N. and I had a good talk and my feelings of being left out were a combination of his life getting hectic and the fact that while he’s fond of me, his feelings just don’t match mine. And having unrequited feelings just sucks. It creates this acute ache inside me. I just keep wishing he felt the same but it’s not something you can make happen. Either it does or it doesn’t. I don’t know why things have turned out the way they have, after all, he’s very fond of me, but he just doesn’t have the romantic feelings for me that I have for him.
I’m sad. I’m disappointed. I really enjoy spending time with him but I question if I should take a break to work on getting over this before resuming a friendship with him. But then of course the idea of not seeing him makes me ache.
Wouldn’t it be nice if all our feelings of adoration were returned?
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