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Not All Nights Out Are Happy

Published on July 13, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anxiety, blow jobs, emotions, exhibitionism, sex parties, shio, squirting and stress. 0 Comments

I went out to a party with MasterDoc and DeeDee Saturday night. I wasn’t entirely in the mood to go out, but I figured I could get myself in the mood. I put on some music as I got ready (Culture Club! I’m a total child of the 80′s.) and I perked up. The host of the party was the same guy who lent MasterDoc his paddle recently and his parties have always been good. We got there, to a space we’ve never been to, and my first impression was that the crowd was some how “dodgy” compared even to the usual swing club crowd. There seemed to be a whiff of desperation in the air much greater than usual. This could have been merely my perception, it’s hard to tell, but it set me up for feeling uncomfortable and unsafe. I told MasterDoc my impression, and DeeDee mostly agreed with the impression. But we wandered around and I stuck with them.

Taking a break on a bed, DeeDee was raring to go and while MasterDoc kissed me on one side, he reached back with a hand and played with DeeDee’s pussy. She came pretty fast and it’s impressive how quickly she gets worked up these days. I wasn’t comfortable enough yet so I was glad to snuggle a bit. I took my top off, to reveal the top half of the lacy, meshy slip I had borrowed from DeeDee to wear but I left my sarong on the bottom half. DeeDee is a few inches shorter than me, so a slip that’s short on her is practically non-existent on me. I could scarcely pull it down enough to go over my ass. Most women weren’t dressed too scantily, and this made me feel even more self-conscious. MasterDoc had me suck his cock while DeeDee cuddled with him, and I enjoyed making him twitch with my mouth. He had us change places a few moments later, and he and I kissed and cuddled while DeeDee made him twitch. The bed was uncomfortable – it was pretty much a leather (or pleather more likely) flat couch and it sunk in the section I sat on.

We got up and looked around some more, we ran into the party host and he showed us around. There were many “voyeur” or “peeping Tom” windows to the rooms, where viewers could pull back a curtain from the outside and watch what was going on in the room. This suited our sensibilities. But the lighting was exceptionally low for the most part. We got drinks and a nibble to eat, and MasterDoc sat us down in a well-lit and well-traveled area. A couple who had asked about our big For Your Nymphomation bag of toys, came over and MasterDoc gave them a tour of the inside of our toychest. I could tell MasterDoc was flirting with the woman, and she was rather cute. The guy didn’t thrill me and I didn’t really want to end up doing anything with him, but I knew that to help MasterDoc along I was going to be expected to.

As MasterDoc finished the toychest tour and went back to eating, I found myself sitting between him and DeeDee. They had me take off my sarong, so I was barely clad in the slip. (It’s black, lace underwire cups, mesh body and wide lace trim at the bottom.) I felt really self conscious for some reason last night. I still didn’t feel comfortable with the people there. And to be exposed in such a heavily traveled and well-lit area made me feel anxious. (MasterDoc later told me that he chose that place because it would be easy to keep control over what was happening. Too bad it didn’t feel like that to me.) He put my leg over his, so that my legs were partly spread. DeeDee did the same with my other leg. I felt anxious and so I requested the blindfold out of the bag. Some onlookers commented on how we had everything in that bag, but by blocking my sight I was able to block the onlookers out to an extent. MasterDoc toyed with me, and I had a hard time getting into it, but I tried my best. I was able to relax enough to enjoy his toying with my body, and he made me come hard in front of all those people. I squirted a couple of times on the vinyl bench and I worried that it would seep under my raised thigh and soak MasterDoc’s pants. He made me come for a long period of time and I came close several times to begging him to let me rest.

We cleaned up the bench with baby wipes after I was done. My ass was kept damp by the slip having gotten wet at the back. Luckily it was mesh so it wasn’t too uncomfortable to walk around in, in that respect. A guy who had been nearby watching with two women followed us over to the food table and he complimented me on the show. He was clearly interested, and he didn’t seem too bad – i.e., he didn’t trigger my sense of feeling unsafe. Maybe I was relaxing a bit. I needed to sit down, and MasterDoc found me a chair in the hallway. The couple from earlier came over and they were clearly interested in playing. The guy started getting close to me, and I could tell MasterDoc saw him stroking my shoulders and then gradually moving to my breasts. I wasn’t thrilled with the guy, but I was still just aroused enough that I could close my eyes and enjoy the feeling (forgetting who was doing it). MasterDoc joined in caressing me. The five of us went off to a room, the guy in the couple seemed quite uncomfortable with having an audience. MasterDoc explained how much we enjoy an audience. We closed the door to the room, so that only the guys peering through the perv window could see us.

DeeDee and MasterDoc talked about how not only is it his skills that gets him women, but also he has found very responsive women. He had DeeDee lay down and he brought her to orgasm quickly as a demonstration. The guy was turned on and asked if he could eat her out and he did so for a bit. DeeDee came again. The guy kept playing with her pussy and stroking her thighs and she had to beg for a break. (MasterDoc had to remind him a few times to stop touching her so she could rest.) He then reached to play with my pussy. I wasn’t interested or particularly comfortable, but I knew that MasterDoc wanted me to go along with things (although I felt unclear on the extent). My pussy wasn’t really wet enough but the toy bag with the lube was out of reach. The guy sat on the arm of the sofa next to me, and opened his jeans His lady sucked his cock and I felt a sense of relief to just watch, but he groped me as well and I sort of silently put up with it.

This is sad isn’t it? I was totally not into it and it was a little like when I was raped – I felt the activity was inevitable and so I quietly acquiesced and reminded myself it would soon be over. I tolerated it rather than enjoying it. Positions shifted and soon MasterDoc was playing with the lady’s pussy while she bent over and sucked her guy’s cock. The guy tried to go down on me but couldn’t get in a good position, so he played with my somewhat dry clit instead. I thought his skills were pretty dreadful. He beckoned DeeDee over and wanted her to suck his cock, she told him she doesn’t do that. He kept caressing her and I alternately and I worried that MasterDoc wasn’t watching. He was more than likely was keeping on top of his Domly duties and making sure I wasn’t being harmed, but I was feeling so unsafe that night that if he wasn’t looking in the direction of what was happening to my body, I felt like he wasn’t watching. (When we spoke later he assured me that he was in control of the situation.) While all this was going on, assholes kept opening the door to the room and not going away when we motioned for them to leave. It added to my sense of being unsettled and unsafe and I felt like the crowd was rude and pushy. I also got the sense that they were extremely straight and extremely vanilla. The guy in the couple, being uncomfortable with the crowd, ended up leaving with the lady after exchanging phone numbers with MasterDoc.

After they left, we closed the door again and MasterDoc attended to me. He went down on me, and I just kept feeling so unsafe in that environment that I couldn’t let go and enjoy myself. He tried placing pressure on my inner pelvis, but it just came across as uncomfortable. When it was clear I couldn’t relax, he came up and talked to me. I explained that I was fearful of being assaulted (and I know this wasn’t particularly rational, but I had images of aggressive guys forcing themselves on me while MasterDoc got pushed to the other end of the room by the sea of bodies). I was so clearly freaked out that MasterDoc decided we should go home.

I needed to use the bathroom before we left, and DeeDee went with me since she knew the door didn’t lock. She stood outside, looking formidable and Dommely with my riding crop. This helped a great deal. Ultimately, I felt uncomfortable enough (and somehow triggered enough) that anyone I didn’t know touching me was likely to freak me out. I had tried conveying my level of freaked outness to MasterDoc but I’m not sure I managed to do it adequately. He was keeping control of the situation from his perspective, but I felt very much like things were out of control – particularly out of my control. Some days I just can’t feel ok about “You will fuck whoever I tell you to.” When I’m in the right mindset it can be hot to be his whore and used by others at his discretion, however in the wrong mindset it feels like assault. I felt withdrawn and unhappy well into Sunday.

Independence Day

Published on July 6, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, caning, cunnilingus, depression, dom, embarrassment, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, squirting, submissive and threesome. 0 Comments

Since I wear my depressive episodes on my sleeve anyone who follows my twitter knows I was in bad shape the other day. Thankfully, it has passed and I have some very understanding people in my life who realize that while I become negative and complaining during an episode, it’s not entirely what I’m thinking/feeling so much as just a chemical reaction in my brain.

But some things do get brought up when I’m in that state that are bothering me just below the surface. I gave MasterDoc a hard time about our sex life becoming more and more routine. It can be frustrating when he seems to put effort and creativity into trysts with women he’s not involved with, but not so much with me (or DeeDee). Now granted, even a routine sex life with MasterDoc is pretty hot and satisfying. And one of the wonderful things (I say that a lot, don’t I? There’s many wonderful things.) about MasterDoc is that he will look at criticism and see if it has merit. He acknowledged that there is some truth to my complaints.

After talks, hugs and hanging out, my depression lifted. On Saturday night after MasterDoc made DeeDee come and subsequently conk out, he took me into the other bedroom and went down on me. This is something he doesn’t do often, and we were chatting about that earlier in the day. He dove in and did a fantastic job eating my pussy. He had me moaning and heading towards orgasm in mere moments. As he had me come, he put fingers inside me AND pressed down just above my pubic bone with the other hand while still licking my clit. Holy fucking christ I had an incredible orgasm. Even more incredible than usual. He joked about how he was sorry it was just plain sex and not something creative. I had to laugh because of course it was more than wonderful. I crave more bdsm scenes, but the sex we do have is pretty damn hot.

Sunday night the three of us went out to the swing club. MasterDoc, DeeDee and I seem to be becoming more and more triad-like as time goes on. It’s not unusual for us to show up as a unit to the swing club. The three of us took over the large bed and DeeDee and I took turns sucking MasterDoc’s cock. DeeDee started him off, and I cuddled with him. He decided that in honor of Independence Day we would be allowed to come when we choose to (now granted, we each might decide some teasing is desired, but it was all left up to us). After telling me this, he had me swap places with DeeDee and he told her the same and one or two other things, such as him considering letting us select one guy to fuck.

The swing club was having a private party that night and the host, a friendly (and kinky) guy we know, came in with his new paddle. He told MasterDoc that he was welcome to break the paddle in, and so MD had DeeDee and I get on all fours on the bed, asses in his direction. He alternated paddling us. I hadn’t had a paddling in a while and it definitely suited me. He switched to fingering us at the same time and soon we’re both coming. (Picture, if you will, MasterDoc kneeling on the bed behind us with his right hand in my cunt and his left hand in DeeDee’s cunt.) The party host commented afterward that it was impressive to watch MasterDoc “pussy DJ.” MasterDoc loves the showmanship of sex and he would vary what he did to us to get us to make noise in time with the music. He’d focus on DeeDee, then on me, then both of us so we were moaning in unison. I came quickly and for a long time. These days I forget how fast I’m able to orgasm since I always have to ask permission. It was lovely for a change of pace, but I like the way he teases me so I wouldn’t want it like that all the time.

After a rest and cuddles, he had DeeDee and I give him a dual blow job – she was licking one side, I the other. We both started giggling when her tongue pretty much left his cock and got together with my tongue. I giggled thinking MasterDoc was pushing her head a bit to encourage her – but it turned out he had no idea why we were giggling! DeeDee was more aggressive than usual and it surprised me a bit because I remember back to last year when MasterDoc met her and he told me that she was curious about doing things with women, but didn’t think she would be comfortable kissing one. I was happy to go along with it however, as clearly she was ok with what she was doing.

As DeeDee cuddled against MasterDoc’s back and stroked his ass and back (as far as I could tell), he leaned in to me and we kissed a bit. He touched my body and soon I was on the verge of orgasm. I could feel DeeDee’s hand reach out for my nipple and I enjoyed coming as they played with my body.

We got dressed, got drinks and had a seat in the main area. Coincidentally, the spotlight was on MasterDoc’s cock. This inspired him to have us take turns blowing him and with a hard cock he asked if I wanted to be fucked. Oh yes! He had me bend over the back of the couch and he fucked me. Unfortunately, this didn’t last long as the couch is right against a wall, a very hard wall, and my head kept hitting it despite my best efforts to keep it clear of the wall. We had to find another spot.

We moved to the exhibitionists room just a few steps away (it’s part of the main area, just set off by some very sheer curtains). MasterDoc decided to give me a beating and DeeDee suggested implements from the toy bag to him. My pain tolerance was quite good and he gave me quite a beating. (DeeDee later said she was impressed by what I took.) Since I had permission to come whenever I wanted, I came due to just the beating. The orgasm lasted a while while he kept caning my ass. My ass was quite sore after, but I had had a great time.

I suggested that DeeDee was overdue for an orgasm. He says, “What? She’s due for a beating?” He loves to tease us and make it seem like we’re trying to give the other one trouble. Because she was so enthusiastic about giving him impact toys to use on me, he decided that he should use the same ones on her. I was proactive for once and I lent a hand playing with her clit without his even encouraging me. DeeDee came easily. I got the nea and used that on her clit next. MasterDoc followed through on something he had promised earlier that evening – that he would use my anal beads on her as a tail. He had her suck on the beads to moisten them, and I tried being helpful and held up the bottle of lube, which thankfully he used. So the beads were placed only about half way in, and he told her, “Now, arf!”

“Oh Sir! Please no!” DeeDee moaned with her face buried in her arms (ass in the air). He got her to bark like a dog, much to her humiliation. In order to be able to come again, he made her arf one final time. She did after a few moments as I suppose the desire for orgasm outweighed the humiliation. As MasterDoc played with her cunt, I remembered his admonition for no idle hands – either help play with someone else – or play with yourself. I opted to play with myself and soon I came again as DeeDee did. I squirted this time, and got my dress a little wet. Thankfully it’s warm out so the damp dress wasn’t as uncomfortable as it could have been.

A few people had stopped by to watch as she came while my hand was holding the nea to her clit and MasterDoc was playing with the anal beads. DeeDee was so embarrassed after that she didn’t want to leave the area and face the people who might have been watching her humiliation.

A Good Schtupping (Or Three)

Published on June 30, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, non-monogamy, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting and submissive. 0 Comments

I had been horny for days. MasterDoc spent the weekend with one of his other ladies, and I didn’t make an effort to find other venues of sexual satisfaction. Not besides masturbation anyway. I did watch porn and rub one out a couple of times over the weekend, and while it felt good it’s not the same intensity as hot fucking with someone you’re completely hot for.

I flirted with MasterDoc from my droid while at work yesterday. He teased me about maybe I would get some sex that night. I asked him if he wanted me to beg. “Begging never hurt,” he said. I started saying how I would go down on my knees in front of him and beg for his cock inside me. He teased me a bit more later on, saying that he was horny then and I’d better get there soon or he’d be all done by the time I did. He really does love teasing me. Leaving work to go fuck him sounded marvelous, but this is the real world and I needed to finish the day.

We found some porn, and quite honestly I don’t remember much about it. I didn’t watch a lot of it. He had me put my collar on and set up the bed. The throe was in the laundry so I had to fold a couple of towels in case I squirted. I lay with my back to him so we could both see the porn. I used the nea on my clit to get worked up and he asked me if I could feel his cock against my back. Indeed I did, and his mentioning focused my attention on him stroking his cock behind me. I would shudder now and then, because even though the nea hadn’t gotten me to a point of orgasm yet, having him pressed against me turned me on so much.

He fucked me from behind, taking his time. When we start out fucking I’m feeling pretty conscious of my surroundings, perhaps thinking some incompatible thing like, “Gee, I hope I’m wet enough. I wonder if I’ll get turned on quickly.” But as he slides his big cock in and out of me, those coherent thoughts slip away, and I clench my eyes shut, bite my thumb, and moan as the sensations in my cunt start leading me to orgasm. When he takes a moment to thrust harder I’m immediately pushed to a point where I could come. He hasn’t given permission yet, so I teeter on the edge, yearning for that final release.

He tells me to come, and I immediately fly into orgasm. My pussy clenches, I moan really loudly (or, perhaps, scream a little) and a trickle of come squirts out of my pussy onto my hand holding the nea to my clit. Thankfully MasterDoc made sure I was over the towels so I didn’t soak the bed.

He made me come for a long time and I felt so spent after. I lay there recovering but soon my rampant horniness kicked in again, and I started playing with his chest. He likes how I’ve learned to use my hands to make him feel good. I play with his chest hair. Sometimes I lick his chest. I stroke the spot where hip meets thigh meets crotch. And I massage his inner thighs.

He has me suck him for a while with the condom still on, telling me to get it hard again and maybe he’ll put it back in me. His pubic hair smells of my pussy like crazy. I suck hard on his cock as I know the condom deadens the sensation a bit. I keep fighting with the reservoir tip with my tongue so it doesn’t tickle the back of my throat.

He fucks me again, same position. As he’s slowly starting to fuck me, he tells me a “funny story” about the woman he had fucked the night before. She was a former submissive playmate of his who he hasn’t seen in several years. She’s now single and hadn’t gotten laid in months. Ever the philanthropist (or dog, I can’t recall which) MasterDoc offered to give her some occasional schtupping to help her hold out until she meets someone new she is comfortable with. As he fucked me, he told me about how he had told her that he wanted to come on her face. This was an order from Dom to submissive playmate, not just a, “Gee honey would you do this?” When he came, she kept his cock in her mouth and he ended up coming in her mouth. After, he asked her what happened to the come. She said very quietly, shyly that she had wanted his come in her mouth and that she had swallowed it. As a Dom, he was thrown a little. He *should* punish her for deliberately disobeying. But on the other hand, he thought this was so hot. She didn’t get punished.

In the past, a story like that during sex might have put me into a fit of insecurity. This time, it was so fucking hot. My Dom, wanted by many other women, was telling me, his sub, how he fucked another woman the day before and she was a slut who wanted his come in her mouth. After he reached the end of his tale, he quietly said, “You may come.” And come I did, squirting all over again.

We took a break to make and enjoy dinner, as we had started the fucking before. After dinner we sat on the couch with the intention of more playing. He got distracted on his laptop, so I leaned in and put my head on his shoulder. I was all worshipful and hopeful that he’d fuck me again.

In the bedroom, he had me play with his ass, massaging his prostate. It seemed like the kind of activity that would lead to him coming, which I hoped for even though I wanted to be fucked again. I stroked the walnut-textured gland through his anus and enjoyed watching him feel good courtesy of my hands.

He fucked me a third time and there was more coming and squirting. As he had me get on hands and knees (the same position as the past couple of times) he commented on how he must be boring. I gave him an impish look, but didn’t say anything. While it would be nice for more varied positions, I don’t think he’s boring. (How could I!?) I just think now and then he needs to be re-inspired to try different and new things.

After I came, I was still so turned on and wanted him to come in MY mouth so badly. I touched and massaged him as best I knew how in an attempt to make him come. I licked his chest, rubbed against him and felt so turned on that I could possibly come myself. I played with his ass and lowered my head so that I was eye to eye with his cock as he stroked it. I licked my lips hoping for him to shoot a load in my mouth. I told him this, and then a short while later I tried bringing out the big weapons and told him that at that point I was then thinking about him coming on my tits and me licking it off. Sadly, he decided not to come last night, and I reluctantly laid off stimulating him.

As horny as I was though, I asked him if I could make myself come. He teased me for a bit – asking me if I would still be good Wednesday night when a Dom and sub were slated to come over. He asked his usual – will I fuck who he tells me to no matter what I think of the guy? I promise to do so as I’m desperate to come, and he plays with my cunt as I use the nea on my clit. He gets me more and more worked up talking about how he’s not sure if he should let me come, and am I sure that I will do what he wants tomorrow night? I get more and more turned on thinking about being his whore and fucking whoever he says. It’s like him fucking me by extension. (And when I related this thought to him later, he said that’s the right way to look at it.) I came when he gave permission and he grabbed my throat – not tight enough to constrict but tight enough to push me over the edge some more. I came so very hard yet again.

Lately I feel like I could spend all my time just fucking him.

Ain’t Nothing but a Horndog, Humping All the Time

Published on June 22, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, blog, blow jobs, exhibitionism, horny, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex toys, shio, slut and squirting. 1 Comment

I got to go out last night alone with MasterDoc. While I positively love hanging out with him and DeeDee, it is nice to have time alone with him sometimes. I had been looking forward to going out and I was not at all disappointed.

We went to our usual swing club. Unfortunately MasterDoc started the evening in a bit of a bad mood. I slyly asked what I could do to improve it. He smiled at this and at some point he resolved to shake the mood he was in.

MasterDoc has become even more of a “dog” lately than usual (more on this later). He is craving lots and lots of varied pussy. So I tried catching eye of a woman he expressed interest in, while he was in the bathroom. She seemed like a totally stuck up bitch though and didn’t make eye contact with anyone. A guy I had zero interest in tried flirting with me as I talked and laughed with the guy who works at the club (the one I keep saying reminds me of comedian Bobby Lee). “You have a great laugh,” the guy said to me. Not a bad line at all, I just had no interest. Ladies, if you like being a bitch to men then a swing club on a night with single males is a great place to go. You can snub many, many men in one evening and pick and choose who you swing with. Early on in the night I glimpsed guy who fucked me recently at the club, though I didn’t see any recognition in his eyes as I walked by.

MasterDoc put us in the room with the large bed. We got naked and he joked about taking out his bad mood on me. I tell you, if that doesn’t give a submissive masochist mixed feelings I don’t know what does! Ultimately, he used my Ella dildo on me while I used the nea on my clit. I sucked his cock for a while and worked my hard-learned skills on his cock.

MasterDoc had me get on hands and knees to fuck me. Helpful hint: take the Ella dildo out before changing position. Ouch. MasterDoc fucked me from behind hard, so very hard. He varied speed and cadence as he always does and he just could do no wrong last night. I kept moaning and losing track of my surroundings. I loved how rough he was. As usual, I kept my face turned away from the gathering crowd. I may be an exhibitionistic slut, but I have a hard time looking at the people watching me. The fucking went on for a long time and he kept me on the edge, desperate to come. At one point he pounded my cervix too hard, and I cried out in pain. He paused for just a second, then he told me to come. He told me (for all to hear) to take the pain and turn it into an orgasm. Fuck. I came hard. He called me bitch. His ever so rigid cock kept fucking me as I came. If I started to quiet down a little, he fucked me hard and deep again and soon I was screaming in pleasure again. I came for a long time and squirted all over the bed.

After the orgasm I had a brief rest. (During which I thought about how fucking lucky I am!) Soon, he had me roll over onto my back, telling me to keep my eyes closed. He played with my cunt with his hands, and let some guy play with my tits. Despite accidentally opening my eyes now and then (foolish girl, I had forgotten to pack a blindfold), I never focused on the guy on my tits enough to see who it was. MasterDoc made me come, his fingers probing my g-spot, as I squirted again.

Just when I figured he’d want a break we’d get back to fooling around again. He handed the flashlight to a Hasid (you’d be surprised how often the Hasidim show up at this place – only the men though). The young Hasidic man held the flashlight so it shone on my pussy. He called me beautiful which is always a nice thing to hear. I wondered to myself what it must be like to be a part of such a repressive culture. I wondered what he thought of slutty women as a consequence – turned on by but think poorly of? I used the nea on my clit a bit as the light illuminated my ladybits. MasterDoc spread my labia wide so my anatomy was easy for all to see.

MasterDoc fucked me from behind again (his cock would not quit last night! Rowr!) as I used the nea on my clit. (Love it for that as it’s cordless and lightweight.) It was another hard fucking coupled with hard coming. MasterDoc suggested maybe fucking my ass next. I loved this idea. I squirted again and after the fuck I collapsed exhausted.

He asked me if I wanted to lick his ass to help him come. “Uh, I want to help you come,” I said evasively. I knew darn well what he wanted though – he wanted me to say that I wanted to lick his ass. Not happening. lol I told him he had to be content with my being willing to lick his ass. So glad my collar was not on last night!

So MasterDoc, ever the horndog, has been turning into a super dog thanks to testosterone supplements. He started getting hot flashes a while back – yes a man with hot flashes – but didn’t put his doctor thinking cap on to figure out why he would have such a thing. One of his other ladies searched the web, and suggested he might have a testosterone deficiency. Sure enough he does. (Can you imagine that all his previous activity has been done by a man in his mid-50′s with a testosterone deficiency?!) Supplemental testosterone has done amazing things to his penis as well as his already high libido. I would suggest he blog his horndog exploits but I’m sure he’ll be too busy finding and fucking pussy to do so. Any ladies in the New York City area who want a roll in the hay with the legendary MasterDoc should send me a note. I’d be thrilled to hook you up. (We also have a sybian!!)

As I had mentioned before, MasterDoc had been interested in that stuck up woman at the club. As she and her guy walked by us late in the evening, MasterDoc asked the couple how they liked the show (our earlier fucking). The guy liked it the woman didn’t! I replied loudly, “Well I sure as hell enjoyed it!” Bitch. She doesn’t know what she’s missing.

Before we had left the bedroom, MasterDoc spoke of fucking me up the ass on a couch in plain view (something we have done at this club before), but it was getting late. I went to bed that night a very happy, satisfied camper.

The Beast with Three Backs

Published on June 20, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, dom, dp, edge play, exhibitionism, flogging, kink, masochism, masturbation, needle play, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sadism, sex, sex toys, slut, spanking, submissive and threesome. 2 Comments

What a busy weekend! What a busy Saturday! Late Saturday afternoon, MasterDoc had a guy over for a show. This guy replied to MasterDoc’s ad for a bdsm lesson since his girlfriend is interested in being sub. He asked intelligent questions and knew more than many people who come by for a lesson. DeeDee led him in in her maid outfit. MasterDoc and I came into living room shortly after and sat and talked with him. After feeling out what the guest knew and was interested in, MasterDoc had me get a pillow and get on my knees. I blew MasterDoc while he continued to talk to the guest. Sometimes I feel shy when being a slut like this. I think – “Wow, so many people would think negatively for me being such a slut. I have a fantastic time doing it however.” I guess the taboo of it is part of the hotness.

I got to listen to MasterDoc giving out all his domly secrets. Ha ha. He mentioned doing things I didn’t realize he did deliberately. I often don’t realize how intentional his behavior is. The guest brought up breathplay and feeling uncomfortable doing it, and MasterDoc took the time to explain the very real risks inherent in breathplay. I think if you’re going to do edge play, you need to know the real risks before you can decide to assume those risks. As a doctor, MasterDoc understands what can go wrong and why it would go wrong. (If you’re putting pressure on the trachea to block breathing, it’s too easy to break the trachea with just a little pressure. If you’re pressing the carotid arteries to deprive the brain of oxygen, you can cause brain damage potentially if done for too long or too often. And in older subs, you can possibly cause a stroke.) After the informative lecture, MasterDoc made me come on the couch with my Nea. Despite feeling a little embarrassed having my legs spread in front of a stranger, I got so hot that my whole body was rocked with the orgasm. If you’re feeling anxious about having an audience the best thing to do is close your eyes and focus on the erotic sensations. Soon you won’t care if anyone’s watching. (By the way, DeeDee recently bought herself a Nea since she loved mine so much. Hers is black and mine is rose, so we will always be able to tell whose is whose.)

MasterDoc fetched DeeDee from her room and spanked her well, all while explaining flogger use. Her ass was delightfully pink in short order. I suddenly felt hungry and asked permission to go get a snack. Permission granted, I wandered off to the kitchen. I’m not entirely sure what went on in those few minutes I was in the kitchen. When I came back, DeeDee was sucking MasterDoc’s cock and he had me come in for a cuddle. I stroked his leg and his chest trying to enhance the blow job. It really is fun and amazing to make him feel so good. He had me switch with DeeDee and I enthusiastically sucked his cock for a while. The more I get into it, the more he seems distracted by how good it feels.

MasterDoc fucked DeeDee and had me accessorize by playing with his ass. He explained how to teasingly fuck and get a woman totally worked up before giving permission to come. MasterDoc really should write a book on being a Dom.

DeeDee lay on the mat and recovered from her orgasms while MasterDoc talked some more with the guest. Needleplay came up somehow, and MasterDoc suggested I get some needles out. There was a moment where it seemed like we couldn’t do it – MasterDoc said he’d get alcohol wipes but he forgot. Then I came up with the brilliant idea that we could use the hand sanitizer I had in my purse. Ingenuity for the win!

He prepped my ass cheek with the hand sanitizer, and then slid a needle firmly into an ass cheek. I cried out – it feels like he’s inserting the needles deeper now than he had before – more into the muscle and not as much on the surface. It’s one of those things where in mid-pierce I think, “Why the hell do I want this? This fucking hurts!” But a moment later the pain has subsided and I’m flying high on endorphins. He did another needle alongside the first.

We were all pretty worn out by that time, and MasterDoc showed our guest the door. I think he went away with a lot of useful information.

While we rested after, I started talking with DeeDee and somehow vivid memories of the role playing I did with my first boyfriend came to mind. We would play all sorts of parts – one of us the chauffeur driving my car, while the other was the wealthy boss who seduces the chauffeur. We’d pretend to be strangers picking each other up at a bar for casual sex (something neither of us had done). We pretended one person was totally naive about sex and the other initiated them into it. Getting into the headspace of being another person can be so hot. I’m craving some role play these days.

Now that I’ve started understanding age play a little, I would love to play the part of young girl being taken care of by the responsible older adult. (I indulged this fantasy in my head as I played a game on my phone while lying on the mat in the living room when MasterDoc and DeeDee went off to prepare dinner. I let myself feel the comfort of being a kid playing in the living room while dinner is made for me by two kind adults.) I would also love to play the part of a kidnapped woman. (I don’t need a realistic set up of being abducted on the street – just role playing is adequate for me. I have a vivid imagination.) Or a whore. Or someone being forcefully taken – I really like that one, a scene of consensual non-consent. The possibilities are endless. I hope MasterDoc is up for this at some point.

Later in the evening, MasterDoc spoke with our friend V online while I played more games on my phone. Before I knew it, he was having her come over to double-penetrate me. I thought at first that he meant “someday” but he meant she was getting in her car and on her way!

I took a bit of a nap because I was tired and about an hour later I woke and V was here. She had brought her medium and large silicone cocks and I chose the smaller one since she was taking the ass. (MasterDoc’s cock was going in the pussy.)
Now, I had never been successfully dp’ed before. We all warmed ourselves up with toys and what not – MasterDoc stood at the end of the bed watching us saying, “Pretend I’m a perv.”

“Pretend!” I exclaimed.

My knees were worn out, so MasterDoc had me lay on my stomach as V warmed up my ass. She lubed me up well and worked her girl cock into me. After I was stretched out adequately, MasterDoc had me get on top of his cock. V tried to penetrate me from behind after his cock was in, but getting the angle while she was strapped on proved to be impossible (for more than a second anyway). I got enough of a taste to know that feeling so filled up was a major turn on.

V unstrapped her cock, and she and MasterDoc dp’ed me that way. Holy fuck. He told me I could come as soon as she got the dildo in my ass and come I did. Harder than I would have even thought possible. I kept coming and coming and coming until they stopped the stimulation. I could not help myself from coming. I had sometimes worried that being dp’ed would be too “stuffed” but the feeling of being filled like that was fucking amazing. Hopefully someday I can manage a dp with two bio cocks.

My knees were fatigued beyond belief so MasterDoc came up with the idea to fuck me on top, while V fucked his ass with a dildo. Wow. I thought this was so hot. I just kept imagining the dildo up his ass and how good that feels and the fact that his cock was also inside me. I love that MasterDoc is not a homophobe and can, as a straight man, enjoy anal penetration.

We made sure that V had the chance to come before heading home – I ran the magic wand on her. After, I went off to get water and when I walked back in the bedroom, MasterDoc was fucking V. I took the opportunity to help out and started playing with his ass. As I worked a finger in his ass (already lubed from before), I realized that my finger was facing the wrong way – towards his back. I rotated it around and started massaging his prostate. This went over very, very well with MasterDoc. I knelt on the floor (he was standing at the end of the bed fucking V) and played with his ass while he fucked her. It’s not easy to do, but I could manage it for a while.

All in all, yesterday was a really active, hot day. I am so fortunate to have so much fun with MasterDoc, DeeDee and V.

Debauchery at the Club

Published on June 8, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, dom, exhibitionism, horny, humiliation play, kink, masochism, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex parties, shio, slut, spanking, squirting, submissive and swinging. 0 Comments

Of the many perks of being a public servant, compensatory days really rock. It means I can get a day off during the week while MasterDoc is off (his schedule is rather different than mine, and we both have unusual schedules due to our lines of work). I earn these days, but it’s definitely a perk. Why am I mentioning this? Since I was off today MasterDoc and I got to go out to the swing club again last night. DeeDee stayed home since she needed to get up in the morning for something.

There were many men and few women when we got there. I found out from the Asian guy who works there that last night was designated “cougar night.” We debated the definition of cougar while MasterDoc was in the bathroom, but I really can’t consider myself a “cougar.” While I’m probably old enough, I don’t go for young guys. Plus, the men around during this discussion were a) shocked to hear I’m in my late 30′s, they thought I was younger and b) none of them were young guys so they were quite happy to hear I’m not into young guys! A fairly cute guy sat on the other end of the sofa from me, and MasterDoc joined in the conversation when he came back. Apparently a guy like him is called a “panther.” We joked about how MasterDoc stays young by fucking younger women.

MasterDoc soon had me get on my knees in the main area and give him a blow job. He was in a rather dominant mood last night. He was very verbal, calling me a slut and telling me to suck it. I’m sure there was no doubt in any of the other men’s minds who was in charge in our coupling. He had me stop after a while and give him a kiss. He said to me, “So you want to fuck that guy.” I blushed, because I hadn’t said this but my body language must have given it away when I was talking to the guy. MasterDoc can read me so well!

He kept me on my knees and gave me a paddling. I hate the wooden paddle! Too bad I’ve lost my leather “slut” impression paddle. The wooden paddle stings like the dickens, and unlike the sting of a cane it’s spread over a larger area. He really gave me a paddling. I was very much his submissive slut last night. I felt a little embarrassed having him mention, in public, the fact that he had pissed on me the night before. I’m sure he was asserting who owns me in that situation.

While MasterDoc stepped out to answer a phone call, the guy I was interested in asked me how “things work here.” I told him that asking permission before touching is the way to go. I further explained that in my dynamic, however, you don’t ask me for permission, you ask MasterDoc. I think this probably intimidated the guy.

MasterDoc returned and soon we set up camp in a back bedroom. I curled up on the bed in my tight dress and sucked his cock. Once he was hard, he fucked me from behind. While teasing me mercilessly during that fuck, he lubed up my ass and slid my Njoy butt plug in. Then he slid his cock back in and talked about how tight I was with the plug in my ass. He made sure to describe in detail what was going on for the benefit of the men around us. I kept my head down and didn’t look to see who was there, but I really enjoyed feeling like his dirty whore. He played with the butt plug and continued to fuck me at varying speeds and depths. He fucked me until I was totally desperate to come, and then let me come. I squirted on the bed. Hopefully those around me could see this. He fucked my ass with the butt plug to continue the orgasm.

We cuddled a bit, and I enjoyed curling up near his cock, between his bent legs. He had me suck him hard again, with the condom still on. He had me get on top for a ride this time, and he made me really work for it. I wasn’t sure if my poor legs could hold out rocking myself back and forth on his cock. Again he teased me like crazy. The guy who I might have fucked watched but was too shy to ask to join in. MasterDoc let me come again as I rode him. I think I squirted all three times I came last night.

My knees were having a hard time with the bed we were on but after a rest I pointed out that I could certainly go for another round. MasterDoc fucked me again with me on hands and knees. There was another puddle on the bed by the time he was done. I was pretty wiped out after this!

We wandered around a bit and another couple came in. The woman was very slim and wearing a short, short dress she pulled up over her ass once she entered the club. MasterDoc and I followed the couple into the back bdsm room. We sat on the bed and watched as he tied her to spanking bench. She wasn’t straddling it in the traditional way but was laying balanced on the top part on her back. Her man teased her body and she pulled a blindfold over her eyes. The guy who works there has met this couple before and he joined in touching her. MasterDoc asked permission and soon he was stroking her lean body as well. I watched the scene, wanting to masturbate but not wanting to encourage the guy sitting on the bed near me (I would have been willing to fuck him, but MasterDoc was too busy to give permission). Soon lots of guys are playing with her body; she had no idea whose hands were where. She stroked cocks around her. Just as I’m getting up to get a closer look at what MasterDoc and her man are doing to her pussy, MasterDoc waves me over to join in. I caressed her body, played with her tits, and MasterDoc had me take over the glass dildo in her pussy. I tried fucking her with it faster at one point, but she indicated she wanted it slow so of course I slowed down. I could feel the wetness from her cunt rub off on my hand when I’d get the dildo in deep. Her guy massaged her clit during all this. She was clearly enjoying the attention from the group that formed around her. I had guys try or ask to touch me while I was there, I indicated no. A little while in to things, a chubby African-American woman starts stroking my legs. I felt fine with this personally so I just checked in with MasterDoc to make sure that a woman touching me was fine by him. (It was.) She went for my pussy and she knew what she was doing. Soon my eyes were closing and my body twitching a bit. I leaned on MasterDoc for support. A guy started fucking this woman from behind while she continued to grope me from behind – while we were all standing. I reached back to stroke the thighs and ample breasts of the woman behind me. And the woman on the spanking bench (it later turned out her name is Rebecca and her husband’s name is Raphael) had quite an orgasm.

Such a scene of utter debauchery, no? I love that I manage to get myself into these situations. Yes, we know I’m a slut.

MasterDoc told me at one point that I could come if I was able, but just around then the lady stopped playing with me. It was fun while it lasted though.

We chatted with Raphael and Rebecca at the bar for a bit. MasterDoc told them about this blog so they will be reading this at one point or another. (We got their preferred blog pseudonyms at that time. What, you didn’t think those were their real names did you? So far only one person, a friend of MasterDoc’s, has appeared on this blog under their real first name.) MasterDoc offered a sybian ride as Rebecca had never had one, and I talked up how amazing it is. MasterDoc exchanged phone numbers with Raphael and when we left they had an open invitation to come to MasterDoc’s for a “horsey ride” for Rebecca.

What an evening! I had a great time and got well fucked.

Hipsters, Metrosexuals and Sluts, Oh My!

Published on June 6, 2010 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, cunnilingus, cunt, exhibitionism, fantasy, gang bang, horny, kink, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting, stupid people, submissive and threesome. 1 Comment

Friday night I was excited to go to the swing club with MasterDoc and DeeDee. It had been a while since I had been there, and I have fun with them when we go together. I was feeling really horny and really up for some adventure – in other words I wasn’t having any sort of hang ups about my sexuality like I occasionally do. (Strangely, MasterDoc was not feeling the public sex thing so much.) We started getting sexual and a guy, a nice looking one at that, came into the room and asked if he could watch. Of course MasterDoc said yes. He was even thinking that the guy was attractive and I’d probably like fucking him. Too bad he fucked it all up.

MasterDoc was making out with me, DeeDee was kneeling on the floor blowing MasterDoc. And this fucking idiot grabbed at DeeDee – not an innocuous, testing touch on the shoulder or something – no, he grabbed her cunt. MasterDoc was suitably pissed off and told the guy directly to fuck off and leave. Hopefully he learned a lesson in respect and consent that night. I didn’t see the guy again for the rest of the night – I have a feeling he left after being told off like that and fucking up so badly.

We ended up moving into the next room where the air conditioning wasn’t quite so cold and there is a larger bed. MasterDoc teased me, and DeeDee played with his ass as he did so. I was really worked up and eager to be fucked.

Now, I learned something that night – a couple – one that DeeDee and I found to be pretty repulsive – climbed onto the bed with us and started fooling around with each other – and reaching over to touch me every so often. I had such a hard time staying turned on because I really didn’t want that guy touching me. I was really unhappy that MasterDoc didn’t stop him. Turns out that in traditional couples’ swinging that’s what you do – you plop on the bed next to someone and the women start to mess around with each other. I didn’t know this. While MasterDoc got me up on all fours and fucked me, I had a hard time staying with the pleasure because that creepy guy was touching me. If I was there as a single woman and non-submissive, I would have told him to stop. But as a sub I’m expected to let MasterDoc control these things. And at times like that it fucking sucks.

But MasterDoc fucked me hard, with a lot more pounding than usual. DeeDee groped me and focusing on them I managed to enjoy myself and come really hard (and squirt).

We gathered our stuff and went for a drink. Sitting on a sofa in front of the bar (it’s byob but they provide soda, juice water, etc.). MasterDoc started playing with DeeDee and he had me get out a vibe. I pulled out my nea since I know she loves it. Since I’m one who knows how to turn it on, I started using it on her nipples then cunt once I got it vibrating. She closed her eyes and got really aroused. I opened her pussy lips to get it right against clit, which she really liked. MasterDoc told her to come, and with both of us working her over she came really hard. MasterDoc took over the nea, and then started slapping her pussy to make her come. DeeDee was in her happy place although I think orgasming like a slut from being pussy slapped can make her feel too slutty.

I watched some of the porn that was on, and I realized that sluts are sexy because they enjoy having sex. We’re socialized to think slutty=bad, but dammit, sluts have the best time!

I noticed that there was an unusual amount of cute guys at the club that night. I was so up for sex that I managed to smile confidently at a hot Asian lady and her gentleman. She seemed interested, he wasn’t. Boo. She commented on my collar and it was one of various things that led us to think that there was a D/s dynamic to their relationship.

Now I not only looked out for hot women to share with MasterDoc, I also noticed the cute guys. Since I was feeling especially horny and slutty on a night with cute guys, I thought that things intersected perfectly to try to get that gangbang MasterDoc has promised me for forever. MasterDoc sometimes doesn’t know who I’ll find cute and who I won’t. There was a skinny hipster guy with longish hair and a beard who MasterDoc thought I wouldn’t like. But damn, I thought he was cute. (I’m not really sure of his ethinicity if he’s hispanic or asian or some combination thereof. Mr. Hipster played around with DeeDee after getting MasterDoc’s permission while I played with MasterDoc’s spot. An attractive guy came over and sat on the floor in front of me and offered to give me a foot rub. Turns out he’s a submissive (and a foot fetishist) and so he was easy to talk to. We pointed out that DeeDee is the switchy one and after my foot rub he gave her one at her request. While DeeDee had his attention, MasterDoc made me come with his fingers right there in front of everyone one. I felt so fucking hot. All these attractive guys were looking at me like I was the hottest thing on two legs – and in a way I was. I enjoy sex. I don’t hide it. That’s fucking hot. The hipster guy came closer expressing interest and a cute metrosexual guy with hip glasses too. (Goodness knows I had been giving them the eye and encouraging smiles.) MasterDoc let them touch me and soon the hipster was playing with my tits while I stroked his cock and the metro guy was massaging my thighs and cunt. To my glee, MasterDoc decided to let me get fucked like I desired. He made me say what I wanted loudly – which is damn hot in and of itself.

We wander off to the exhibitionist room and I stroked metro guy to get him hard and he grabbed a condom to be ready to fuck me. MasterDoc checked in with DeeDee and left her in charge of herself. (She got cunnilingus from foot guy, which of course led to lots of fabulous orgasms.)

Metro guy fucked me with him on top, and it felt great but he was so turned on by me (lil’ ol’ me??) that he came pretty quickly. Next hipster fucked me, after asking MasterDoc if he could put me in doggy style position. He lasted much longer and I came, face buried in MasterDoc’s lap as he tells me “good girl.” MasterDoc had me suck his cock, and he made me keep my head down before a third guy started fucking me. Third guy had wiry pubic hair and kept slipping out – not a great fuck. Plus I worried that he would skeeve me since MasterDoc made me not look at him – but I got a look afterward and while he wasn’t as “cute” as the hipster and metrosexual, he seemed like a nice guy and someone I felt comfortable with.

I really enjoyed blowing MasterDoc while being a well fucked slut. A lot of guys watched the whole scene and one or two expressed interest in being next. MasterDoc got one guy to hold the flashlight and highlight the fucking and blowing going on. DeeDee came over at that point and we took turns blowing MasterDoc.

We called it a night at this point, and I was a very happy slut. It’s funny how people try to say that slutty women have low self-esteem – I get far sluttier when I feel confident and love myself.

Touch

Published on June 2, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, bdsm, blow jobs, caning, kink, non-monogamy, orgasm on command and sex toys. 0 Comments

I spent part of last weekend on my own as MasterDoc and Davey both had plans with other girlfriends. I used this to my advantage on Saturday, getting done many things I had been putting off. I finally went for a hair cut, got my car’s oil changed, went shopping. But unfortunately once I was finished with errands for the day I started getting lonely.

I was happy to be invited over to MasterDoc’s on Sunday morning. But when I saw toys strewn about on the bedroom floor it upset me. Some of the items are mine, and it seems really disrespectful to leave them tossed about. I also got upset because it looked like it was bondage gear that had been used (although its use was only assumed on my part) and I have been asking for bondage play often but not getting it. I explained to MasterDoc why this bothered me, and he’s very different than me in emotional matters – so it’s hard for him to fully grasp how hurt I felt. He has promised that next time he will put things away (after all, I wouldn’t have given the idea of what he did in bed with the other girlfriend a second thought without my toys being on the floor). Yes, we’re poly and he obviously has sex with others (as do I sometimes) but it felt like it was shoved in my face, even though that definitely wasn’t MasterDoc’s intention. (He’s just messy and didn’t get stuff put away.) It really bugs me to come over and find my toys laying about. I feel resentful at the idea of cleaning up after someone else’s fun – particularly when I just spent the better part of two days totally alone, horny and having only masturbation to turn to.

So this put off our sex for a bit because I needed soothing. We cuddled, I explained my feelings to him and I took a nap. He cleaned up the toys on the bedroom floor later on (what a mensch! You can be a Dom and a nice guy at the same time), and he took the time to get me off – mentioned how he should be rough with me more often and acted correspondingly. He slapped my pussy, twisted my nipples, at one point when I was really turned on and breathing heavy he grabbed my throat. It was fucking hot. He made me come and come and come. The number of orgasms he gives me is just amazing. He knows that beatings and orgasms always improve my mood immensely. The next bit improved my mood as well.

After I had recovered from my orgasm, I started touching him. I started stroking his arm and soon I was licking it, making love to just his forearm. But if you know how to do these things right, this can be utterly erotic in and of itself. I’ve learned his technique – I pay close attention to his reactions and remember what makes him quiver. And perhaps the best advice – I truly enjoy touching him. I think if you’re getting off on the tactile stimulation of your partner, they will be too. He and I can now touch each other in non-erogenous zones and get each other worked up. It is an amazing feeling to be able to make him feel like that. He had me suck his cock and I really got into it since I was so horny. I remembered that he wants lots of slobber, so I did my best to wet it down thoroughly. I got it in deep and loved when he put his hands in my hair, eagerly hoping he would choke me on his cock.

He wanted me to show him what I had learned from the dvds I watched this weekend. He lay on his back and I massaged his ass. I lubed him up well and gently but firmly massaged his sphincter muscles. I worked a finger in and was sure to turn my hand palm up so I could use my finger to stroke along the top wall of his rectum – seeking out the prostate gland. I had learned enough from watching the video that his cock dripped pre-come like crazy (not something that usually happens) and he derived great pleasure from it. It is amazing to be able to make your partner feel that good. I continued this for a while until he asked me to slowly remove my finger (and I definitely recommend doing this slowly, gradually rather than yanking your finger out). Knowing that prostate massage is good for men’s health, I plan to do this for him more often. And, well, it’s just totally hot. I recommend learning this if you’re partnered with a man.

We wandered out of the bedroom and did more stuff. I started getting a bit gloomy, feeling like maybe he didn’t understand my upset earlier or (new insecurity that cropped up) that he didn’t see how he doesn’t talk to me when he’s with someone else, but he does talk (on phone, on internet) with others very often when he’s with me. Granted, much of the time I don’t mind if he talks to others. I don’t need to be attended to every second of the day. But I think I was more upset that when I’m alone and miss him, I don’t get to speak to him much.

He took me into the bedroom, and made clear to me that the caning he was setting up was NOT punishment. He said he heard me, and saw that there was truth in it. But he knows that a good caning and orgasm can fix my down moods. He gave me the magic wand to use as I wished and he gave me a good, leisurely caning. I was soon too busy being aroused and humping the magic wand to give a shit about anything that might have upset me before. He stroked my pussy on the outside, exploring my reactions and he fingered me a bit as I came. I found yesterday that I would get aroused so fast that not coming was really difficult to do. When he would let me come I’d travel off into the orgasm, losing sight of all around me (literally and figuratively). I ended up laying flat on the bed, magic wand buzzing away by my clit as I held it against it and I continued to come as he caned me.

I really appreciate how he listened to me. And how he did the things he knows cheer me up – orgasms and a beating. I’m still longing for bondage play, but I realize that I am very, very lucky even if I don’t get what I want all the time. (Who does?) It’s wonderful that I can bring up little things that bother me and impress upon him at the same time that this doesn’t mean I’m unhappy with him – I’m just trying to deal with things that bother me so we can go back to being deliriously happy rather than worrying about the nagging things.

Review: Sex: How to do Everything

Published on May 31, 2010 in Uncategorized, anal, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, cunnilingus, fantasy, kink, masturbation, non-monogamy, poly, reviews, sex, sex toys and sexuality. 0 Comments

I received an email a while back asking if I wanted to review [Sex: How to Do Everything] with Em and Lo (Emma Taylor and Lorelei Sharkey). I’ve been familiar with their names since reading their sex column in New York magazine years back. I figured sure, why not review it?

There are ten, roughly 45-minute-long episodes that were filmed for British tv (although their “man on the street” interviews take place in London and New York). It took me ages to sit down and watch them all, but I had some time this weekend to plow through the last 5 episodes. I started the series wondering if it really covered “how to do everything” and you know, it pretty much does. I have only a couple of complaints – first, it’s very heterocentric. While some of the average people they interview are gay or bi, the rest of the show doesn’t acknowledge same sex relationships and experiences. However, lots of the information is general enough that queer couples can learn many things from the series as well if they can overlook all the male/female couplings.

The second thing that bothered me is that in the episode on sex toys they mention phthalates, and that they’re bad for you, but not in what types of materials they’re found. Their “roving reporters” Dougie and Georgie (a M/F couple) go on to review a variety of toys including jelly ones with no mention of their phthalate content.

But those two caveats aside, I think this is a fabulous series. It’s fairly explicit (in the spirit of being educational rather than titillating) and very educational. It’s clearly intended for adults only, but I think this sort of sex-positive series should be featured in high school sex ed classes. Seriously, if more teens saw this then more people would go on to have healthy, safe, and pleasurable sex lives. The tone is always positive, they put in valuable safety warnings – from safer sex to safe BDSM play – and cover a huge territory. They cover furries! They cover BDSM! They cover auto-fellatio! They feature an interracial couple as their main “demo models.” And Dougie and Georgie are attractive yet average – and Georgie’s enthusiasm for sex is wonderful to see. Dougie is a lucky man.

There’s fun features like “dog toy or sex toy” where people are asked to identify a variety of toys, which can get pretty funny. The tone is informative but not boring at all. It approaches sex with a healthy, positive attitude.

The episodes are:

1 – Oral (including a sculptor who casts vulvas as art, Midori giving a very seductive blow job lesson,

a clinical psychologist talking positively about vulvas)

2 – Manual (including hand jobs, masturbation, great anatomy info section on manual stimulation on women, Carol Queen’s masturbate-a-thon)

3 – Orgasm (including g-spot and female ejaculation)

4- Toys

5 – Intercourse

6- Kink (interview with a Domme, Violet Wands, furries)

7 – Anal (including prostate massage. MasterDoc is glad I watched this section! They warn about desensitizing gels, safer sex precautions (like dental dam for rimming) and to use lots and lots of lube)

8 – Fantasy (dress up, role play, striptease, covers UK law on sex in public, porn, abduction fantasy acted out, dogging (acts done in public for others)

9 – Seduction (tantra, striptease/burlesque)

10 – Best of – a compilation of highlights from the series

Unfortunately, the first dvd in my set was a little messed up so a few scenes were unwatchable. But I cannot recommend this series enough – particularly for people who are inexperienced sexually. But even for jaded old sex bloggers like me there were many useful things to learn from the shows.

Verbal Sex

Published on May 27, 2010 in D/s, bdsm, blow jobs, bondage, fantasy, orgasm denial, orgasm on command and sex. 0 Comments

It’s interesting spending time alone with MasterDoc while DeeDee is staying at his place. I get this feeling of guilt when she goes off to her room for the evening. Is she feeling left out? Should we include her? I remind myself that she gets time alone with MasterDoc when I’m not around, and since she’s staying there temporarily there’s bound to be times when MasterDoc has scheduled time with me and she will go off and do her own thing. And if I was around MasterDoc all the time (or anyone quite frankly) I’d like some time by myself as well.

But I feel guilty. I’m sure I will be told that I should get over this.

After dinner, he and I did spend some time watching a movie in the living room until he decided he was horny and we should head to the bedroom. I was totally in agreement with that.

We cuddled and talked on the bed for a while. He started stroking my body gently and I closed my eyes to savor it. He told me to think about him doing something kinky that I’d like him to do to me. He quietly but in total command led me verbally into my head. I’ve been craving bondage and so I started fantasizing that I’m gagged and bound on the bed. As my breath grew short with the fantasy combined with his gently touching my body, he asked me what I was visualizing. While I felt the usual shyness at verbalizing my fantasies, I did open up to him right away and describe what I was envisioning. (In the moment I have a hard time asking for what I want or admitting to some of my dark fantasies. Writing about it on the internet is a totally different situation for me.) He asked me what he was doing to me in the fantasy, and I said that I hadn’t gotten that far yet, I was still imagining what it feels like to be bound and gagged while he touches me.

He started talking about the advantages to having me bound and said that he could do so many interesting things to me. The verbal sex had me in quite a state. He wasn’t touching me in overtly sexual ways but I could feel my body build arousal, heading towards orgasm.

I have a hard time recalling exactly what he did do to me touch-wise, but when it was apparent that I was really turned on he told me to come – and I came without genital stimulation. I orgasmed really hard as I kept my eyes closed and visualized myself bound and helpless and him playing with my body. I think he did start sexual stimulation at some point in the middle of this. (I was coming, can you expect me to remember clearly?) I kept coming as long as he wanted me to and I had to take deep breaths to slow down my breathing when he told me to take it down and gradually come back to earth. I was grinning ear to ear after and thinking about how much of sex is mental. Being together in a D/s relationship for nearly 3 years now, he’s done such a good job getting inside of my head. For many reasons I hope that he keeps his mental faculties as he ages – one of which is because even if his body isn’t up for sex any more when he’s older, we can still have hot as anything verbal sex.

After my orgasms, he didn’t think that his cock was going to cooperate, so we were going to go back to the living room to continue the movie. But after a moment or so he decided that it couldn’t hurt to try having me suck his cock. I was thrilled. Isn’t that every straight guy’s fantasy? Having a woman who loves to suck his cock? I enjoyed my “work” thoroughly and his cock did react to my enthusiastic ministrations. Going down on him is truly a turn-on for me. I’ve gotten good with using my hands in the area around his cock and I’ve learned so much over the past few years about how he likes his blow jobs. While there’s always new things to learn about a partner, it’s nice to reach a point where you can be confident that you do a good job.

Since his cock was hard now he told me to get a condom and get on top of him. Yeeha! I got to ride his cock, thrusting up and down on it, stimulating the nerves in my cunt. I pushed myself to the edge of orgasm and moaned like crazy because I wanted to come. But at the same time I did want to be teased for a while. He fucked me, thrusting upwards. As his cock was buried in me he told me to come. My body convulsed and I fell forward onto him. He kept pushing his hips up and feeling his cock touch my cervix was amazing. Eventually my vagina of steel pushed him out partially and he lost his erection. But he kept me coming just with some verbal encouragement and some knowledgeable massaging of my body. Fuck.

I sat up as soon as I could so he didn’t have to support my weight fully. Again, I was grinning ear to ear at my good fortune of him finding and pursuing me.

Before the sex, while we were watching the film in the living room, he had me sit to his left, so that I’m slightly behind his line of sight when we look at the screen. He had felt uncomfortable with me there instead of in front of him and wanted to figure out why. It dawned on him – he can keep an eye on my well-being when he can see me. If I’m somewhat behind him it’s harder to keep tabs on me. I was touched to no end. It’s not a matter of feeling like he has to control me every second, it’s truly a matter of him feeling that taking care of me is his responsibility as my Dom, and he feels better when he can keep tabs on me. I feel very loved.