Monthly Archive for September, 2007

I arrived at the front door to MasterDoc’s building and there was a man there buzzing one of the apartments. I thought to myself that the buzzer was in the vicinity of MasterDoc’s and wondered if this man was going to his apartment too. I got buzzed in and the man followed and we waited for the elevator. Some idle chit chat about the slowness of the elevator was exchanged but I shyly didn’t look at the man while talking. Eventually I gave up on the elevator and started up the stairs, the man followed. As I get to the door the man says, “Ah so we’re going to the same place.” I said that I figured that we might be. And soon the door was answered and we both go in.

There on the sofa is another man – so there was going to be two men today. I still had no idea if they were going to fuck me or just watch MasterDoc dom me. I got a little nervous but I wasn’t shaking like I was on Thursday night. I think in very little time I’ll stop being so nervous. It’s a strange mixture of excitement and nerves anyway. Once I’m stripped naked and being dommed I feel much less nervous than I do at the outset. (Still a little nervous, for some unknown reason especially when I’m left to play with myself in full view of someone. This time MasterDoc let me have a toy and that helped. I don’t masturbate with my hands so I don’t really get that hot from playing with myself with just my hands. I guess I discovered vibrators too early. *grin* I found my parents’ vibrator as a snooping pre-teen and I’d wash it off carefully, put some batteries in and masturbate while everyone was out of the house. Then I’d carefully wash it again and put it back in my mother’s dresser drawer.)

I went to the kitchen to get a drink and MasterDoc’s lovely roommate (a former sub of his) pointed out that there’s soda when it turned out the water pitcher was nearly empty. She went to fill the pitcher for me and I was grateful as I was nervous and eager to see what was going to happen to me that morning.

I went into the living room and MasterDoc introduced me to the two men: D., an African-American man around my age, and J. a caucasian man probably in his 50′s. I figure that odds are they’re there to watch rather than fuck, but this gets confirmed early on. (Phew!) MasterDoc mentions that I’m nervous and D. asks ‘why, hasn’t she ever done a show before?’ And MasterDoc was forced to admit that yes, I have, but since I’m not told ahead of time what’s going to go on for all I know they’re there to gang fuck me up the ass, and that D. just gave away the situation. I was relieved. lol I know I can handle being put on display. MasterDoc paddled my ass a bit and then had me take my pants off – revealing sheer mesh panties I hadn’t worn for him before. He and the other men appreciated them and so they got left on for a little while. More spanking and paddling and a bit of the riding crop and my ass gets red (or so I’m told and can feel).

By now my tits are hanging out of my shirt and bra and the panties have come off. I’m told to lay on my back and MasterDoc hands me the blindfold. I cover my eyes and my thighs get slapped. Soon I have hot wax dripped on me, stinging and burning. My nipples are encased in wax, MasterDoc has me stick my tongue out so he can dribble wax on my face (which apparently looks like cum on my face), he drips it on that very sensitive inner thigh area. I find that even after he’s stopped, the wax on my thighs still feels like it’s burning (I think the skin got sensitive and irritated). I twitch slightly from the still burning sensation. He asks me if I can guess what’s coming next, and I figure it’s probably the TENS unit and I figure right. One nipple gets wired up and it hurts like the dickens as MasterDoc demonstrates the pain producing capacity of the unit. He attaches the other set to my pussy and sometimes turns them both up at once, sometimes alternates. Even though it really hurts (perhaps because it really hurts?) I like the TENS unit. I may be more into pain than I like to admit. I think it depends on the type of pain. I find that I have a harder time with stinging sensations than something thuddy or the electrical stimulation. While I like stinging too I can’t seem to take as much. (And the stinging slaps to my thighs seems to be what bruises me the easiest.)

The blindfold comes off and I’m told to turn myself so my cunt is facing the two guests and play with myself. I feel shy when it gets to this point, but since MasterDoc let me have a toy to play with I do get aroused and get myself to the point of nearly coming. He leaves the room for a second and I’m told to look the two men in the eye while I play with myself, to show them how much I want to cum. Again, with the shyness, but I battle with myself to follow my orders. MasterDoc comes back and I continue to play with myself. I’m told to let him know when I’m about to cum and before long I’m asking permission to come. The three men decide that I should wait a bit longer so I do my best to keep myself on the edge. Finally MasterDoc tells me I can come and after a couple of seconds I do (sometimes it’s hard to come on command. I work so hard at not coming that switching gears can be difficult). MasterDoc fingers me a bit and I come harder, making an awful racket as I’m prone to do. *grin*

Time is running out (both our visitors have to go by a certain time) so MasterDoc tries to figure out what to do in the remaining minutes. He has me suck his cock, all the while looking at both gentlemen on the couch. I feel shy when told to look at the men, but of course I do as I’m told. MasterDoc decides to fuck me, and so I’m on my knees, head down, on the floor with MasterDoc fucking me while the men get ready to leave. Lovely roommate shows the men to the door as I moan and enjoy the fucking I’m getting.

We take a break and order lunch. Lovely roommate (yes, she needs a better pseudonym for this blog – I’m open to suggestions!) goes to pick up lunch while I get a quick shower in with MasterDoc. The three of us hang out and eat and talk. It’s not quite time for me to go (or to clean up – it’s my job now to make sure I clean everything up before I leave as MasterDoc has forgotten a few times) so MasterDoc tosses me the vibrator and tells me to get myself ready to be fucked in a very short period of time. Uh, yeah, no pressure. lol I do get turned on but it still hurts when he starts to fuck me (I think the instead cup inside me was part of the issue, it gets shoved around in there and I think it gets uncomfortable) but while it hurts it also feels good so I just focus on the good feelings. (And the more he does it the better it feels and the less it hurts.) I look deep into his eyes as he fucks me and I just love being his dirty little slut. I moan and yearn to come. After making me wait a while he lets me come and I’m a very happy girl. (Meanwhile Lovely Roommate stays in the room on her computer while we fuck, but she leaves before we get to the cuddling. Lovely Roommate is being faithful to her long distance boyfriend, so alas she’s not getting any sex just now.)

We cuddle a little bit and I could just stay there for another hour and cuddle. But I have to get moving and I clean the living room up and get dressed. As I kiss MasterDoc goodbye he hands me some money from this morning’s show. Yippee! And I head out with Lovely Roommate to drive her to school on my way to work.

I’m exhausted by this time, but it’s a good tired. I got a cup of coffee once I got into work to help perk me up. *grin*

Yesterday, two parts of my sex life came together. V., who you will remember I went to bed with about a week ago, came and watched MasterDoc dom me. As I’ve mentioned she’s interested in kinky stuff, and as MasterDoc and I both like an audience he suggested I invite her some time. I give V. credit for being brave because I would have been every bit as nervous as she was yesterday. We met MasterDoc in a park for some breakfast so that they could meet and V. could see if she was comfortable going to MasterDoc’s apartment. (Can’t blame her, after all she’d never met him and she hasn’t known me long enough to know if she can trust my judgment.) She seemed to be okay with the situation so after some nice chat and food we went to his place.

V. still seemed a bit nervous and she found a place to sit on the floor where she remained fairly glued for much of the day. I don’t remember what order things happened in, but MasterDoc demonstrated a wide variety of activities, from spanking and flogging, to the TENS unit and hot wax. Of course I was the first person naked, as I usually am. I’m pretty comfortable being the naked one. Comes in handy when you’re the sub.

At first I was really turned on by having an audience and from having MasterDoc dom me. But since V. seemed vaguely uncomfortable I didn’t get as worked up about it as I thought I’d be. But on the up side, I mostly enjoyed the pain this time around. My pain tolerance varies from day to day and yesterday it was enjoyable. (Next time it could be pure misery.) Surprisingly I only have one spot of bruising, on my inner thigh, because MasterDoc hit me pretty often with his hand, the floggers, a riding crop, a paddle, etc. It’s not very bad and might even be gone by the time I see him again later this week. My nipples ended up completely covered in wax and for the first time he drizzled hot wax on my outstretched tongue (much less harrowing than you would think, apparently the moisture helps make it less hot). He tried to encourage V. to experiment a little but she was more comfortable observing. He instructed her on the various implements, including safety precautions. Over the course of the day V. confirmed that yes, she’s definitely on the dominant side of things.

We took a break in the afternoon to snack on whatever was in the house. V. remained glued to her spot on the floor. *grin* When she went off to use the bathroom MasterDoc and I got a little cuddling in. (After all, cuddling is a favorite and important part but it’s terribly boring for someone to watch.) It turned out we had a little more time than we thought we were going to have so the doming continued and I lucked out as MasterDoc decided to fuck me. (Oh and he told me that while I was under the impression that his entering me when I’m not quite warmed up and it’s a bit painful was merely incidental, apparently it is deliberate. I have to admit it’s not my favorite thing on the menu as sometimes it leaves me sore.) He finally got V. to participate by playing with my breasts while he fucked me. She also stroked my neck which was absolutely divine. I had a lovely orgasm although unfortunately yet again my muscles contracted hard while MasterDoc was partly pulled out and he ended up with a bent penis when he tried to thrust back. Ow. Not a good accident. But he’s okay.

Apparently MasterDoc has something planned for me one evening later this week. I have little to no idea what, but I’m sure it will be interesting.

After, V. and I spent a little time together, getting something to eat and discussing sex and kink. She met Davey and then caught a train home. Overall it was a tiring day. lol Quite enjoyable, but I was tired and I’m still a little tired today.

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Good news, today was my last therapy session. My therapist and I agree that I’m at a good place now and I’ve worked on everything I wanted to work on so my therapy has been discontinued. Makes me a little nervous to go forward, but of course I felt differently right before therapy today, thinking that I really didn’t want to go because I didn’t have anything to talk about. Whoo hoo! Two years of therapy has come to an end. Here’s to a healthy, strong future.