I know what’s happening my body curls up slightly as I orgasm. The orgasm is strong enough that I stop moving my hand for a moment as the waves crash over me and come spurts out of my cunt. Then I gathered my wits and started stroking my clit some more and came further.

Oh I was happy. And I marvel at how well he has me trained to come. I find myself orgasming more from the sound of his voice telling me to than from being at an actual orgasmic peak at that moment. It would be interesting to come from even less stimuli – MasterDoc suggested maybe we work on that.

Mutual Masturbation

Published on December 1, 2009 in Uncategorized, anal, consensual non-consent, cunt, fantasy, horny, kink, masturbation, needle play, porn, sex toys, shio and squirting. 1 Comment

This morning I accidentally posted my brief notes for this blog entry. Hitting “publish” instead of “save draft” resulted in a peek into my creative process. I take notes after events so I have something to remind me of just what went on, so that when I have time, I can flesh things out. Oh well, slip of the mouse.

After yesterday morning’s stressful show, MasterDoc also had possibly lined up a woman who’s local to him who plays with needles. I’ve been keen to try out needle play, you may recall my experience at Floating World. Thankfully, from what I’ve heard this woman is into the design side of piercing and not the “be mean and hurt the fuck out of the sub” side.

Unfortunately, that fell through. We’re supposed to meet her for coffee tomorrow night.

Since I had had countless orgasms earlier in the day, MasterDoc decided that he was going to come. (In the great variations of human sexual response, MasterDoc is one of those men who has trouble coming with a condom on. He’s only come during sex with me maybe once. We get him off via hands.) He put on some hot Japanese porn featuring the ever-popular (in Japanese porn) theme of non-consent. I have to say, while I sometimes worry about non-consent themed porn (Was it really non-consensual? I want it to just be pretend non-consensual.) I do find the idea hot. I liked thinking about putting up a struggle, and then being bound tightly and made to come over and over. I loved the porn and it helped me get into making him feel good. I focused on his reactions as I massaged his thighs and butt. I slowly worked my finger up his asshole. I ran my finger around his anal opening, putting light pressure along all sides of it. I tried to reach for his prostate in the front. I felt very turned on from doing this. When he came he instructed me to remove my finger ever-so-slowly and to press towards the front as I did. He is good at getting really specific about what he likes, and I am well-trained at this point in making him feel good. (But feedback is always useful.)

I was feeling horny after all this. I mentioned this and he gave me permission to masturbate. Hooray! I played with my bullet vibe on my clit and fantasized about physically struggling and being overcome sexually. MasterDoc came over after a very short while and helped by talking dirty to me, holding my legs apart (his forearm acted like a spreader bar between my thighs) and fingering me. I love being fingered, and lately he teases me so much. He ever so slowly touches around my hole. By the time he inserts a finger I’m desperate for it. I was allowed to come at will, and I had a gushing orgasm. I frantically humped his hand as I pressed the vibe to my clit and came.

Lips Parted

Published on November 12, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, gags, humiliation play, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, piss play, porn, sex, sex toys, shio and squirting. 2 Comments

We started the evening with some hugs and cuddles in bed. They’re naked cuddles of course, the best kind.

He asked if I’ve had enough cuddles and when I say yes he told me to suck his cock. I shifted so that I’m leaning on my side by his cock. I take it in my mouth and work it until it’s hard. He acts again on a request I put in the wishing box – he takes firm hold of my head and pushes me down onto his cock. I feel the tip of it hit the back of my throat and I’m surprised at how comfortable I’ve gotten with deep throating. My gag reflex doesn’t always cooperate, but it was doing a fine job relaxing last night. He gags me on his cock a few times and the saliva flows, making for a better, wetter blow job. I enjoyed feeling his cock at the back of my throat and plunged it that deep myself many times.

After a while, he has me stop, and we chat a bit. He takes a look at the wishing box and I’m hopeful that perhaps more of my wishes will become reality. He has me get the ring gag, which I’ve never really used. I’ve just tried it on myself for the review I wrote. He also has me get lube, condoms, a hard dildo (I select the archer wand) and all the nipple clamps. Between the two of us, we have two pair of crocodile clamps and one pair of clover clamps. I’m eager, yet anxious about the clamps. They were another item I named in the wishing box.

He had me put the ring gag in my mouth. My mouth grew a bit dry, but as I got aroused I forgot all about the dryness. He had me laying on my back. If I was on hands and knees some drooling probably would have come of the gag. I could communicate a little, but since I couldn’t move my jaw it was very limited. It was hot having my mouth held open. It’s a bit humiliating to be awkwardly open-mouthed in a gag.

He gets between my thighs and takes one pair of the crocodile clamps. Instead of using them on my nipples he puts one clamp on my left labia. He takes the other crocodile clamp and does the same on my right labia. He pulls the labia open with the other end of the clamps and drapes the chains by my thighs. I’m turned on by this, and he flicks my clit hard. Ow! He gets up and gets the flashlight and examines my pussy closely. It’s arousing and embarrassing to have someone look so closely. And since he’s a doctor I worry he’ll find something wrong.

Apparently everything looks okay, and he lubes up the archer wand. He slides the cold glass dildo along my open cunt. He gently presses the ball end of the dildo against my vagina. It slides in slowly and he takes his time fucking me with it. While he does this slow fucking I’m aching to be fucked hard. He teases me. I ache more. He gradually starts to fuck me harder but I’m not sure I’m at the point where I can come – but then he tells me to and I do right away despite doubt just seconds earlier. (It’s so cool to be so well-trained!)

As I come I squirt even more than usual. It’s like a flood onto the pillow and throe under my ass. I feel the liquid shoot out of my pussy. I’m coming so hard I hold my breath. I groan through the gag holding my mouth open.

He tells me I’ve had enough and removes the dildo. Next he takes the clamps off, and goes into the bathroom to wash up. I lay there in my puddle of come with gag in until he returns and tells me to remove it. I clean up a bit, and a trip to the bathroom reveals a swollen cunt from all the arousal and orgasm.

Round 2

We relax in the living room, and after a while MasterDoc heads back into the bedroom. He reads for a bit and I wait hopefully to see if he’ll call me in for more sex.

He does have me come in along with his laptop. I finish reading the chapter in the kinky novel I’m reading while he selects some porn. We chat a bit, and I admit – reluctantly – that I’m starting to find the idea of him pissing on me to be erotic. He teases me – “You sick freak! It’s one thing to want to piss on someone, but to want to be pissed on is sick!” I sigh.

We try fucking with me in front of him, both of us laying on our sides. It immediately becomes apparent this isn’t going to work. He has me get up on hands and knees and fucks me for a long time. My eager pussy envelops his hard cock. He pushes me to the edge where I’m desperate to come. He keeps me there. I’m moaning and while I enjoy the sensations immensely I want to come.

When he gives me permission to come, my vagina clamps down but doesn’t immediately push his cock out. It takes a few spasms for his cock to slowly be pushed out. I squirt some more, wetting the throe and axis, which I’m leaning on. I swear, I had the hardest orgasm I have ever had. I know that “I came hard” is easily the most overused phrase on this blog, but I was totally in outer space during this orgasm. I felt like I had absolutely no control over my body as it just kept coming and coming. I couldn’t breathe and I wondered if I could keep coming. I would think, “I need to stop. I need to breathe,” but he’d slap my pussy or stroke my clit and I would come all over again. When he’s finished with me, I lay face down on the bed and slowly catch my breath. I am in a total daze.

After I’ve recovered a little, MasterDoc has me play with his ass to help him come. I was supposed to work in a dildo we had around but I misunderstood somehow. I did slowly massage his ass, his thighs and then with well-lubed fingers I started gently probing at his asshole. When his sphincter relaxes I slowly slide one finger in. I move the finger around inside him caressing the insides of his anus. I work another finger in when I can, and with the two fingers I try to turn my hand so that my fingers press into his prostate by the front wall. I don’t think I quite had it right, but it worked nonetheless and he stroked his cock to orgasm. I could feel the strong muscles of his anus clench around my fingers. In retrospect, the dildo would have been an advantage then over my fingers.

I go wash up, then come back to relax with MasterDoc on the bed. His come looks sort of like mucus on the towel, but I resist saying this because he would have most assuredly made me lick it up.

I slept wonderfully last night. I’m sure the blissful afterglow from the orgasms, coupled with the exercise I did earlier in the afternoon (not to mention the top to bottom cleaning of his bathroom after the ceiling was fixed) made my body relax even more than usual.

Nadia’s Wishing Box

Published on November 4, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, dom, dp, horny, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex toys, slut and submissive. 2 Comments

Last night was a lovely evening with MasterDoc. I had been grumpy up until that point – the overstimulation and crowds of Costco put me in a bad mood during the afternoon. But as usual, once I was in my collar, submitting and getting some cock I became much calmer and happier.

We cuddled for a bit while MasterDoc talked on the phone to another Dom who is bringing his sub over for a sybian ride this weekend. It sounds like the two of them are cooking up lots of interesting things – I will sadly be at work when they come over this time, but perhaps next time or if they stay long enough I will be a part of it. I’m a little hesitant that I’m being told that the other woman has never been with a woman and her Dom thinks it’s about time – it’s really not fun being someone’s first woman if they’re not into it. She may very well be into it, or it could be totally painful. I will have to wait and see. Of course, this is painful simply because I will have to be the aggressor and we all know I suck at that. I’d much rather be with an experienced woman who takes control.

After he got off the phone, MasterDoc had me suck his cock for a while. I loved having it in my mouth and pushing as far to the back of my throat as I was able. He was rigid by the time he let me take a break. MasterDoc did something unusual then – as we cuddled he asked me what I wanted to do that night. ! I was speechless. You know you’re a well-trained submissive when you don’t even think about what you’d like to do. It’s always a given that we do what he wants, and I happily go along with it. It’s not that I don’t get input, I do, but the decision is his so I don’t think, “Well I really want a butt plug tonight.” Once we get started with sexytime, and my collar is on, I don’t think much, I just do. Sometimes there’s leeway when I set out toys – he’ll tell me to get out things I might like to play with. There’s never a guarantee that I’ll get what I want, of course, but he does take my requests under consideration.

As I lay there with my mouth open, unable to think up what I might want that evening, MasterDoc came up with an idea: we will set up a “wishing box” where I can put ideas whenever they come to me, and he can check it every so often and consider the suggestions. This way I get input, but it’s not expected on the spot and he still ultimately has control over what we do in an evening. (We agreed during this conversation that it really is less hot if I direct the action. On the other hand, I’m sure even wonderful Doms like MasterDoc could use some help with ideas now and then.) I’ve started writing out wishes on post it notes today. I have four sitting next to me on the sofa right now. I need to find a box to use. I love this idea!

MasterDoc took control back again since it was clear I was unable to think. We watched some porn (I just remembered I’m supposed watch this whole video – with sound – today. DeeDee recommended it to MasterDoc. She’s a very dirty girl!) and I got myself wet using my bullet vibe. It’s funny the things that don’t strike you as hot the first time you see it, but that gradually becomes hotter – gagging on cock seems really hot to me right now. As I watched that video, I thought about why slutty, kinky women are so hot – they enjoy sex and get into it with abandon. They allow themselves to be animalistic. They really let go and enjoy what they’re doing. I’ve only recently started realizing that about myself – I should allow myself to behave like a horny slut because it’s hot. Being shy doesn’t serve much of a purpose.

MasterDoc fucked me from behind as he continued to watch the porn. I used the bullet vibe on my clit, but not directly. I held it a little off to the side so I wouldn’t get worked up too fast. I moaned and my thumb found its way into my mouth. I bit and sucked on it to help control the rising tide of orgasm that wanted to sweep over me. He told me not to let myself get worked up too fast, and I obeyed as best I could. Oh it felt amazing. I entered subspace in a big way. He fucked me for what seemed like a very long time. I was so horny that I started crying out, “Oh that feels so good!” around the point when I’d usually start begging for orgasm. But subspace held me tight and I had a few, pinpointed thoughts, “I would do anything he wanted me to at this point.” And, “I’m so glad to be here, to be a hole for him to fuck when he wants to fuck. I am so glad he can use my body.” I was so happy, so turned on, so at peace. He started working his finger into my asshole and god I wanted to explode! When he told me to come, I came so very hard. And I kept coming over and over again, begging him to finger my ass more. The waves kept washing over me as he kept fucking or fingering or slapping my pussy and ass. I sometimes wonder if I should come as long as I do lately – do I come too much? Does he want me to come hard as long as he’s stimulating me? I want that. I’m amazed with how long he keeps me orgasming lately. I am ready to collapse by the time he decides I’ve had enough. My legs were exhausted from holding me up but my clenching cunt demanded attention, so I held the position until he was done with me.

I am so fortunate, and when my chemically imbalanced brain isn’t making me cranky, I’m incredibly happy with MasterDoc. I’m happy just to be hanging out at his place even when he’s not here. I have a huge smile on my face today. I have always needed a Dom and I’m feeling so complete now that I have one.

Maid to Order

Published on November 1, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, exhibitionism, flogging, humiliation play, kink, masochism, orgasm on command, porn, sadism, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, spanking, squirting and submissive. 3 Comments

It had been a while since MasterDoc and I did a show at his place. He liked my maid costume from Friday night enough that he had me wear it for the show. I greeted our guest at the door in black patent platform heels (I am probably 6′2″ in them), black fishnet stockings, little French maid dress w/ separate sleeves, the little headband that goes with the “uniform” and my collar. Thankfully, MasterDoc let me take the heels off shortly after our guest arrived. I am so not a high heels girl.

But I teetered on the heels as I answered the door as the “maid” and invited our guest in. I got him a glass of water and then went to get the toys that MasterDoc had requested for the show. I was a VERY good girl – he had said he wanted the strap so I got it. (Turns out he said strap but meant slut paddle. lol I got the strap (literally) because of him misspeaking.) I also got the two floggers, the two paddles (including the slut paddle), condoms, lube.

He had me kneel on the Liberator wedge in front of the recliner, I leaned forward on the chair and lifted my dress up in back. I had deliberately left off panties. MasterDoc commented on this and gave my ass a few swats. He discovered that I actually have bruises from Friday night – proof that he was really hitting me harder than usual. He took to spanking me – I think with the flogger. I got into a good headspace easily. He would alternate feeling my cunt to see if I was getting wet. Some strikes hurt more than others, but I was handling it fairly well, and getting wet.

Next, he had me lift my head up and suck his cock. It’s funny how I can be a total slut in front of strangers, but it’s easiest if I don’t have to look at them. Sucking cock is often, but not always, a good way to avoid eye contact. (But it’s especially difficult when he makes me suck AND look the audience in the eye.) He had me move the wedge over, so that I was kneeling in front of our guest, facing him. He had told me before that he wanted me to tease the man – rub my face against his cock through his pants. I struggled with this a bit, mainly rubbing my head against the guys’ inner thighs. MasterDoc reminded me that I had something to do and started in with hard whacks on my ass with the wooden paddle until I moved into action sufficiently. I felt really slutty. As we know, I don’t see this as a bad thing. I rubbed my face against the guys’ pants and MasterDoc beat me some more but lightened up on the hits. It felt like this went on for a long time, although it was likely just a couple of minutes.

He had me sit in the recliner, and by now I know to spread my legs and lift my dress as soon as I do so. He had me use the acuvibe mini on myself and he tried to fuck me in that position. Unfortunately the height is not quite right. He told me to get myself worked up so that I’m able to come as soon as he stuck his dick into me. It was a bit of a let down that the chair was not the right height.

I was on my knees in front of him again as he sat on the couch. I sucked his cock and played with his inner thighs as he told the guest about the perks of having a submissive. He’s trained me to touch him in exactly the ways he likes. In a vanilla relationship, it can be kind of insulting to pick apart your partner’s technique, but in a D/s situation, it’s part of the deal. He stroked his cock for a while as he spoke and I played with his ass and inner thighs making him feel good.

He had me get on the floor and play with my bullet vibe as my spread legs faced him and the guest. I got really worked up as ordered and he had me get on hands and knees for a fucking. I was on the verge of coming as he slid his cock into me, and like the well-trained submissive I’ve become, I came. And came. And he slapped my ass, grabbed my hips and buried his cock deep inside as I kept coming. My body went somewhat limp and I ended up resting my head and shoulders on the mat by the end.

He tried to decide what to do next and I sucked his cock some more. Luckily I got him hard and he decided to fuck me again. This time, on my back with the axis under my ass. The pillow put me right up against his cock as he slid it in. Our guest had been given a flashlight to use as a spotlight. Once MasterDoc’s cock was in, there wasn’t so much to watch, so he had our guest hold my legs up and back. The angle was such that he couldn’t thrust much, but I focused on the feeling of his cock. The brain is the largest sex organ, and in the right situation I can psych myself up into an orgasm. (Has to already be a hot situation, just one where there’s perhaps not as much physical stimulation as I usually need.) I was soon ready to come. I got to come again, this time squirting a little. He called me a whore in the middle of it and this really flips my switch. Afterward, I was well-fucked and happy for a little break.

I got to sit on the sofa with MasterDoc and take my collar off, so I could relax a bit and be more casual. The guy who came to the show was nice. I’m always glad when they turn out to be non-creepy. I guess it’s kinda hot in the humiliation sort of way to be fucked and slutty in front of someone you dislike, but I prefer an appreciative audience that doesn’t try too hard to call me a slut and whore. I love MasterDoc doing it – not so crazy about some guy I don’t know. I think it’s because I know that MasterDoc doesn’t think badly of sluts or whores. Sometimes you wonder about the guys who watch the shows.

We watched the filthy porn MasterDoc had chosen before the show, which ran in the background all the while. It’s an intense German porn with lots of force, cum, piss, women swapping the cum and piss between their mouths – that sort of thing. I mentioned how I liked the bondage with the woman struggling. Our guest asked if that was my “thing.” Upon reflection, MasterDoc and I agreed that perhaps it would be easier for me to list what I’m NOT into. Yup, I’m a sick freak and he knows it (and loves it).

The costume came in handy since I’m feeling a bit self-conscious about my scars from my recent surgery. No one’s had to see my tummy yet in a party or show situation thanks to that maid costume. I don’t feel self-conscious around MasterDoc, so I’ve happily been naked around him nearly all weekend. I’ll adjust and of course the scarring will fade with some time.

Hot Submission

Published on October 28, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, dom, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm on command, porn, sex, shio, squirting, submissive, trust and wax play. 4 Comments

I’ve been feeling the need lately, more than ever, to feel submissive. It’s funny, because if you’re not submissive you may wonder why anyone would want to feel controlled, beneath another, objectified. But for me, it’s not only incredibly hot, it also soothes me. In the midst of all that’s been going on in my life, submitting to MasterDoc allows me to relax and not stress.

It’s not always easy to submit. Last night MasterDoc talked to me about how I can be possessive of my time with him. If faced with giving up or sharing some of my time with him, I should view it in terms of submission and pleasing him. This is incredibly hard because I want to be with him as much as possible. I crave being with him, I crave his attention. While there are moments when I’m very much in the headspace of submission where I enjoy just being there while he attends to someone or something else, (tonight was one of those nights) most of the time I find that really difficult to do. Even moreso when I can’t at least be with him in the same place.

It’s interesting, because although putting my wants aside so that his happiness is fulfilled is a challenge, (especially being genuinely happy about doing it myself) I crave that challenge. I’m happy when I’m struggling with myself to make him happy. It’s kinda convoluted I will admit. What can I say? I’m a submissive. Some days it’s more fulfilling than others. Other days I just want to be the center of attention.

Last night, we watched part of a very hot porn video – in it a submissive woman had to serve at a party. The guests could comment on her naked body and they were free to grope her as they wished. She was the only person in the room without clothes on. Her wrists were secured behind her back and she wore high heels. In the beginning she has a tray slung on a belt around her waist with two chains leading to her collar. She had to navigate the living room full of guests balancing full champagne flutes on the tray. Let me remind you, her hands are secured behind her back throughout this.

She did spill a couple of glasses and was scolded for it. One spilled on an ottoman in the middle of the room and she was ordered to clean it up with her tongue. After she did that, she was brought around the circle of people again to be groped, probed, examined and handled. God, the humiliation was hot.

I was so fucking hot and wet watching this. MasterDoc needed to divert his attention to helping one of the other ladies in his life through a crisis, and being horny yet feeling very, very submissive, I enjoyed playing with myself until he was ready to touch me, and I could go back to that if he needed to pull his attention away again. He had me stop touching myself at one point, and I really was content to lay on the bed next to him patiently. I was genuinely happy to be doing that.

I suppose short-term patience like that is easy. But feeling like I’m giving up time, giving up getting my needs met when I feel like I want them to be met is hard. The idea of taking something like a weekend away at Floating World with MasterDoc, and then deriving pleasure from him having a good time, even if I don’t get to enjoy the things I’d like to because I’m sharing him, is hard. I should trust more, I suppose, that he will make sure I’m taken care of at some point. But that’s hard when it looks like things aren’t going how you hoped. (Especially when you’ve paid your way for the weekend.)

Tonight, I was really turned on by the submission. Actually turned on by being his servant, waiting for him patiently. It made me fucking horny. He drizzled some hot wax on me and I was really turned on by the fact that he could inflict pain on me – the control of it. He fucked me after, and I was so aroused the entire time. I suppose I should add that he placed the laptop on my back and continued his online conversation while he fucked me – and this drove me crazy. He made me come and squirt like Old Faithful.

That was the only round planned, but as I started this post I looked up the porn and started watching it again. MasterDoc decided that we could go another round, and he fucked me from behind again. This time, somehow, my vaginal muscles didn’t push him out. I worked hard at keeping things that way while also coming insanely hard. My hand dropped beside the bed, flailing limply as I came, head pressed into the bed and my knees kept spreading wider as I’m pounded down into the bed. I went completely incoherent – moans, whines, grunts, gasps were the only noises I could make. I was catapulted into another world. The only thing I was only able to do was come for as long as he wanted me to. He kept fucking me and I kept coming. I started to wonder if I could handle any more. My muscles pushed him out, and he kept touching my pussy, slapping it, stroking my legs, grabbing my hair. And I responded by continuing to come and squirt. When I later picked up the towel beneath me (placed there for the wax play) it was heavy from all the wetness I had squirted. The throe underneath was very wet too. MasterDoc said that he impresses even himself. I’m impressed too. I was utterly under his control being made to come like that.

A Guest

Published on October 22, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, kink, orgasm on command, porn, sex, sex toys, shio, spanking, squirting, submissive and sybian. 4 Comments

The day before my surgery, MasterDoc had a professional fem Domme, Daina, come over to join us for some playtime (in a non-professional capacity). It seems that she’s at least somewhat switchy, and so was the perfect playmate for the two of us – Domme over me, sub for him.

As usual I loved watching MasterDoc subtly begin to undress her as the three of us talked on the couch, and soon he was stroking her pussy. He took one breast and had me take the other. He had me get the magic wand, and he got Daina off with it. My memory is a bit fuzzy since this was a few days ago and I’ve had general anesthesia in the meantime, but I will relate as much of the story as I can.

I had gotten out a bunch of toys at MasterDoc’s request by this time, and he had me place a pillow on the living room floor so I could kneel before the couch and suck his cock as he reclined comfortably. They took turns swatting my ass a little and talking about various implements while I went down on him. There was talk about tying me up (rope is something MasterDoc hasn’t mastered, but apparently Daina has some experience) I was really excited about this but in the end it didn’t happen.

We moved to the bedroom and MasterDoc had me get on my knees. I knelt over the new Liberator Axis I have (I swear, review will be coming soon!) and they took turns spanking my ass. She hit harder than he did – and he pointed out that fem Dommes are cruel. When I pretty much couldn’t take it any more, he had me flip over so I was laying on my back, the Axis holding my hips up, and Daina started playing with my pussy. She stroked my clit between her fingers, and eventually she went down on me. It felt wonderful and as I got closer to coming MasterDoc started slapping my face and tits, talking dirty to me, and he told me to come and I squirted all over my new pillow.

He fucked me next, him on top of me, my hips raised again by the Axis. Even though I had just come, I was eager to come again. (I’m really pretty insatiable most of the time.) And he fucked me until I was begging to come, and when he let me, I came hard, squirting all over my pillow again.

MasterDoc had promised Daina a horsey ride (i.e., a ride on the sybian) and before she left he fulfilled this promise – I perched on the sofa and enjoyed watching. She had said before coming over that she really needed a release of endorphins, and I think she left with the endorphins just flowing. A sybian orgasm is something else, truly.

That night, when MasterDoc and I were alone, he decided that he wanted to come. So I played with his ass as he masturbated – watching this porn, which we hadn’t finished before. When he was ready to come, he rolled towards me and told me to take his cock in my mouth. I did, and come shot up into my mouth. I closed my lips around his cock and he reminded me that the head is too sensitive, that he wanted me to put my mouth right down on his shaft and so I did, pleased to be such an active part of his orgasm.