Yearly Archive for 2007

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Flogging and Fucking

Published on November 21, 2007 in bdsm and sex. 1 Comment

Davey’s away for a few days so I’m spending a little time at MasterDoc’s house. It’s nice to get extra time with him even if things have been, for the most part, mellow. (It’s also nice not to be home alone.) For Thanksgiving I’ll be doing the family thing. (Oh joy.)

Now even though things have been mellow the past day and a half, that doesn’t mean that things haven’t been interesting. Yesterday afternoon, he spent a while flogging me – on my inner thighs, my butt and even my upper back. My pain tolerance was reasonably good. He tried out some oxygen tubing and this evil-looking strap he has (not quite as horrible as I envisioned, but then he didn’t hit me that hard or long with it and it stung like the dickens anyway). The strap had been missing for a while because one of his other subs hid it on him. That definitely made me fear the strap. The oxygen tubing stung quite a bit as well. Despite all the flogging and a few swats of the other implements, I’m not terribly bruised today. Some bruising on my inner thighs and just a little one on my butt, and a slight one on one breast. I’m glad when my pain tolerance is up because then I can actually enjoy the beating. When it’s low things just plain hurt, but when it’s up I get into the rhythm of the swats and it’s actually somewhat relaxing. He used the little flogger he has, which is a fairly sting-y instrument. The large heavy flogger is more thuddy but he left that at another sub’s house.

I was blindfolded for most of this, and he surprised me with some hot wax on my inner thighs, chest, nipples, etc. Once he had me on my hands and knees he dribbled some hot wax on my back and butt as well. I think this was the first time he focused on my upper back at all. I’ve always been focused on my butt when it comes to impact play but I enjoyed the upper back as well. The wax stung, particularly on my inner thighs where it was already sensitive from being flogged.

After a couple more shots with the strap he gagged me (with my favorite, duct tape) and flogged me some more. (Being a good dom he didn’t want to gag me while playing with new implements.) He fucked me from behind and I moaned and moaned through the gag. (I love when he fucks me. Yes, I’m a dirty slut, and proud of it!) After fucking, he commanded me to suck his cock so I ripped off the gag and got to work. He fucked me again after that, and he let me come. I mainly came when he used his fingers after fucking me. Surprisingly, I didn’t squirt.

I got to spend the night as his place and I spent the day here. Mostly I’ve been amusing myself while he gets stuff done, but in the afternoon he decided to fuck me, but for a change, he told me that I was to fuck him rather aggressively. Now I’m pretty passive in the bedroom and it’s part of why I’m into the role of submissive. I love being told what to do and not having to think, just being used sexually. So it took a bit for me to be aggressive in turning him on as he laid back and relaxed. One thing I’m not passive with is blow jobs. I get into those. *grin* I had to hope that turning him on was enough to get me turned on because I wasn’t getting any foreplay. We fucked, with me on top, and I rode him as best I could. Next, he fucked me while on top and finally he fucked me from behind. I didn’t get to come, and afterward he said that was by design. Still, it felt so good to be fucked. I should be nice and relaxed when I have to deal with my family tomorrow.

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Gang Bang

Published on November 19, 2007 in gang bang, sex and sex parties. 0 Comments

So this weekend was the gang bang. I’m sure readers are waiting to hear the steamy details. But first I want to thank Davey for a lovely weekend – we went out to dinner at a pricey restaurant (where the food is fantastic), he organized the gang bang (with the kind assistance of MasterDoc) and then treated me to Sunday brunch (and filled my car with gas and paid for a car wash). I’m very lucky to have him. Oh and he got me a hitachi magic wand for my birthday. Whoo hoo! I want to thank MasterDoc for helping so much with organizing the gang bang, finding a place where we could have it (at the home of one of his girlfriends/subs) and getting things moving during the gang bang, and the orgasms, can’t forget the orgasms.

S. is the only girlfriend of MasterDoc’s that I hadn’t met and she kindly agreed to host the party at her place. I’m so glad to have met her now as I feel like I’ve met a kindred spirit. We had the best time talking for a long while after the guests had left. Davey could barely get a word in edgewise. One of the perks of being poly is meeting other people you click with, who you wouldn’t have met otherwise.

Davey and I arrived at the same time as Saajan. MasterDoc was already there. The group of us (including S.) talked and those who hadn’t met before got acquainted. MasterDoc took out my new magic wand and plugged it in, teasing me through my jeans. Eventually we all moved into the bedroom and I got naked. (Davey went and invited S. to come watch shortly after we got started in the bedroom. I’m glad she wasn’t left out, and goodness knows I don’t mind an audience.) MasterDoc had to keep reminding himself that he wasn’t in dom mode, but his dom-ness came in handy to get things moving. I hadn’t seen Saajan in a few months and it was good to spend naked time with him again. Between the magic wand and the three lovely penises I had plenty to keep me busy and I squirted a bit when I came.

N. showed up once everything had gotten started and he jumped in pretty quickly. (I really missed D.S.’s presence. I would have loved to have him there instead of N.) And so I had four guys taking turns fucking me, with the magic wand filling in in between. S. lent us her g-spot attachment for the magic wand and I was happy to test-drive it. (I want one for Christmas now.) The gang bang might have been a little bit better without the magic wand, however, as it provides so much stimulation that it’s a noticeable difference when you switch to real, live, non-vibrating penis.

All the fucking kinda blurs together and I couldn’t tell you who went when other than the fact that MasterDoc got everything started. I was on my knees, head down on the bed moaning. I was on my back, legs up in the air, a penis in each hand as someone else fucked me. It was a lot of fun and luckily everyone involved is comfortable with laughter during sex. There were a lot of jokes cracked but the down side to that was the way my vaginal muscles would push whoever out when I laughed.

Soon Saajan had to head to work, MasterDoc had a date with yet another girlfriend, and N. gave me a birthday present before bidding us farewell. As I said before, Davey and I ended up hanging out much longer with S., nibbling on the snacks we brought and just talking about anything and everything. It was a fun day, and yes indeed, I realize that I could take more than four guys at a time in the future. *grin*

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Triggers

Published on November 17, 2007 in assault and trauma. 0 Comments

While most days I’m a happy-go-lucky slut, there are still times when memories/feelings of the assault and the rape come up unexpectedly. It’s sometimes quite unexpected what will trigger these feelings. I’ve had feelings come up when seeing something named Jefferson (and there’s a hell of a lot of stuff in this country named after Thomas Jefferson), I’ve had feelings come up earlier this year fooling around with Davey and having a hard time reaching orgasm (and feeling like I’m an irreparably broken human being from the assault. I’ve ended up in tears over this a few times in the past couple of years.) This week, I had an instance when it felt like someone wasn’t listening to me, and it flooded back feelings of not being listened to when I was raped and when I was assaulted. Now, the reaction I had (panic, feeling unsafe) had very little, if anything, to do with the person who happened to be involved with the trigger. I trust the person involved with the trigger. Just as I trust Davey but still triggers have come up with him.

Unfortunately the person involved with this instance of triggering took things personally and was rather hurt that I seemed to not trust him. I instantly felt terrible for hurting his feelings and spent quite a bit of time crying that night. But the fact is, I can’t control these trigger reactions any more than a soldier coming home from war can control feeling panicked at loud noises. The people who happen to be around when I’m triggered don’t generally have anything at all to do with how I end up feeling. Little stupid things can make me feel triggered. I recognize this as simply post traumatic stress and figure I’ll have to deal with it off and on throughout my life. This is why rape and sexual assault are so damaging – they change a person forever. I can never go back to having the level of trust in humanity I had before those two events in my life. And this affects everyone in my life in some small way, whether they know it or not. It’s not fair. It’s not fair to me, it’s not fair to the wonderful men who are in my life who wouldn’t ever hurt me or ignore my lack of consent. But this shit is abundant in our society and it pisses me off. We have legions of damaged women (and sometimes even men) who must try to dodge triggers right and left and get through their lives with some semblance of normalcy.

Thankfully, I spend most of my time not feeling triggered. It happens less and less as time goes on, and I’m better at identifying what’s going on and dealing with it than I was when the post traumatic stress first came on. (Right after the assault I couldn’t be out alone at night without feeling like something terrible was going to happen to me. And I wasn’t in a situation where I was out alone at night when the assault happened. I just felt unsafe all over.) I’d love to think that some day triggers won’t happen to me, but then I’m not naïve enough to think that’s the case.

Oh well, right now I’m post-trigger and I’m determined to have a wonderful time at my birthday gang bang this afternoon. Despite what’s happened to me I’m still a free-spirited sexual babe and I’m not going to let anything stop me from that (for long). Viva pleasure!

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Randomness

Published on November 14, 2007 in blogs, dating and sex. 0 Comments

I’m gearing up for the gang bang on Saturday. Whoo hoo! My thigh and butt muscles (not to mention my coochie) are still sore from riding the sybian. I think in the future I shouldn’t ride it for quite so long! (I also really need to get in shape.)

The Irish guy keeps emailing and IMing me wanting to get together. Today I responded that I’m just too busy and I can’t sleep with anyone without my dom’s permission. He replied that he’d like to take me to lunch for my birthday. Argh! The down side to being a sex goddess is that sometimes people you wish wouldn’t come back for more keep coming back for more.

Lately I’ve been thinking that I should start a fem domme blog – not because I have any inclination towards it, but then I could get sub men to buy me things. I could post a wish list and get sent stuff by adoring sub men. Sounds like a good deal to me. As a sub there’s no point in me posting a wish list because people don’t clamor to buy anonymous subs things. Anyway, I like to write and having a fem domme blog would be a creative writing exercise. Hmmm… Nah, I don’t have the time for it and I’m not sure I could be convincing enough.

MasterDoc was a bit miffed at me for not giving him credit when I said that my life is like a porn movie in my last entry. And yes, I have to admit that most of my “porno moments” in recent months have been thanks to him. I do appreciate the fun he gets me into. *grin* And his life is even more like a porn movie than mine is. Although I have to give credit to Davey and D.S. for the hot threesome we had. Mmmmm. I’m a very lucky girl.

D.S. can’t make it to my gang bang. *pout* Poor boy had no choice but to cancel and he was very disappointed to do so. He’ll be missed. I haven’t seen him in about a month now. I broke down and invited N. to the gang bang as of yesterday to keep the numbers up. (I had said to myself early on that if two people couldn’t make it to the party I’d invite N. – and now two of the original invitees are not coming.) He jumped at the opportunity. I figured he would.

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Surprise

Published on November 12, 2007 in bdsm, sex and sybian. 0 Comments

Sunday afternoon I got pretty horny and considered calling MasterDoc for permission to masturbate. But then I decided to wait and just ravage Davey when he got home. (Davey had suggested sex the night before but I wasn’t feeling well, since I was feeling better and in the mood I figured it was time to give him what I hadn’t the night before.) We had dinner, and then I mentioned that I had been really horny that day and that I hadn’t sought permission to masturbate. Soon we were in the bedroom, me stripped down to my panties, him to his boxers. I got him to lay down on the bed and I straddled him. I rubbed myself up against his hard penis. I don’t know if I’ve said this on the blog before, but Davey has major submissive tendencies. One giant clue is that he loves being used sexually. He loves when I get on his cock and ride him, with only my pleasure in mind. I decided to do just that. I got my bullet vibe to add to the sensation and I rode his cock until I came. Then he fucked me harder and decided to change positions so that he could come. He got on top of me this time, and fucked me until we were both breathing heavy and moaning.

On Monday, I saw MasterDoc as usual and this time he had a surprise for me. He’s purchased a sybian. I have long wanted to know what riding one was like and now I know. Lucky me! He had a guest join us, a woman who’s a submissive who I’ve met before. (One of our other threesome women was supposed to meet us for the first time but she canceled.) He had both of us get naked and had me lay down on the mat on the floor and prepare myself to ride the sybian. I was horny already so it didn’t take me long to get myself wet by playing with my clit. He had the other woman go down on him while I played with myself. I enjoyed watching his face as he enjoyed getting head.

Next, he had the woman join him on the floor to pay attention to my top half (she’s not bi so she wasn’t particularly interested in playing with me). As MasterDoc sucked on my nipple, occasionally slapping my pussy, I got more aroused. To speed things along even more he went down on me (which felt really good. I’m wiggling in my seat right now thinking about it.) He had the other woman go down on him some more while he went down on me for a bit.

I tell you, my life is like a porn movie.

When I was sufficiently wet (I didn’t even need lube) I got to mount the sybian. We started off with the nubby attachment and I got myself comfortably situated on top. MasterDoc took the controls (of course) and he played with the speed of the vibration. I was soon moaning, slack-jawed, eager to come. As he’d play with the speed on the higher settings I’d beg to be allowed to come. He asked if I wanted to try out one of the penetrative attachments first before coming and I’d say yes, but then he’d turn up the speed and ask if I wanted to come and of course I said yes to that as well. At that point I’d say yes to just about anything that would allow me to come. I can’t remember if he had me come first with the nubby attachment or it we switched attachments first. I do remember being allowed to come and coming so incredibly hard. I could barely hold myself upright as I came. (My thigh muscles are fatigued today. I was surprised I was able to walk after riding the sybian. It’s a little workout. I find myself using leg muscles I don’t ordinarily use – kinda like when I use a strap on only more so.)

At some point we switched to the smallest penetrative attachment. As I got worked up all over again, MasterDoc got my crop and started spanking my ass. It stung quite a bit yesterday and I wasn’t as up to taking pain as I am some days, but then he’d turn the vibrations up and told me to come and I managed to orgasm hard while he stung my ass with the crop. It was an interesting combination of being in pain and ecstasy at the same time.

I got to get off the sybian at this point and I lay down on the ground, sweaty and exhausted. I caught my breath and joined MasterDoc who was cuddling with the other woman on the floor. She started licking his chest and he told me to do the same, so we both gently lapped at his chest with our tongues. He had me stroke his cock and she played with his balls. Next, he had me go down on him, while the other woman continued to gently lick his chest and nipple. He had me show her where to stroke him where hip meets thigh. And soon we were taking turns sucking his cock and licking that sweet spot alternately. Apparently she’s quite good at sucking cock, which just makes me want to try harder and do better.

We took a break and MasterDoc decided that perhaps he should beat the other woman as that was mainly what she was interesting in him doing to her. I took a break and had some water while sitting in an armchair watching. He took my crop and spanked her ass and thighs, and at a point where I’d be saying, “Ow!” rather loudly she was smiling and enjoying the pain. (Yet more proof that indeed, I’m not a pain slut.) He hit her pretty hard with the crop and she continued enjoying it immensely. I just kept thinking that I’m glad he wasn’t hitting me that hard. She could have taken it even harder, but MasterDoc isn’t a hardcore sadist. (Lucky for me! That’s one of the many reasons he’s such a good Dom for me.) It was getting dark, and he sent her home as she needed to drive home before it got dark.

I was pleased to get some time alone with MasterDoc and he opted to have me try out the larger penetrative attachment on the sybian. I used some lube this time and MasterDoc sat directly in front of me on the stool that comes with the sybian. He played with the controls and got me really worked up. We had gotten the duct tape out to fix one of the attachments that had started to tear already and the duct tape came in handy to gag me. I love being gagged with a strip of duct tape across my mouth. He kept getting me to the brink of orgasm and I was helpless to beg to be allowed to come. I wanted to come so badly! I leaned up close against his chest, breathing in the smell of him. He put his arms around me and held me close. I whimpered and moaned through the gag. Finally, after much teasing he told me to come and I came fantastically hard, leaning against him, virtually screaming through the gag. It felt extra wonderful to be held close while I came.

Again, I was sweaty and exhausted and lay on the floor catching my breath. I was instructed to wash everything once I was ready to get up and after a few moments on the floor I got up to wash the attachments with soap and water and wipe down the machine. MasterDoc had me draw him a bath, and he came into the bathroom holding my bdsm checklist that I had filled out for him before we first played. As he climbed into the bath he told me that he wanted me to go review the list, with an eye towards pleasing him, and update anything that may have changed now that I knew him better. A few things went up in desirability (or at least became less undesirable) and he seemed fairly pleased with the changes. I finished cleaning up the living room, got dressed and headed out, of course giving MasterDoc a hug and a kiss before going.

I was exhausted that night, but it was a good exhausted. Whenever I’d complain about how tired I was Davey would say, “Nope, the sympathy meter isn’t going up.” lol Or, “I was at work today. Nope, not going up.” (Although something else did go up, so he took care of that while I showered. I was too tired to be of much use to anyone. Also my labia (inner and outer) were still puffy and engorged with blood when I went to shower about two hours after I had gotten off the sybian. Things are a bit sensitive down there today.)

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FMF

Published on November 10, 2007 in bdsm, sex and threesome. 0 Comments

It’s been a busy week so I’m just now getting to write down my experiences on Tuesday night. I think I’ve mentioned that MasterDoc and I were looking for a woman to join us in a threesome, and we’ve been talking to a few women. On Tuesday we met the first of these women. M. was a brave girl and came to meet us at MasterDoc’s apartment. (I would insist on meeting someone in public first but she just went for it.) He picked her up at the subway and dropped her off at his place, heading off to search for parking. I let her in and greeted her. We sat talking, along with MasterDoc’s rommate, until he got in.

M. is 23, very cute and curvy in all the right places. I was expected to be aggressive with her, but I’m total crap at being aggressive, particularly with women. I find that because of things that have happened to me non-consensually I’m extremely fearful of doing anything that might upset a woman. I realize it’s not totally rational but it’s a very deep fear I have. I never want to be responsible for a woman feeling violated or even just pressured. I don’t worry so much about men. Also I’ve recently noticed that I have a tendency to be not just submissive, but rather passive with people who are new. I was quite passive sexually when I started seeing MasterDoc, and again this other night with M. It’s curious. I think I understand why I’m this way, but I don’t know how to overcome it. I’d much rather let someone else take the lead and get things moving. I think part of it is a fear of being rejected, part of it is from having been assaulted and raped, part of it is a sort of performance anxiety.

We had dinner and then talked, sitting close on the sofa in the living room. M. let her leg lay to the side and rest against mine. I tentatively put my hand on her thigh and occasionally stroked – hardly being aggressive like I was supposed to be. I hadn’t talked to her directly about bdsm but I gathered shortly before we arranged to meet her that she and MasterDoc had discussed it and that there was to be a bdsm element to the evening. I knew that he was going to focus on her, and I was fine with that. I felt a little touch of relief to be the one watching someone get her thighs roughly slapped instead of being the one in pain. I enjoyed watching, and got prompted to join in various times. I was enthusiastic when it came to sucking on her nipples (she has lovely full breasts) but hesitant when it came to doing anything new. She kissed softly in that way that women do and I really enjoyed kissing her.

Things gradually got started, a little demonstration of flogging my butt here, a shirt taken off there, nipples sucked, damp panties caressed. She kept closing her eyes so MasterDoc asked if she’d like the blindfold. She said yes and so I put it on her. MasterDoc decided to tie her down on the floor. I set up the mats and the restraints and got her secured. “You’re so gentle,” she remarked as I put a cuff on her wrist. I figured my gentleness might be a nice contrast to how rough she was going to be treated.

While I was setting everything up, MasterDoc put the TENS leads on her breasts. Unfortunately the battery was dying (and the leads have been used a few times) so M. mostly giggled as the electrical impulses tickled her (either that or she’s made of much stronger stuff than I am. lol) I think MasterDoc was a bit disappointed that the TENS unit wasn’t working up to capacity. He turned to hot candle wax, dripping it over her breasts, tummy, that really sensitive spot where hip meets thigh. She pulled at the restraints as the hot wax stung. He slapped her thighs as well and they turned bright red like mine do. He instructed me to get the hitatchi magic wand and he set to work using it on her clit. I stroked her top half and played with her nipples while he teased her clit with the wand. He had to nudge me to kiss and nibble on her neck. (Duh, why didn’t I think of that?) He asked me to take the wand as he slid his agile fingers inside her. I struggled to hold the wand in place on her clit as he fingered her well. She moaned and writhed, really pulling at the restraints. She had told MasterDoc at one point that she’s never had an orgasm, so of course we were both hoping that maybe she’d have her first that night. While she sounded like she was having a really good time, MasterDoc says that he doesn’t think she came. Pity.

He gave her a break after this and I released her from the restraints. I stroked and cuddled her a bit and got water for everyone. Next MasterDoc had me lie on the mat and instructed M. to finger me. I was already pretty wet and it was nice to be rewarded with some attention. She did well with her fingers, really getting me hot. I was so wet it was sloshing slightly and MasterDoc commented on this from his place on the sofa, stroking his cock. He asked if I wanted to get fucked and of course I replied, “Yes Sir.”

“Yes, Sir, what?”

“Yes, Sir, please I want you to fuck me.”

He asked M. if she thought I deserved to get fucked and she commented on how I was moving myself up and down on her finger and that I clearly wanted it bad. MasterDoc made me beg for a bit, which I gladly did, hoping he’d decide to fuck me. He decided to pay me some attention and told me to get on my knees with my ass in the air. He took me from behind and M. stroked my back and shoulders while he did. He fucked me really hard and I loved every second of it. One thing that was really hot was while he was fucking me, he got her bent over me and I could hear him slapping her ass. He let me come and I was moaning, grunting, screaming as I came.

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Bruises

Published on November 5, 2007 in bdsm, dom, sex and spanking. 0 Comments

I’m not ranting so much now although I bemoaned the stress of being a slutty woman in a world that’s anti-slutty women to D.S. today. It gets wearing sometimes. Most of the time I’m perfectly happy being a wild pervert, getting off on all sorts of interesting things, but every now and then being viewed as a skanky ho gets to me. It’s not a fair assessment, and I know this, but getting a negative reaction often enough is wearing. Thankfully I have D.S., Davey and MasterDoc (among others) who view my slutty-ness as a positive and even empowered thing. (MasterDoc once said to me, “What’s the definition of a slut? A woman who has as much sex as you’d like to have.” Hee hee.)

I saw MasterDoc today and…. got to clean his bedroom. lol I knew that someday he’d make good on his threat to have me over just to clean and today he did. Thankfully, however, he was tempted by my sitting around in my underwear (his apartment is so hot and I was sweaty after cleaning) so cleaning wasn’t the only thing we ended up doing.

So yes, I did my submissive duty by taking out the garbage today and cleaning up his bedroom but then I was thankfully rewarded with a good over the knee spanking followed by harsh slaps to my delicate inner thighs. My pain tolerance wasn’t too bad when I was getting smacked on my ass and back of my thighs, but once he had me turn around so that my front was exposed to his slapping hands it became much harder to keep my composure or to keep my legs apart. He’d take a break from the hitting to finger my pussy for a bit, finding me sopping wet. At one point he asked if he needed to gag me as I was crying out in pain. I said, “Yes, Sir.” but he decided he’d rather hear me cry out. I’ve got some lovely bruises on my inner thighs now. D.S. suggested taking pictures of them to post here but I’m too tired tonight.

Of course MasterDoc also had me suck his cock quite a bit. Yummy. I wasn’t given an orgasm, he wants me primed and ready for the threesome we have planned for tomorrow night….

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I’m chatting with an old friend (ok, a guy I’ve fooled around with) and he’s just asked me what my favorite thing to do sexually is. And I answered honestly – have orgasms. lol He met me years ago when I was experimenting with being dominant and he’s defintely a sub. Pity he’s married and settled down now and not getting to explore his kinky side. (He reads this blog now and then to live vicariously through me. Obviously since the time I met him I’ve decided I’m much more sub than dom, which I knew to begin with but I had to experiment a little.) We just had a nice chat about the joys of hot wax. Yes, yet another person who appreciates me for who I am.

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Being a Sub, Part III

Published on November 2, 2007 in bdsm, dreams, sex and submissive. 0 Comments

It’s funny that in the same few days I was questioning my ability to really be submissive, I got totally turned on by that link I found over at Bitchy Jones’ Diary. The idea of being trained properly got me really hot. And while there’s a part of me that is very independent, I really like the idea of being a properly trained slut. I sometimes get a little sad that I can’t totally and utterly submit sexually to MasterDoc (because if I were to do so I’d end up messing up my relationship with Davey, and I certainly don’t want to do that). But I do what I can to keep my submission from being half-assed. For instance, I have taken it seriously that I don’t masturbate without his permission. Davey has joked with me, “You could masturbate, I wouldn’t tell on you.” but doing that would really feel fucked up. I like being sub. Funny tidbit, yesterday morning I dreamt that I was starting to masturbate and in the dream I remembered that I wasn’t allowed to without MasterDoc’s permission, and so I stopped. (The dream then ended up with some sort of orgy in my parents’ front yard with MasterDoc spurring me on to be slutty and me worrying that my parents were going to come out of the house and find me in the middle of this orgy. Yeah, Freud would have a friggin’ field day with that. Still, the orgy part was hot. The main image I remember is a really hot woman with a hot, wet pussy.)

I sometimes wish that MasterDoc would be a little more strict with me. When we have an audience I mostly remember to address him properly but without an audience I get a little lax. I’d like to be properly trained so that I don’t forget. (On the other hand, one of the things I like about MasterDoc is that he’s not a 24/7 kind of dom and he doesn’t take himself too seriously.) I’d also like to work on taking more pain than I can currently take. I want to please him and be a sub, and not seem like just some casual playmate.

I guess there’s a part of me that realizes that many would consider me a kinky perverted freak at worst, and just a little silly for all my D/s playing at least. And that part of me is a little uncomfortable with how much I want to indulge in these fantasies. Last night I had another sexy dream and it was all about submitting and being fucked oh so slowly. Man, it was the best dream ever.

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Cybersex

Published on November 2, 2007 in cybersex and sex. 0 Comments

I had another hot conversation with D.S. yesterday…. That boy is really good at the sex talk. What starts out as an innocuous conversation ends up going like this:

nadia: *smooch*
nadia: *cuddle*
d.s.: -snuggles-
d.s.: cute!
d.s.: -kisses-
d.s.: -nibbles your neck-
nadia: ooh my neck is very sensitive
d.s.: -takes your neck with one hand and licks you-
nadia: *shivvers*
d.s.: -runs his fingernails gently along your neck and shoulder-
nadia: *moans slightly*
d.s.: -kisses you lightly on the lips-
d.s.: -pulls your lip gently between his teeth and licks your lip-
nadia: mmmm
d.s.: -kisses you deeply, slowly… our tongues just slightly touching….-
d.s.: -runs his fingertips down your back-
nadia: *presses in closer to d.s.*
d.s.: -slides his fingers up the side of your leg-
nadia: rowr!
d.s.: -caresses your thigh and pulls you closer-
d.s.: -presses himself against you, excited by your kiss-
d.s.: -starts caressing you between your legs, teasing little circles around your clit with his fingertips…-
nadia: mmmm
d.s.: -rubs a finger agsint you every so often, feeling how wonderfully wet you are-
d.s.: -slides a finger gently between your lips, sliding back up to touch your clit every so often-
nadia: *breathes heavy*
d.s.: -slides a finger inside you incredibly slowly, feeling you pull my finger in….-
nadia: *wiggles against your hand, pushing your finger in deeper*
d.s.: -slides another finger into you, getting his thumb nice and slick and rubbing it in little circles on your clit…-
d.s.: -starts to press against your g-spot a little at a time as you move against my hand-
nadia: i would be extremely wet by this time
d.s.: -slides another finger inside you and feels you tighten around them-
d.s.: -moves his head to your nipple and starts to flick at it with my tongue-
d.s.: -presses your g-spot a little harder-
d.s.: -starts pulling at your nipple between my lips-
nadia: *pushes back against your hand*
d.s.: -my fingers sliding even deeper into you-
d.s.: -gets your nipple between my teeth and pulls gently while slowly licking-
d.s.: -decides to replace my thumb with my tongue… moves down between your legs and licks your clit forcefully but slowly-
d.s.: -moves my fingers slowly in and out of you, tongue darting quickly against you-
nadia: *moans and rubs against your face*
d.s.: -thinking about how good you feel inside, and pushing my face against you, feeling you grind on it-
d.s.: -pressing my mouth hard against your clit, licking, sucking and moaning-
d.s.: -grabs your leg and pushes his face harder against you-
d.s.: -can’t take any more of this and decides i want to be inside you-
nadia: yes
d.s.: -pulls my fingers out slowly and gets above you-
d.s.: -sits up and positions myself-
d.s.: -pulls your hips closer and slowly slides my cock against your clit-
d.s.: -slaps your clit with the head of my cock-
d.s.: -slides down to push into you-
d.s.: -grabs your legs and spreads them open-
d.s.: -slowly slides every inch into you-
nadia: mmm
d.s.: did i mention it was very exciting watching my cock slide into you?
nadia: no you hadn’t mentioned. but the idea of it sounds very exciting
d.s.: i loved it, watching you get wet all over me…
d.s.: watching your face as i fucked you…
d.s.: -slides out of you and slides into just a little, teasing you-
d.s.: -rubs your clit while sliding into you just a little bit, about an inch-
nadia: i’d be begging you to put it in all the way
d.s.: -waits till you cant take it anymore and slams my cock into as deep as can go-
d.s.: -grabs your legs and fucks you in deep, long strokes-
d.s.: -starts to rub at your clit again-
d.s.: -lowers my hips a little so that i can slide the head of my cock against your g-spot-
nadia: mmm
d.s.: -pulls out a little bit so that my cock head hits you in just the right spot-
d.s.: -rubs your clit faster-
d.s.: -tries to see if i can make you come around me-
d.s.: -pinches your nipple with his other hand, pulling at it-
d.s.: -slides deeper into you-

At that point it was time for me to leave work. *grin* You can see from that exchange that he’s obviously better at sex talk than I am.

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