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Up Yer Bum

Published on May 24, 2010 in anal, analingus, D/s, humiliation play, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex and Uncategorized. 3 Comments

Saturday was pretty quiet as we were recovering from being out late the night before. MasterDoc wasn’t feeling particularly horny, and I wasn’t feeling horny enough to try to convince him otherwise. Yes folks, we do have days/evening where we just hang out.

But Sunday afternoon we decided to “get freaky” as he often calls it. I picked out some porn, but unfortunately it turned out to be more to MasterDoc’s liking than mine. I say unfortunately because there was some serious ass licking going on (woman licking a man) and MasterDoc pointed out that he wanted me to go at his ass with the vigor of the woman in the porn. There was ass tonguing, spitting into the open asshole, pulling his asshole open and fingering it (while she fucked him even!). I felt a little skeptical since the speed and intensity of the acts seemed too hard and too fast from what I know about MasterDoc.

He decided to have me service him anally, and I cringed because the idea of ass licking was just extra dirty to me somehow yesterday. Ick. I really do hate it. I have to be deeply in sub mode to go at it with any modicum of enthusiasm.

He got on hands and knees on the bed, and I massaged and warmed up his ass. I used plenty of lube – which turned out to be a good move albeit unintentional – once the lube was on he decided reluctantly that he wouldn’t make me lick his lubey ass. Phew. I worked my fingers in, and I enjoyed making him feel good. I was right to be skeptical since the reality of the act went very, very slowly and gently. There wasn’t any rapid fingering of his ass. There wasn’t any pulling his asshole open. I think he liked the idea in theory more than in practice. If I tried being more vigorous he’d tell me to slow down, or not thrust my finger in and out.

(But I was only doing it how you said you wanted it, Sir.)

I firmly massaged the tight muscles of his anus. He stroked his cock at the same time, and I came to the realization that he was going to come on the pillow under him – my pillow. I didn’t interrupt. I did, however, worry that if he came right at the beginning then I wouldn’t get any orgasms or sex later.

He shot his load onto the pillow, and I removed the case and blotted the pillow dry. I was pleased to have made him feel so good, but I was tensely wondering what would happen next. I tried to reassure myself that he would never leave me high and dry. But still, I wondered. When I got back to the bedroom he had left to get a snack in the kitchen. I lay on the bed, stroking my clit, while watching the porn that was on (a different one than before). As moments ticked by I wondered – am I allowed to come? Are we done having sex? Would this count as masturbation? He reappeared before I resolved that issue – and that was lucky for me since we were not done and no it didn’t count as masturbation – so thankfully I hadn’t opted to make myself come.

He enjoyed his snack laying on the bed next to me. I told him what I had been thinking and I think he was a bit miffed that I would think he’d leave me hanging. It’s really more a situation of me having terrible anxiety and issues over being left out than my thinking he will leave me unsatisfied. But with the whole Dom/sub thing, there’s always the caveat that as the Dom he can decide what we do or don’t do – so in theory he could wield that power. Some Doms do. Some Doms deny orgasms long term. I am thoroughly delighted that we only do short term orgasm denial – as in, eventually during any one scene I will be allowed to come, I just can’t come right away. This is not a bad thing at all since waiting a bit usually makes the eventual orgasm more intense.

Back to my story… After he finished his snack he played with my breasts while I rubbed my clit. He contributed touches to various sensitive places to enhance the masturbation I was doing. And eventually, he told me to come which I did right on cue. I had a wonderful, long series of orgasms, but I have to say that there’s something about orgasming at someone else’s hand (or penis) that beats doing it yourself. I think it’s because you don’t have to continue being the stimulator and stimulatee at the same time.

I was happy. We had both come and while I had been hoping for more BDSM oriented sex, MasterDoc was feeling more vanilla. We continued watching the porn a bit and damn I was still horny. Despite coming a short while earlier, his cock grew hard again. Huzzah! He fucked me from behind and I was able to come again (and again).

Sluts, Squirts and Swing Clubs

Published on April 6, 2010 in analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, D/s, embarrassment, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting, submissive, swinging and Uncategorized. 1 Comment

We took advantage of my being on vacation and went out to the swing club last night. MasterDoc’s back is still bothering him but it’s gotten a little better. I drove into the city to give him a little rest on our way out.

Early in the evening, there weren’t many people there. But MasterDoc set us up in the little corner room in the back. Men would come in and out, hoping that we were up to something. We moved slowly, stopping to make out. I joked that we must be really boring to watch at that point.

He had me put my collar on and he took some time to stroke my face and tug on my hair, things that put me very quickly into sub mode. He slapped my face a few times and I wondered if someone was in the room to see, and if so what they thought about that.

I sucked his cock, and as usual I threw myself into it. I’m not one to leisurely tease when giving oral, I’m more likely to go right for the stimulation that will feel intense. He slid his fingers into my hair and I hoped he would force me down on his cock. He did, and when I’m that turned on it’s much easier to ignore the gag reflex. Eventually I had to come up for air.

He decided to humiliate me and made me lick his ass in public. He loudly encouraged me to get his tongue into his asshole and I felt terribly humiliated and debased. Funny thing is, since I’m so inexperienced with rimming I was apparently going a bit too high.

He had me strip, and lay down on the bed with my cunt facing the door. I was allowed a toy and I rubbed the vibrating nea on my clit. At moments, I got lost in working myself up, but at other times I’d get self-conscious and distracted. The first time MasterDoc asked me if I was ready to come I had to admit that I wasn’t, but this immediately brought my attention back to the task at hand. As I rubbed that vibrator on my clit I would moan and buck my hips sometimes. MasterDoc made me say loudly that I wanted him to fuck me. If I don’t say it loud enough, or thoroughly enough, the first time he says, “What was that?” until I ask for it satisfactorily loud.

He fucked me from behind quite hard. With his back out, it had been a week since we had actual intercourse. (I’m not complaining though, he kept me pretty damn happy in the interim.) I got lost in the sex and forgot to feel self-conscious about my moaning and grunting. My face was turned towards the door and we most assuredly had some sort of audience. He made me come really hard, and kept it going with his fingers as I squirted. Oh it felt so amazing that I didn’t want it to stop. I lay down for quite a while after that, recovering.

We took a break for beverages. Fucking is thirsty work. I walked to the bar by myself to get us drinks, and roughly three men hit on me as I walked alone. Sometimes the men feel like vultures in the swing club. I think the difficult part too is that they are used to, in a “normal” relationship, getting the woman’s attention and approval so they can move in and get some. However, in my D/s relationship with MasterDoc I rarely encourage the men (particularly if I’m not interested in them) – it’s up to MasterDoc to approve and decide who fucks me. Sitting back down, I asked MasterDoc if he’d ever been to a swing club alone. He hasn’t, and this didn’t surprise me at all. He says he did go to one swing party alone once, but that’s the sum of it. I have to confess that sometimes I think of the single men at swing clubs as kinda pathetic. They wander around, sometimes without pants (which, gentlemen, is not very attractive. Neither was the old guy shuffling along in boxers, socks and nothing else.) Sure I see attractive men there sometimes, but I kinda wonder why they’re there alone as well.

There was one hot guy who I gave a blatant “come hither” look to but he wandered away. Dissed! I told this to MasterDoc after the guy wandered away. He teased me for flirting with someone of my own accord, but of course I wasn’t in trouble for this. (I would just be in trouble if I went and did something with this guy without permission.) The door to the room with the large bed was closed and we asked around until we found out that Veronica, the lady who is notorious for squirting for the single guys was in there with someone. How unusual that she should seek privacy! We camped outside the door for a bit, seeking to tease her and get her attention when she came out.

When the large bed was available, we lay down on it. MasterDoc undid his pants and shirt and stroked his cock. I played with his chest and then I started feeling myself through my clothes. “Are you playing with yourself young lady?” he asked. I said yes and was glad he noticed as my hands were getting tired of the extra pressure I had to exert through my pants. MasterDoc took a vibrator to my crotch. He had me take my pants off and he teased me with a vibrator. A young-ish African American guy came in to watch. MasterDoc offered him the flashlight to hold and he came over to the bed. He stroked his cock as he held the flashlight really close to my pussy. They talked about me, MasterDoc most assuredly knowing that the objectification was making me hot. When I came, I squirted on the flashlight since it was so close, but I didn’t know until later because my eyes were clenched closed while I came.

I begged for orgasm at MasterDoc’s request and then a few moments later I was begging him to stop because I needed a break from the incessant orgasms. He has a knack for pushing me until I’m breathless. We cuddled and hung out a bit, and in no time I was I was really horny again wanting to be his slut. He threatened to get one of the older guys I thought was unattractive to fuck me. I felt squeamish, but when I started to frame it in my head as me being his slut and fucking whoever he wants, I got into the idea more. I didn’t want to see who I was fucking however, my idea of hot anonymous sex would be to get fucked like a bitch in heat while blindfolded, and as I walked around after I would have no idea what men I walked by had fucked me. MasterDoc’s version of this fantasy, however, is for random guys of his choosing to fuck me, and then he points out who it was after. Yikes! He really does get into humiliating me. Sad thing is, I get into it too.

We didn’t end up doing more, even though I was ravenously horny, thinking up naughty fantasies I wished would come true. We watched a very drunk woman demonstrate what it’s like to be a trainwreck. And then wandered into the bdsm room and MasterDoc got Veronica to squirt into his hands. Her come overflowed his hands and made a huge puddle on the floor. This girl can squirt on command. I’m impressed. You know you go to the swing club often when the resident slut knows who you are well enough to joke around with you. She got a towel to clean up and the men around us were in awe. The guy I had given the eye to earlier was there, and I was sure to put tidbits about my own squirting into the conversation. Hah, see what hotness you missed out on buddy!

We were there a while, and it feels like we must have done more than this, but I suppose a lot of time was spent hanging out with my brain in a fog of sexual fantasy. I’m going to miss MasterDoc while I’m away. But hopefully I will experience more stories to print here when I get back.

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Earlier in the day, I was complaining a bit too much and MasterDoc came back into the living room a few minutes later with my Njoy pure plug, lube and my collar. I was speechless. He had me get on hands and knees and he worked the plug into my ass, where it stayed for a while. He made me wiggle in my seat and asked me how it felt having the plug in there.

A little while later, he had me get the throe and magic wand and he used the wand to make me come very hard. He pressed the wand to the handle of the butt plug to make that vibrate. He teased my clit and I was desperate to come by the time he let me. He commented on how my complaining stopped after that. The man knows how to shut me up. And thankfully the methods are so much fun.

Day of Debauchery

Published on December 19, 2009 in anal, analingus, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, bondage, caning, D/s, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, show, spanking, submissive, sybian, threesome and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

Friday was quite a full day of pervyness with MasterDoc. Early in the afternoon, he had a lady who’s a switch come over with the intention of her helping top me. But somehow he found out that she also has a swing profile and he proceeded to look up the profile and read it out loud to her. He teased her mercilessly as it’s quite a slutty profile. (Yeah, like either of us have an issue with sluts. They’re our favorite people!) She turned red and we all laughed so hard. When he got to the point about how she can come from just neck/ear nibbling or nipple stimulation he said, “Oh yeah?” and proceeded to play with her neck. The laughing stopped around then, and she was immediately in a horny reverie, head tipping back, mouth open. He took out one breast and I took out the other, and the two of us made her come from just sucking on her nipples. It was loads of fun. He teased her sadistically some more, and somehow none of us ever ended up naked. But we had the best time laughing and teasing. I’m hoping we get to see her again soon. (And while I was perfectly happy with how the visit turned out, I do look forward to being topped by two people at once someday!)

Later in the afternoon, an Irish guy who had watched a show before came over to see us again. MasterDoc put me over the Liberator scoop, used the wrist and thigh cuffs to attach me to the scoop, and spanked my ass. It felt more sting-y than usual yesterday and the canes smarted something awful. He alternated with the riding crop as well which was easier to handle. His wooden paddle was almost unbearable. He helped me deal with the pain by putting the magic wand up against my cunt while he spanked me some more. I did my best to grind my clit against the wand, but it was always just slightly off to the side of the ideal spot. But I got so hot, and so far into subspace, from that beating/teasing combo. He let me lay over the scoop for a few minutes after so I could come down a bit.

He took off the wrist cuffs and I felt floaty when I got up. I knelt before him, he was seated on the couch, and sucked MasterDoc’s cock. He did a little face fucking again, which produced lots of drool. It’s not easy being gagged like that but I do think it’s terribly hot. The river of drool that comes out as my mouth is pulled off is really sexy in a nasty sort of way. Earlier, he had told me I’m a dirty slut and made me admit that I wanted to be used in front of our guest. The low growl to his voice as he makes me look him in the eye and say these things get me so hot. I feel embarrassed but oh so turned on.

He had me warm up on the floor mat with the magic wand. I couldn’t look our guest in the eye too often but I did get myself very close to orgasm quickly. MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a bit and the feel of his cock inside me while I pressed the magic wand to my clit would have easily been enough to send me (way) over the edge. But I wasn’t given permission to come just yet. I had to pull the wand away from my clit a bit to ensure I didn’t come accidentally. But it felt so good and I wanted to come so badly.

Our guest had told MasterDoc beforehand that he wanted to see me fucked up the ass, and so MasterDoc pulled his cock out and lubed up my ass and my slender, red glitter dildo. He slid the dildo into my ass to warm me up and it felt great as he fucked me with it. I think I’m still a little surprised at how aroused I can get from anal stimulation. This didn’t last long, and MasterDoc put his hard cock against my hole. For a moment it felt like it wasn’t going to go in, but then it pushed past my sphincter. Holy shit did it feel good to feel his large cock in my ass. He fucked me hard while our guest watched and I moaned like a bitch in heat. MasterDoc talked dirty to me, telling me I’m a good little three hole slut and other equally hot, nasty things. He knows that telling me I’m a slut, whore, fucktoy, etc. will get me off even harder.

When he told me to come, I came so very hard. I screamed, my head slid forward off the mat. He kept fucking my ass and I must have gotten absolutely flooded with wetness. He took his cock out and fingered me a bit, making me come more. I had to lay down to rest for a while after. I was in a wonderful state of subspace.

He topped off the show with a sybian ride, but first I had to earn it by licking his ass. He had me rub his ass a bit and as I looked at it I was filled with dread. I know analingus doesn’t bother some people but it’s not one of my favorite things. I did as I was told, however, and humiliatingly ate out his ass while our guest watched. Quite a bit of humiliation play let me tell you.

On the sybian, he teased me for a bit and then I came shrieking and screaming, burying my head into his chest. I think he and our guest were quite amused at watching me lose all control like that. He had our guest spank me while I rode the sybian and I loved being spanked during it. The whole experience was exceptional. If every time could be so intense, nasty and hot, I would just live in perpetual heaven. (Not that I don’t already come close, mind you.)

Later that night our friend came over and I got to use my strap on harness on her. But you will have to go to the review to get an account of that.

Oh and a little tidbit – the needles MasterDoc ordered for needleplay came in!

It Started with the Nipples

Published on December 16, 2009 in anal, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, D/s, humor, masturbation, orgasm on command, sex, shio, squirting, submissive and Uncategorized. 1 Comment

He asked me to massage his calf as he lay on the sofa, his feet in my direction. I massaged the closest one, propped up on the back of the sofa. After a couple of minutes of this, he points out that massaging his calf makes his cock hard. Indeed, it is standing at attention. He commented on how that’s funny.

“Maybe it’s because I’m catering to your every whim,” I suggested.

“Yes. Maybe that’s it. Now remember what makes me hard,” he says with a grin. We are definitely people who are wired a bit differently when it comes to sex.

We were slowly making our way to the bedroom and I hadn’t had a chance to make up the bed yet. I needed to move pillows around, take the blanket off, lay the throe down. I point this out just as he lays down on the bed with his laptop. “The things I do for you,” he grumbles as he gets back up. I laughed and said, “Oh yes, you get up and allow me to make your bed.”

Needless to say my collar was not on yet. We both chuckled.

Everything settled, we lay on the bed. He rolls over from looking at the laptop and is face to face with my tit. He starts sucking on my nipple and does it so well. He doesn’t just latch on and suck like some guys do, he licks, sucks, tugs, swirls his tongue over it. He varies it enough that it’s nothing but exciting. I close my eyes and get all sorts of turned on.

He has me shift so he can reach my pussy and he slaps it, alternating with feeling around my cunt to see if I’m wet. I got really h0rny from the nipple teasing but, sadly, not wet. He sucked on the other nipple and again I was lost in reverie although somehow a little bit less this time. (I started analyzing how most guys suck nipples compared to what MasterDoc does.)

Enough of toying with my body – he had me suck his cock. As always I enjoyed it. I sucked it in deep and tried to make it touch the back of my throat. I do this for quite a while, and then he makes me shift so I’m between his legs. My mouth back on his cock, he laces his fingers in my hair and says he’s going to try a little bit of face fucking. I hold my head still and he thrusts a little into it. He’s relatively gentle, probably because we’ve never done this before. I gag a bit but manage to hold it in, and my mouth floods with saliva. I eventually have to take my mouth off to let the dam of saliva out. But I thought the whole thing was really hot: his using my mouth like an object, feeling his hands in my hair holding my head.

He fucked me from behind. I had lubed myself up so I was ready. (The spirit is willing but the flesh is a bit dry.) After a while, he takes a break to deal with penis, which has started not to cooperate. I reach back and start stroking my clit at just the right time – he says he was just about to tell me to lick his ass to help get him fully hard again. I get really worked up stroking that throbbing, jutting clit of mine. My clit is fairly big without being very big. It’s not hard to find it, but it doesn’t resemble a small penis. He fucks me again. I get close to coming but alas the pain in my knees outweighs the pleasure eventually.

He has me get the Liberator axis and a blindfold. We put porn on the laptop and masturbate side by side. He gets on top, and I put the blindfold on. He fucks me slowly and deeply. The axis makes him get in quite deep without trying. He gets me worked up with alternating faster fucking. And suddenly, he tells me to come. I can feel my vagina of steel clamp down and his cock slowly pushed out. He slaps pussy, rubs clit with an index finger and I keep on coming. I squirt as he keeps up the teasing touches and I grasp his arm that’s beside me, supporting his weight, as I gasp and come. He gets his fingers poised at my hole. I so want him to finger fuck me, and I’m sure he knows that at those moments I ache desperately for it. He thrusts his fingers in and I come even harder.

I was in ecstasy. I could do nothing immediately after but smile at him goofily.

As I come to my senses I stroke his chest. He comments that I know how to make him feel good, and I was stroking exactly how he had once told me to remember. I start to think nasty thoughts. I think to myself that I actually want him to make me lick his ass. I’m at the point where I want him to make me do things I don’t like because, well, the power exchange involved would be hot. The act of licking his ass isn’t erotic for me in and of itself, but the idea that I’m doing it as a submissive, to please him, is hot. I play with cock and ass as he lays on the bed. I start to snuggle his tummy and chest and lick and kiss. He’s clearly enjoying this while I apply pressure to his perineum. He gets up on hands and knees, still not sure if he’s going to have me lick his ass. He strokes his cock while I massage his back, then ass. I realize that he would like his ass licked, and so without even being told to, I take it upon myself to go at his ass with my mouth and tongue to make him feel good. He really enjoys it. And I think he was probably a bit surprised at how I dove right in; first nibbling one cheek, then the other, then pulling his ass apart so my tongue could reach the puckered hole.

He has enough my oral ministrations after a little while. (And I have the thought that it would be neat to get ice cream as a reward when I do it. *grin* I don’t say this while my collar is on - it wouldn’t be appropriate at all.) I lube up my fingers and start to massage his ass. I gently work finger in, feeling the series of muscles as I make my way into his asshole. I push towards the prostate in the front. I think to also massage his perineum with my thumb while doing this. He seemed to really like it. I follow his directions to press harder on the prostate. A feeling of power comes over me as he grunts and comes. Very strange when, within a submissive place, I found there’s a sort of power in being able to make him feel so good. I lay down with a self-satisfied grin after.

I have the bratty thought that it would be funny to offer him my finger to lick. I hold back because my collar is still on.

He asks me to heat a plate of food for him and in case you’re wondering, yes I did scrub my hands well before preparing his food. But I couldn’t resist, after my collar was off, pointing out to him that if he’s so sure that ass-to-mouth is safe, then it really shouldn’t have mattered if I prepared his food with my finger still covered in essence d’ass. He said, yes, that’s true. Perhaps one day if I’m feeling ballsy I’ll try this out.

“I think the sun shines out of your ass…”

Published on September 24, 2009 in analingus, cunt, depression, dom, Feminism, kink, masturbation, porn, shio, squirting and Uncategorized. 1 Comment

“but I still don’t want to lick it.”

This was the prize-winning line from Tuesday night. As I looked adoringly at MasterDoc, I realized that in some respects I really do think the sun shines out of his ass. But then that got me thinking – I’m still not keen on analingus – so despite the blinding light coming out of his ass (figuratively) it still doesn’t entice me to stick my tongue up it.

Tuesday was a very silly evening. It was lighthearted and very much what I needed as I slowly began to come out of my depression. He never put my collar on and that was good so I could feel free to laugh and joke and just plain relax. We laughed really hard – something we do often and I don’t know if I capture it here. MasterDoc has noticed that orgasms tend to improve my mood (hell, whose mood don’t they improve?) and he used the acuvibe on my clit and cunt. He made me come so hard, and for so long, that I could barely breathe and I wondered if he’d make me come until I passed out. The idea of it was a teeny bit scary but also exciting as hell. When he was done with me, I hadn’t passed out, but I was gasping for breath and very, very happy. A huge puddle was under my ass on the throe.

After his very busy weekend of sex he wasn’t really looking for it himself, but he decided he did want to come. We didn’t fuck this week, but he did make sure that I was well taken care of. We had porn on at either corner of the mat, and he watched some porn while he stroked his cock. For once, (finally!) I took initiative and started to lick his inner thighs. This clearly felt good, so I kept going. I licked right behind his balls and pressed my tongue against his perineum. I pressed my face deep against his crotch, practically licking his ass, but stopping short of it. I massaged his ass cheeks and was clearly adding to his masturbation. I felt really proud that finally I wasn’t so damn passive, and I made him very happy. He told me I did a good job a few times afterwards. I kept playing with him until he came, and then did the slow pressing from perineum, up between the balls and up the midline of the cock – and a final spurt of come came out.

I was feeling so much better after that evening. Plus I knew I had another evening coming the next night.

The porn I watched during the evening ran towards kinky porn (what else?) where the sub acted like they didn’t want to do whatever was being done to them. I like this fantasy sometimes – the idea of being “made” to do something. It would certainly be role play as I’m always keen to suck MasterDoc’s cock, but it’s something I’d like to do sometime – resist a little. Have him get a little rough with me. Rowr. Pretend that I don’t want all that he’s giving me; all that, deep down, I crave.

Introduction of The Cane

Published on August 30, 2009 in analingus, bdsm, caning, D/s, DeeDee, horny, kink, masochism, orgasm on command, phone sex, porn, sadism, sex, sex toys, slut, spanking, submissive, Uncategorized and Vienna sausages. 2 Comments

I think I’ve mentioned this before, but MasterDoc will be traveling for much of September. (He’s taking advantage of JetBlue’s offer for unlimited flights for a month for $599.) I will see him roughly once a week – on the nights when he’s back in town to go to work. This weekend I’ve been trying to savor every second and get in as much kinky sex as possible.

I had to be patient through a football game on Saturday night, but the patience paid off. When MasterDoc had gotten himself settled in the bedroom he called me in. He had DeeDee on the phone and she was going to listen in. She suggested that he use the new canes on me – she had gotten the impression from this blog that I wanted that. And yes, it’s one of those things I had mixed feelings about – I wanted to feel the cane (the lightest one anyway!) but I was a bit afraid of it.

So he talked to DeeDee via speaker phone as he got me on the bed and warmed up my ass spanking me with his hands. I was eagerly anticipating the cane and once warmed up he gave me what I hoped for. He used it fairly gently, he later said that he used it at about 2/3rds of its potential. It left lovely red stripes on my ass which unfortunately I didn’t get to see. Some strikes were pleasurable, some made me squeal and pull back. But overall, I really enjoyed being caned. I’m sure it will be quite some time before I’m able to take the third cane we got – the thickest and sturdiest. We talked about this after, and I had to say that I’m sure that cane will hurt plenty, and like the sick freak that I am I will love it!

He fucked me from behind and made me beg for it. I was so horny and yearning to be fucked that I lost my usual shyness to say dirty things and I had no problem declaring that I wanted his cock inside me. He made me say that I’m a dirty slut. He made me beg for a while before he’d put his cock in. Instantly, I was hot and stimulated. I wish I could adequately find the words to describe a penis sliding into my aroused and engorged pussy. The thrill that comes from the feeling of it sliding in and touching the sides of my tingling cunt, filling me up.

He fucked me hard and smacked my ass a few times during. He did a lot of dirty talk – probably to make sure DeeDee had something good to listen to over the phone besides my moaning. I love when he talks dirty though. When I begged to come he made me beg for a moment and then let me come. At the sound of his voice telling me, “Come,” I am hurled forward into orgasm. I don’t know if I’m getting better at not squeezing his cock our or if he’s getting better at keeping it deep inside as I orgasm – but lately he stays inside me much longer than he used to. When his cock was pushed out he slapped my cunt while I kept coming. Lately he makes me come for so long I’m not sure I can keep coming at that point. Usually I’m having a hard time breathing, but meanwhile I feel absolutely amazing as I come hard.

I rested after coming and MasterDoc talked to DeeDee, trying to help her come. He made her watch some snowballing porn (i.e., women taking a guy’s come and passing it between their mouths). He had watched some earlier and that was what got me in the mood. It’s one of those things that I find disgusting on one level, but so frickin hot on another level. DeeDee did NOT sound happy about watching it and the idea that he plans to have her and I do it. He told her that she could come, but she’d have to do it while watching a snowballing porn. Ooh meanie! He’s done that sort of thing with me before (piss play). He’s skilled at desensitizing you to things you’re put off by. I start out repulsed by something, but after months of threatening to do it to me, I start to see it as erotic – BECAUSE it’s dirty, disgusting and therefore it’s fucking hot for him to make me do it. It’s very much a power exchange type of play.

On Sunday, I was still horny and I hoped that we might play a little before he headed out for the afternoon. He’s talked about canceling his cable and internet while he’s away this month, and I asked what we’d do for porn without any internet. He pointed out that he has dvds – and then impishly said he had the Japanese one with the Vienna sausages. Now, I’ve been teased with this story of the Vienna sausages since I started dating him. All I knew to this point was that the porn was really nasty and disgusting. He has a can of Vienna sausages on hand to tease submissives with. I finally asked him to tell me just what it was they do with the Vienna sausages in the porn. He asked if I really wanted to know, and he would be on the verge of telling me and then go, “Nah.” I ultimately begged him to tell me as my own thoughts of what it could be were getting pretty disgusting, and I really just wanted to know what the hell it was about. And he told me: in the film they put Vienna sausages up the submissive’s ass. Then they have her poop them out – and they reach in, pull out the sausages and have her eat them. Ewww!!! (No mixed feelings on that scene – I don’t want to do it!) I said that I thought maybe they put the sausages up a guy’s ass and made her eat them out of his ass. MasterDoc thought that was a great idea and I knew I’d made a big mistake telling him that. He started teasing me mercilessly. I tried to save myself by pointing out that I don’t eat beef, so therefore I won’t eat the sausages. He said, “Chicken Vienna sausages!” I said fine, if he could find some – thinking that’s something that’s just not made.

Oh shit. I was wrong. He found them online quickly. Shit. “Damn you amazon.com!” I cried. “Damn you!”

Luckily, the shipping for a case of them was nearly as much as the cost of the case of Vienna sausages. Phew. I decided not to hate amazon so much after that. But he searched further and there are other, cheaper, options for getting a hold of chicken Vienna sausages. Urgh. I now live in mortal fear of him getting his hands on some.

Ever since he played the snowballing porn the night before, I wanted him to come in my mouth. I mentioned this many times Sunday morning and eventually it sounded like I might get my wish. I wasn’t totally sure it would go the way I wanted it to when he took an extra bath to wash his ass extra well. I thought for sure he’d make me lick his asshole while he jerked off. I was in a very subby mindset that day, so I might have been less turned off about analingus than usual. He went off into the bedroom and told me that he’d call on me in about 15 minutes or so.

When he did call me in, he told me to put on my collar. I entered the bedroom, excited, and put my collar on. He looked me in the eye and told me to get in the right mindset. I stood with my hands behind my back and said, “Yes, Sir.”

“So you said you wanted my come in your mouth,” he said archly.

“Yes, Sir.”

He had been laying on his side, leaning a bit forward. At that point he rolled his body back a bit and revealed small puddles of his come on the Fascinator Throe. He instructed me to come over and lick his come up. I got on hands and knees on the bed and bent down, dragging my tongue through the drops of come. He told me he wanted to see at least one string of come coming out of my mouth but the drops would disperse in my saliva really quickly. I licked slowly and carefully. Upon request, I stuck my tongue out for him to see. He told me to go, “Mmm good!” and I did, with more enthusiasm than I once did. And he told me to swallow.

It hadn’t been quite what I fantasized, but being in a subby mindset I was happy for whatever he gave me. I was happy to be his cum slut, licking his come off the blanket. He had me remove my collar and we got up.

In the living room, he came over to kiss me, and I playfully stuck my tongue out at him – encouraging him to give me a deep kiss. He called me a wise guy and made me put my collar on again and get on hands and knees on the bed. He gave me some sharp whaps with the lightest cane. I’d whimper sometimes. It was short, and when he was done he had me take my collar off and told me, “Now, that wasn’t a punishment. It was a treat.” I said, “Thank you, Sir.” and was a very happy girl indeed.

I will miss him this month.

My mind is reeling with dirty, dirty things. I think I will spend a lot of time writing kinky erotica while he’s gone.

No Worries

Published on March 13, 2009 in analingus, bdsm, D/s, edge play, piss play and trust. 1 Comment

I received a concerned email after my last post, which I understand (and appreciate!) but I want to make sure that everyone realizes I’m okay. Yes, MasterDoc pushes my limits, and yes, I can adamantly say no. The person who wrote was concerned that doing anything for your Dom is a slippery slope, and while with some men it can be, MasterDoc is not going to make me do anything as wrong as hiding bodies or anything like that. (Besides, I have enough of a brain in my head to know that something like murder would land me in jail and NOBODY is worth that shit and no one who loves me would make me do that.) He gradually introduces new things – mostly by introducing the idea at first. He conditions me to get used to these things he wants to do (and again, let me point out that it’s not anything that will bring me or anyone else harm) and eventually introduces them. When I met him I couldn’t picture anyone pissing on me, or me performing analingus, but I’ve experienced both those things now. And you know what? While I still don’t like ass licking, I’ve come to no harm mentally or physically. I don’t crave him peeing on me but the worst part of the situation was that the tub I lay in was cold. Seriously. He’s also never introduced something that he hadn’t mentioned being interested in at the outset. I get fair warning as to what he eventually expects from me… and murder, harm or any sort of crazy thing like that is NOT on the menu. I have time to dig my heels in and say no. And if he were ever to suggest something harmful I would say no and walk away.

Also, for those of you who don’t know MasterDoc you probably don’t realize that a large portion of the time he threatens disgusting things it’s a headfuck. And the headfuck is part of the D/s playing between us. (Sometimes I get really turned on when he scares me, or when he humiliates me. I’m a sick freak, I know. Last night he admitted that his plan (preempted by our playmate canceling for today) was never actually to piss in my mouth. He figured if he threatened it then I’d be over the moon at him simply pissing on me. He’d tell me that I’d better make it convincing that I’m enjoying his pee on me or he’d piss in my mouth then. But he acknowledges that I’m not ready for the mouth pissing thing. I’ve told him it will be quite some time before I am. But he would not be the Dom if he didn’t keep trying to condition me to submit that far. Is this unusual compared to vanilla relationships? Hell yes. But I have developed enough trust and confidence to know he won’t do anything that will truly harm me. Sometimes the headfuck gets me worried, but inevitably he soothes me and lets me know it’s just a headfuck. (For now!) Our relationship is unusual, but it works for us.

While I’m glad and relieved that there will be no pee in my mouth today, unfortunately MasterDoc needed to take some ritalin to get things done (he has ADD) and sex isn’t in the cards for today. I’ve been trying out my new SaSi and a review will come after I feel I’ve given it a fair trial.

Newsflash: Nadia Turns Down Sex!

Published on December 18, 2008 in analingus, bdsm, D/s, edge play, illness, piss play, sex, trust and Uncategorized. 0 Comments

It’s been a craptacular week all around. If you follow my twitter you know I’ve been sick with a stomach virus the past few days. I feel pretty awful. I also heard about some bad news at work. The economy is definitely affecting libraries, meanwhile usage stats are going up! Please, support your local library. They provide knowledge, entertainment and internet access for FREE and are a vital service to a healthy community, especially in these hard times.

So on to the news. Yes, yesterday I was with MasterDoc and I turned down the idea of sex. I know, I know it’s amazing but it does happen from time to time and being sick is definitely up there on the list of reasons to turn down sex. I’m just too tired and battling occasional nausea. I was going to help MasterDoc jerk off but I found that it was even hard to watch porn because the gagging on cock scenes made me more queasy. In the end, he went and took care of things himself while I zoned out on the sofa in front of the tv. It was really weird to have him doing things for me. It’s wonderful that he will take care of me when I’m sick but of course it makes the dynamic go a bit pear-shaped temporarily. I found myself getting up and getting drinks and putting away clean dishes because I’m so used to it. I did give myself a break, however, as I really don’t feel well. I was the only one on my case to do stuff as usual, MasterDoc accepts that I’m not well and that I need a little taking care of for the time being.

We did find one fun thing to do together yesterday, and that was reviewing my bdsm checklist. (Quite like the one found here.) If you do bdsm, you have probably come across checklists before. They’re pretty useful when you’re playing with someone new to find out what their limits and interests are. He had me fill it out when I first met him, and then again review it a few months later to see if anything had changed. We went through the list this time together and he made notes for future reference. *grin*

Hey, if you can’t have sex, the next best thing is to talk about it!

While the focus sometimes feels like it’s on what limits of mine have weakened and can be pushed, he also pays attention to areas that have perhaps been neglected – things that I wish we would do more or things that we both have an interest in doing but haven’t done. It’s interesting how in the course of a D/s relationship your limits – or what you perceive to be your limits – can change. Things that I first put down as a hard limit (rimming, being peed on) are things I’ve now done. I’m sure some people will be up in arms at the idea of a Dom “going there” with a subs’ “hard limits” but it’s interesting how you can adjust to things when they’re talked about a lot beforehand. MasterDoc has proven very good at discerning what are my truly hard limits (choking, because being asthmatic I’ve dealt with the very scary feeling of not being able to breathe and I don’t like it) and what are things that I find distasteful but will survive doing without mental scars (rimming, pee). Over the course of my explorations in bdsm I’ve found things that initially put me off now seem fascinating – like needle play. There’s some things I’m excited that we’re planning to do (butt plug under clothes out in public, like when we go to a swing club) and things that make me nervous (peeing in front of an audience) but somehow play into the fact that I do like some humiliation and fear play. (And MasterDoc is oh so good at fear play – mainly because the things he threatens he might really do! I have reason to be afraid! You really never know what he’s saying just to scare you and what he’s saying because he plans to do it down the line. Yes, I can see that this situation would not be for everyone.) Reviewing the list was fun but also made me a wee bit nervous.

Foursome

Published on September 18, 2008 in analingus, foursome, swinging and vacation. 0 Comments

Been away with Davey this week. We had a lovely time – ate too much (and unhealthily at times – sweet crepes for breakfast AND lunch one day), drank too much, and indulged in some sexy stuff. All in all, a good vacation. The other night we met up with a couple. Davey had put an ad on craigslist trying to find couples to play with at our destination. We only got one satisfactory response (i.e., someone who took a moment to write a couple of lines to pique our interest) and we arranged to meet them in a bar by our hotel.

I was nervous meeting them, after all I wasn’t particularly attracted to the guy from the picture he sent, what if there was zero chemistry and we wanted to bail? Luckily when we met them he was better looking than his photo, and at any rate feeling comfortable with someone is more important to me than looks ultimately. We had drinks with them and chatted a bit. They were nice but I doubt they’d be a couple we’d hang out with regularly if they lived nearby. We clicked enough, but when all was said and done it wasn’t an experience I’d go out of my way to repeat. Yes I know I’m a spoiled bitch that I can turn my nose up at reasonably decent vanilla sex but it was just ok. I came, yes, but I had to really focus and work on those orgasms.

So we chatted for a while then they asked if we wanted to hang out or get some rest. I said let’s go hang out and so we went up to our hotel room. After a few minutes all of us ended up sitting on the bed, but getting things started was the awkward part. (There was MUCH awkwardness.) Davey is fairly shy and he was all the way at the other end of the bed, on the other side of me. I at least tried to sit close to the couple, within arm’s length, but I wasn’t any good at instigating. We talked for quite a while longer and I just kept thinking, “How on earth are we going to start this? I wish they’d start something.” And eventually that was the solution, the guy grabbed his woman and started kissing her deeply and groping her breasts. Davey kissed me for a bit as well. We chatted some more and the guy reached out his hand and took mine. Somehow I eventually ended up making out with him and the woman moved closer to Davey and started making out with him. The swap had finally been successful.

So I fooled around with the guy and Davey fooled around with the woman. Every so often I’d look over to see Davey going down on her and she was moaning and writhing around. In the meanwhile, the guy passionately sucked on my nipples and got me to take my shirt off. He took his shirt off as well and I was momentarily dismayed to find that he’s really hairy (not my thing) but wasn’t as squicked by it as I would have thought I’d be. Soon, he had my pants off as well and was going down on me. It felt good but it wasn’t until he added his fingers inside me that I was able to come. He got me propped up on a pillow and kept moving his tongue lower and lower. Yes, folks, for the first time ever someone has licked my asshole. It felt nice but I really don’t get what all the fuss is about. He not only licked me there but he wet his finger and slid it inside. He fingered my ass while eating me out and I came again. It felt really naughty to have this complete stranger ravaging my asshole like that.

I sucked him briefly but he had me get on hands and knees for a fucking. He fucked me doggy style for a while and Davey was still fingering and going down on the woman. I ended up on my back again and he went down on me some more. By this time I was sweating bullets and needed a break. After a short break he went down on me some more and fucked me again. The thing is, I’m a kinky girl and while he was fucking me I closed my eyes and thought of MasterDoc slapping my face to add some excitement to what was going on. When he was fucking me doggy style he lightly slapped my ass (and I do mean lightly) and I thought to myself, “You call that a spank?” and chuckled inwardly at how this guy would probably be a little freaked to know just how kinky I am. (They didn’t seem the kinky type.) All in all it was just an ok experience. It was fun to watch Davey’s face as the woman went down on him, and the experience wasn’t totally terrible, but I feel really lukewarm about the whole thing. I think in a lot of respects it was too vanilla for me. Or maybe I just didn’t have enough chemistry with the guy. I dunno.

The night before that Davey and I went to a strip club and unfortunately it was pretty slow, and the dancers seemed bored. We had a couple of drinks but mostly it was a waste of time. The one dancer who really put effort into her show was unfortunately quite thin and not curvy, so she wasn’t my type. It’s a shame because had she been curvy I would have quite enjoyed her show. The curvy stripper was totally predictable, every time she’d grab her nipples I knew that next came her right hand sliding down to touch her crotch – every freakin’ time! The same moves, over and over again.

Thankfully, the food and drink on vacation was stellar for the most part, so that made up for the sexy bits being a little underwhelming. On our last night there Davey and I went out to a fancy restaurant, polished off a bottle of wine (after having had beer cocktails before dinner) and went back to the hotel to drunkenly fuck. *grin* During the days we did the tourist thing. It was a short vacation but I love travel so much that I’m glad to even have just a few days away.

Firsts

Published on November 23, 2007 in analingus, masturbation and sex. 1 Comment

Today was the first day I called up MasterDoc to ask permission to masturbate. I felt kinda funny bothering him but I was really horny and as I’m spending the day alone I couldn’t think about anything else. He text messaged back that I had permission. Yay! I immediately went to the bedroom, got out my magic wand and popped some porn in the dvd player. Soon I was coming and even squirting a little. I felt much better after that although I still felt horny.

The other day I forgot to mention something I did for the first time – licked ass. MasterDoc had been threatening to have me do it for a long time, and he finally had me do it. It wasn’t too bad to lick around the general area, as I did out of an aversion to licking the hole directly, but he specifically ordered me to get my tongue in there. It wasn’t as unpleasant as I thought it would be, but it’s not something that turns me on at all. Of course, MasterDoc doesn’t care if it turns me on or not, as that’s not the point. I can imagine that it feels good but no one’s ever done that to me. (Yes, there’s actually something I’ve never experienced.) I’ll have to imagine it feeling good when I’m asked to be a submissive slut and do it.