Yearly Archive for 2007

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Party

Published on December 9, 2007 in sex parties. 0 Comments

I somehow managed to get past my depressed mood yesterday. By the time we got to the party I was in the mood to have fun. Right before we went out we found a show on the history of sex on the history channel and in a strange way that got me in the mood. It didn’t get me horny, but it got me into one of my pro-sex moods and exercising my right to be a randy slut seemed like a really good idea at the time. Also, you have to remember that since I was going with Davey, I was free to do what I wished, without consulting MasterDoc first. I was determined to enjoy my freedom for the evening. I wanted to fuck a bunch of people.

Of course, things don’t always work out quite how we want them to, but I had a good time regardless. The early part of the evening at these sorts of parties consists of people chit chatting, getting to know each other or saying hello to people they know from other parties. Davey and I both tend towards being shy and not overly social, so we had to really push ourselves to talk to people. Luckily, with my determination to get laid by strangers, I was able to go up to people we were interested in and just plain ol’ introduce myself and Davey. I was determined to have a good time and I wasn’t going to let shyness stop me.

It’s interesting how different I am going to a party with Davey or by myself than I am when going as MasterDoc’s sub. In sub mode, I’m really obedient, don’t take initiative and have to be told what to do. But when I’m not in sub mode at one of these parties I can take initiative and get things moving. I was starting to get fed up with not much going on, so I took Davey to a mattress right by the socializing area (separated by only a thin mesh curtain), took off most of my clothes except for my red lace thong and got Davey to start playing with me. I took care to look directly at anyone who peeked in as he went down on me and fingered me but unfortunately no one seemed interested in joining us. I went down on Davey for a while, telling him to be sure to make eye contact with any interested parties. Alas, still no takers. *sigh* I got fed up after a while, put my bra back on and walked around in my underwear for a bit.

For the most part, people didn’t seem interested in playing with us. I was starting to feel rather unattractive. There was one couple with this really cute guy who I found out was originally from Germany who I totally wanted to do, but the woman didn’t seem ultimately interested in us. Bleah. The guy looked interested whenever I smiled at him and said hello. That never panned out, sadly. It was getting late, we were getting a little frustrated and I was starting to get annoyed that we might just go home without having played with anyone. Oh no, I was not going to have that, especially not for the money we paid. Again, I took Davey into a room with a mattress, this one was not separated by any curtain but in full view of the doorway, and I sat us down on the mattress right in front of the door and started getting Davey to play with me some more. There was a couple who came in and the woman started going down on her man, and I think he was interested in me but they made no move to join us (and I was lukewarm about him so I didn’t take initiative). But then a guy who seemed nice from earlier came in, made an appreciative comment and I said, “Why don’t you join us?” He needed no more urging before he was between my legs going down on me. His lady came in a few minutes later and chided him for being a busy bee, always up to something. It was clear that they enjoy each other’s sluttiness. Davey kissed me a bit, and while the woman stood nearby I leaned in to whisper in his ear, “Get her involved.” It was clear she would be happy to join us. Soon the four of us are fooling around on the bed. The guy was good at making conversation while also getting me really hot. His lady begged him to fuck her, so he did so while she went down on Davey, but he managed to lean over and finger me at the same time. I came and squirted, which I think only encouraged him more. Soon we broke of into twos, Davey having fun with the lady, and me and the guy fucking. He was a really good lay and I came a bunch of times.

All was hot and lovely until there was suddenly a scream from the next room. Everything ground to a halt and some of the people in the room went to see what was going on. Turns out someone was trying to do something he had no permission to do and the lady out there was not pleased. Someone came back in, we got the scoop that the asshole in question was now being made to leave and I relaxed. I got into playing with the woman’s clit while her man fingered her and the three of us made out a bit. I was up for more playing, but when I looked over at Davey I could tell something was wrong. He had been freaked out by the incident in the other room and wanted to go home. Of course, if one person is upset and wants to go home the thing to do is go home. I didn’t want Davey to feel uncomfortable. He’s an extremely empathetic person so something bad happening to someone can really bother him. You’d have thought the incident would upset me but I felt like it happened in the best way a bad situation like that could happen, the woman was really vocal about her wishes, everyone went running to help and the guy who didn’t understand “no” was ejected.

Of course, after leaving and getting away from the situation, Davey was feeling really horny and I was still up for fucking. When we got home I got a quick snack (hey, all that activity got me hungry) and then we went off to the bedroom. I got him to immediately take me from behind and when we got tired of that position he got on top. I came some more and then we cuddled and went to sleep.

Digression

Published on December 8, 2007 in politics. 1 Comment

Alas this has been a quiet week, and I have no new adventures to relate to you. That should change tonight as I’m going to a swing party with Davey. I’ve been nursing a mild depression all week and today that leaves me feeling un-horny and un-enthusiastic about tonight and all the fucking that should go on. Bleah. I wish I felt better.

On another note, does this scare the shit out of you like it does me? If something like this passes, are all voices of dissent going to be silenced in this country? I guess they figure since they’re putting “violence” into it they can get around the first amendment which reads: “Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.” But can’t you just see them jailing protesters who peacefully assemble under this idea that they’re “homegrown terrorists?” As it is people who dissent have been labeled traitors and “unpatriotic,” when in fact dissenting when your country is doing something wrong denotes, to me, an intense love of your country. If I didn’t love being American and all the freedoms that go along with that, I wouldn’t be as dismayed at the direction this country is heading in. Our rights are being slowly taken away, and that scares the shit out of me. Do I need to worry that some day I may be jailed for even posting this on the internet? It’s high time we got back to the Constitution and the Bill of Rights and started running this country the way the founding fathers wanted it to be run.

Fantastic Fucking

Published on December 1, 2007 in bdsm, sex, swinging and sybian. 8 Comments

I’ve fallen a little behind in my blogging. I got together with MasterDoc last night (while Davey went off to spend the night with a woman who MasterDoc also dates, we live such a funny life don’t we?) and still haven’t blogged about the time I spent with him the other day. I’ve been having a fun time but in between I’ve been busy with things like doing laundry and going to work, so I haven’t gotten around to blogging. I know it sometimes must seem like all I do is have kinky sex, but I get up to normal things too.

But of course, the point of this blog is to chronicle the kinky sex I have, not the day to day things that everyone does. I got a little extra time with MasterDoc midweek and had a really good time getting worked up with the magic wand, followed by him fucking me for a little while, and then he put me on the sybian. We tried out the largest attachment for the first time, but unfortunately it’s a little too big for me (ouch, left me a little sore). After moving back to the medium sized attachment MasterDoc played with the controls, getting me right on the edge of coming. I mean, right on the edge. I was so on the edge that when he suddenly turned the vibration down a bit to keep me from coming I squirted a little without actually coming, something that’s never happened to me before. Thankfully, he let me come and, as always on the sybian, I came, shuddering and screaming. He then had me get on top of him and ride him for a while, which felt fantastic. (Sadly, strongly vibrating toys like the sybian and the magic wand tend to numb things a little so that regular sex isn’t quite as stimulating as it usually is, so I wasn’t able to come again from the sex. But no matter, it felt really good. I seem to be enjoying non-orgasmic sex more than I used to. I used to be so goal oriented but I really enjoy being fucked and how that feels even if I don’t come. Of course, I’d still rather come.)

Unfortunately this week has been busy in the evenings so I haven’t gotten to have Davey since last weekend. (!) I plan to change that tonight, especially since MasterDoc fucked me a bunch of times last night and this afternoon and didn’t let me come. Not once. Davey is going to get raped when he gets home. *grin*

Last night MasterDoc and I went to the swing club again, me in a collar reminding me of my submissive status. I actually had a little alcohol for once – I rarely drink in swing situations – but I got a nice little alcohol buzz going. Not much was going on when we first got there, but after we got settled MasterDoc spanked me in front of an audience over on the spanking bench. We drew quite a crowd. He had me lay on my back on the bench and he slapped at my thighs and pussy. While I close my eyes fairly often during sex, I do like knowing that there’s a crowd around me. He had this guy get in to play with my breasts while he did other things to me. I quite liked all the compliments that passed between them about my breasts. I may be chubby and average but I have nice tits. *grin* After teasing and spanking me in front of the crowd he had me suck his cock in front of the audience. Then we took a little break. As usual, I was the first person naked.

We wandered the club, me in just panties and a collar and leash (oh and my rather unsexy socks and shoes. lol) There was more action going on and we watched a few things. When MasterDoc was ready to play again we sought out the most visible play space to be in. Again, a crowd assembled and I played with my bullet vibe in front of an audience. At a couple of points last night, guys were too aggressive and they groped me without asking, but MasterDoc immediately nips that in the bud and sends the guys away. The guys who get to play with us are the ones who are polite and stand by until they’re invited in. (Something to remember if you ever go to a swing party.) At one point, a cute woman made her way in and started playing with my breasts while MasterDoc had clothespins on my nipples. Stupid me, I ended up laying there, enjoying being touched but never thinking to reach out and touch her. Soon her man came around and got her and that was the end of that. My ineptitude with that situation is what resulted in my being denied orgasm. MasterDoc fucked me in front of the crowd, both from behind and on top. I loved having an appreciative crowd around. I also loved being able to make as much noise as I wanted. (I’m notoriously noisy.) It felt fantastic to be fucked, and I think it was even more so because of the audience.

We headed home in the wee hours of the morning, while there were still men at the club keen to play with us. I slept very well last night.

This morning we had breakfast, and then MasterDoc decided what the day’s activities would be – he was going to fuck me up the ass. Now, I’ve only ever been fucked anally by two guys. MasterDoc’s cock is larger than average. Needless to say, I was very nervous. I was allowed to play with my bullet vibe on my clit, and despite the nervousness I got extremely wet and turned on. It took a little while to figure out what position was the best, but ultimately he got his cock in me while I lay on my side. And it was surprisingly easy to take his cock up my ass. (MasterDoc is good about lube and patience.) And after getting over the initial shock of it actually being able to go in it felt good. (The vibe on my clit helped.) We did that in a couple of positions, and then finally MasterDoc decided to fuck my cunt. It felt sooo good and I wanted to come so badly. He finally gave me permission to come – and I didn’t! *sigh* I was on the edge, then pulled back, and then when he said to come I wasn’t at the point where I could come and I missed the window of opportunity. *grumble* I was left feeling really frustrated. I got a few slaps on the ass for grumbling about it. We enjoyed some cuddle time, then MasterDoc decided he needed to get a few things done and I opted to go home. So here I am, desperately waiting for Davey to come home so I can ravage him.

Yuk

Published on November 27, 2007 in Uncategorized. 0 Comments

So I’ve talked with MasterDoc and he says that complaining here is very different than complaining in person while in submissive mode, and he promises that I can blog about the following without being penalized. Whew.

I’ve found something dirty/nasty/kinky that I don’t enjoy. (I know, I’m surprised too.) I don’t enjoy licking ass. The other day was just preliminary for having me lick MasterDoc’s asshole and yesterday he set me up thus: TENS leads on one nipple, me on the sybian on the floor. If I hesitated or did a poor job, then the TENS would get turned up. If I did a good job, then the sybian would get turned up. He got on the bed in front of me and placed his ass right in front of my face. While there wasn’t a strong taste or smell to it, and he had cleaned well right beforehand, I still didn’t like licking ass. In fact, it’s a bona fide turn off for me – I could barely notice the sybian while I was doing it. He made me really get in there and lick it properly for a few minutes, pulling his cheeks apart to get in as close as possible. I did my best job because I didn’t want the pain of the TENS unit on my nipple. But as I said, the result for me was mostly being turned off. My reaction can best be summed up by the familiar “Mr. Yuk” face used for poison control. My mouth felt dirty for hours afterward.

I realize that there are people who enjoy licking ass. And I realize that it must feel very good (I wouldn’t know). But I don’t enjoy doing it. And I doubt that’s going to change no matter how many times he makes me do it. Lucky me.

Luckily, because I was a good girl, afterward he gave me a ride on the sybian and let me come, hard. But then he had me lick ass some more, this time making a seal with my mouth and sucking while licking. And the Mr. Yuk face applies again. I think the problem is mostly psychological, but I just can’t get my head around licking someone’s asshole being a good, enjoyable thing. I mean, shit comes out that hole. Being a sub sometimes includes degradation and humiliation and this experience definitely fits the bill. File this under things I don’t enjoy about being a sub.

No Blog Entry

Published on November 26, 2007 in Uncategorized. 0 Comments

I had a blog entry all written out for today, but then I decided not to post it. You see, if I complain about something then MasterDoc will only make me do it more. So I’m not going to complain. It’s a pity though because I even had a cute graphic to go with it. MasterDoc has even expressed concern that I don’t feel comfortable being critical on this blog, but of course I don’t, because if I complain he’ll only make me do something I don’t like even more. So why would I complain about it here?

Random Sunday Evening Thoughts

Published on November 25, 2007 in fisting and sex. 0 Comments

Davey’s home. Hooray! Although I had to tear him away from watching episode after episode of Rome on dvd. (He borrowed it from the library.) I had been feeling crampy and cranky earlier so he figured we wouldn’t be having sex, but I got bored and decided that sex was just the thing to alleviate my boredom. I told him that he could either keep watching the show while I went and took a shower, or he could come have sex with me and come on me before my shower. Needless to say, he chose the latter. Being direct pays off.

While we were fooling around I asked him to put a third finger in me and he said, “I know you can take it. You can take a whole fist.” Huh? I’ve never been fisted. “Yes you have, by K. at that roof top sex party.” OMG. I’ve been fisted and I didn’t know it. Granted, K. is a woman and her hands are relatively small, and I do remember coming very hard and very loud as she fingered me that night. Or at least, I thought she was fingering me. But Davey saw the whole thing and he says her entire hand was inside me. Go fig. I’ve been fisted and I didn’t even know it! I only wish I had known.

Even after Davey came all over me I was still feeling horny so I had him get my favorite g-spot hitting silicone dildo and my bullet vibe. As much as I like the magic wand, the bullet vibe is still a favorite. Sometimes the wand is just too intense. So between Davey fucking me with the dildo and me using the vibe on my clit I came so hard. I mean, I was just in another world. And I floated from one orgasm to the next for a couple of minutes. I’m a happy girl.

Hot!

Published on November 24, 2007 in porn. 0 Comments

A friend who reads this blog sent me this link to a short video clip. It’s very short, but very hot and includes the sybian.

Bad Girls

Published on November 23, 2007 in bdsm and fantasy. 0 Comments

I miss Davey. Home seems so lonely without him here. I spent much of the day watching a Bad Girls marathon. I’m so hooked on that show. It’s a British women in prison drama so it has a few of my favorite things: Brits, cute women and women kissing.

There’s a lot of kinky possibilities in the prison scenario. Lots of D/s possibilities. I like the image of being handcuffed, forced to strip and then roughly and thoroughly searched. My fantasy doesn’t go much beyond that, but there’s the whole being dominated, humiliated and handled rough packed into one fantasy.

Firsts

Published on November 23, 2007 in analingus, masturbation and sex. 1 Comment

Today was the first day I called up MasterDoc to ask permission to masturbate. I felt kinda funny bothering him but I was really horny and as I’m spending the day alone I couldn’t think about anything else. He text messaged back that I had permission. Yay! I immediately went to the bedroom, got out my magic wand and popped some porn in the dvd player. Soon I was coming and even squirting a little. I felt much better after that although I still felt horny.

The other day I forgot to mention something I did for the first time – licked ass. MasterDoc had been threatening to have me do it for a long time, and he finally had me do it. It wasn’t too bad to lick around the general area, as I did out of an aversion to licking the hole directly, but he specifically ordered me to get my tongue in there. It wasn’t as unpleasant as I thought it would be, but it’s not something that turns me on at all. Of course, MasterDoc doesn’t care if it turns me on or not, as that’s not the point. I can imagine that it feels good but no one’s ever done that to me. (Yes, there’s actually something I’ve never experienced.) I’ll have to imagine it feeling good when I’m asked to be a submissive slut and do it.

Chosen Family

Published on November 23, 2007 in family. 0 Comments

After a boring Thanksgiving, spent feeling like I couldn’t be myself, I had a chat online with D.S. We discussed the fact that spending time with our “chosen family” is so different and so preferable to spending time with our biological families. We lamented how we can’t be open about our various partners and so part of our lives, an important part of our lives, remains totally hidden from those who are supposed to love us as we are, our family. Spending time with my mother and brother just reminds me of the fact that they’re terribly dysfunctional and that, lamentably, I will probably never have a warm, close, loving relationship with them. Instead we get together over holidays out of a sense of obligation. Things with my dad are better, but still, I could see the unease in his eyes when I dropped the phrase “Davey and I have an open relationship” into the conversation. I think rather than images of loving, polyamorous relationships he had an image of swingers. And yes, that’s not a totally inaccurate picture of my life (and what dad wants to hear about that?) but MasterDoc and D.S. are wonderful people and very much a part of my life – more a part of my life than my immediate family is these days. They’re not casual fucks, they’re close friends and important to me.

Why should I have to pretend that Davey is the only important person in my life? I can see that Christmas will be more of the same, putting on a show for family, wishing I was instead spending time with those who I really want to spend time with. I now understand why the holidays are such a stressful time for most people.