Monthly Archive for July, 2008

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Squirt

Published on July 13, 2008 in bdsm, sex, shio and squirting. 0 Comments

Friday night I got to see MasterDoc and as usual we went out for the evening to a swing club. There was some debate as to whether we were going to stay in and clean or go out, but luckily he decided that we would go out. I did do some cleaning before we went out, however, lest you think I was allowed to totally slack.

The club was reasonably busy for a Friday night. The bartender was new to us but greatly appreciated, as she spent most of the night having strange men jerk off on her rather than tending bar. The bartender was a bonafide slut. Whoo hoo! It certainly made the place more interesting, and I’m sure the owner preferred her doing that over pouring drinks. We questioned if maybe her interaction with the single men was a cash-related transaction, but it doesn’t seem like it was. I could be wrong.

After we got settled, MasterDoc took me into one of the rooms in the back. He blindfolded me (I was naked by this time) . Usually, being blindfolded makes it easier to do sexual things in front of strangers (ha! as if I really have a problem doing that not blindfolded) but Friday night it made me feel a little disoriented and anxious. Now I really shouldn’t feel anxious with MasterDoc there as he has everything under control, but I was feeling prone to anxiety that day as it was. Still, he fucked me doggy style in front of an appreciative audience and he let a couple of guys play with my tits as he fucked me. So there I am, blindfolded, with strange hands on my body. Despite my anxiety it was hot. I asked to be allowed to come and after a moment of teasing me, he let me. Afterward, he shooed away the guys playing with my tits and let me take the blindfold off.
We relaxed for a bit, and wandered around. We watched a guy jerk off onto the bartender’s tits as she played with herself with her rabbit vibe. Eventually, we made our way to the spanking bench. We had come prepared to tie me down to the bench this time, and MasterDoc proceeded to cuff my wrists and use a length of rope to secure them to the eyescrews at the end of the bench. The screws were far enough away that I had a length of rope to hold onto on either side. My ass was in the perfect position and MasterDoc began spanking me. Shit. My pain tolerance was way down. Everything hurt. Not that it doesn’t hurt usually, but there’s hurt and then there’s hurt. There’s pleasurable pain where I can take it until you get to the really hard stuff or there’s pain where everything is hard for me to take and I’m crying out in pain with every whack. At one point he shushed me, saying that I might scare people away. Tied down to the bench, he had me reach my head over and suck his cock for a while. The discomfort of that position notwithstanding, it was hot to have to try to get his cock into my mouth without the use of my hands as I was secured to the bench and an audience watched. Since I was facing the other way, I could see very little of the audience, except the guys on the bed to my side. He spanked me for a while, despite my protestations. When I couldn’t take the odd position for sucking cock any longer, he told me to untie myself and take a break. (Why is it things that are really hot and look like what they do on porn videos also turn out to be outrageously uncomfortable? Life’s not fair.)

I sat, balanced on the top of the spanking bench. MasterDoc relaxed on the bed, a guy next to him, and the rest of the crowd dispersed. MasterDoc handed me a toy (first the little red vibe, then my beloved bullet when the red vibe wasn’t strong enough) and told me to make myself come in that position. I protested that I couldn’t, as I’d probably fall off the bench. (It’s like this one, only the bottom parts aren’t angled, they’re level.) I sat balanced on the top part, with my feet on the bottom part, facing MasterDoc and the guy to the side.  But anyway, despite what I thought, it got myself good and worked up. MasterDoc came over to me and had his arm around my shoulders, which helped keep me perched on the bench. I begged to be allowed to come, and when he had me come, I could feel myself squirt a whole bunch. Suddenly there were guys all around, watching me squirt onto the lower part of the bench. I was allowed to come over and over again, it was so hot. I had MasterDoc holding me the whole time telling me what a good girl I am. Rowr. The guys in front of me got quite a show. MasterDoc hadn’t even realized I was squirting but I handed him the wet towel I had been sitting on and pointed out the wet spots on the carpet. I cleaned up whatever got on the bench.

We sat and watched the bartender again from the vantage point of the bed, and the guy next to me asked MasterDoc if he could play with my tits. (Apparently he had been one of the guys touching me before, but I had no idea since I had been blindfolded.) So he took one tit and MasterDoc took the other one. MasterDoc asked me if I’d like to be fucked again and of course I said yes. He turned to the guy next to me and said, “Would you like to fuck her?” He seemed very happy to say yes. Condoms got put on (he used two) and I lay back on the bed. This guy fucked me while MasterDoc helped hold my legs up. I begged to be allowed to come again and again I came really hard as I was being fucked. I reached out to hold onto MasterDoc’s pant leg as the guy fucked me, and I looked up into MasterDoc’s eyes a few times. I just love how he’s part of the scene even when he’s not actively doing anything. He’s still mentally a part of what’s going on and still in control of things.

After the fuck, we headed home. I was a very happy camper. We made our usual stop for bagels and had them for breakfast in the morning. After I got up and was fed the next day MasterDoc asked me if I had digested well enough to suck his cock. I said I had and went at it. He decided to fuck me again (lucky girl, lucky girl!) and had me get on top of his cock and ride him. I rode him as long and as hard as I could before my knees gave out. We took a break, and then he decided to fuck me some more (after I had sucked his cock hard again). This time I was on my back and he fucked me deeply, teasing me by hitting just the right spot, then backing off and not going in so deep. I begged to be allowed to come, but at no point in this fucking was I allowed. Funny thing is, afterward I was still feeling awesome and happy regardless.

After a break, it was time for me to make MasterDoc come. (I was certainly happy to oblige after all the wonderful orgasms he allowed me to have.) I sucked his cock for a bit, then he had me play with his ass while he stroked himself. He had me lick his inner thighs and that sensitive spot where hip meets thigh.  He watched porn on the tv. A couple of times he asked if I was bored, and I said no. This was because I kept my attention on the little things that are so hot – a bit of panting here, a twitch there. I paid attention to how his skin felt under my tongue. He had me use a vibe on his ass while I licked and kissed his chest. And when he was ready to come, he had me put my mouth on his cock. He came in my mouth, and for once I didn’t just swallow it down like I usually do. (His come tastes pretty neutral, and my theory is because he doesn’t drink coffee.) He had me wipe up what little come didn’t make it into my mouth. Hooray! He finally came in my mouth. It was very hot indeed. There’s so few men I would do that with (we’ve been together nearly a year now before it happened).
Yes, it was a year ago this month (the last week of July) that I met MasterDoc. And as I look back on this year, I had no idea that I’d get up to the things I’ve done. Who knew that this guy who chatted me up on a vanilla dating site would come through with all his promises for naughty escapades. I had no idea when he first IMed me that I’d end up with a Dom, and one I’m thrilled to be with.

Nadia Sandwich

Published on July 9, 2008 in blow jobs, sex and threesome. 1 Comment

I got a really pleasant surprise on Monday. MasterDoc suggested coming over to my place to make a “Nadia sandwich” with Davey. Ooh la la. Of course I was game for it. You’d have to take my pulse and temperature if I had turned it down.

When MasterDoc showed up, we immediately went into the bedroom – no point in wasting time! It was getting late and a work night. All three of us got naked and I was put in the middle of the bed.  They each took a breast in their mouth and sucked and played with them. Their two styles are so different. MasterDoc is more confident in how he does it. He also does sadistic things like flick my nipples, which Davey doesn’t do. (Davey is not in the least sadistic. Ok maybe a little, he laughs heartily when hearing about the submissive predicaments I get into. He would never inflict them on me, but he thinks they’re funny. I rather wish he’d laugh a little less.)  They took turns fingering me as well and MasterDoc went down on me for a while. Yummy. I’m a very lucky girl. He kissed me after and asked me if I liked the taste of my cunt.

While this wasn’t specifically a D/s situation, the dynamic is still very much there with MasterDoc regardless. He ordered me to suck Davey’s cock and I went at it. I commented a couple of times as they talked, despite being told not to, and got myself a good hard smack on the ass. I went back to sucking cock. MasterDoc had me get up on my knees, still sucking Davey’s cock, and he fucked me from behind. It was really hot having a cock in both ends. I felt extra slutty being used by two men at once. Rowr. My memory is slightly fuzzy (the problem with blogging two days later) but I think he used the hitachi magic wand on me as well. And his fingers. Orgasmic!

Next, Davey got a turn fucking me from behind while I sucked on MasterDoc’s cock. He also had me stroke his ass at the same time. With MasterDoc talking to me and telling me what a slut I am and then slapping my face and telling me to come, I couldn’t help but come. The auto-eject worked like usual and Davey ended up outside of me. I sucked Davey some more after that and they talked about coming in my mouth. MasterDoc has never come in my mouth and I’m keen to have that happen. They stroked themselves for a bit and I used the magic wand on MasterDoc’s ass. Davey let me know when he was ready to come and I took his penis into my mouth and sucked down every last drop of come. (Of course I would only do this, come swallowing, with Davey and MasterDoc as I know their safer sex habits and their STI status and have known both long enough to know I can trust them not to put my health in danger.)

I worked the wand on MasterDoc’s ass some more, but it seemed that coming wasn’t in the cards. He took his ritalin that night so that could have impeded progress, although he didn’t have much trouble getting it up despite the ritalin. It was getting late so, sadly, he went home without having come. I had really wanted to have him come, particularly in my mouth, but sometimes we don’t get what we want! I’ve never swallowed two men’s come in one day before. I’ve very rarely swallowed at all. Wouldn’t that be so hot in a slutty way?

What a fantastic three days I had! (Sat., Sun. and Mon.) MasterDoc likes to point out that he’s very good to me, and indeed he is.

The Most Amazing Sex (and I didn’t come)

Published on July 7, 2008 in bdsm and sex. 0 Comments

I got to doze a bit after driving us home. We hung out a little and I was ordered to go take a shower (hadn’t taken one since before we went out the night before). I suggested that he could fuck me before the shower and come all over me so then I could clean up after (and it was obviously a hint that I wanted him to come on me). He pointed out that if he wanted to do that I could shower first, he could come all over me and then I could go rinse off. It really is pointless to argue with your Dom. So off to the shower I went.

After the shower we ended up in the bedroom. I sucked his cock for a little while before he had me lay back with my legs spread. He took the magic wand to my clit and played around with it. Before long I was panting and begging to come. I wasn’t permitted to come. He alternated teasing me and taking a break, he fucked me for a while, always turning down my pleas for an orgasm. He teased me with the magic wand to the point where I begged him, well I don’t know exactly what I was begging for but I begged that I couldn’t hold back anymore and I so wanted to come. Rather than let me come he’d take the wand away for a bit and let my arousal ebb slightly. And so he played with me, keeping me fantastically turned on but always denying my begging. He played my body like a virtuoso.

He fucked me from behind, still keeping me at the edge, me still begging. And at that point my entire being was focused on my cunt. His cunt I should say. All I was at that moment in time was a horny, wet cunt begging for orgasm. The world ceased to exist beyond my cunt and his cock sliding in and out of it. I begged pitifully for permission to come. He told me, “No you may not.” When I begged a few seconds later he said, “No-you-may-not” and punctuated each word with a spank on my ass. His being in such control of me only made me more horny and frantic. I was a gasping, writhing heap. At that point in time I would have done practically anything he asked me to. He fucked me some more, teased me some more, had me tease myself with the wand as he fucked me some more. I started blurting out things like: “I’m your whore.” “Oh my god I love it when you fuck me!” I wanted him to bite me, to hurt me. It was the most amazing sex I’ve ever had, and I didn’t even come! I wouldn’t have traded the experience for lesser sex with an orgasm.

He spanked me hard for a while, with his hands and the crop. Anything he did to me at that point turned me on. As he smacked my ass he said, “Come, cunt. If you can.” And a few seconds later I had an orgasm. Not a major one, but an orgasm nonetheless – from no direct sexual stimulation. All he was doing to me at this point was inflicting pain on my ass… but I had been so turned on for so long and the sound of his voice telling me to come put me over the edge. I would have come harder from stimulation (man would I have come hard by this time!) but wow. What an experience. At one point in the midst of it all I wanted to utter, “I worship you,” but held back for some reason. I didn’t know if it would have been hot or just over the top. But I was total putty in his hands. He metaphorically has me panting at his feet right now. All day at work I kept thinking back to the look in his eyes as he would decide something, then smile an evil smile at me. That smile just turns me to jello. He had so much control over me and that just leaves me begging for more.

Surprise Trip

Published on July 7, 2008 in Uncategorized, bdsm, sex parties and swinging. 0 Comments

Well we didn’t make it to TESFest after all, but I had a great weekend with MasterDoc regardless. I’m a happy girl as I sit here writing this while listening to the soundtrack to Hedwig and the Angry Inch (finally gave in and bought it from iTunes). I met up with MasterDoc at his place on Saturday afternoon. We hung out, watched a movie (Hedwig and the Angry Inch, which I was pleasantly surprised he liked. It’s one of my favorites.) and he alluded to us going out that night. As he does often, he didn’t offer more information about where we were going or what we were getting up to. It makes me a little nervous when I have no idea, but I trust him and I submit to him so I don’t ask questions. That night, we drive for about 40 minutes to an hour off to some suburban area I’d never been to before (I really couldn’t tell you what town I was in even now). We’re on one of those divided roads where you have to make a big u-turn if the place you want to go to is on the other side of the street when he spots the place on the other side of the road and says there it is. The place is a seedy-looking porn shop. I had a feeling as we turned around to get to the shop that this wasn’t just a porn shop, or it was some porn shop he knew about where you could get away with more in the booths than most of them we’ve gone to. I was still nervous as he paid the owner of the shop and the owner directed us to another location on the other side of the divided road. Whatever was going on was going on at that location that night.

We went to the other porn shop and MasterDoc gave the voucher he had gotten from the owner at the other place to the guy behind the counter. He directed us to doors behind us – they appeared to be to video booths, but we were told to go in door number three, which had a “Keep Out” sign on it, and we got buzzed into the door. I’m still wondering what’s up at this point, as we make our way through a labyrinth to a set of rooms with sofas and porn playing on the televisions. It was a swing club, hidden away in a porn shop in the suburbs. It was definitely the seediest looking swing club I’d ever been too, and I suppose that says a lot as swing clubs aren’t usually described as “classy.”

There were just a few people there, some guys hanging around as one guy plays with a woman’s breasts. MasterDoc was disappointed. He had planned to get me gangbanged that night. The pickins were beyond slim. We settled on a sofa and he had me suck his cock. I kept my eyes closed as it was easier to do so in this seedy place. I sucked it til it was hard and threw myself into the task. I opened my eyes and met the eyes of a guy on the next sofa who was stroking himself while I blew MasterDoc.

He had me take a break and then he lamented that we didn’t bring any sort of cushioning for me to get on my knees on the floor. The guys in the room offered the cushion off one of the other couches, and I got on my knees in front of MasterDoc and sucked his cock some more. We certainly were the entertainment that evening. Soon, he had me naked and sitting with my legs spread on the sofa, playing with myself with a vibrator. One of the guys offered to get the woman and make her lick my pussy. The unfortunate thing is that “make” was the operative word. She clearly didn’t want to. After a few awkward moments MasterDoc thanked them and shooed them away.

He asked me if I wanted to get fucked and of course I said, “Yes, Sir.”

“Yes, Sir, what?”

“Yes, Sir, I want to get fucked Sir.”

He had me kneel on the sofa and he got behind me. He smacked my ass a bit and then fucked me. And I have to tell you it was so hot being fucked in that dimly lit, seedy sex club. The seediness added to the hotness factor. I was totally his slut to do with as he wished in front of those creepy guys. We tried another position (but my bad knees prevented it from working). The owner from the other site was there at this point and MasterDoc ordered me to present my tits to him. This guy was old and creepy and MasterDoc knows me well so he knew I wouldn’t like this order. But I did as I was told and tried to ignore the creepy old guy sucking on my tits. I kept up a submissive mantra in my head, “I’m doing this for him, I’m doing this for him.” (MasterDoc) It only lasted a brief minute but MasterDoc took great sadistic pleasure in my discomfort. I was relieved when it was over.

The club was totally dead by this point, so, disappointed that no gangbang occurred, we packed up and left. We headed to J’s house, another girlfriend of MasterDoc’s and spent the night there with the intention of going to TESFest the next day (Sunday).
Unfortunately I had one of my bouts of insomnia and got very little sleep that night. When MasterDoc came to wake me up I explained how little sleep I had gotten and he asked me if I wanted to sleep or go to TESFest. I opted for sleep. He kindly let me catch up on the sleep I had missed. A couple of hours later we had breakfast and hung out with J. for a little while. Then we headed back to MasterDoc’s place. (By this time it didn’t make sense to go and pay for a whole day at TESFest.) What we got up to on Sunday is my next blog entry.

Hot Scene on PornHub

Published on July 4, 2008 in Uncategorized. 1 Comment

I surfed on over to pornhub as promised and found this. Really. Freaking. Hot. I kept myself on the edge of coming three times and when I’d imagine MasterDoc telling me to come I’d come…. really. hard. I’m not sure how loud I got but I’m sure hoping that everyone else who lives in the multi-family house I live in is out for the holiday. *grin*

Friday Night Blues

Published on July 4, 2008 in Uncategorized. 0 Comments

MasterDoc had a family issue to attend to, so he and I didn’t end up going to TESFest. I’m not as sad about missing TESFest as I am about missing out on time with MasterDoc. Hopefully I’ll see him tomorrow.

There’s another BDSM fest going on in August, and I was going to suggest to MasterDoc that we go (it’s even the weekend when I’m taking a three day weekend already!) but unfortunately the guy who assaulted me is one of the presenters there. Yup, just what you want, someone who can’t stop when told to teaching people about BDSM. I have zero respect for a so called Dom who can’t control himself. Particularly one who’s not man enough to admit to what he’s done and apologize. “Woops! It was an accident when I kept going despite your saying you were in pain and telling me to stop.” Funny how calling it an accident doesn’t keep me from being perpetually freaked out when the very idea of him enters my head.

And so I will avoid that gathering as just thinking about going has me feeling freaked out. The idea of being in the same room as him makes me shake inside.

Davey has a date tonight (Go Davey!) and so I’m enjoying some alone time. I did what girls usually do when alone (or at least what I have done for years), I played with makeup and played my karaoke games. I may surf on over to pornhub and see what kinky stuff they have posted since the last time I was there as I’ve been remiss in getting my weekly “teeter at the edge” masturbation session done this week. I hope everyone has a happy 4th.

Blog Roll

Published on July 4, 2008 in Uncategorized. 0 Comments

Ok, I’ve finally updated my blogroll here to correspond with my google feed reader. Previously there were blogs here I wasn’t reading and blogs there I hadn’t linked, so now we’re in sync. Now I can see if the blogs I haven’t been reading are ones I want to keep on the blogroll. Hopefully anyone who links to me will update to the new address (this one).

Still up in the air about going to TESFest, sometimes family life intervenes and makes plans uncertain. The last thing MasterDoc needs is for me to be a pain in the ass, so I’m going to remain patient and look forward to whatever time I spend with him this weekend – TESFest or not. I barely got to see him last weekend so really whatever we do, I’ll be happy. I’m in a good mood today, because I have a three day weekend to enjoy. (But yes, honestly I’m hoping we go to TESFest, it would give me so much to write about here and I could meet all sorts of interesting kinky people. Oh well, if we don’t go this year I can hope for next.) I’ve always been fairly self-contained in my kink life but recently I’ve been more interested in meeting other people in the lifestyle. While I have a lot of friends who are kink-friendly already, it would be nice to have some friends who fully appreciate the deviant delights I get up to.

Putting the Kinky in “Kinky Librarian”

Published on July 1, 2008 in TES, edge play and random thoughts. 0 Comments

Things have been quiet in my life lately. I saw MasterDoc briefly on Saturday morning but we just hung out. My butt is unfortunately completely bruise-free at the moment.

I had a hot thought today – if I ever engage in play piercing I *have to* have a camera handy as I want pictures of the work.

MasterDoc and I may be going to TESFest, this is not definite yet. I’m keen to go to the beginning needle play class, and the class on cutting. When I was younger I used cutting as an outlet for bad feelings, and I think it would be interesting to play with it in the controlled environment of my relationship with MasterDoc. Instead of doing it to myself under emotional duress, it would be administered to me in the context of a scene. I imagine that it might have the same cathartic effect. It’s funny, the classes that catch my eye at TESFest are all under the category of “edge play.” I haven’t ever thought of myself as an edge player, but I think I’ve moved further in that direction as my submissive journey goes on.

I hope we go to TESFest as there’s a local group of people from FetLife meeting up, and it would be cool to put faces and names to the online personas.

In the meantime, I’ve been discovering more and more kink blogs while on FetLife. I’ve added a few to my feed reader and hope to add them to my links list when I get around to it. I may only update my new site, however, as I keep hoping to move over there and leave blogspot behind. Ok, this isn’t the grand unveiling I wanted it to be (the site still doesn’t have the banner I created for the top. I’m having problems with wordpress and I’m not tech savvy enough to solve them) but the new blog site will be at www.kinkylibrarian.net. Yup, I’ve finally got my own kinky librarian domain like I always wanted. I’ve been mirroring the entries I have here on that site, and I uploaded my old entries a little while back. You can read the blog at either site. Eventually, however, I will move over to that one exclusively. Anyone who links to me, please update your links. Thanks.