Last night we got freaky in bed. As MasterDoc got hard watching porn, I had just a glimpse of it before I lay down comfortably on the bed and used the Acuvibe on myself. (I couldn’t see from my angle.) But the glimpse was enough to spark a fantasy; a fantasy of being tied up and gagged and hurt like the video. Hands bound so that they’re useless, mouth gagged securely and my nipples tortured. I would love the feeling of helplessness while he did what he liked to me, touching me wherever he wished. I don’t often get that feeling of utter helplessness when we play, I’d like to feel that.
I got pretty hot from this fantasy, and was ready when he had me get on top for a ride. He pulled on my nipples a bit, and I found myself wishing he’d pull harder. While in the throes of arousal I find myself yearning for more pain than when I’m at a cold start. I had another intense orgasm, falling forward onto MasterDoc, trying to prop myself up so I don’t put too much weight on his chest for too long. I’d fail as spasms rocked me and I’d try to regain control of my position when I could between waves of orgasm. Just by touching me – not even erotic touching, he keeps me coming. No one else has ever been able to do that to me.
As we cuddled in bed before the sex, MasterDoc came up with the idea of meta-sadism – that is, pushing your submissive to the point where they disobey/break the rules. Knowing full well how most subs will struggle internally between wanting to get cranky and wanting to obey perfectly, prodding your sub until they break and get mad would be quite a bit of sadism. Here’s to hoping he doesn’t do it to me. Ha ha.
Before the porn and the fucking I played with his cock for a while. I love sucking his cock. I love to watch him feel pleasure as I prod gently on the right spots of his groin. I suppose it’s exciting because in a way it’s a little bit of him losing control while still remaining in control of me. When someone gasps with pleasure, all they’re able to do in that moment is feel that pleasure.
Meta-sadism? Meta-punishment? No! Again, no..that is just mean! lol.