I spent part of last weekend on my own as MasterDoc and Davey both had plans with other girlfriends. I used this to my advantage on Saturday, getting done many things I had been putting off. I finally went for a hair cut, got my car’s oil changed, went shopping. But unfortunately once I was finished with errands for the day I started getting lonely.
I was happy to be invited over to MasterDoc’s on Sunday morning. But when I saw toys strewn about on the bedroom floor it upset me. Some of the items are mine, and it seems really disrespectful to leave them tossed about. I also got upset because it looked like it was bondage gear that had been used (although its use was only assumed on my part) and I have been asking for bondage play often but not getting it. I explained to MasterDoc why this bothered me, and he’s very different than me in emotional matters – so it’s hard for him to fully grasp how hurt I felt. He has promised that next time he will put things away (after all, I wouldn’t have given the idea of what he did in bed with the other girlfriend a second thought without my toys being on the floor). Yes, we’re poly and he obviously has sex with others (as do I sometimes) but it felt like it was shoved in my face, even though that definitely wasn’t MasterDoc’s intention. (He’s just messy and didn’t get stuff put away.) It really bugs me to come over and find my toys laying about. I feel resentful at the idea of cleaning up after someone else’s fun – particularly when I just spent the better part of two days totally alone, horny and having only masturbation to turn to.
So this put off our sex for a bit because I needed soothing. We cuddled, I explained my feelings to him and I took a nap. He cleaned up the toys on the bedroom floor later on (what a mensch! You can be a Dom and a nice guy at the same time), and he took the time to get me off – mentioned how he should be rough with me more often and acted correspondingly. He slapped my pussy, twisted my nipples, at one point when I was really turned on and breathing heavy he grabbed my throat. It was fucking hot. He made me come and come and come. The number of orgasms he gives me is just amazing. He knows that beatings and orgasms always improve my mood immensely. The next bit improved my mood as well.
After I had recovered from my orgasm, I started touching him. I started stroking his arm and soon I was licking it, making love to just his forearm. But if you know how to do these things right, this can be utterly erotic in and of itself. I’ve learned his technique – I pay close attention to his reactions and remember what makes him quiver. And perhaps the best advice – I truly enjoy touching him. I think if you’re getting off on the tactile stimulation of your partner, they will be too. He and I can now touch each other in non-erogenous zones and get each other worked up. It is an amazing feeling to be able to make him feel like that. He had me suck his cock and I really got into it since I was so horny. I remembered that he wants lots of slobber, so I did my best to wet it down thoroughly. I got it in deep and loved when he put his hands in my hair, eagerly hoping he would choke me on his cock.
He wanted me to show him what I had learned from the dvds I watched this weekend. He lay on his back and I massaged his ass. I lubed him up well and gently but firmly massaged his sphincter muscles. I worked a finger in and was sure to turn my hand palm up so I could use my finger to stroke along the top wall of his rectum – seeking out the prostate gland. I had learned enough from watching the video that his cock dripped pre-come like crazy (not something that usually happens) and he derived great pleasure from it. It is amazing to be able to make your partner feel that good. I continued this for a while until he asked me to slowly remove my finger (and I definitely recommend doing this slowly, gradually rather than yanking your finger out). Knowing that prostate massage is good for men’s health, I plan to do this for him more often. And, well, it’s just totally hot. I recommend learning this if you’re partnered with a man.
We wandered out of the bedroom and did more stuff. I started getting a bit gloomy, feeling like maybe he didn’t understand my upset earlier or (new insecurity that cropped up) that he didn’t see how he doesn’t talk to me when he’s with someone else, but he does talk (on phone, on internet) with others very often when he’s with me. Granted, much of the time I don’t mind if he talks to others. I don’t need to be attended to every second of the day. But I think I was more upset that when I’m alone and miss him, I don’t get to speak to him much.
He took me into the bedroom, and made clear to me that the caning he was setting up was NOT punishment. He said he heard me, and saw that there was truth in it. But he knows that a good caning and orgasm can fix my down moods. He gave me the magic wand to use as I wished and he gave me a good, leisurely caning. I was soon too busy being aroused and humping the magic wand to give a shit about anything that might have upset me before. He stroked my pussy on the outside, exploring my reactions and he fingered me a bit as I came. I found yesterday that I would get aroused so fast that not coming was really difficult to do. When he would let me come I’d travel off into the orgasm, losing sight of all around me (literally and figuratively). I ended up laying flat on the bed, magic wand buzzing away by my clit as I held it against it and I continued to come as he caned me.
I really appreciate how he listened to me. And how he did the things he knows cheer me up – orgasms and a beating. I’m still longing for bondage play, but I realize that I am very, very lucky even if I don’t get what I want all the time. (Who does?) It’s wonderful that I can bring up little things that bother me and impress upon him at the same time that this doesn’t mean I’m unhappy with him – I’m just trying to deal with things that bother me so we can go back to being deliriously happy rather than worrying about the nagging things.
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