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Tuesday Night Alone with MasterDoc

Published on August 28, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, analingus, bdsm, consensual non-consent, cunt, dom, horny, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, piss play, sex toys, submissive and trust. 0 Comments

DeeDee had a date one evening this past week, and I got to spend time alone with MasterDoc. I was feeling extremely submissive and I’ll bet he picked up on that. While we sat on the couch, moving towards having sex, he made me lick his ass. I’m getting more and more used to it, even though I still don’t like doing it, and I did good job rimming him.

In the bedroom, I cuddled with him and stroked his body. He sounded like he was going to come various times and I was concerned by my usual being left out/not getting to come fears. But this time I told myself, “He always takes care of me, I should just trust that he will.” And so I kept writhing against him, touching his body – ass, back, arms, neck, groin. I breathed heavy into his ear as I pressed my body to his.

He did come from my touches and him stroking his cock. He shot pretty far on the bed. He had me clean up and then we had dessert.  I was yearning for sexual attention, but I behaved myself.

I asked if I could lay down – mainly to rest and relax but I was also hoping he’d start playing with my body. He did. He played with my pussy til I was breathing heavy and close to coming. They were delicate touches but his touch makes me tingle. He teased me a bit and I must have had such a set of blue balls – metaphorically speaking. He told me to come and come I did. He would let me rest slightly then amp up the sensation to make me come again. I would think to myself, “I’m done,” but then he would make me come again. I grabbed hold of his arm as I came, thrashing about.

Post orgasm I lay there fantasizing about him grabbing the Randy (which I won recently on twitter from Vixen Creations, mine’s “vanilla” flesh-colored rather than the black one on Babeland’s site) and telling me it’s time we see if we can fit it in my cunt. Rowr. I kept tormenting myself with more sexy thoughts.

He turned to me in middle of cuddling and asked if I wanted him to pee on me – not willing to do it but wanted . I couldn’t reply. Part of me wanted it and the other part of me was horrified that I wanted it. He seemed to back off, but I kept thinking that it would be hot for him to make me do something I hate – and it’s not that the act is hot for me. Being pissed on in and of itself isn’t erotic for me, but him grabbing me by the hair taking me down the hall to the bathroom, barking an order for me to kneel in the tub…. and then he pisses on me, in my ass, in my mouth – the last one being terribly forced. I don’t want him to piss in my mouth, but I do want to feel like he owns me and will do it if it pleases him. Does that make sense? Ultimately though, the fooling around was over for the evening.

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Published on July 29, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, caning, dom, fantasy, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, musings, orgasm denial, sex, sex toys and submissive. 2 Comments

I got lost in my head during play Tuesday night, so apologies if this account is disjointed. I had been overdue for a beating, so MasterDoc took to my ass with the riding crop and cane. He started off light, and very gradually increased intensity. He did it in such a way that by the time he was whacking me hard he was able to tell me to come. I came from the pain. I came from him having control. For some unknown reason that still amazes me.

We watched some porn – and this time I actually watched instead of being distracted by him fucking me. I stroked his hair as we lay by each others side. As the porn turned me on I started touching myself. I played with my breasts and nipples, something I rarely do during masturbation. I shyly reached a hand down to my pussy and started playing there. Intermittently, I’d touch him, stroking his back.

Right before having sex with me, MasterDoc looked me in the eye and told me that I was to hold off coming indefinitely. I was not allowed to beg for orgasm like I usually do. Just him giving me this directive, with that firm look in his eyes, made me wet. I struggled to keep my arousal under control as he fucked me. But of course I just kept thinking about how hot it was that he could use my body for his pleasure. It seems as if telling me not to come makes me just want to come more!

We cuddled up after the fucking, and his phone rang. This distracted me so when he told me to come a moment later, I wasn’t anywhere near ready to come. He talked to me about keeping with where we are mentally. After all, the phone can be ignored. I’ll try to do better next time.

My memories of that evening are in bits and pieces, so forgive me if this isn’t as coherent as most posts.

As we cuddled I did some spot worship (see 5th paragraph in that post), and he called me the “High Priestess of Spot Worship.” Hee hee. I know how to play with his special spot really well by now. I stroke his chest languidly, focusing on “the spot” but also touching the rest of his torso – from tummy to collar bone. I’ve joked that I want a sex toy company to make a toy version of his spot so if I ever lose him I can stroke it for comfort.

He had me suck his cock for a while, and I struggled a bit with the reservoir tip of the condom tickling the back of my throat. That’s the only thing I truly hate about blow jobs with condoms.

At one point, I was laying down in such a way that I was looking up at him – and I mentioned that I loved the perspective. Having him above me like that felt so representative of the power dynamic between us. I thought about the idea of him being a god for the length of our scenes. The majority of the time, we’re two humans with strengths and weaknesses. But when we play we can be something else for a while. He can be a god to me, and I can feel safe in his arms. He can be in control, which he likes and I can give up control, which I like. (Of course, ever the irreverent Dom, MasterDoc made some funny noises and hand motions when I said I liked the perspective. Kinda changed the feeling!) Many times that night I felt like declaring I’m his, over and over.

He fucked me from behind a couple of times with that order not to come or ask to come still applying. His cock wasn’t cooperating as much as he would have liked, so the fucking didn’t last long. He had intended to fuck me until he came.

I was feeling really ready for limit pushing, and he had me give his asshole a big kiss. I still don’t like doing it, but it’s hot in the way that I’m being told what to do. Thankfully it is always freshly cleaned when he has me do it. I still pause a second and give him a “do I have to?” look before doing what he tells me to do.

We took a break, and he checked on DeeDee. (She struggles with depression like I do, and was having a tough day.) MasterDoc planned to fuck me later that night as I got so drowsy I was ready to fall asleep, but that got put off. (Something for the wishing box.)

A Victim of My Own Success

Published on July 25, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, analingus, blow jobs, bondage, horny, kink, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sadism, sex, shio and squirting. 0 Comments

As many of you have seen on twitter, I didn’t see MasterDoc for over a week. He went away to his friend’s wedding across the country. I still hung out surprisingly often at his place, spending some time with DeeDee and her friend. I got to see my friend DivaSub and we watched some funny movies and stuff. (Bill Hicks, Valley Girl, Dazed and Confused – for the win!) I also managed to find an apartment I like. (And DivaSub is thrilled since it’s near her, in fact you can see her apartment window from the window of what I hope will soon be my apartment.) I’ll be just two blocks from MasterDoc, which is excellent not only because I see him often, but also because I have never lived alone before. I’m really nervous yet excited about it. I love the apartment so hopefully I will get my paperwork in quickly enough to snag it. I have great credit and earn enough to rent there, so things should go well. I’m also trying to snag garage parking in the building across the street (the building I want to move into has a waiting list for the garage). It’s just a studio, but it has an actual kitchen plus tons of closet space. I was born an NYC girl and I will be one again if all goes as planned.

I saw MasterDoc a tiny bit Friday morning. He got in late from work and slept next to me. I got a quick cuddle before he went back to sleep and I got ready for work.

I was so happy to get some time alone with him Friday night, but as we got ready to “do the freaky-freaky” as MasterDoc might say, he fell into a very sadistic, teasing mood. I was needing cuddles and reconnecting, and he was talking about making me lick chocolate sauce from his asshole. (Ew.) I found it harder to get turned on because I just wasn’t in a state where I could handle teasing about stuff I don’t like. (And he had left me on a teasing note, tormenting me about pissing in my mouth.)

He took a moment to change his mindset, and things proceeded much better from there. At this point in our relationship, I just have to press my naked body against his and I get turned on. My hands wander his chest and I get more and more excited. He gets excited too from touching me and having me close.

It dawned on MasterDoc that that’s why we don’t do as much kinky stuff lately – he gets so turned on that all he can think about in the moment is fucking me. I am a victim of my own success. He often intends to do kinky stuff, but never quite gets there. I have to say, the sex is so phenomenal that I can’t truly complain, but I would love some more kink back in my life.

He had me suck his cock and I got into it: licking, slurping, making it hard. He twined his fingers in my hair and I got even more excited hoping he was going to choke me on his cock. He did, finally, holding my head down until I actually started to gag on his cock. Then I lay on his chest to catch my breath. While I needed time to recover, I would have loved to go again. It’s like there’s some sort of high that’s produced when he does that. I hope he does more in the future. I blew him until he had me stop, saying that one of these days I’ll manage to make him come orally. This doesn’t happen often for him (and hasn’t happened ever with me) so I look forward to it!

I deep throated him as much as possible. I love making him feel good! It turns me on to know that I’ve gotten really good at giving him head. I used to be a lover who was really focused on her own pleasure, but now I’ve learned to get immense pleasure out of my partner’s pleasure too.

MasterDoc played with my pussy for a bit, but I had a hard time getting aroused as my clit was so sensitive that touching it hurt. Adding lube helped a lot and as he was hard and ready, he had me get on top of his cock for a ride. Oh it was so nice to slip him inside me. I’m spoiled with regular sex so going about a week and a half without it was hard! Fucking him excited me so much that I came wildly when he gave permission. My whole body tensed up, I fell forward onto him, and I kept involuntarily twitching as he touched me. He wrung every last orgasm out of my body, and I was exhausted after. So often these days I wonder if I can keep coming (or if my body is too tired to) and just as I wonder that he makes me come again.

It’s an exquisite form of control. He can make me twitch and come with just the touch of his hand. When he fucks me, I come until he decides to stop me. I can’t control coming again and again if he decides to make me come.

We fucked a second time. I knelt at the end of the bed and leaned over my Liberator Axis (that thing kicks ass for support during doggy style sex). He teased me a bit, not putting his cock in right away. I was so, so desperate for it. I sighed as he slid his cock in. He fucked me for a long time, I moaned a lot as I could have come shortly after he started. I’m sure he can hear through my moans that plaintive call where I wordlessly try to beg for orgasm.

When I came, my pussy pushed his cock out, but he continued with his hands. I squirted a whole bunch and then kept right on coming. Again, he forced orgasms out of me until I didn’t think I could stand it any more. As he finished with me and told me to fall forward, I just about managed to get the axis out from under me before I collapsed.

Before we started, we put the underbed restraints on the bed. He had me lay in the middle of the bed, on my stomach, and he strapped me down. At first, this made me so hot as I love bondage. But he left me there, and as time went on my shoulders began to ache. I debated calling out for him but the sub in me wanted to see if I could concentrate on relaxing and thereby stay bound without so much shoulder pain. I was left there quite a while as he got distracted by the Yankee game. When he came in I told him about the discomfort and he undid me, pointing out that he wouldn’t get mad at me for having to ask him to un-cuff me if I was in pain.

We started getting amorous again, but DeeDee called to say she and her friend were on the way home. We had to forego a third round of sex. It was such a shame as we both would have loved more, but considering the many, many orgasms I had, I can’t complain.

Review: Sex: How to do Everything

Published on May 31, 2010 in Uncategorized, anal, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, cunnilingus, fantasy, kink, masturbation, non-monogamy, poly, reviews, sex, sex toys and sexuality. 0 Comments

I received an email a while back asking if I wanted to review [Sex: How to Do Everything] with Em and Lo (Emma Taylor and Lorelei Sharkey). I’ve been familiar with their names since reading their sex column in New York magazine years back. I figured sure, why not review it?

There are ten, roughly 45-minute-long episodes that were filmed for British tv (although their “man on the street” interviews take place in London and New York). It took me ages to sit down and watch them all, but I had some time this weekend to plow through the last 5 episodes. I started the series wondering if it really covered “how to do everything” and you know, it pretty much does. I have only a couple of complaints – first, it’s very heterocentric. While some of the average people they interview are gay or bi, the rest of the show doesn’t acknowledge same sex relationships and experiences. However, lots of the information is general enough that queer couples can learn many things from the series as well if they can overlook all the male/female couplings.

The second thing that bothered me is that in the episode on sex toys they mention phthalates, and that they’re bad for you, but not in what types of materials they’re found. Their “roving reporters” Dougie and Georgie (a M/F couple)  go on to review a variety of toys including jelly ones with no mention of their phthalate content.

But those two caveats aside, I think this is a fabulous series. It’s fairly explicit (in the spirit of being educational rather than titillating) and very educational. It’s clearly intended for adults only, but I think this sort of sex-positive series should be featured in high school sex ed classes. Seriously, if more teens saw this then more people would go on to have healthy, safe, and pleasurable sex lives. The tone is always positive, they put in valuable safety warnings – from safer sex to safe BDSM play – and cover a huge territory. They cover furries! They cover BDSM! They cover auto-fellatio! They feature an interracial couple as their main “demo models.” And Dougie and Georgie are attractive yet average – and Georgie’s enthusiasm for sex is wonderful to see. Dougie is a lucky man.

There’s fun features like “dog toy or sex toy” where people are asked to identify a variety of toys, which can get pretty funny. The tone is informative but not boring at all. It approaches sex with a healthy, positive attitude.

The episodes are:

1 – Oral (including a sculptor who casts vulvas as art, Midori giving a very seductive blow job lesson,

a clinical psychologist talking positively about vulvas)

2 – Manual (including hand jobs, masturbation, great anatomy info section on manual stimulation on women, Carol Queen’s masturbate-a-thon)

3 – Orgasm (including g-spot and female ejaculation)

4- Toys

5 – Intercourse

6- Kink (interview with a Domme, Violet Wands, furries)

7 – Anal (including prostate massage. MasterDoc is glad I watched this section! They warn about desensitizing gels, safer sex precautions (like dental dam for rimming) and to use lots and lots of lube)

8 – Fantasy (dress up, role play, striptease, covers UK law on sex in public, porn, abduction fantasy acted out, dogging (acts done in public for others)

9 – Seduction (tantra, striptease/burlesque)

10 – Best of – a compilation of highlights from the series

Unfortunately, the first dvd  in my set was a little messed up so a few scenes were unwatchable. But I cannot recommend this series enough – particularly for people who are inexperienced sexually. But even for jaded old sex bloggers like me there were many useful things to learn from the shows.

Up Yer Bum

Published on May 24, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, analingus, humiliation play, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command and sex. 3 Comments

Saturday was pretty quiet as we were recovering from being out late the night before. MasterDoc wasn’t feeling particularly horny, and I wasn’t feeling horny enough to try to convince him otherwise. Yes folks, we do have days/evening where we just hang out.

But Sunday afternoon we decided to “get freaky” as he often calls it. I picked out some porn, but unfortunately it turned out to be more to MasterDoc’s liking than mine. I say unfortunately because there was some serious ass licking going on (woman licking a man) and MasterDoc pointed out that he wanted me to go at his ass with the vigor of the woman in the porn. There was ass tonguing, spitting into the open asshole, pulling his asshole open and fingering it (while she fucked him even!). I felt a little skeptical since the speed and intensity of the acts seemed too hard and too fast from what I know about MasterDoc.

He decided to have me service him anally, and I cringed because the idea of ass licking was just extra dirty to me somehow yesterday. Ick. I really do hate it. I have to be deeply in sub mode to go at it with any modicum of enthusiasm.

He got on hands and knees on the bed, and I massaged and warmed up his ass. I used plenty of lube – which turned out to be a good move albeit unintentional – once the lube was on he decided reluctantly that he wouldn’t make me lick his lubey ass. Phew. I worked my fingers in, and I enjoyed making him feel good. I was right to be skeptical since the reality of the act went very, very slowly and gently. There wasn’t any rapid fingering of his ass. There wasn’t any pulling his asshole open. I think he liked the idea in theory more than in practice. If I tried being more vigorous he’d tell me to slow down, or not thrust my finger in and out.

(But I was only doing it how you said you wanted it, Sir.)

I firmly massaged the tight muscles of his anus. He stroked his cock at the same time, and I came to the realization that he was going to come on the pillow under him – my pillow. I didn’t interrupt. I did, however, worry that if he came right at the beginning then I wouldn’t get any orgasms or sex later.

He shot his load onto the pillow, and I removed the case and blotted the pillow dry. I was pleased to have made him feel so good, but I was tensely wondering what would happen next. I tried to reassure myself that he would never leave me high and dry. But still, I wondered. When I got back to the bedroom he had left to get a snack in the kitchen. I lay on the bed, stroking my clit, while watching the porn that was on (a different one than before). As moments ticked by I wondered – am I allowed to come? Are we done having sex? Would this count as masturbation? He reappeared before I resolved that issue – and that was lucky for me since we were not done and no it didn’t count as masturbation – so thankfully I hadn’t opted to make myself come.

He enjoyed his snack laying on the bed next to me. I told him what I had been thinking and I think he was a bit miffed that I would think he’d leave me hanging. It’s really more a situation of me having terrible anxiety and issues over being left out than my thinking he will leave me unsatisfied. But with the whole Dom/sub thing, there’s always the caveat that as the Dom he can decide what we do or don’t do – so in theory he could wield that power. Some Doms do. Some Doms deny orgasms long term. I am thoroughly delighted that we only do short term orgasm denial – as in, eventually during any one scene I will be allowed to come, I just can’t come right away. This is not a bad thing at all since waiting a bit usually makes the eventual orgasm more intense.

Back to my story… After he finished his snack he played with my breasts while I rubbed my clit. He contributed touches to various sensitive places to enhance the masturbation I was doing. And eventually, he told me to come which I did right on cue. I had a wonderful, long series of orgasms, but I have to say that there’s something about orgasming at someone else’s hand (or penis) that beats doing it yourself. I think it’s because you don’t have to continue being the stimulator and stimulatee at the same time.

I was happy. We had both come and while I had been hoping for more BDSM oriented sex, MasterDoc was feeling more vanilla. We continued watching the porn a bit and damn I was still horny. Despite coming a short while earlier, his cock grew hard again. Huzzah! He fucked me from behind and I was able to come again (and again).

Sluts, Squirts and Swing Clubs

Published on April 6, 2010 in D/s, Uncategorized, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, embarrassment, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, sex, sex parties, sex toys, shio, slut, squirting, submissive and swinging. 1 Comment

We took advantage of my being on vacation and went out to the swing club last night. MasterDoc’s back is still bothering him but it’s gotten a little better. I drove into the city to give him a little rest on our way out.

Early in the evening, there weren’t many people there. But MasterDoc set us up in the little corner room in the back. Men would come in and out, hoping that we were up to something. We moved slowly, stopping to make out. I joked that we must be really boring to watch at that point.

He had me put my collar on and he took some time to stroke my face and tug on my hair, things that put me very quickly into sub mode. He slapped my face a few times and I wondered if someone was in the room to see, and if so what they thought about that.

I sucked his cock, and as usual I threw myself into it. I’m not one to leisurely tease when giving oral, I’m more likely to go right for the stimulation that will feel intense. He slid his fingers into my hair and I hoped he would force me down on his cock. He did, and when I’m that turned on it’s much easier to ignore the gag reflex. Eventually I had to come up for air.

He decided to humiliate me and made me lick his ass in public. He loudly encouraged me to get his tongue into his asshole and I felt terribly humiliated and debased. Funny thing is, since I’m so inexperienced with rimming I was apparently going a bit too high.

He had me strip, and lay down on the bed with my cunt facing the door. I was allowed a toy and I rubbed the vibrating nea on my clit. At moments, I got lost in working myself up, but at other times I’d get self-conscious and distracted. The first time MasterDoc asked me if I was ready to come I had to admit that I wasn’t, but this immediately brought my attention back to the task at hand. As I rubbed that vibrator on my clit I would moan and buck my hips sometimes. MasterDoc made me say loudly that I wanted him to fuck me. If I don’t say it loud enough, or thoroughly enough, the first time he says, “What was that?” until I ask for it satisfactorily loud.

He fucked me from behind quite hard. With his back out, it had been a week since we had actual intercourse. (I’m not complaining though, he kept me pretty damn happy in the interim.) I got lost in the sex and forgot to feel self-conscious about my moaning and grunting. My face was turned towards the door and we most assuredly had some sort of audience. He made me come really hard, and kept it going with his fingers as I squirted. Oh it felt so amazing that I didn’t want it to stop. I lay down for quite a while after that, recovering.

We took a break for beverages. Fucking is thirsty work. I walked to the bar by myself to get us drinks, and roughly three men hit on me as I walked alone. Sometimes the men feel like vultures in the swing club. I think the difficult part too is that they are used to, in a “normal” relationship, getting the woman’s attention and approval so they can move in and get some. However, in my D/s relationship with MasterDoc I rarely encourage the men (particularly if I’m not interested in them) – it’s up to MasterDoc to approve and decide who fucks me. Sitting back down, I asked MasterDoc if he’d ever been to a swing club alone. He hasn’t, and this didn’t surprise me at all. He says he did go to one swing party alone once, but that’s the sum of it. I have to confess that sometimes I think of the single men at swing clubs as kinda pathetic. They wander around, sometimes without pants (which, gentlemen, is not very attractive. Neither was the old guy shuffling along in boxers, socks and nothing else.) Sure I see attractive men there sometimes, but I kinda wonder why they’re there alone as well.

There was one hot guy who I gave a blatant “come hither” look to but he wandered away. Dissed! I told this to MasterDoc after the guy wandered away. He teased me for flirting with someone of my own accord, but of course I wasn’t in trouble for this. (I would just be in trouble if I went and did something with this guy without permission.) The door to the room with the large bed was closed and we asked around until we found out that Veronica, the lady who is notorious for squirting for the single guys was in there with someone. How unusual that she should seek privacy! We camped outside the door for a bit, seeking to tease her and get her attention when she came out.

When the large bed was available, we lay down on it. MasterDoc undid his pants and shirt and stroked his cock. I played with his chest and then I started feeling myself through my clothes. “Are you playing with yourself young lady?” he asked. I said yes and was glad he noticed as my hands were getting tired of the extra pressure I had to exert through my pants. MasterDoc took a vibrator to my crotch. He had me take my pants off and he teased me with a vibrator. A young-ish African American guy came in to watch. MasterDoc offered him the flashlight to hold and he came over to the bed. He stroked his cock as he held the flashlight really close to my pussy. They talked about me, MasterDoc most assuredly knowing that the objectification was making me hot. When I came, I squirted on the flashlight since it was so close, but I didn’t know until later because my eyes were clenched closed while I came.

I begged for orgasm at MasterDoc’s request and then a few moments later I was begging him to stop because I needed a break from the incessant orgasms. He has a knack for pushing me until I’m breathless. We cuddled and hung out a bit, and in no time I was I was really horny again wanting to be his slut. He threatened to get one of the older guys I thought was unattractive to fuck me. I felt squeamish, but when I started to frame it in my head as me being his slut and fucking whoever he wants, I got into the idea more. I didn’t want to see who I was fucking however, my idea of hot anonymous sex would be to get fucked like a bitch in heat while blindfolded, and as I walked around after I would have no idea what men I walked by had fucked me. MasterDoc’s version of this fantasy, however, is for random guys of his choosing to fuck me, and then he points out who it was after. Yikes! He really does get into humiliating me. Sad thing is, I get into it too.

We didn’t end up doing more, even though I was ravenously horny, thinking up naughty fantasies I wished would come true. We watched a very drunk woman demonstrate what it’s like to be a trainwreck. And then wandered into the bdsm room and MasterDoc got Veronica to squirt into his hands. Her come overflowed his hands and made a huge puddle on the floor. This girl can squirt on command. I’m impressed. You know you go to the swing club often when the resident slut knows who you are well enough to joke around with you. She got a towel to clean up and the men around us were in awe. The guy I had given the eye to earlier was there, and I was sure to put tidbits about my own squirting into the conversation. Hah, see what hotness you missed out on buddy!

We were there a while, and it feels like we must have done more than this, but I suppose a lot of time was spent hanging out with my brain in a fog of sexual fantasy. I’m going to miss MasterDoc while I’m away. But hopefully I will experience more stories to print here when I get back.

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Earlier in the day, I was complaining a bit too much and MasterDoc came back into the living room a few minutes later with my Njoy pure plug, lube and my collar. I was speechless. He had me get on hands and knees and he worked the plug into my ass, where it stayed for a while. He made me wiggle in my seat and asked me how it felt having the plug in there.

A little while later, he had me get the throe and magic wand and he used the wand to make me come very hard. He pressed the wand to the handle of the butt plug to make that vibrate. He teased my clit and I was desperate to come by the time he let me. He commented on how my complaining stopped after that. The man knows how to shut me up. And thankfully the methods are so much fun.

Day of Debauchery

Published on December 19, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, analingus, bdsm, bisexuality, blow jobs, bondage, caning, exhibitionism, humiliation play, kink, masochism, masturbation, orgasm denial, orgasm on command, restraints, sadism, sex, sex toys, show, spanking, submissive, sybian and threesome. 0 Comments

Friday was quite a full day of pervyness with MasterDoc. Early in the afternoon, he had a lady who’s a switch come over with the intention of her helping top me. But somehow he found out that she also has a swing profile and he proceeded to look up the profile and read it out loud to her. He teased her mercilessly as it’s quite a slutty profile. (Yeah, like either of us have an issue with sluts. They’re our favorite people!) She turned red and we all laughed so hard. When he got to the point about how she can come from just neck/ear nibbling or nipple stimulation he said, “Oh yeah?” and proceeded to play with her neck. The laughing stopped around then, and she was immediately in a horny reverie, head tipping back, mouth open. He took out one breast and I took out the other, and the two of us made her come from just sucking on her nipples. It was loads of fun. He teased her sadistically some more, and somehow none of us ever ended up naked. But we had the best time laughing and teasing. I’m hoping we get to see her again soon. (And while I was perfectly happy with how the visit turned out, I do look forward to being topped by two people at once someday!)

Later in the afternoon, an Irish guy who had watched a show before came over to see us again. MasterDoc put me over the Liberator scoop, used the wrist and thigh cuffs to attach me to the scoop, and spanked my ass. It felt more sting-y than usual yesterday and the canes smarted something awful. He alternated with the riding crop as well which was easier to handle. His wooden paddle was almost unbearable. He helped me deal with the pain by putting the magic wand up against my cunt while he spanked me some more. I did my best to grind my clit against the wand, but it was always just slightly off to the side of the ideal spot. But I got so hot, and so far into subspace, from that beating/teasing combo. He let me lay over the scoop for a few minutes after so I could come down a bit.

He took off the wrist cuffs and I felt floaty when I got up. I knelt before him, he was seated on the couch, and sucked MasterDoc’s cock. He did a little face fucking again, which produced lots of drool. It’s not easy being gagged like that but I do think it’s terribly hot. The river of drool that comes out as my mouth is pulled off is really sexy in a nasty sort of way. Earlier, he had told me I’m a dirty slut and made me admit that I wanted to be used in front of our guest. The low growl to his voice as he makes me look him in the eye and say these things get me so hot. I feel embarrassed but oh so turned on.

He had me warm up on the floor mat with the magic wand. I couldn’t look our guest in the eye too often but I did get myself very close to orgasm quickly. MasterDoc fucked me from behind for a bit and the feel of his cock inside me while I pressed the magic wand to my clit would have easily been enough to send me (way) over the edge. But I wasn’t given permission to come just yet. I had to pull the wand away from my clit a bit to ensure I didn’t come accidentally. But it felt so good and I wanted to come so badly.

Our guest had told MasterDoc beforehand that he wanted to see me fucked up the ass, and so MasterDoc pulled his cock out and lubed up my ass and my slender, red glitter dildo. He slid the dildo into my ass to warm me up and it felt great as he fucked me with it. I think I’m still a little surprised at how aroused I can get from anal stimulation. This didn’t last long, and MasterDoc put his hard cock against my hole. For a moment it felt like it wasn’t going to go in, but then it pushed past my sphincter. Holy shit did it feel good to feel his large cock in my ass. He fucked me hard while our guest watched and I moaned like a bitch in heat. MasterDoc talked dirty to me, telling me I’m a good little three hole slut and other equally hot, nasty things. He knows that telling me I’m a slut, whore, fucktoy, etc. will get me off even harder.

When he told me to come, I came so very hard. I screamed, my head slid forward off the mat. He kept fucking my ass and I must have gotten absolutely flooded with wetness. He took his cock out and fingered me a bit, making me come more. I had to lay down to rest for a while after. I was in a wonderful state of subspace.

He topped off the show with a sybian ride, but first I had to earn it by licking his ass. He had me rub his ass a bit and as I looked at it I was filled with dread. I know analingus doesn’t bother some people but it’s not one of my favorite things. I did as I was told, however, and humiliatingly ate out his ass while our guest watched. Quite a bit of humiliation play let me tell you.

On the sybian, he teased me for a bit and then I came shrieking and screaming, burying my head into his chest. I think he and our guest were quite amused at watching me lose all control like that. He had our guest spank me while I rode the sybian and I loved being spanked during it. The whole experience was exceptional. If every time could be so intense, nasty and hot, I would just live in perpetual heaven. (Not that I don’t already come close, mind you.)

Later that night our friend came over and I got to use my strap on harness on her. But you will have to go to the review to get an account of that.

Oh and a little tidbit – the needles MasterDoc ordered for needleplay came in!

It Started with the Nipples

Published on December 16, 2009 in D/s, Uncategorized, anal, analingus, bdsm, blow jobs, cunt, humor, masturbation, orgasm on command, sex, shio, squirting and submissive. 1 Comment

He asked me to massage his calf as he lay on the sofa, his feet in my direction. I massaged the closest one, propped up on the back of the sofa. After a couple of minutes of this, he points out that massaging his calf makes his cock hard. Indeed, it is standing at attention. He commented on how that’s funny.

“Maybe it’s because I’m catering to your every whim,” I suggested.

“Yes. Maybe that’s it. Now remember what makes me hard,” he says with a grin. We are definitely people who are wired a bit differently when it comes to sex.

We were slowly making our way to the bedroom and I hadn’t had a chance to make up the bed yet. I needed to move pillows around, take the blanket off, lay the throe down. I point this out just as he lays down on the bed with his laptop. “The things I do for you,” he grumbles as he gets back up. I laughed and said, “Oh yes, you get up and allow me to make your bed.”

Needless to say my collar was not on yet. We both chuckled.

Everything settled, we lay on the bed. He rolls over from looking at the laptop and is face to face with my tit. He starts sucking on my nipple and does it so well. He doesn’t just latch on and suck like some guys do, he licks, sucks, tugs, swirls his tongue over it. He varies it enough that it’s nothing but exciting. I close my eyes and get all sorts of turned on.

He has me shift so he can reach my pussy and he slaps it, alternating with feeling around my cunt to see if I’m wet. I got really h0rny from the nipple teasing but, sadly, not wet. He sucked on the other nipple and again I was lost in reverie although somehow a little bit less this time. (I started analyzing how most guys suck nipples compared to what MasterDoc does.)

Enough of toying with my body – he had me suck his cock. As always I enjoyed it. I sucked it in deep and tried to make it touch the back of my throat. I do this for quite a while, and then he makes me shift so I’m between his legs. My mouth back on his cock, he laces his fingers in my hair and says he’s going to try a little bit of face fucking. I hold my head still and he thrusts a little into it. He’s relatively gentle, probably because we’ve never done this before. I gag a bit but manage to hold it in, and my mouth floods with saliva. I eventually have to take my mouth off to let the dam of saliva out. But I thought the whole thing was really hot: his using my mouth like an object, feeling his hands in my hair holding my head.

He fucked me from behind.  I had lubed myself up so I was ready. (The spirit is willing but the flesh is a bit dry.) After a while, he takes a break to deal with penis, which has started not to cooperate. I reach back and start stroking my clit at just the right time – he says he was just about to tell me to lick his ass to help get him fully hard again. I get really worked up stroking that throbbing, jutting clit of mine. My clit is fairly big without being very big. It’s not hard to find it, but it doesn’t resemble a small penis. He fucks me again. I get close to coming but alas the pain in my knees outweighs the pleasure eventually.

He has me get the Liberator axis and a blindfold. We put porn on the laptop and masturbate side by side. He gets on top, and I put the blindfold on. He fucks me slowly and deeply. The axis makes him get in quite deep without trying. He gets me worked up with alternating faster fucking. And suddenly, he tells me to come. I can feel my vagina of steel clamp down and his cock slowly pushed out. He slaps pussy, rubs clit with an index finger and I keep on coming. I squirt as he keeps up the teasing touches and I grasp his arm that’s beside me, supporting his weight, as I gasp and come. He gets his fingers poised at my hole. I so want him to finger fuck me, and I’m sure he knows that at those moments I ache desperately for it. He thrusts his fingers in and I come even harder.

I was in ecstasy. I could do nothing immediately after but smile at him goofily.

As I come to my senses I stroke his chest. He comments that I know how to make him feel good, and I was stroking exactly how he had once told me to remember. I start to think nasty thoughts. I think to myself that I actually want him to make me lick his ass. I’m at the point where I want him to make me do things I don’t like because, well, the power exchange involved would be hot. The act of licking his ass isn’t erotic for me in and of itself, but the idea that I’m doing it as a submissive, to please him, is hot. I play with cock and ass as he lays on the bed. I start to snuggle his tummy and chest and lick and kiss. He’s clearly enjoying this while I apply pressure to his perineum.  He gets up on hands and knees, still not sure if he’s going to have me lick his ass. He strokes his cock while I massage his back, then ass. I realize that he would like his ass licked, and so without even being told to, I take it upon myself to go at his ass with my mouth and tongue to make him feel good. He really enjoys it. And I think he was probably a bit surprised at how I dove right in; first nibbling one cheek, then the other, then pulling his ass apart so my tongue could reach the puckered hole.

He has enough my oral ministrations after a little while. (And I have the thought that it would be neat to get ice cream as a reward when I do it. *grin* I don’t say this while my collar is on -  it wouldn’t be appropriate at all.) I lube up my fingers and start to massage his ass. I gently work finger in, feeling the series of muscles as I make my way into his asshole. I push towards the prostate in the front. I think to also massage his perineum with my thumb while doing this. He seemed to really like it. I follow his directions to press harder on the prostate. A feeling of power comes over me as he grunts and comes.  Very strange when, within a submissive place, I found there’s a sort of power in being able to make him feel so good. I lay down with a self-satisfied grin after.

I have the bratty thought that it would be funny to offer him my finger to lick. I hold back because my collar is still on.

He asks me to heat a plate of food for him and in case you’re wondering, yes I did scrub my hands well before preparing his food. But I couldn’t resist, after my collar was off, pointing out to him that if he’s so sure that ass-to-mouth is safe, then it really shouldn’t have mattered if I prepared his food with my finger still covered in essence d’ass. He said, yes, that’s true. Perhaps one day if I’m feeling ballsy I’ll try this out.

“I think the sun shines out of your ass…”

Published on September 24, 2009 in Feminism, Uncategorized, analingus, cunt, depression, dom, kink, masturbation, porn, shio and squirting. 1 Comment

“but I still  don’t want to lick it.”

This was the prize-winning line from Tuesday night. As I looked adoringly at MasterDoc, I realized that in some respects I really do think the sun shines out of his ass. But then that got me thinking – I’m still not keen on analingus – so despite the blinding light coming out of his ass (figuratively) it still doesn’t entice me to stick my tongue up it.

Tuesday was a very silly evening. It was lighthearted and very much what I needed as I slowly began to come out of my depression. He never put my collar on and that was good so I could feel free to laugh and joke and just plain relax. We laughed really hard – something we do often and I don’t know if I capture it here. MasterDoc has noticed that orgasms tend to improve my mood (hell, whose mood don’t they improve?) and he used the acuvibe on my clit and cunt. He made me come so hard, and for so long, that I could barely breathe and I wondered if he’d make me come until I passed out. The idea of it was a teeny bit scary but also exciting as hell. When he was done with me, I hadn’t passed out, but I was gasping for breath and very, very happy. A huge puddle was under my ass on the throe.

After his very busy weekend of sex he wasn’t really looking for it himself, but he decided he did want to come. We didn’t fuck this week, but he did make sure that I was well taken care of. We had porn on at either corner of the mat, and he watched some porn while he stroked his cock. For once, (finally!) I took initiative and started to lick his inner thighs. This clearly felt good, so I kept going. I licked right behind his balls and pressed my tongue against his perineum. I pressed my face deep against his crotch, practically licking his ass, but stopping short of it. I massaged his ass cheeks and was clearly adding to his masturbation. I felt really proud that finally I wasn’t so damn passive, and I made him very happy. He told me I did a good job a few times afterwards. I kept playing with him until he came, and then did the slow pressing from perineum, up between the balls and up the midline of the cock – and a final spurt of come came out.

I was feeling so much better after that evening. Plus I knew I had another evening coming the next night.

The porn I watched during the evening ran towards kinky porn (what else?) where the sub acted like they didn’t want to do whatever was being done to them. I like this fantasy sometimes – the idea of being “made” to do something. It would certainly be role play as I’m always keen to suck MasterDoc’s cock, but it’s something I’d like to do sometime – resist a little. Have him get a little rough with me. Rowr. Pretend that I don’t want all that he’s giving me; all that, deep down, I crave.

Introduction of The Cane

Published on August 30, 2009 in D/s, DeeDee, Uncategorized, Vienna sausages, analingus, bdsm, caning, horny, kink, masochism, orgasm on command, phone sex, porn, sadism, sex, sex toys, slut, spanking and submissive. 2 Comments

I think I’ve mentioned this before, but MasterDoc will be traveling for much of September. (He’s taking advantage of JetBlue’s offer for unlimited flights for a month for $599.) I will see him roughly once a week – on the nights when he’s back in town to go to work. This weekend I’ve been trying to savor every second and get in as much kinky sex as possible.

I had to be patient through a football game on Saturday night, but the patience paid off. When MasterDoc had gotten himself settled in the bedroom he called me in. He had DeeDee on the phone and she was going to listen in. She suggested that he use the new canes on me – she had gotten the impression from this blog that I wanted that. And yes, it’s one of those things I had mixed feelings about – I wanted to feel the cane (the lightest one anyway!) but I was a bit afraid of it.

So he talked to DeeDee via speaker phone as he got me on the bed and warmed up my ass spanking me with his hands. I was eagerly anticipating the cane and once warmed up he gave me what I hoped for. He used it fairly gently, he  later said that he used it at about 2/3rds of its potential. It left lovely red stripes on my ass which unfortunately I didn’t get to see. Some strikes were pleasurable, some made me squeal and pull back. But overall, I really enjoyed being caned. I’m sure it will be quite some time before I’m able to take the third cane we got – the thickest and sturdiest. We talked about this after, and I had to say that I’m sure that cane will hurt plenty, and like the sick freak that I am I will love it!

He fucked me from behind and made me beg for it. I was so horny and yearning to be fucked that I lost my usual shyness to say dirty things and I had no problem declaring that I wanted his cock inside me. He made me say that I’m a dirty slut. He made me beg for a while before he’d put his cock in. Instantly, I was hot and stimulated. I wish I could adequately find the words to describe a penis sliding into my aroused and engorged pussy. The thrill that comes from the feeling of it sliding in and touching the sides of my tingling cunt, filling me up.

He fucked me hard and smacked my ass a few times during. He did a lot of dirty talk – probably to make sure DeeDee had something good to listen to over the phone besides my moaning. I love when he talks dirty though. When I begged to come he made me beg for a moment and then let me come. At the sound of his voice telling me, “Come,” I am hurled forward into orgasm. I don’t know if I’m getting better at not squeezing his cock our or if he’s getting better at keeping it deep inside as I orgasm – but lately he stays inside me much longer than he used to. When his cock was pushed out he slapped my cunt while I kept coming. Lately he makes me come for so long I’m not sure I can keep coming at that point. Usually I’m having a hard time breathing, but meanwhile I feel absolutely amazing as I come hard.

I rested after coming and MasterDoc talked to DeeDee, trying to help her come. He made her watch some snowballing porn (i.e., women taking a guy’s come and passing it between their mouths). He had watched some earlier and that was what got me in the mood. It’s one of those things that I find disgusting on one level, but so frickin hot on another level. DeeDee did NOT sound happy about watching it and the idea that he plans to have her and I do it. He told her that she could come, but she’d have to do it while watching a snowballing porn. Ooh meanie! He’s done that sort of thing with me before (piss play). He’s skilled at desensitizing you to things you’re put off by. I start out repulsed by something, but after months of threatening to do it to me, I start to see it as erotic – BECAUSE it’s dirty, disgusting and therefore it’s fucking hot for him to make me do it. It’s very much a power exchange type of play.

On Sunday, I was still horny and I hoped that we might play a little before he headed out for the afternoon. He’s talked about canceling his cable and internet while he’s away this month, and I asked what we’d do for porn without any internet. He pointed out that he has dvds – and then impishly said he had the Japanese one with the Vienna sausages. Now, I’ve been teased with this story of the Vienna sausages since I started dating him. All I knew to this point was that the porn was really nasty and disgusting. He has a can of Vienna sausages on hand to tease submissives with. I finally asked him to tell me just what it was they do with the Vienna sausages in the porn. He asked if I really wanted to know, and he would be on the verge of telling me and then go, “Nah.” I ultimately begged him to tell me as my own thoughts of what it could be were getting pretty disgusting, and I really just wanted to know what the hell it was about. And he told me: in the film they put Vienna sausages up the submissive’s ass. Then they have her poop them out – and they reach in, pull out the sausages and have her eat them. Ewww!!! (No mixed feelings on that scene – I don’t want to do it!) I said that I thought maybe they put the sausages up a guy’s ass and made her eat them out of his ass. MasterDoc thought that was a great idea and I knew I’d made a big mistake telling him that. He started teasing me mercilessly. I tried to save myself by pointing out that I don’t eat beef, so therefore I won’t eat the sausages. He said, “Chicken Vienna sausages!” I said fine, if he could find some – thinking that’s something that’s just not made.

Oh shit. I was wrong. He found them online quickly. Shit. “Damn you amazon.com!” I cried. “Damn you!”

Luckily, the shipping for a case of them was nearly as much as the cost of the case of Vienna sausages. Phew. I decided not to hate amazon so much after that. But he searched further and there are other, cheaper, options for getting a hold of chicken Vienna sausages. Urgh. I now live in mortal fear of him getting his hands on some.

Ever since he played the snowballing porn the night before, I wanted him to come in my mouth. I mentioned this many times Sunday morning and eventually it sounded like I might get my wish. I wasn’t totally sure it would go the way I wanted it to when he took an extra bath to wash his ass extra well. I thought for sure he’d make me lick his asshole while he jerked off. I was in a very subby mindset that day, so I might have been less turned off about analingus than usual. He went off into the bedroom and told me that he’d call on me in about 15 minutes or so.

When he did call me in, he told me to put on my collar. I entered the bedroom, excited, and put my collar on. He looked me in the eye and told me to get in the right mindset. I stood with my hands behind my back and said, “Yes, Sir.”

“So you said you wanted my come in your mouth,” he said archly.

“Yes, Sir.”

He had been laying on his side, leaning a bit forward. At that point he rolled his body back a bit and revealed small puddles of his come on the Fascinator Throe. He instructed me to come over and lick his come up. I got on hands and knees on the bed and bent down, dragging my tongue through the drops of come. He told me he wanted to see at least one string of come coming out of my mouth but the drops would disperse in my saliva really quickly. I licked slowly and carefully. Upon request, I stuck my tongue out for him to see. He told me to go, “Mmm good!” and I did, with more enthusiasm than I once did. And he told me to swallow.

It hadn’t been quite what I fantasized, but being in a subby mindset I was happy for whatever he gave me. I was happy to be his cum slut, licking his come off the blanket. He had me remove my collar and we got up.

In the living room, he came over to kiss me, and I playfully stuck my tongue out at him – encouraging him to give me a deep kiss. He called me a wise guy and made me put my collar on again and get on hands and knees on the bed. He gave me some sharp whaps with the lightest cane. I’d whimper sometimes. It was short, and when he was done he had me take my collar off and told me, “Now, that wasn’t a punishment. It was a treat.” I said, “Thank you, Sir.” and was a very happy girl indeed.

I will miss him this month.

My mind is reeling with dirty, dirty things. I think I will spend a lot of time writing kinky erotica while he’s gone.